used bandage

Me playing the Scorcher Mission in S.T.A.L.K.E.R: SoC

“FUCKSHITFUCKINGFUCKERMOTHERFUCKINGASSFUCKINGPIECEOFSHITFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK”

(+65 Different Medkits used, 88 Bandages used, Down 1,500 rounds of 5.45x39mm, Down 600 rounds of 9x39mm, with only 55 .45ACP +P+ Rounds left. Having to fight through several groups of Bloodsuckers, a pack Flesh Beasts, Ghosts, and a Group of some seriously edgy Gnome Looking motherfuckers, on top of nearly four dozen Monolith guys on the way there.)

  “SWEETMERCIFULFUCKSHITJESUSTAPDANCINGZOMBIFIEDGIMPYCHRISTFUCK

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Taylor Swift as ‘Stella Swan’ in Firelight.

You are allowed to say “No”, okay?

You are allowed and encouraged to say “This feels bad to me for [x] and [y] reason. I would like to do [z thing] instead if you are comfortable with it!”

I will never, ever, ever, punish you for saying “No” to me. I will never be angry at you for expressing your discomfort.

You never have to feel guilty for denying a request of mine. Whether it is “No, I would not like to share my headphone ear bud with you.” or “No, I do not want a hug from you right now.” or “I do not feel comfortable committing to this life decision.”

You do not owe me, or anyone, emotional or physical services. You do not have any obligation to do anything in return for anyone.

Everyone who matters will still love you even if you aren’t “convenient” for their use.

How to Write (and how not to write) LGBT characters

I saw a post earlier about writing LGBT characters that I hated a lot so here’s my take, as a non-binary lesbian and as a writer, on tips on how to write/not write LGBT characters.

A couple notes:

1) First and foremost, if you’re not LGBT, you need to talk to actual LGBT people about your characters. Seeing posts like this aren’t going to Cure you of any internalized homophobic or transphobic ideas that you might have, and LGBT people can point out problematic aspects that you wouldn’t realize could hurt LGBT people. Even if you ARE LGBT, be conscious of writing identities you can’t personally relate to. If you’re not a trans lesbian and want to write about one, talk to trans lesbians.

2) Going off of this… not all LGBT people agree on everything. (Hence why i’m writing this post in the first place!) However, if you have MANY LGBT people saying something you’re writing is problematic, don’t dismiss it just because one person disagreed. This is also why it’s good to talk to multiple LGBT people, not just one, about your characters.

The Actual Tips:

1) Writing feminine gay men and masculine lesbians… is not a bad thing, so long as you do this respectfully. This is something I see being toted as a “NEVER, EVER DO THIS”, and that’s blatantly wrong. Butch lesbians and feminine men exist, and deserve representation. If you have one lesbian character who’s masculine, predatory, objectifies women, etc, yeah, that’s a problem- but you’re capable of writing gay characters without doing this. (And if you’re not… don’t write gay characters!) Edit (anon suggestion): Not all mlm characters are “smol beans”, either- there are lots of masculine mlm who need representation too.

2) Gay people have gay friends. Unless they literally have no friends at all, we tend to have gay friends. Even if they’re in the deep south and are deeply closeted, they *probably still know another gay person*.

3) Don’t write the GBF trope. Literally just don’t.

4) Give your LGBT characters personalities just like you would cishet ones. Give them quirks and fears and goals like anyone else. BUT, this doesn’t mean “don’t overdo telling people your character is gay!!!”, because that’s another thing I see said a lot (primarily by cishets). LGBT people talk about being LGBT, especially around other LGBT people. A lot of us LIKE to joke about how gay we are or jokingly call inconvenient things homophobia. You can make them developed characters without totally ignoring their identity altogether. (This, though, is still another thing to be done sensitively, as with writing ‘stereotypical’ characters.)

5) Don’t write trans characters using ace bandages unless you’re making it explicitly clear how harmful this is. Please. Yes, this happens IRL, but this is a form of harmful representation that can perpetuate trans people injuring themselves through unsafe binding. (And you can find afab trans people to ask about other forms of bonding if you really can’t figure out some other way to write this.)

