vanilla flower

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etsyfindoftheday | 3 days til valentine’s day! | 2.11.17

red clay + rose vegan soap by mixturaorganic

these kind, vegan, heart-shaped soaps combine gentle australian red reef clay with rose for a floral look and vanilla-geranium scent. perfect for valentine’s day, amirite?

tag urself: the playlist concepts based on things i’ve felt in the last few days edition

1) it’s that time of the day where the sunlight drowns the room with soft and muted orange-pink hues. the wind flows through the curtains carrying the smell of vanilla candles and lavender flowers to you. you’re curled up on top of silk bedsheets, overwhelmed by the feelings of longing for a lover.

2) you’re in a convenience store where the buzzing fluorescent lights throw you into a haze. you’ve lost track of time - is it 3AM or 12AM?? who knows (not you). you feel like you’ve entered another world where nothing really exists as you wander the aisles looking for what you initially came in to buy.

3) it’s late at night and you’re in the car with your friends driving into the heart of the city, not really having a specific location in mind. the street lights reflect in your eyes and as the windows are rolled down, the weight of the world lifts off your shoulders. the wind whips through your hair and you feel alive.

4) you’re sitting on a swing in the playground at the edge of the beach. the sound of children laughing and waves reach your ears. there’s a basket filled with fresh peaches, strawberries, and your favorite book next to you. the sun shines brightly above you in a blue sky, decorated with puffy white clouds.


Lavender Cupcakes with Honey Frosting


  • ½ cup (1 stick) butter, softened
  • 1 cup sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 tsp. vanilla extract
  • about ½ tsp. red and ½ tsp. blue food coloring
  • 1 ½ cups all-purpose flour
  • ½ tsp. baking powder
  • ¼ tsp. salt
  • 2 ½ Tbsp. dried lavender buds
  • ⅔ cup cold milk


  • ½ cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, softened
  • 8 oz. cream cheese, softened
  • 4 cups powdered sugar
  • 2 tsp. vanilla extract
  • 2 Tbsp. honey, plus a little extra for drizzle

  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Line muffin tins with cupcake liners.
  2. In the bowl of an electric mixer, cream the softened butter and sugar together. Add the eggs one at a time, beating after each egg. Stir in the vanilla and food coloring.
  3. In a separate bowl, stir together the flour, baking powder, and salt. Chop the dried lavender buds into fine, small pieces. Stir into the flour mixture.
  4. Add the flour mixture to the butter mixture. Stir in the milk.
  5. Scoop batter evenly into lined muffin tins. Bake for 18-24 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of a cupcake comes out clean. Let cupcakes cool in the tins for about 5 minutes, then remove to a wire rack to cool completely.
  6. In the large bowl of an electric mixer, beat the butter and cream cheese together. Add the powdered sugar 1 cup at a time, mixing on low, until the frosting is smooth and creamy. Beat in the vanilla extract and honey.
  7. Scoop frosting into a piping bag fitted with a 1M tip. To create the flower, begin in the center of the cupcake’s surface, and slowly swirl in wider circles. (It might be helpful to practice on a piece of parchment paper first, then you can just add the frosting back to the bowl.) You can also simply spread the cream cheese frosting over the top of the cupcakes with a knife.
  8. Lightly drizzle a little honey on top of the frosting. Enjoy!

Raindrop Cake (Makes 2 cakes)


2/3 cup/160ml spring water 
1 pinch of vanilla sugar
~1/8 teaspoon agar powder (you may need to experiment a bit to attain desired texture)


1. Measure out the water in a microwaveable measuring cup and add the sugar.  Microwave for 30 seconds and stir until sugar is dissolved.
2. While stirring, sprinkle on the agar powder.  Microwave again for 30 seconds and stir for a minute.  Continue microwave and stirring as needed until the agar is all dissolved, although you’ll probably still see clear bits floating around in the water.
3. Carefully pour into your desired molds; pop any bubbles that may appear.  Transfer the molds to the refrigerator and allow to set for several hours or overnight.
4. Carefully unmold the cakes and serve immediately with your desired toppings.


