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4,000 Follower Follow Spree!

Hello! I have not done a call out to follow people since I hit 1,000 followers! And I only follow 1,000 blogs right now and honestly I could use a little more on my dash, so why not help me follow 2,000 blogs? Goal not met

Could you like/reblog if you post:

ATLA/LOK (cause my name) (Ships I like Boleska, Maiko, I will most likely not follow if you post a lot of Mai hate)

SNK (Yumikuri and fan theories are A+) (also if you see @fandom-nerdlords reblog your SNK posts, that me, I mod that blog)

PLL (don’t have ship preferences)

TWD (Negan, Glenn/Maggie, Baby Rhees, basically anything about the slowly disappearing Greene family)

Political news (note if you follow me I tag my political posts with #p in case you want to black list it) especially native political posts and things from the democratic/liberal view because that is how I tend to lean (except for like two topics)

Critical/analytical posts (not hate, there is a difference) of modern anime (specifically Yuri on Ice and Attack on Titan, I will also allow DeathNote!Netflix cause that’s already very interesting)

Rupaul’s Drag Race (I especially love Sharon Needles, Bianca Del Rio, Raja, and Alexis Michelle)

Nymphadora Tonks (look at my avatar if you wonder why)

Broadway (Anastasia, Christian Borle, Audra McDonald, Something Rotten!, and anything that criticizes ALW)

TIM MINCHIN! (I NEED MORE OF THIS MAN IN MY LIFE) (I will also settle for Diet Tim Minchin, I mean Bo Burnham)

And last but not least, memes.


Post regular (I unfollow all blogs, unless you are a beloved mutual of mine, when I notice that they have gone inactive for 4 weeks/1 month)

That you don’t mind lots of interaction with me, because I will most likely fall in love with you in a friend way and send you lots of love and always send the ask memes in, it’s just who I am as a person.

You don’t have to follow me but that would be appreciated and will help me find your blog faster if I see you like/reblog/follow all at once,js.

That’s it! I don’t use xkit, my computer for some reason will not let me download it, but if you do post a punch of flashing gifs, I will unfollow you. And that’s just because I have seizures and that’s an issue.

Thank you!

Periods Aren’t That Bad. They’re Actually A Whole Lot Worse: A Lesson For Non-Period-Havers

Disclaimer 1: This will probably get a little NSFW.

Disclaimer 2: Symptoms of periods vary from period-haver to period-haver. It pretty much sucks for everyone, though.

Disclaimer 3: I have a high pain tolerance. Really high. If I say something is really painful, it is really fucking painful.

And now for the reasons why having periods suck and it’s worse for us to have it than for you to hear about it:

  1. There is blood coming from our vaginas. This is a very unpleasant feeling. We cannot “hold it.” Some people get a light trickling. Some, like me, get a Goddamn crime scene.
  2. The ways to keep from bleeding all over everything include a pad, which basically feels like a diaper, and a tampon, which is basically shoving a cotton pipe up there, is not as much fun as it sounds, and can be very uncomfortable if done wrong. And doing it right is fairly hard. Thanks to good old Catholic sex ed, it took me about five years to figure out.
  3. Cramps. I am lucky in that my cramps tend not to be THAT bad (thank you, high pain tolerance), but some get cramps so bad that the pain is comparable to appendicitis.
  4. Headaches. What I lack in cramps, I often make up for in headaches. And not just any headaches. Agonizing headaches. They can start up to a week before the bleeding starts, they last a few days into it, and they don’t go away. No matter how much aspirin you take. Seriously, when I get menstrual headaches, I could down an entire fucking bottle of Advil and I’d probably die but my ghost would still have the headache.
  5. Acne. I’m talking looking like Deadpool under the mask.
  6. Indigestion. It isn’t fun.
  7. Bloating.
  8. Sometimes my actual vaginal region hurts. A lot. Enough to have me doubled over on the floor.
  9. For some reason my anxiety gets worse sometimes around my period. Which is extra fun. There’s nothing like nearly calling the morgue because your dad was late from a basketball game, only to find out he was at Applebee’s.
  10. Fatigue. Because I’m doing everything I normally do while my body is staging a mutiny.
  11. Backache.
  12. Just generally feeling disgusting.
  13. This goes on for a week.
  14. This happens every Goddamn month.
  15. This generally starts around age twelve or so and lasts until maybe age 45.
This has probably been mentioned already, but I have to get this off my chest