6) Additionally, a lot of trans people don’t just pass automatically if they bind once or cut their hair or wear a wig or put on makeup. (Unless they haven’t hit puberty yet.) I have trans friends who have been presenting as their gender for years and are still misgendered. I’ve read a number of books where a trans guy puts his Long Hair in a hat and binds and then suddenly everyone genders him correctly. This isn’t the reality for a lot of trans people. We get misgendered by our family, by friends, and constantly by total strangers. And if misgendering is a factor of our dysphoria, it *hurts*.

7) Unless you have a lot of LGBT characters, don’t make your villain LGBT. Consider WHY the hell you feel the need to make your evil character(s) gay or trans. Even IF you have a lot of LGBT characters, you should still think about why making someone who we are meant to root against and hope gets defeated into a LGBT character is so important to you.

I’ll probably add on to this later because I have a lot of thoughts on this, but other LGBT people feel free to add on as well!

Tips for young trans boys going on HRT [From two dudes already going through it]

Ok so since not everyone is actually fortunate enough to go through an actual Gender Service, I’m going to write some Will and Probably Won’t things that come with going on T. For ref, I’ve been on T a year and my bf has been on for two. Let’s start;

Won’t:

You’ll wake up one day and sound like Morgan Freeman. 

Will:

Going on T will deepen your voice. 

For some people it may happen quite suddenly, for others gradually. Most likely you’ll sound like you have a bad cold for a while and then it’ll even out and be different. If you like to sing, be aware of voice cracks and suddenly being unable to sing as high as you used to. Some guys get lucky and still retain singing prowess, but be aware there’s a high chance you won’t. 

Each person’s vocal change is different. My voice cracked literally after the first injection, whilst my bf had to wait a while for changes. Don’t be worried if it appears your voice isn’t changing and be aware it may not go incredibly deep. It will probably be more noticeable to others than you and eventually it’ll feel like your normal voice. Your pets will recognise your voice, they will always come to know you. 

Won’t:

Face shape will change drastically to become more masculine.

Will:

After a while on T, you may experience some change in face and body shape. 

A lot of trans boys I know seem to believe they’ll wake up one day and just have the perfect masc face. Everyone is different, I can’t stress this enough. You may experience a huge change in the face, you may experience almost nothing. My bf always had a very round ‘moon’ face and his cheeks have started to slim down but his facial shape is more or less the same. As for myself I’ve not noticed anything too considerable yet. 

The same goes for the broadening of the shoulders. If you’re very slender to begin with, you’re probably never going to be Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson, but you might experience some changes. Again, don’t be disheartened, everyone is different. 

Won’t:

The fat in your breasts will break down from going on T and make you look a lot more flat, if your chest is small you may not even have to wear a binder.

Will:

If you have A cups, then maybe the breakdown that happens with T will mean you don’t have to bind. However, the breakdown from T alone is very small unless you’re on it for years. Also be aware that a lot of the fat in your body in general is going to start focusing on your stomach. It’ll become easier to gain muscle once on T, but if you don’t exercise, the weight you lose from other areas will go to your stomach. But also, muscle weighs more than fat, remember that. You may drop clothing sizes, which can be a pain if you’re already quite small and have trouble finding masc clothes to fit you, trust me I know. 

Also a note on binders: Do not use bandages or cheap binders. Do not. Binders can cause damage after prolonged use when you’re using a proper binder nevermind anything else. Bandages are made to contract and not let in moisture, they are not good for being tight around the chest! Cheap binders are also usually not breathable and will hurt more than they should! It could cost a lot, but forking out for a proper binder from places like lesloveboat is really going to be worth it. There is the sports bra method if you can’t get a binder because you’re not Out yet and couldn’t justify getting a binder to your parents etc but even then it’s not as safe as a proper binder.

Any binder shouldn’t be worn for longer than recommended, and will most likely rub especially when the T starts to make you sweat more. There’s also going to be an increase in acne on the chest around where the binder fits. If your chest ever really starts to hurt, find somewhere to take the binder off. I don’t care where you are, if you’re getting huge chest pains, take the damn thing off. If you damage yourself the chance of being able to get surgery reduces drastically, not to mention a whole lot of health problems you don’t want to deal with. It’s harsh, but it’s a lot better for you. Get a binder in the next size up and try again.

