valentines dayy

Happy Valentines Day

((ayyoo happy valentines dayy~~ sorry for dropping this outta nowhere haha oops i was pretty busy today and stuff but whatever so i thought about making this uh mini valentines day comic thing with all the boys asking him to be his valentine!! yep oh i dont think i ever mentioned this (and im sorry forgive me) but hah this is a Jinharem blog yep thats right i said it a Jinharem, because who doesnt love jin harems right???


spoiler alert: he said yes ))

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Wowzers I was tagged by @yoonseok(the fucking queen), @changkyuh(the fucking goddess) and @dearmyjimin(the fucking wife) for dem selfies. Thank you gorgeous beauties for tagging me♡♡. Its almost time for valentines dayy hehohohoh do you see the style in my makeup no ok cool.

I’ll tag @ttaewo, @hobipd, @hobih, @hobuing, @jeonggukl, @yoonseokswife, @sugaa and @hobiue ♡♡.

I’m reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly close for a class and came across this:

I also designed a set of wedding rings, where each one takes the pulse of the person wearing it and sends a signal to the other ring to flash red with each heartbeat.

And OH MY GOD the possibilities 

People who are far apart able to tell that their partner is sleeping because the flash is slow.

People waiting outside hospital rooms, staring at the ring while it stutters

Events where they shut the lights off and let the rings sparkle on valentines day

I don’t know I’m tired from binging this book just, heart rings

I was in seventh grade

and I said no to a boy who asked me out

it was my first time getting asked out

I wondered why all the girls were jealous


In high school I always wondered 

what point there was to my friends dating 

just to break up months later


Tenth grade a boy asked me out

I didn’t see any point

He didn’t know me, I didn’t know him

I declined multiple times

even after he gave me a bouquet of roses

even after I agreed to go to prom as friends


By senior year that same boy and I became best friends

and once again he asked me out

this time I said yes

since we’ve already gotten so close I thought I’d give it a shot

but I didn’t want to ever do boyfriend/girlfriend things with him

I was annoyed when he would walk me to class

it was out of his way and so it was illogical

I declined to go out on a date on valentines day

I never even kissed him

so I told him I liked it better when we were just friends


My family would always ask when I was going to get a boyfriend

strangers would ask if I had a boyfriend

I never did

I never wanted one

I never felt like I needed one


By college I had figured out I was attracted to both guys and girls

I found all genders beautiful

but only if they were aesthetically pleasing

my friends would call me shallow

they would say that I was horrible 

when I would tell them I only wanted to marry for money

and not for love


I was at a party and we played spin the bottle

I was nervous because it was my first time kissing

but when we kissed

I felt nothing

it wasn’t that great

and I couldn’t wait till the game was over


One night I was sitting in the car with my friend

she said that she didn’t mind being single 

and I agreed with her

then she asked,

“but don’t you ever feel like it would be nice to have a boyfriend?”

I didn’t agree with her

I’ve always been content with being with myself  


It hasn’t been until now that I realized that I am an 

Aromantic Asexual

I wish I would have known what that was in seventh grade

instead of growing up thinking there was something wrong with me

my whole life I felt different and like an outsider

my whole life I felt awful


When I finally learned that I was an Aro Ace

I felt so relieved

there were other people that felt the same as me

I wasn’t alone

I was happy


But when I expressed this to my friends

they told me it was because I’ve never really been with anyone yet

that I wasn’t ready for a relationship

they felt sorry for me and tried reassuring me that I’ll find someone someday

they missed my point

they thought I was upset that I felt like this

that I don’t have romantic or sexual feelings 

but what made me upset was that they didn’t understand

that this is who I am 

and I was happy


It is important for people to understand 

that there are different types of sexualities

so kids growing up don’t think that there is something wrong with them

that others can understand what that person is going through

that it is normal for people to be like that and to feel that way

I wish I would’ve understood that 

and I wish my friends understood that


It would have made my life so much better