Use clear juice or food color for colored drop cakes.Agar powder can be replaced with gelatin powder.Flavor extracts will give the raindrop a hint of color (like vanilla extract).Add ediple flowers inside the mold for decorated raindrop cakes.
Flower Fucking

🌹He knew Dan wanted to take it slow, and he was ok with that, Phil was older by nearly ten years and he didn’t want to push his boyfriend. He loved him a lot, kissing him softly and cuddling him whenever he could.
🌹Dan was sure he was ready, they had been dating for around six months and he loved Phil with all his heart, he was definitely ready. Now he just had to try and find a way to tell Phil he was ready, he wanted to tell Phil at the right moment, but he also wanted to prepare for it, some music or flowers or something.
🌹After a few days of thinking about it, Dan came up with a plan; he would start by kissing Phil, pushing his hands up his shirt before leading him to the bedroom. He planned to have candles and flowers in his room, he didn’t want to use music so he could hear Phil clearly.
🌹Dan had a day at home, alone, to prepare his room for it, putting lube in the draw and candles around the room. Finally, he placed the flowers, before examining his work. He had an extra part now, he decided to make Phil wait for a few minutes whilst he put on lingerie and spread himself out on the bed.
🌹After a tiring day at work, Phil was ready to cuddle with Dan on the couch, to relieve his stress and relax a bit. He was not expecting an eager Dan to be sitting on his lap and making out with him. But he was all for it, his baby was beautiful and Phil knew how much Dan was into this.
🌹They kissed for a while, limbs intertangled, Dan’s hands up Phil’s shirt, exploring the planes of his chest. It was just as Phil got his shirt off, when Dan breathed into his ear ‘Want to take this to the bedroom?’, seductively nibbling on Phil’s ear.
🌹'Mmm, only if you’re ready baby’ Phil whispered, very much hoping Dan was. ‘Come in in about five minutes’ Dan groaned, cock hardening slightly at the thought of what they were going to do. He got up, running to his room to light the candles and get changed.
🌹Phil counted out five minutes on the clock, but he was not prepared for the sight inside. Dan strewn out on the bed, wearing black lace panties and thigh highs, and when he turned Phil could see the panties were backless, exposing Dan’s pale ass to him. ‘Oh fuck baby’ He whimpered, taking in the sight.
🌹He looked around, seeing all the flowers and candles that were strewn around the room, setting the mood. Dan had clearly put a lot of effort into this, Jesus Christ Dan wanted this, wanted him. He could feel his cock swelling in his jeans, there was probably a visible tent but he couldn’t bring himself to care in that moment.
🌹'Come here’ Dan whispered, hand snaking down his body to emphasis the curve of his waist to the elder. Phil complied, walking over to Dan, before stripping down to his boxers. Carefully, he clambered on the bed, facing Dan before leaning in and continuing what they started.
🌹Dan put his arms around Phil, pulling him close and grinding lightly on him, lightly but noticeably. Phil deepened the kiss, hands sliding down the back of Dan’s panties, gripping his arse tightly. ‘Phil- ah-Phiill’ Dan whimpered, overcome by desperation and lust for the man feeling him up.
🌹Phil’s hands played with Dan’s nipples, brushing them lightly at first before pinching them harder. His mouth working on his neck to colour it with reds and pinks. Dan whined against Phil, and bucked up, moaning as he ground down into Phil for some friction.
🌹 Phil reached for the lube in the bedside drawer, he somehow knew it was there and he threw the bottle next to them as his hands slid down to Dan’s panties, eyes full of lust and wanting. Flicking Dan’s panties to one side, his attention came to rest on Dan’s hard, red, leaking cock that wad poking above the waist band.
🌹The audible pop of the lube cracked above Dan’s desperate whimpers, that filled the room with the sound of sex and desperation.Coating his fingers with the slick substance, Phil spread Dan’s ass cheeks and carefully inserted a first finger. His head came lower, until he was looking straight at with the finger pumping in and out of Dan.
🌹He started to suck hickies into Dan’s soft, round ass whilst fingering him open, adding another layer of pleasure to the mix. ‘I love you so much Phil’ Dan breathed out, breath getting short. Phil responded by taking away his fingers and kissing him all along the jaw line, before saying 'I love you too baby’
🌹He grabbed a condom from the drawer, hand blindly feeling for the foil, before ripping it open and sheathing up his cock.’ Hurry Phiww’ Dan whined, becoming impatient. Phil spread a layer of lube on his cock, before lining himself up.
🌹'Ready baby?’ he asked the whimpering mess of Dan, receiving a nod in return. He pushed in slightly, letting Dan adjust to the feeling. Dan felt full, there was a slight burn but he forgot that when he felt a firm hand grip his cock and stroke it. Phil slowly pushed in, until he bottomed out, distracting Dan by giving him hickies and jerking him off.
🌹’M-move’ Dan stuttered, hips jerking to try and fuck himself on Phil’s cock. Phil responded to this by pulling nearly all the way out, before pushing back in, careful not to hurt Dan. He kept this up, jerking Dan off whilst fucking him gently, cock hitting his prostate every other time.
🌹'Close’ Dan whined out, heat pooling in his stomach as Phil’s thumb dipped in his slit. 'Come then baby’ Phil replied, sucking another hickie into Dan’s marked up neck, heat building up in his own stomach. Dan cried out, as white spurted out on his stomach and Phil’s hand.
🌹Phil continued to pound into him, chasing his own orgasm which was drawing closer, spurred on by Dan’s moaning. 'A-ah’ Phil cried out, coming into the condom with a final thrust into Dan. He pulled out, kissing Dan’s tired eyelids as he cleaned them up.

