v day cat

hoo boy i am the calmest i have been for a long time, i don’t exactly know what changed, like I still feel flat but I don’t feel panicky anymore. idk man. it just. disappeared. like oh god okay this is gonna sound so off but I almost forgot that feeling this relaxed was actually possible?? I’ve spent the last two weeks in a shitty paranoid hellscape, I didn’t even realise how Not Relaxed i was, i was just kinda accustomed to it?? forgot what it feels like to just. not be stressed like that. being stressed like that is exhausting. and man I am so calm right now. feels good, feels organic