Won’t:

My periods will stop immediately and I’ll never have them again.

Will:

Eventually your periods will stop, though you may spot occasionally whilst you still have the necessary organs.

Though everyone is different, don’t be disheartened if you still have a period or two after starting T, you’ll stop eventually. You could also go a while without a period and then spot before stopping again. If the spotting continues for a while, or if you start to experience severe cramping, go and see a doctor

Won’t:

I’m going to get angry and aggressive a lot when on T!

Will:

Your emotions will be doing a whole lot of different things. Your may get angry, and you may also find your sex drive increases. You might also get upset more often or at things that never upset you before, or aren’t necessarily sad. I cried listening to that Chick Chick song, it’s ridiculous. It won’t last forever, be patient with yourself, there’s nothing wrong with you it’s basically just puberty (again).

Last things - 

Hair growth all depends on the person, the face being the last place that will probably grow hair and even then you’ll probably only have a tiny fluff for a long time, unless you’re lucky. My bf is experiencing hair in places now that I started growing extremely quickly right away. It could be to do with my having dark hair and him being a redhead tbh. But you will grow hair, all over. All over. Be prepared for that. You will get hair in places you never had much if any hair before. I have hair on my chest now. Not a whole lot but it’s there. The stomach is another hotspot for hair growth on T.

You will get acne, you will start to stink, sweat more and you may get growing pains. Look up Male Puberty, seriously, it’ll give you a good idea of some of the stuff that will start happening to you. Until your hormones calm down, your acne will not ultimately improve even with skincare. If you’re under 21, you might grow a little and the pains will be considerable. I gained like maybe an inch so I’m still short af but that’s something.

Your clit will start to get bigger. I know talking about the female genitalia we have is a big dysphoria bomb for a lot of us, but you need to read this. Your clit will get bigger, maybe considerably, maybe so much that the lips won’t hide it any more (if they ever did). It will rub against your underwear and/or your packer. For me it’s just mildly irritating, though for my bf it actually hurts (stings) him. It will be really sensitive either way. Be aware of that. 

Some people you don’t see every day or aren’t very close to may not recognise you when considerable changes occur. Use this to your advantage! Reintroduce yourself! 

If you self-inject, be prepared to mess up. There will be pain, swelling and bruising. If you have a nurse to inject you (like we do) there’s a change that they too might occasionally catch a nerve and you may bruise. Do not inject directly into a vein.

It’s perfectly fine to cry because of growing pains, pain from rubbing etc. You can be a man and still cry and complain but at least be aware of what to expect. 

Most changes will be so gradual that you’ll never look in the mirror and see a stranger, it’ll be like this was always the way you were.

If you do however, start to become really distressed by the changes or start to see nothing but a stranger in the mirror, please reconsider whether HRT is the right thing for you. The last thing you want is to be stuck with changes that are actually distressing you. It’s ok if you thought you wanted/needed this but then realised you didn’t/don’t. 

Last (gosh this was long). Every guy is different. Some changes come fast, some don’t. Some may be huge changes and some only small. Don’t compare yourself to other trans guys especially your own friends/loved ones. Every guy is different, be proud of your changes as they come and don’t let anyone bring you down just because those changes aren’t ~*significant*~  to them.

(IMPORTANT) Binding Safety

Okay friends. So there are these “les lesbian binders” on amazon (I would add pics but idk how to do that on mobile so bear with me). THESE BINDERS ARE SHIT AND WILL FUCK YOU UP.

