AN: This is the shortest thing I have written so I’m sorry about that. I know I said I would have it in a day or two but I couldn’t help it. I wrote it and I wanted to post it. I hope this is kinda what you were looking for, if not my apologies.
You can really tell how much spare time I’ve has this week considering I went through all the episodes transcripts to find every instant someone has said “I love/loved you” and wow. It was certainly interesting. So here’s the list I put together undated to include all of season 12.
Note, this is every instant someone has said “I love/loved you” to the actual person, not to a third person.
I also decided to break this down into seasons and to see what kind of love we’re talking about. All under the cut:
The whole city was still dealing with what had happened, many of those injured were still in hospital and funerals being held for those who weren’t so lucky. Augustus, although not surprised, was relieved when he found his twin with only the mental trauma of helping an original vampire. He made sure to visit those that had been injured, including Josefine. Her injuries may have healed but Augustus knew that she was probably far from fine. “Mama vamp,” He called through the door as he knocked. “I come bringing Chinese food, and the delivery guy as a starter.”
What Jody represented in 9x19 was a person devastated by grief and loss coming to terms with the fact that sometimes you can not fill the hole in your life with outside forces, or with other people. She knows she has things she needs to deal with, but she’s not hiding from them anymore. She’s not going to depend on someone else to be the thing that dulls the ache. She’s going to feel the ache because sometimes that’s all you can do. But she is going to live because she is strong, and so is Dean. What she realized in the end is something he will come to know as well.
While Jody represented this grief-stricken but hopeful future, Mama vamp represented the dark co-dependency that lives inside Dean. She also represented John and all of the things he placed on his boys. She is the thing inside his head telling him he can’t change, that this is all there is, that duty and family are everything. She manipulated Alex in to doing what she wanted, convinced her it was all there was, that she had to stay. Alex was terrified of letting her Mama down, and I was reminded of Sam’s confession to Dean in that church. That his greatest sin was all the times he felt he let Dean down.
Dean is co-dependent, but so is Sam, and he wants out. He wants out, but the hope manifested by Jody that lives inside Dean wants out as well. He just doesn’t know how to do it yet. When Jody killed Mama vamp that said to me that no matter how dark things are about to get, in the end Dean will claw his way out of the darkness. Dean will let go. He has to let go. He wants to let go, he just doesn’t know how to yet.
What Jody and Alex had in the end wasn’t a bond that was dependent on one another for survival, but one that acknowledged they can still lean on each other for love and support. This is what Sam and Dean need. Neither of them are ever going to be okay in the traditional sense, not with what they have come to know, and all the grief they have suffered. But what they can have is hope, and a relationship built on shared grief and love that isn’t toxic or suffocating. There is a light at the end of that tunnel, for both Sam and Dean, but in the end they will not choose each other. They will choose themselves, and then the healing can begin.
I’ve made it, Mom. Are you proud of me? No? Okay. THANKS FOR FOLLOWING ME EVERYONE. Gosh, this means so much. So here’s a shit promo picture to let you all know. You’re all so lovely.
Special shout outs to @noxthyme MY BRO.Actual FANTASTIC writer. They’re so great. 10/10. Would rp with forever. You’ll not regret it. @likeavirus Actual smol bean brother. I’m so glad you messaged me tbh. Great writer! Great Jerome! Fantastic person! @blccdsport The actual Vamp mama. She’ll kick ur ass, but also fantastic human being. <3
Now for the rest of you who made the mistake and followed me. (and/or i follow and just love u)
I’m getting sad because everyone is talking about how awesome Jody is but none of it is actually about Jody but about how she wasn’t sexualized or how its so awesome she stood up for herself. So therefore a post dedicated to the sheer badassness that is Sheriff Jody Mills:
Watched her husband and son die- proceeded to save the entire fucking town while Dean and Bobby were literally in the closet
Handled a zombie situation with calm and dignity
Lied to the FBI twice and created a lot more work for herself to save Bobby’s ass
Figured out how to disable Leviathan
Pulled a stake out of her shoulder and killed a god while Sam was unconscious and Dean was in the basement
Saved herself from a pissed off mama vamp AND saved a innocent person (that Sam and Dean wanted to kill)
Survived a date with fucking Crowley
Stood up to the Winchesters when they questioned her faith
Keeps an eye out for the supernatural shit (that Bobby probably took care of before he died) that threatens her town and does something about it
Is the fucking Sheriff- not a deputy, not a officer, the head honcho- an elected official
In short Jody could be sexualized, she could be treated like a lot of women on Supernatural are and she would still be twice as badass as anyone else on this show