So Star Trek:Into Darkness was a great film - in fact, I loved all three movies. But one little thing that always bugged me was how much Bones was downplayed. I particularly have a lot of feelings for this scene:

Now, there is truth to that - Spock did capture Khan, whose blood was used to generate the life-saving serum. Spock risked his own life to capture a dangerous, near-invincible psychopath for Kirk (even though his initial intention was to kill Khan out of revenge and had to be begged by Uhura to spare his life). So I’m not going to deny the importance of Spock’s role in Jim’s revival (I love Spock, love his friendship with Kirk, not knocking that one bit). But tell me, was it Spock who:

- injected some of Khan’s blood into a dead tribble out of scientific curiosity, to study its incredible regenerative powers?

- discovered that the Tribble had been brought back to life, thus realising that Khan’s blood could be used to bring back Kirk?

- had the quick thinking to cryogenically freeze Kirk’s body in order to prevent his organs decomposing to a point that would be beyond saving?

- took Khan’s blood - breaking countless ethical guidelines in the process - and dedicated his time to generating a serum (surely that must have taken days, if not weeks, to generate a successful serum that could be safely used to medicate a human)?

- carefully nursed Kirk back to health?

Nope, all Bones. Now, I don’t have proof as to what happened during the two weeks Kirk was in a coma, but do you honestly think that this man:

… just carried on as normal? Or do you think he never left Jim’s bedside unless he was physically dragged away by other crew members so that he could eat/sleep before collapsing? Of course, Bones being Bones, he’s very flippant when his part in rescuing Jim is ignored:

… even mentioning Uhura’s part in it, because he won’t take all the credit, he acknowledges all who helped. Because he doesn’t care about recognition or thanks when it comes to Jim - he just wants to keep his best friend ALIVE. But why oh why couldn’t we just get a little acknowledgement from someone else about how Doctor Leonard Horatio “Badass” McCoy literally CHEATED DEATH and brought a dead man back to life as though it was just a normal part of a medic’s life?! The fact that he broke several medical ethics laws, thus risking his whole career, just to give the ship her captain back? WHY DOES NO ONE SEEM TO ACKNOWLEDGE THIS?! And don’t get me started on the fact that he didn’t even get to say goodbye and the first time he sees Jim after the warp core incident is when he is lying in a freaking body bag on one of the biobeds.

Genso Wanderer Giveaway!

Hello all! With the new release of Genso Wanderer for PS4/Vita, it’s something a lot of people have been eagerly awaiting for a long time. Now you too can see Touhou on the shelves of your local store. With all the support I’ve received from this community, I wanted to give a little something back.

So I am going to be giving away one copy of Genso Wanderer (Standard Edition)!


  • One like and one reblog count as entries
  • You do not have to be following me but if you’d look at my blog it’d be much appreciated!
  • US only, I can’t really pay the International shipping fees. Sorry!
    EDIT: If you would be willing to pay for international shipping costs, we can possibly work something out. Please just let me know it is international!
  • You must be willing to give me your address to ship
  • You must be 18+ to enter or have a parent/guardian’s permission
  • If you would like to reblog but not enter, please put so in the tags. If you are not entering please do not like this post.
  • I’d prefer if you entered with the intent of playing the game I am giving out, and not reselling it
  • Winner will be drawn via random number generator Monday, March 27 at 6PM EST
Sexism and elitism in the reptile industry.


I know we have talked about this a number of times before, but I wanted to touch base on this again using my experience from last weekends expo now that I have some time to sit down and talk about it.

I had the privilege of taking with me my friend Scott, who knows little to nothing about reptiles, and my friend Rie who is a bird person. The expo actually went swimmingly for the most part, until I stopped at the booth belonging to Vince Russo. He may be more recognizable to people as the author of The Complete Boa. From what I have heard, a lot of people have had some very enjoyable experiences with this guy– healthy animals delivered to them, comprehensive answers given when asked questions, etc. My personal experience with him really wasn’t as nice, but it wasn’t inherently terrible, and I’ll get into that in a moment.