So early in my “am I trans” journey, I started with these binders. I was working a shitty job (y'all don’t even know like it’s some movie-worthy shit) and I had like no money. But these binders were like $5-$15 EACH. And I was like “fuck yeah gonna get me a chest I love at an affordable price” well, I did. But it came at a greater cost. Those binders don’t stretch. They are the equivalent of wearing ace bandages. AND I WORE THEM EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR SIX MONTHS. at one point I thought “you know what’s a fucking fantastic idea? IF I WORE TWO BINDERS ON TOP OF EACH OTHER” given they were both the shitty “les lesbian binders”. And, of course, I had hot flashes and felt like I was going to puke and all that good stuff. But I mean it was worth it right? No. It was not worth it. It royally fucked me up. I had bruises all over my chest and ribs, and when I say bruises I mean my entire chest was covered with purple and blue and occasionally black splotches. I go running (without the binder of course) and I can barely breathe, my lungs/ribs can’t expand as much as they used to. Now they can only expand as much as the binder constricted them to. I can only breathe in short/shallow breathes to where I get so light headed constantly. AND THATS WITHOUT THE BINDER. I used to be able to hold my breath for 2.5 minutes and run at least 2 miles without stopping (yeah I was healthier but I also had the ability to expand my lungs so much).

You’re probably thinking “but it could be worse” yeah it could be I could’ve broken a rib. Thank god I didn’t. Ive worn sports tape (Also a bad idea don’t do that) and those binders feel exactly like that.

So please, I beg of you, don’t buy those shitty binders and don’t use ace bandages and don’t use sports tape. Please save your future self. I know it’s hard, trust me I go through it everyday, but YOUR SAFETY COMES FIRST. GC2B and Underworks are great companies created by transguys that make great quality binders that are super comfy and safe. If you need the money just ask the transguy/trans masculine community like me and some other people will go out of our way to give you money for a safe binder. Please.

Ultimate passing tips list for pre-t transguys (and some other tips too)

Yes passing is a social construct yada yada yada but if you want some tips to look like a average joe cis male and pass for say bathroom situations or in public this is for you. I know you can wear whatever you want and do whatever you want but these things can help you pass if that’s what you want. This is info I’ve gathered over the years and stuff I’ve learnt myself too so i thought i’d put them in one place. 

This stuff works for me, i pass all the time basically even if i am perceived as a younger guy that’s fine by me.

its pretty lengthy so the topics are facial hair, hair, jaw, voice, height, hips, packing, binding, swimming, working out, foods, body language, clothes and bathrooms.

Keep reading

I am the flag of the United States of America
My name is Old Glory.

I fly atop the world’s tallest buildings.
I stand watch in America’s halls of justice.
I fly majestically over great institutes of learning.
I stand guard with the greatest military power in the world.
Look up! And see me!

I stand for peace, honor, truth, and justice.
I stand for freedom.
I am confident … I am arrogant.
I am proud.

When I am flown with my fellow banners,
my head is a little higher,
my colors a little truer.

I bow to no one.
I am recognized all over the world.
I am worshipped.
I am saluted.
I am respected.
I am revered. I am loved.
And I am feared.

I have fought every battle of every war for more than 200 years…
Gettysburg, Shilo, Appomatox, San Juan Hill, the trenches of France,
the Argonne Forest, Anzio, Rome, the beaches of Normandy,
the deserts of Africa, the cane fields of the Philippines,
the rice paddies and jungles of Guam, Okinawa, Japan, Korea, Vietnam,
and a score of places long forgotten by all but those who were with me.

I was there!

I led my soldiers.
I followed them.
I watched over them…
They loved me.
I was on a small hill in Iwo Jima.
I was dirty, battle-worn and tired,
but my soldiers cheered me,
and I was proud.

I have been soiled, burned, torn and trampled on the streets of countries
I have helped set free.
It does not hurt … for I am invincible.
I have been soiled, burned, torn and trampled on the streets of my country,
and when it is by those with whom I have served in battle … it hurts.
But I shall overcome … for I am strong.

I have slipped the bonds of Earth
and stand watch over the uncharted new frontiers of space
from my vantage point on the moon.

I have been a silent witness to all of America’s finest hours.
But my finest hour comes
when I am torn into strips to be used for bandages
for my wounded comrades on the field of battle.
when I fly at half mast to honor my soldiers…
and when I lie in the trembling arms
of a grieving mother at the graveside of her fallen son.