buttercup flowers, vanilla wafers, birdbaths, picnic blankets, bumblebees, a floral sofa, blowing on dandelions, apple juice boxes, plastic lawn chairs, ants on a cherry lollipop, hot swingset chains, honey graham crackers, jump ropes on the sidewalk, wet bubble wands, toys scattered on soft white carpet, coloring books on coffee tables, kool aid popsicles, “i’m gonna soak up the sun”, grocery store parking lots, pool floaties, coconut scented sun cream, sitting on porch steps, a warm azure sky

Songs About...(Owl City Edition)

I saw someone make one of these with another artist, so I decided to make the Owl City edition.


  • If My Heart Was a House
  • Thunderstruck
  • My Everything
  • I Found Love
  • Gold
  • How Deep The Father’s Love
  • Speed of Love
  • Enchanted
  • Can’t Live Without You
  • Honey and the Bee
  • The Tip of the Iceberg


  • On The Wing
  • Early Birdie
  • The Real World
  • Tokyo
  • Umbrella Beach


  • Hospital Flowers(sorta?)
  • Vanilla Twilight (well it could work…everyone seemed to think he wrote it for a non-existent dead girlfriend/wife anyway)
  • Youtopia (the video deals with death at least)


  • Back Home
  • Here’s Hope
  • Hey Anna
  • Sky Diver
  • This Is The Future
  • The Technicolor Phase
  • I’ll Meet You There
  • You’re Not Alone
  • The Christmas Song
  • Kiss Me Babe, It’s Christmastime
  • Hello Seattle 


  • When Can I See You Again
  • Shine Your Way
  • Good Time
  • Rugs From Me To You 

Fear/Inner Conflict:

  • Cave In
  • Bird With A Broken Wing
  • Fireflies
  • Silhouette 
  • Wolf Bite
  • Beautiful Times
  • Dementia 
  • Plant Life
  • Paper Tigers
  • Metropolis 


  • Tidal Wave
  • Galaxies
  • To The Sky
  • Verge
  • Shooting Star
  • Live It Up
  • Dreams and Disasters
  • Embers
  • This Isn’t The End

taureans are confusing, and there is a certain resoluteness in them, but also the need to connect and cradle/be cradled. for example my sister is a taurus. she is one of the most resilient people i know. unexpected teenage pregnancy where the father walked out, attempted suicide and mental illness of her own father and so on, she has always stayed so stoic and strong, she has cried in private, but she has never taken out her rage or distress on others. and this is the taurus tune. all the petals on the flower stay as one, even if they are wrinkling away inside. but it seems like love dissolves these boundaries. and despite a sort of pride i see in taurus, like an internal intertia that carries on, no matter what. but they are not immune to bad relationships, and they also seem to find it difficult to let go - even if the partner is cruel or unsuitable. they will stay on, is it out of loneliness? or because it feels safe for the moment? i’m betting on safety. taurus want to be enveloped in the vanilla flower. life doesn’t smell so sweet and surgery staring on from the outside 

playing around with my coloring styles again, i’ve been through a bout of art block recently so it’s a bit difficult. i decided to use a green/teal color since i rarely use it, so it was a nice change of pace