I had been eyeballing his table for a while because I was tentatively considering picking something up and I had heard through the grapevine that he was starting to really actually get into Sumatran Short Tails and I wanted to take a peek at what he might have. What I noticed first was a pair of girls approaching him, one asking something about one of the boas, saying that it looked similar to another morph she had seen. He straightened up, and with the most condescending tone I had heard in a while, not only corrected her but proceeded to talk to her like she was a child.

Then I approached.

My friend Scott was closer to Vince and was asking questions and our friendly author of The Complete Boa spoke to him very enthusiastically. He answered all of his questions professionally and pleasantly. I was standing a few feet away with Rie because I spotted a pair of SSTPs. One muddy male with yellow casting and a female with several kinks in her lower spine. They are labeled “BLACK BLOODS.” I say to Rie, “this is actually something to pay attention to because it can confuse people. There’s no such thing as a black blood, they’re Sumatran short tails. Same as the term Borneo bloods, Python breitensteini is a different species than brongersmai.”

Vince Russo cuts in and very loudly states “Borneo is Python BREITENSTEINI.” To which I very curtly said, “Yeah, I’m aware, I just said that, but thanks.”

He proceeded to tell me about how I should buy his P. curtus, but to keep in mind that he is only selling lone males. “I’m not selling any lone females” he says as I look down at the female, who has kinks down 1/3 of her body and despite that is listed at the same price as the male. I politely told him that I wasn’t really sure if I wanted to buy anything at all and he cut me off and said even louder “you won’t find them anywhere else. I’m the only guy I know who breeds them. You need to get them while you can.”

Me, being the asshole that I am, told him that I can name ten off of the top of my head and he claimed he’s never heard of any of them, including Kara Norris which I find very hard to believe.

This really does not seem like that big of a deal and in reality it’s not– I had very pleasant conversations with Mike Schultz of Outback Reptiles and his girlfriend who was so, so happy to introduce people to blood pythons and discuss the difference in temperament from CH, WC and CBB offspring. I bring this up because I’m seeing a LOT of new younger women start to become interested in the hobby and micro-aggressive behavior like what Vincent Russo displayed is so prevalent in the community. Had I not known better, if I were more ignorant and not as immersed in the hobby, I might have listened to Russo and bought that cheap, low quality Sumatran short tail without looking into other options, etc.

I talk about this every single time I go to an expo because it’s so important for women, girls, and just generally people who are new to the hobby to be aware and take everything you hear with a grain of salt. Some people will flat out lie to you, others will belittle you. I have had the experience of a breeder blatantly disallowing me from holding a large constrictor because he didn’t think I could “handle it.” I’ve had vendors try to outright slander the name of other breeders in good standing with the community in an effort to complete a sale.

I watched one young man end up buying what was very obviously an unhealthy bearded dragon that was showing a number of MBD symptoms to be told that “that’s normal” and “sometimes they just look like that.”

Please, please, please be aware of what is going on around you. Do not tolerate being treated like a child by vendors if you have questions. I will be honest and say that most of my interactions with vendors at expos are great and I meet a lot of awesome people. But the people who AREN’T great, the people who will lie or bring unhealthy animals to expos or treat people with no respect are the people that we need to weed the hell out of the hobby.

End rant.

Rivals Top Tens

Recently I’ve had quite a few asks about Top Ten things in the Rivals universe and quite  few people have asked for a link so that they can find all the posts easily. I have now added a shortcut in my useful links page which you can find here or you can search my blog for the tag top ten lists. 

I am having way too much fun coming up with these lists as it give me a great chance to get creative and do a lot of worldbuilding. I have a few more top ten prompts in my askbox at the moment which I am intending to answer as soon as I can, it just takes me a little longer to do those ones as I need time to think of a good answer!

So far still to write I have:

-  Top 10 Memes Inspired By Yuuri Katsuki

-  top ten Viktor Nikiforov cheesy ig posts about yuuri

-  Top 10 Katsuki/Nikiforov Moments That Had Everyone Swooning

- Top 10 texts/sexts list

If there are any other top ten lists you want to see feel free to send your prompts as asks!

Did i break your heart with that [Reunion] post? Here, have a little Tamlen&babyHalla to cheer you up!

Also, this blog now has a comment section in each post! I don’t know if anyone is gonna use it but i wanted to have it so we can share a little more~ (thanks to @lostmindy for helping me with the html-hell!)