I am proud.
My name is Old Glory.
Dear God … Long may I wave!

PSA

I want to address something I’ve been hearing a lot of lately. Several of the people who have entered the binder giveaway have said they currently are using ace bandages and other harmful things to bind in the meantime. 

I will say this again, as many times as I have to:

DO NOT BIND WITH ACE BANDAGES, TAPE, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT. Guys PLEASE listen to me, it is SO DANGEROUS.

1) You WILL (no maybes, you WILL) cause SEVERE damage to your breast tissue which 1)is very painful and 2) will DISQUALIFY YOU FROM ANY FUTURE TOP SURGERY. Check with a doctor if you don’t believe me.

2) It WILL damage your lungs over time if they are continuously constricted like this. A binder spreads the compression over a large area, bandages have it concentrated just across your chest where important things like BREATHING happen.

3) It puts a dangerous amount of pressure on your rib cage. It is entirely possible to crack a rib doing this. Y’all I promise that shit HURTS and then you can forget ANY kind of binding for months, likely.

If you don’t believe me or think I’m being over dramatic or think it won’t happen to you, I promise you it can.

I know it’s hard being stuck in a body that does not fit, but it’s still the only one you get so take care of it. Please. You’ll be ok one day, you’ll see. You are strong and valid and beautiful and loved (by me at least)

be happy, stay excellent <3

-Murphy

Trans Guys | Bind Kinder 

The use of ace bandages for binding is not only extremely uncomfortable, its dangerous. 

Ace bandages contract around the ribcage, not allowing your ribcage to expand as you breathe, furthermore, putting you at risk for deformed ribs from prolonged use, as well as broken rib bones. 

Always use a binder, which is specifically designed for binding and shaping the chest. 

Can’t afford a binder? contact Aydian Dowling at point5ccclothing@gmail.com and get a binder for supporting a great organization and great cause. 

If you donate to the .5cc Surgery Fund or purchase a tee shirt from .5cc clothing company, you can get a free binder. 

  • Kit: hey Ty, do you have a bandage?
  • Kit: *grins* cause I grazed my knees falling for you.
  • Ty: *takes out stele* We don't use bandages for those types of injuries but I can give you an iratze.
  • Kit: ...
First Con Tips

-Bring lots of water

-Buying your tickets online can be a wise move

-Try to accumulate yourself to wearing wigs before the con

-NEVER USE ACE BANDAGES TO BIND

-Don’t cosplay shame

-Don’t let yourself be cosplay shamed

-Bring as much money as you can

-Eyeliner looks good on everyone, no matter what gender your character is

-Whatever can go wrong with your costume will go wrong

-Take a stupid amount of selfies with your new con friends

-Seal whatever body paint you may have on

-Try to avoid playing with other people’s props

-Ask before taking pictures of or hugging fellow cosplayers

-Be confident and have fun!!

(Add if I missed anything)

RFA Babysits RFA’s Kid

Hope I got this right. Enjoy! 
Expect two to three updates today! Why? I’ve been slacking ^^”


Zen

  • Jaehee and MC have been working so hard.
  • Zen wanted to do something nice so he offered to babysit while they went on a date.
  • Zen loves your girls’ son.
  • Zen shows him his motorcycle.
  • After the kid begged to go on it, and a lot of hesitation, Zen agreed.
  • But only once around the block, at a slow speed, and with helmets.
  • Cause if something happened, Jaehee would kill him.
  • Zen gets called in for work a quick reshoot.
  • Zen takes your kid with him.
  • The kid is in awe!
  • “Uncle, Zen! You look so cool! The way you fought that bad guy and saved the girl! Teach me to fight like that!”
  • Zen laughed and told him when he’s a little older, he wouldn’t mind teaching him acting. But for now he should learn how to protect the ladies in his life, his mothers!
  • He goes back to MC and Jaehee a little more more protective.
  • A day later, he asked for a white jacket, like Zen’s.

