upstate dreaming

There’s an old church for sale upstate, and it’s my DREAM HOME, but Will says I can’t have it because he thinks I’ll fill the pews with wild animals and start some kind of deer cult.

This wasn’t a conclusion he came to after a few minutes of riffing about weird shit I might get up to in a church in the middle of nowhere, by the way. This was his immediate concern.

anonymous asked:

Marliza Married/Domestic AU? Please and thanks!


  • Their days would be filled with music and soft kisses, they’d have matching wedding and engagement rings (Eliza would have a sapphire and Maria would have a ruby) 
  • Eliza would end up teaching music at a charter school while Maria becomes a social worker who sings on the side
  • They find their dream house upstate in the quiet green sides of New York but are still close enough to visit the city
  • They adopt kids Maria falls for while she’s social working
  • Maria also speaks up against Abusive Relationships and surviving Abuse
  • She writes a book
  • Eliza is so proud of her wife

and I’m fucking crying because I love them holyshit


Wildest Dreams

Pairing: Luke Hemmings & (y/n)
Rating: Mature content, please do not read if this makes you uncomfortable, or if you are too young to do so!
Words: 5,000
Request: No
Summary: Actress (Y/N) and actor Luke Hemmings form a secret relationship together while on set of their movie.


Light rain cascaded onto the blacktop leaving puddles in its wake. Few leaves were scattered on the ground being that it was late October, the leaves were each unique in their own way. Some were beautiful shades of red or orange, and then there was the common dull brown ones. Fall was a beautiful time back home. Here in New York City there weren’t many trees for leaves to fall from, unless you were in central park.

I observed the leaves and the rain puddles from the back seat of the black town car. The windows were deeply tinted so no passerby’s could see in, but I could see them. I was especially jealous of the couples who were walking hand in hand down the sidewalk sharing an umbrella together without a care in the world. I wanted to do that with Luke. I wanted nothing more than to show the world my love and devotion for Luke Hemmings.

It started sweet and innocent enough we were both assigned to the same movie, each of us starring as main characters, the director noted we had instant chemistry and things took off from there. I blame the director; Jeff as we referred to him, he had a vision that involved steamier scenes that were not included within the written script. I had not signed up for so many sex related scenes with Luke, but that is what I received.

With a sigh I smoothed out my black dress that fell right at my thighs before rubbing my red lips together as I patiently waited for Luke.

Finally Luke came out wearing his lovely gray suit and tie before sliding next to me in the black town car. With a large grin Luke leaned over the consul to inform our driver we were ready to leave. Turning around Luke looked over my outfit before sighing a breath of relief. “Hi baby girl.” His raspy voice whispered before he leaned in to kiss my cheek as the car began to drive off into the distance. “Hi, you look good.” I nodded my head in approval before he brought me to sit in his lap. His firm hands held my body on top of his as he began to peck light kisses onto my neck. “Luke, what are you—“

“Ssh (Y/N), let me show you how good you make me feel.” Luke whispered sensually causing a sigh to fall from my lips as I rested my head on top of his. Luke had the ability to make me feel as if I was the only girl in the world. He removed one hand from my hips and moved it to my thigh massaging lightly as he sucked on the skin of my neck.

A quiet but audible buzz sang from Luke’s pocket as my now alert eyes looked down to his. “Luke, are you going to get that?” I asked swallowing my fear because I already knew the answer.

“Yeah, I guess.” He mumbled before he sat me back down on the seat next to him. With a pout I disconnected from Luke as his eyes looked sadly into mine. He knew that this affected me but still he made no effort to stop it. Picking up his phone he placed it to his ear before announcing softly, “Hey, babe.”

Sienna was Luke’s long time girlfriend who also happened to be an actress. She was made of pure beauty and had captured Luke’s heart as well as his fans hearts a longtime ago. From what Luke told me she wasn’t all she was made out to be. Sienna was selfish; always putting her wants and desires over Luke’s and everybody else’s. She was possessive, never wanting him to leave her sight at public events and she defined a whole new meaning to the word controlling. In my opinion I thought Luke should just call it quits with Sienna, but then again I extremely was biased.