On our peds inpatient service we have several TBI/anoxic brain injury and CP kids. They are waiting on placement in long term facilities because there are lots of kids and very few places that can provide the level of care they need. So they are often with us for a while.

And every morning when I pre-round on mine, I sing to them. My grandpa sang “the good morning song” to my Dad who sang it to me and now I sing it to Snowdrop and my patients. And then I have silly made up individual songs for all the brain injury kids. I ask them about how they are feeling about the economy and we have a little conversation while I examine them every morning. Apparently the nurses think it is hilarious because I have a truly horrible singing voice.

We got a new trach/gtube dependent TBI kid from the surgical service and yesterday morning I met their mom for the first time. I was singing to the kid and asking them how they were feeling and if they liked their dinner and stuff like that. She said to me, “You know they can’t hear you.” And I said, “I know. They’re still a person.” It made me really sad.

Sing to your patients, folks, talk to them.

Even if they can’t hear you.

Letter from Mick Jagger to Marianne Faithfull, 16 August 1970

“Dearest Marianne, I woke up this morning and had you in my mind so I thought I would just talk to you a little. I haven’t seen or heard of you much lately and wondered how you were? I saw Chrissie grooving off to Morocco in abandoned style a few days ago, I’m just getting my things together to go on tour to Europe though haven’t got used to the idea yet of all that work and traveling and of course I haven’t a clue what to wear. Things have changed a lot recently here, completely different people come around which I find sometimes peculiar. We have good fun but I’m glad to be going away as its becoming a little tedious. I have no idea where you are in your mind nor should I expect to but I hope there are green fields and flowers where you walk. I’m sure Nicholas is having a good time please throw him in the air for me. Marlon is now 1 and walks and is bright but will inevitably have an Oedipus complex don’t you think! If you find time please drop me a line or telephone before I go away at the end of August as I would love to hear from you. You will always be precious in my thoughts. As ever, Mick.”

i cry


Today is my last day of filming for ’Goblin’, for which I’ve lived as the ’Goblin’ these past 5 months. Because my character this time was a little different from my past characters, because he was not human but a god-like character, I felt burdened inside, and there was also the burden of working with such a well-known scriptwriter, but I think we were able to come this far because you all provided us with so much love, and we gained energy from that. When things pass, there’s bound to be regrets, and this drama was one that I chose after a long time and after a lot of thinking, so ultimately, I do have have some regret now that it’s coming to an end. Still, I sincerely thank you for all your love, but the fact that it is ending is both relieving and disappointing, but at the same time, I’m very very happy that it is ending today. I feel like I know [how I feel], but I don’t.
To the scriptwriter and the director, who worked so hard, on top of their golden teamwork I was able to put my spoon, I am thankful, and I do not think that the Kim Shin of today and the ’Goblin’ of today would exist if it weren’t for the countless staff members. I sincerely thank all of them, and I also thank all of the honorable sunbae and hoobae actors whom I got to work with, especially because I wasn’t able to express my thanks on a regular basis since it is embarassing. How long do I have to do this for? Please be healthy, and I will stand in front of you with good productions again, as a good actor.
Thank you for your love and care all this time. Sincerely, the lonely and great ’Goblin’.”
- Gong Yoo


100 followers gift!! (food truck restaurant lot)

OMG! I can’t believe I now have 100 followers! Thank you guys SO MUCH! I have a special gift for you today. It’s not much, but I really wanted to make a little something for this occasion!

It’s a whole park looking lot that is a fully functioning restaurant. So you will need Dine Out for this to work properly. If you don’t have it, I guess you could still use it as a park with a food truck looking decoration.

There is no CC so I had to be a little creative with the truck details.

 I hope you enjoy it!

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Dylan O’Brien | “Had a nightmare?”

Count of words: 417

Warnings: small

A/N: I hope this is what you wanted love ♥

anonymous asked:
“Had a nightmare?” With Dylan O'Brien where he is the one who has the nightmare

Me and Dylan have been dating for a while now. We were happy and our relationship was strong despite the little fights we had here and there. And today was no different, even if we didn’t think about it.