Yoosung

  • Zen and MC had to shoot a little further than usual so they asked Yoosung to pick up their daughter after school and watch her for a bit.
  • She’s shy at first so it was hard for Yoosung to bond with her.
  • But then he made her food.
  • She laughed at how funny his food looked but it was delicious!
  • Then he asked if she played video games.
  • No?! Well Yoosung will change that. He pulled out his ZiiU and taught her Bario Mart.
  • After a few rounds of losing, she seemed really frustrated. So they played one last round and Yoosung acted as her 2nd place driver. 
  • He took any damage any NPC threw. He drove in front when the Blue Shell was launched.
  • She had so much fun.
  • They built a pillow fort and Yoosung told stories of how Prince Zen saved MC from the evil Hacker. 
  • Zen’s daughter wanted to be saved by her dad too.
  • So Yoosung pretended to tie her up. And when Zen and MC came to pick her up, Zen understood immediately.
  • He acted like a prince and saved her from the evil Yoosung.
  • On your way home she asked, “Can we play with Uncle Yoosung tomorrow?”

Jumin

  • Saeyoung and MC were in a bit of a pickle cause their babysitter bailed.
  • Jumin was home so he offered this time.
  • Surely if they left the two girls with Jumin, they wouldn’t die… right?
  • These girls were curious about everything.
  • “Why is this fish tank so tall?” “What kind of name is Ellybeth?” “Why is the ceiling here so tall?” “What are those things?” “Why are you so tall?” 
  • Jumin didn’t know how to answer so many questions at once so he just calmly told them, “Her name is Elizabeth the 3rd.” *cackles*
  • How long has it been? Half an hour? Damn. This will be a long day.
  • So he takes the girl to a restaurant.
  • “Wow, we’ve never eaten anywhere so fancy!”
  • The girls start to pretend to be rich pompous old ladies.
  • Jumin finds it amusing and laughs. Direct hit! His laugh charms children!
  • He tells the girls to never be those ladies cause they are bad people.
  • “Don’t be rich?” 
  • “No, don’t marry for money.”
  • The younger daughter is smitten with Jumin and he think’s it’s cute.
  • He spends the day getting to know the girls and teaching them lessons.
  • They can only retain so much cause they’re like 5 and 7.
  • So they spend a lot of time mimicking Jumin and playing with Elly.
  • But the 5 year old tries to include Jumin in everything.
  • The day wasn’t so bad cause he felt like a father himself.
  • After tucking your kids in bed, the younger one asks “Does Uncle Jumin have a wife?”
  • You ask why and she tells you “Cause I wanna marry him!”
  • You hesitate a moment before calling out, “SAEYOUNG! BRING THE HOLY WATER!” 

Jaehee

  • Jumin wanted a day with MC. 
  • So he offered Jaehee more pay for babysitting.
  • Jaehee only agreed cause you wee stressed.
  • Jaehee offers him cake.
  • He asked if it was really okay? His dad would only let him eat what his nutritionist recommended.
  • She won’t tell if he won’t tell.
  • He saw Jaehee’s Judo trophies and asked her to teach him some moves.
  • She was really against it until he said he wanted to try it out on his dad.
  • She agreed only if he didn’t let his dad know she taught him.
  • Jaehee thought he would be difficult but she enjoyed every second with him.
  • MC later asked Jaehee about her son’s new behavior and she confessed she taught him.
  • MC laughed and asked Jaehee to babysit more often.
  • Jaehee happily agreed.

Seven

  • Yoosung and MC’s babysitter cancelled last minute.
  • Seven was so excited cause he had the day off and wanted to babysit.
  • This guy had too much energy for your child.
  • Your kid had to scold him to get a decent lunch and not chips.
  • Your kid felt like the babysitter instead of the other way around.
  • But when it comes to the dangerous things like cooking with fire and knives, he was serious.
  • And when your kid tripped and scraped their knee outside, he calmly disinfected the scrape and then put a bandage on it.
  • And another bandage. And another bandage. He even put bandages where there were no cuts, like your kids cheek.
  • When you and Yoosung came to pick your kid up you almost had a heart attack.
  • Why would someone use so many bandages!
  • Your kid asked to go back at least once a week and would cry when he is busy.
  • So Saeyoung visits from time to time.