With a irritated huff I began focusing on breathing in and out in an effort to calm myself as I looked out the window to the see the streets still glistened with rain and the leaves crunching underneath tires of cars that whished by. I saw more couples lining the sidewalks most likely to see the Rockefeller Christmas tree, with Starbucks cup in hand. I dreamed that Luke and I would be able to have that one day, a real relationship, not just a secret relationship.

His phone call dragged on per usual as it normally does. Sienna loves to talk about herself so Luke was constantly being subjected to hour long phone calls on everything from what new makeup she was wearing, where she had been shopping recently, what her exes were up to and so on and so forth.

I was the other woman, this was true. But I did not mean to fall for Luke Hemmings, it just happened. The guilt consumed me more times than not. Luke knew I felt guilty, I constantly told him we should stop, that if he loved Sienna he would stop and be loyal to her, but he always came back to me, whispering sweet and sensual things in my ear causing me to lose my ground on staying away from him.

The car drove further out of the city causing me to furrow my freshly plucked eyebrows, “Luke, where are we going?” A sexy sly smile appeared on the face I adored so much as he rubbed his chin that held his scruff before looking out of the window, “It’s a surprise.”

June (Flashback)

“Let me take you home, (Y/N).” Luke asked while holding my hips steadying me from falling in my heels. “My driver can come, it’s really not a big deal.”

“Please, (Y/N), I need to know you will get home safe.” His slurred words somehow made his voice even sexier causing me to nod my head in response allowing myself to exit the club with Luke Hemmings.

Together we ran into the street giggling as we tried to duck and covered our faces from the paparazzi all around us. Once we entered the black town car I couldn’t help but giggle to see a now flustered Luke who adjusted his flannel shirt. “Sienna won’t like those pictures at all.” I said through a laugh.

With a roll of his eyes Luke laughed as well, “Oh well, who cares, right?” Nodding my head feeling the alcohol coarse through my veins I nodded in agreement, even though in actuality I did not agree with this statement. I sat silently next to him fighting the urge to keep my mouth shut, I knew the moment I opened my mouth about it Luke and I would argue about what we always argued about, but my drunken state kept my brain from using my filter. “You should care actually, you two are in a relationship…”

“It’s not the same though… She’s changed, I’ve changed.” Luke’s voice was stern as it usually was on this topic. “It’s not what it used to be.” He replied rubbing his chin scruff as he let out a long sigh. Moving closer to where he was I cuddled into him resting my head on his shoulder. “If you’re not happy then you need to talk to her.” Luke didn’t reply but instead kissed the top of my head and I could only hope that his lack of response was that he agreed with me.

The town car came to a stop outside of my penthouse, luckily the paparazzi hadn’t followed us so we were both able to shuffle out and walk into the building. My heels clicked across the floor as I reached to press the elevator button, Luke rested a hand on my waist before leaning into my ear, “Let me take your shoes off, I don’t want you to fall.” Giving him the okay nod of approval, Luke bent down and removed each one of my heels before holding them in his hands. “Is that better, sweetie?” He leaned in and gave me a sweet kiss on the lips causing my insides to bubble with warmth. “Mhmm.” The elevator doors slid open and Luke followed me in as we waited for the elevator to take us to my penthouse. 

As soon as the elevator doors opened to my penthouse the mood changed instantly. Luke tossed my Louboutins to the floor as he picked me up causing my legs to wrap around his waist. “Luke! Those are expensive.”

“I’ll buy you more, sweetheart.” His lips smashed into mine with an incredible force, he backed me into the wall before allowing his tongue into my mouth to massage my own tongue causing a moan to vibrate both of our tongues. “Luke, we shouldn’t…” I pulled away to break the kiss already missing the feeling of his lips on mine, his taste was a craving I couldn’t shake. With a sigh Luke rested his forehead onto mine before closing his eyes. “Honey, we’ve discussed this.”