“How is it even my fault Dylan?” “Well it is certenly not my fault!” He yelledback. Dylan and I have been fighting a lot lately, something that is not that common for us. This time we were fighting about how the only thing I was left from my grandfather was nowhere to be found. “Well, it is someones fault!” “Yes. YOURS. FOR GOD SAKE Y/N. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR SOMETHING YOU DID.” He literally screamed at me as my eyes started to water. No matter how much we would fight he would never scream at me. He knew how it affected me.  "No, no, no, no. Don’t cry baby, no!“ he said rushing to my side. “No, just leave.” I said. “LEAVE” I yelled at him as he refused. 

It had been hours. I was alone inside our room as Dylan was laying on the couch. It was the first time one of our fights gone this far. And both of us were terrified of what was coming next. So, as I told you already, I was alone inside our room, finally asleep after countless hours of trying to do so. That was until I heard the door slightly open. Footsteps were audible coming towards the bed. Someone, I assume Dylan, layed on the other side of the bed hugging me and clinging onto me for dear life. I didn’t realise he was crying until he spoke up. “Y/N, are you awake?” he asked gently sniffling onto my neck. “I was. What is going on?” I asked consern as I turned around to face him. “I-I-” “Had a nightmare?” I asked again as he nodded holding me closer than before. “What was it?” I asked once he had calmed down a bit. “ I-I saw tha-that you,” he paused letting out a breathy sob. “I saw that you left me. Please, please, please , promise me you will never leave me Y/N. I love you too much. I would die if that happened.” He said pulling me closer into his arms if that was even possible. All I did was kiss his shoulder and then his lips softly. “I promise,” I whispered as we cuddled each other for the rest of the night, both of us slowly drifting away.

so this is a little fic i wrote of emma and killian talking about having kids. cause i have a lot of feelings.

this fic tbh is kind of born out of my own pettiness after that anon called me condescending for me not wanting cs babies or marriage to happen. well, this is actually something i’d be okay with so yeah. this fic is for you anon <3

Emma feels his eyes on her as she struts around their room, going through her nightly routine. He has already used the bathroom and now is just lazing on their bed on top of the covers, shirt and jeans disposed off properly in the laundry hamper, and his hook, brace, and rings all stacked neatly on the little table beside him with his book.

 If it weren’t for the fact that they had had a quite adventurous, more than adventurous, night – with them having to deliver Belle’s baby and all – Emma would’ve thought his intent gaze following her movements were lustful. Yet as she takes her shirt off and throws it in the general direction of the laundry hamper and is working in unhooking her bra, she chances a sly glance towards him to find his eyes fixed on her face, and not her now exposed breasts. She looks down his bare chest, trailing the dark hair all the way down to his boxers and…nothing.

She strikes down horny pirate in her brain as a reason for his staring, and after taking her leggings off and putting on a big sweatshirt, switches the lights off and slips into the covers, watching as he himself settles under the covers beside her.

He turns and faces her, his hand coming under his cheek as he peers down at her.

“Are you okay? Why are you brooding?” She finally whispers, bringing a hand to ruffle his hair back, her thumb rubbing soothing circles on the side of his forehead.

“Nothing, love, just thinking.”

“So brooding and thinking; that’s a classic combo.” She smiles as her similar words from so long ago make his lips twitch into a little smile. 

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So I just wanted to review this product for you. Its the new Dior Forever perfect cushion foundation so it comes in this little refillable compact with the application pad which is like a sponge, and also a mirror. I have always been intrigued by cushion foundations because I always only ever use brush & liquid foundation. I have pretty good skin, with a bit of rosacia on my cheeks and the odd spot (usually bad ones that I can cover with lots of concealer😂), and this foundation with the forever and ever wear primer & the colour corrector sticks is a DREAM!! I was so shocked by the coverage, I am wearing it now and I cannot feel a thing. Its super light and velvety! And, I also have super oily skin like reaaaally oily and this foundation is containing that so I am so pleased, this is definitely now my favourite foundation. (I usually go between Kat Von D lock it, Giorgio Armani Luminous Silk and both Charlotte Tilbury foundations).

I can’t remember if they said where in Russia the Cup is going to be but I hope it’s St. Petersburg because you just know Victor is gonna be like ‘okay Yuuri, I’m going to tell you right now our schedule is going to very tight, because of course we have the Cup and everything, but then I have to take you to all the best restaurants and cafes and clubs and do you like museums? There are lots of museums! Also I’ve got us tickets to the ballet, and of course I have to take you to my favorite places to relax and people watch, and the adorable little shop where I got my tissue box cover that looks like my dog OH and I can show you the old rink I used to skate at when I was little! Do you think we have time for a quick trip out to my family’s dacha? No, that might be too much. We can save that for next time!’