Again, I know that Luke reassured me once again in the car that things with him and Sienna weren’t the same, that they were slowly in the process of falling out of love, but I still felt guilty. I wouldn’t want someone to do this to me, but Luke kept reassuring me that it would work out, that time would separate them at the right time so they would not have bad blood, and that time would find a way for us to be together. I wanted to trust him, but I still felt like shit for having a part in breaking up their relationship.

I swallowed knowing exactly what would happen next. “But-“ I mumbled before Luke’s angry baby blue eyes shot open. “You can’t keep blaming yourself for her faults! I don’t love her anymore, that’s an issue between me and her, not you. I want you (Y/N). Please understand that.”

How could I understand this? Luke told me he wanted me, he would call me, we would hang out, we would have sex every chance we got, I knew that what we had was more than a friends with benefits situation, but I wanted to be his completely, and that couldn’t happen as long as Sienna was in the picture. Luke was adamant on giving it time, but I wanted him now. With my head swirling with drunken thoughts I decided in that moment that in order to have him now I would need to forget about Sienna, or else he would drop me before we even had a chance.

“You’re right, baby. Let’s not discuss her again.” And my lips met his once more and I could feel him smile into our kiss.

Watching the town car ride north from Manhattan on the interstate I knew exactly where we were headed. Upstate New York was a common getaway for Luke and I. It was an escape from the bright lights of Manhattan, the paparazzi and the fans, and the girl I promised to forget about it who was in the buried deep in the back of my mind. “Upstate?” My voice was enthusiastic, as I turned to Luke whose blue eyes sparkled in the dark car that was illuminated by the lights of passing cars around us.

“You’re too good.” I scooted closer to him leaving kisses on the shell of his ear before moving to  kiss his cheek and down to his jaw. His scruff hadn’t been shaved in quiet some time since we wrapped up our filming of the movie we had been working on together and I had to say it looked sexy on him. The tiny hairs tickling my lips as I kissed up and down his face.

Upstate New York was the one place Luke and I could be together alone and happy. Right before we began seeing each other he had bought a place in a suburban town as a getaway from the bright lights and hectic nature of New York. Thankfully for us Sienna was not a suburban girl, she would much rather be in Los Angeles which was where she was 90% of the time. The other 10% she spent with Luke in New York. Which is how we came to this predicament, we spent more time together and we had similar likes in regards to location. Sienna was a fish out of water when it came to Luke, yet they remained together.

Memories flooded my brain of the times Luke and I had spent in Upstate doing activities normal couples could do, we went apple picking, held hands in the small town park, got takeout and ate on the couches in front of the television. Life was complete and we could act like we were a real couple in Upstate. But it was only a weekend getaway.

Every time we left the city and entered the paradise I had grown to love I had the burning feeling in my stomach as a constant reminder that we were only mere hours away of returning to the city leaving our paradise behind.

Twirling my hair and biting my lip, a nervous habit, Luke’s intense gaze sent me back into reality. Luke provided a faint smile before leaning in to cup my face in his large hand. “I can tell you are stressing. You stress too much, go to sleep and relax.” Luke pecked my forehead with his soft pale pink lips. I let out a satisfied sigh taking him up on his offer and allowed myself to rest my head on his lap stretching the rest of my body on the backseat as Luke’s calloused fingertips began to stroke my hair nulling me off into dreamland.

“(Y/N), wake up.” Luke was smiling down on me his hand twined in my hair as I opened my sleep filled eyes. I let out a large yawn as I sat up in the seat taking in my surroundings. We were here in the bliss of Luke’s getaway house I smiled before leaning over and kissing Luke on his perfect lips as he returned the kiss but broke away smiling, “As much as I love kissing you, we should probably take this inside.” His blue crystal eyes shone to me with excitement as we both practically jumped out of the car. Luke gave a wave to his driver before taking my hand and leading us to the front of the house.

As soon as the front door shut with a click, Luke turned to me and his eyes became a deeper shade of blue, “Upstairs, go to the bed.” With a excited grin I lead the way to the master suite swaying my hips as I went up the steps. The house smelled just as I remembered it from the last visit, it smelled of fresh pine, spices, and a hint of vanilla. It reminded me of Luke, and somehow this place had grown to feel like a second home.

Reaching the master door suite I turned the door slowly before looking back at Luke with a sly lust filled grin. Hopefully he was feeling his dominant ways tonight, it had been so long since we had been able to be intimate with each other. Many times we had snuck into closets and each others dressing rooms to get a quickie here and there but being on a movie set made it difficult. There were people literally everywhere all of the time. We couldn’t escape together for long periods of time without attracting attention, and attention would damage our secret relationship.

I turned to see Luke had gone over to the bedside end table where he lit a candle that smelled of the beach, an interesting scent mixture to the already existing smell of the house, but I couldn’t careless. I just wanted Luke to myself. Wasting no time I walked up to Luke fluttering my eyelashes causing him to groan at the mere sight of me. “Unzip me?” I asked seductively before turning my back to him exposing the back of my neck as I collected my long curled hair into my hands. “Mhmm, my pleasure.” Luke whispered against my skin, his hot breath warmed my insides as he scattered kissed along my neck while slowly unzipping the back of my dress. 

After unzipping the dress he helped me shrug it off my shoulders and let it fall into a pool on the ground. Now I stood before him with my back turned to him in a set of sexy black lingerie that he had purchased for me a few weeks ago. “Well don’t you look beautiful.” Luke pressed kisses down my spine meanwhile firmly cupping my cheeks in his hands. He pressed his growing erection into my back causing my breath to hitch in my mouth before I spun around to face him quickly grabbing his face and pulling him down to kiss my lips. It had been so long since I last sucked his cock it was literally clouding every single judgment I had. “Let me suck your cock, please.” I begged once I broke away from our kiss. 

“Of course.” He winked causing wetness to form already in my panties as I got Luke out of his dress pants and boxers before pushing him down on the bed. My mouth practically drooled upon seeing his red erection staring me in the face. Had he gotten bigger since the last time I saw him? Although I believe that to be physically impossible he sure did look scrumptious. Licking my lips I reached down to peck the tip of his cock before licking over the silt. The salty taste of pre-cum entering my mouth made me sigh with pleasure. Just as I was about to slide my mouth down on his hard rock member Luke halted my actions, “Wait baby,” I looked up at him with wide eyed confusion, “What?” But Luke was reaching over to the end table where the candle was and reached into the drawer pulling out a black hair tie.

Sitting up Luke grabbed my hair into a messy ponytail that was sure to leave knots later, but he receives an A for effort before tying my hair up for me before kissing my forehead and lying back down on the bed. “Now I don’t have to worry about messing up your perfect hair.” With a large grin I sunk my mouth down on his erection lightly bobbing my mouth up and down to get him as sexually frustrated as I was. Luke let out a hoarse moan as I used my tongue to pay close attention to the blue vein that appeared on the underside of his cock.

“Fuck yes, (Y/N). I’ve missed your perfect mouth so much.” Luke moaned as I continued my work on him feeling myself get hornier and hornier by the second. I don’t know what it was specifically that made fucking him with my mouth so erotic, but it never failed to act as a great foreplay to what was going to come later.

Luke tugged at my bra unclasping it and letting it fall off my chest as he began to flick my nipples causing an audible moan to be heard while simultaneously vibrating his cock. Luke’s head flew back into the fluffy white pillows as he let out a soft moan causing his mouth to fall open and he formed an “O” with those perfect lips.