Give me Victor being super pumped to take his boyfriend home and show off to him.


Yet another fun playdate with our favorite fox cub!

It’s been quite awhile since we’ve had Micah over to play with the kiddos! But I’m sure his parents have been busy now with a new baby in the house, and I sense that Micah is absolutely in love with his sister. He’s been talking a lot about her, and we’re all very excited for him and his parents, and we can’t wait to meet her!

I’m so glad the weather decided to be in our favor. We are currently redecorating Damian and I’s bedroom, and have moved Max and Aiden with us upstairs, in the room next to us! We have boxes and toys all over the floor, but we’re still able to get around, so I guess it’s not really as bad as it seems!

It’s really fun now that the little twins are older, and moving around a lot more (they’ll actually be 1 year next month, can you believe it?!). Lumi will instantly love everyone who wants to play with her, so she and Micah got along really well from the start. Noah is actually really shy, and even though we tried to bribe him with toys, it took some time to win him over. Max and Aiden also love to play with their younger siblings, so it was nice to see all of them play together. Also now that Lumi is walking a bit on her own, I noticed how carefully Micah would walk around her. He placed his hand on her head 20 times, so I think he was afraid of pushing her over. She’s quite clumsy, and has fallen over many times already. I try to teach the older kids to help me keep an eye on her, and be more careful when the little ones are walking around (I can’t have my eyes glued on them 24/7, it’s just not at all realistic), but I’m telling you; Aiden is like a tiny bulldozer who sometimes will crash into everyone, and not keep an eye on what he’s doing.

I managed to get the kids indoors (it started raining, which is just too typical). William will be home for dinner (he’s at soccer practice), so once I have finished this blog post, I will have Aiden, Noah and Lumi moved to the office and kitchen area with their toys, so I can keep an eye on them - and hopefully Em, Max and Micah will be little angels and help me with the food! May you all have a wonderful day!

A Little Something Nice

I really don’t like my fast food job. I hate dealing with strangers, smiling all day while repeating the same questions wears me out, my job is completely worthless to society, has taught me no useful life skills, and I’m easily replaceable. 

I didn’t think I was going to be able to get much for anyone for Christmas this year, since I’m pregnant and my husband is a student and we both work in food service. But since the holiday season started, more customers have been tipping (it’s fast food, so there’s no expectation to tip), and it’s really added up. I’m now able to make/buy a little something for my close family and friends, plus we don’t have to sweat over the gas money to drive up and see my parents! 

I complain about customers a lot, and I really do dislike my job, but I have to admit I really appreciate the generosity of these strangers, it’s really made a difference for us this year. Happy holidays ^.^

That ADHD feel when you were diagnosed at 7 and have been on meds for that long so yeah you’re kinda the expert on ADD/ADHD in all of your friend groups but then you find out that your one friend who has mild ADHD does have medication, she just doesn’t take it because some jackass when she was little told her that meds are an advantage and she fucking believed this moron so now you gotta sit her down and go “No. Listen to me. No. I know we both got a lot of mental illnesses between us, but ADHD is my major one, it’s the one I got diagnosed first, listen to me, so I know this shit, and that dumbass was fucking wrong.

And then she still doesn’t believe you because she doesn’t realise that just because you’re not an expert at the stuff she knows a lot about, doesn’t mean you’re not an expert in anything. Because fuck.

Because I’ve been actively monitoring Jay’s donation drive on the @1dfansgive site right now, I see a lot of “I’m sorry this was so little” or “I wish I could donate more” and I just have to tell you how beyond wonderful it is that anyone is able to donate at all. Just a few minutes ago there was a $5 donation that tipped us over the 95% mark. Some people aren’t able to donate, and I completely understand that. People have helped by reblogging posts, spreading the word, creating things to donate or auction off. I’m so proud and so beyond thankful for all of the support, no matter how it comes.

We’re so close now, less than $500 to go. I’ll confess I wasn’t sure we’d even get here, but you all have made that happen and I don’t have the right words to express how lovely that is. Thank you. ♥️

I really wish I could drink right now without it killing me. I could use a lot of sweet, alcoholic, dissociation in a bottle.