Allowing my jaw to take a rest before I gave it to him good I removed myself from him and allowed my hand to help him out as I gave a few kitten licks to his slit collecting new juices before giving attention to his balls. “Holy shit, (Y/N).” Luke moaned as I massaged his balls with my mouth, now it was time for the game changer. I slid my mouth back onto him before I began to deep throat him, just like we had practiced.

“Fuck yes!” Luke cried out, sweat beading on his forehead as I gave him what I could only hope would be one of the greatest blowjobs of his entire life. Luke was a panting mess before me as I continued to give him what he desired, I continued to bob on him before I felt Luke began to twitch against my mouth. “I’m gonna cum.” Luke cried out before hot spurts of cum flew into my mouth as I continued to suck him off.

Finally he stopped twitching inside of my mouth and I made sure to clean his cock off with my tongue before swallowing all of his juices before releasing his member as I collapsed beside him on the bed.

“(Y/N), that was absolutely incredible, thank you so much my perfect girl.” He collected me into his arms, pulling me into his sweaty chest and cuddling into me. Luke was clearly wore out as I had expected from all of the amount of cum I just swallowed down, but I was still horny and needed him to fix this problem as soon as possible. “Luke, I need you.” I whined. 

“I know baby girl, but you just gave me an earth shattering orgasm, give me a minute.” Luke replied before he began stroking his member once again. It was probably painful after what he had just endured but I needed him more than I could have ever thought was possible. 

Finally Luke sat up before climbing on top of me and pulling my panties down. I went to kick off my black t-strap heels but he shook his head. “Keep those on.” I nodded before he slid my panties off around my heels before he spread my legs out for him on the bed. “Mhmm, prettiest pussy ever.” He mumbled to himself before he began to tease me by running his fingers up and down my thighs. My legs spread wider in an attempt to make him hurry up and please me but he just shook his head. Of course he had to be stubborn.

“Patience, baby, patience.” He kissed up and down my stomach before reaching my chest. His tongue grazed over my left nipple before lightly sucking while his hand went to squeeze my right breast. “Pretty everything.” He announced over me his hot minty breath sending chills to my core. I needed him bad.

He dropped to my waist before allowing his tongue to graze over my slit causing a moan to escape my lips.

“Luke, please, faster.” I whined as I bucked my hips into his wanting more friction, a faster pace, and for him to be deeper inside of me but he shook his head. “No, I don’t want to give it to you rough, not tonight.”

Together we cuddled into each other under the covers in silence. Who knew that vanilla sex with Luke would lead me to have two orgasms? I smiled to myself curling into Luke’s warm body feeling the sweat on his chest. But once my body started to cool off from the physical activity a chill began to run through my body causing goose bumps to form on my arms. “Cold?” Luke asked raising an eyebrow as he rubbed my arms up and down to create friction. “A little.” I replied with a laugh. With a quick peck to my hair Luke was up and walking towards his closet where he pulled out a flannel shirt for me to put on. 

“I love you, (Y/N).” Luke whispered into my hair causing my insides to melt into one. “I love you too, Luke.” 

Early November

I had been sitting at my kitchen island counter for almost an hour looking down at the package before me. It had come at noon and now it was one in the afternoon and I was still just looking at it dumbfounded. The package contained one thing, my Burberry plaid scarf. It was a nice scarf, one that I had missed terribly when I couldn’t find it. But now that it was sitting on my counter as a content of this package I didn’t want anything to do with it.

A handwritten note had also came with this package. The handwriting immediately making me gasp as I picked it up to read it.


I’m taking a wild guess that this is yours. It is just easier to mail it back to you since you won’t be seeing Luke any time soon.

-       Sienna 

An array of emotions had overtaken my nervous system leaving me without the ability to comprehend what had just happened or to even form words. She knew about Luke, and somehow she made it so he wouldn’t be seeing me again. Did she know that he loved me? Probably not. One tear feel from my left eye before I decided I shouldn’t worry if I had not even talked to Luke yet. For all I know Luke could have broken up with her and she was just going crazy. 

An unanswered call from Luke, confirmed my suspicions. The tall handsome bad boy I knew better than to get involved with had chose his maiden, and much to my dismay it wasn’t me.

Late November

“Luke, how could you?” I whispered with tears falling from my eyes. I had never felt so betrayed in my entire life. My stomach was in knots and I wasn’t sure if I was going to pass out, throw up, or spontaneously combust right at this very moment. Flustered, Luke ran a hand through his blond messy hair at an attempt to alleviate stress but his eyes showed his anxiety was still there. “It wasn’t fair, I had to pick.”

“Excuse me?” I mumbled barely even hearing my own voice. I could feel my eyes squinting causing a vicious glare to be shown at the object of my complete emotional breakdown. “What?” Luke asked with his head cocked to the side. I didn’t respond, instead I allowed my fingernails to dig into the palms of my hands. “I’m sorry, I couldn’t hear you-“ Luke said with a look of confusion written across his face.  “Fuck you.” I snarled. 

“You said you didn’t love her anymore! You said you wanted me!” I yelled as tears spilled from my eyes drenching my face. Usually I would be concerned about my make-up but I was so distressed I couldn’t think about anything other than Luke and her. 

“I’m sorry! It wasn’t exactly easy for me either!” Luke screamed back to which angered me even more. “It wasn’t easy for you?! It was your fucking idea!” I exclaimed as I shoved his chest so I could walk around him to exit the bathroom. “Are you crazy! Don’t hit me.” Luke said with a sigh. “Let’s talk it out, okay?” 

“You want to talk, Luke? Let’s talk about how you manipulated me. You told me you didn’t love her,  that things wouldn’t last between the two of you. You told me you wanted me, to forget about her, that I made you happy, that I was everything to you. You told me you loved me. Now, you tell me you’re engaged to her?”

“It’s a lot to take in I get it.” Luke sighed as he ran his hand through his hair. But I couldn’t take it any more, the sobs had wracked my body now and I was incapable of forming words. He was everything to me for these past few months I lived, breathed, and dreamed of Luke Hemmings. Now it was Luke Hemmings who had shattered my ego, dignity, and my hope into miniscule pieces. I leaned against the wall before sliding down to the ground allowing the uncontrollable sobs I was producing to engulf me.

I sat there and cried with knees to my chest, arms folded on top of my knees, and my head on my arms, and cried until I was incapable of producing tears. “I’m so sorry, (Y/N).” Luke spoke with a few tears sliding down his cheek. “Just go now, please.” I begged and so he left. I thought I would feel relief having the boy who crushed me leave me to be in complete and utter disarray alone but the loneliness was even a bigger presence now than it had been before, it that was even possible.


The night of the premier had finally arrived, an event I had been dreading for an entire month. Luckily I was able to work out a schedule with everyone for promotional events, Luke and I did everything separately which was extremely uncommon for actors in a romantic movie to do, but I refused to show up knowing he would be there. This was the one event I could not convince them to let me skip out on. 

Luke followed me out of the premier, I could hear his footsteps crashing on the marble floor running after me, but I ran faster even in my heels. “(Y/N), wait up!” He called but I ignored him pushing the door to lead outside so I could get the hell out of here. Cool crisp air hit my flushed face as I stepped outside into the New York City streets as Luke finally caught up with me he rested a hand on my shoulder causing me to spin around in his direction shooing him a wicked glare. “I’m sorry (Y/N), you meant so much to me and I was an idiot… I-“ Luke shook his head as he cleared his throat his blue eyes I once adored so much I had actually memorized to the point they were vivid in my dreams began to form tears, “Maybe if you would let me, we could try-“

“In your wildest dreams.” I shrugged his hand off my shoulder and walked down to the black town car waiting for me erasing any memory of Luke Hemmings.