Warnings: Some offensive terms regarding LGBT+ orientations. (I fully support the LGBT+ community, I promise.) and a couple curses. I tried to censor all that. and maybe I might have some bad grammar every now and then, sorry.
A/N: A while back, I deleted all of my writing because I was having a bad day, and I really felt like I needed to start over. No one really seemed to notice so I guess that’s good that I didn’t make anyone upset? If you want me to bring one of them back, please let me know. Hope this thing isn’t crap, and know that I love to all so much. Thank you for supporting me and staying with me. You guys are incredible. I hope you enjoy what I try to provides my beautifuls. 💚
That’s all I wanted. That’s all I needed.
Today was absolutely miserable.
This morning, I slept through my alarm clock, so I barely had time to do my morning routine, while trying to whip up something for breakfast. The eggs I had on the stove burst into flames while I was in the middle of drying my face, so I completely panicked. I removed the frying pan on the stove but my shaking hands dropped a good portion of the food onto the burner. I dumped the pan into the sink and turned on the water. The only thing I heard was a loud sizzle and I closed my eyes and hung my head back in annoyance.
My senses jolted like crazy when a sudden crack scared the crap out of me. The cord to the coffee machine melted under the heat of the pan and shocked under the water. I bolted and slammed into the counter as I jumped to shut off the water, as one last (and fairly loud) crack resonated from the damn machine. It was definitely broken and I could already tell today was going to be a terrible day.
Traffic was a mess. There was a crash ahead of a long line of cars, and I was not in the mood to wait. But at least it wasn’t me in the crash.
I arrived to work a good half hour late and my boss flipped out. Whatever. She rambled on and on about how I have to be at work as soon as possible and all that.
“-and this is the last time. I’m not giving you any more second chances!”
You never gave me any chances to begin with, but okay. “Yes ma'am,” I replied boredly, and ambled over to my cubicle.
My co-worker, who sat right next to me gave his traditional exaggerated gag at me. He’s never been too “supportive” of my relationship, to put things nicely. I let out a deep exhale, followed by an eyeroll.
“Hello to you too,” making sure to drag out my sarcasm. ‘Asshole’, I wanted to add on the end.
“Your presence is so displeasing to be around,”
“Thanks. I try.”
“Why are you always like this?!” he stood up, and yelled angrily.
“Always like what? A human being?” I replied as calmly as I could.
“You homosexuals think you can just do or say whatever the hell you want? Because it makes you ‘sassy’ and ‘appreciable’ instead of so damn irritating?!” he spat at me. His disgusting saliva hit my pant leg. As ready as I was to knock him out with a single blow, I couldn’t loose my job, despite how much I hated every bit of it. I slowly grabbed a tissue and began wiping it off.
“You’re really pathetic, you know? You’re too much of a coward to fight back! Is that why you call yourself ‘queer’?” he mocked quotation marks with his hands. “Because you couldn’t find a single man who was interested in you?? That you were such a desperate wh*re for a good time, you paid a sl*t to be with you?”
My chest rose and lowered heavily with irritation, and I felt the bridge of my nose begin to heat up. My eyebrows furrowed down in complete anger as I clenched my knuckles in some way to lower my temper. I dug my thumbnail into my palm to distract me from his lashing out.
“You and your imaginary 'identity’ and 'girlfriend’ are all going to rot in hell! And a good riddance too. The world could use one less dyk-”
I’m pretty sure I dislocated his jaw, and knocked out a few teeth. He fell to the floor, hand flying to his mouth. His eyes were tightened shut and he let out a small sob. All my frustration left through my fist and into his face. I instantly regretted my decision, but at the same time I didn’t. I was not going to have any more of his bullsh*t.
“Who’s pathetic now, asshole??” I felt so relieved after such a quick turn of events. But that relief turned into regret. I knew what came next as I heard the approaching of clicking heels.
“What did I just say??” my boss yelled in utter distress. She screamed my last name. I flinched, because of the sudden volume change. “This was your last chance! You’re fired! I want all of your stuff out of here by tomorrow morning!” she screeched. I let that built up flame in me turn into a blazing inferno.
“I’m glad to leave this dump anyways!” I scoffed, “Good luck without me! Have fun with that 20% drop in profits!” I pulled a box out from under my desk and started slamming my things into it, laughing maniacally, “And you,” I turned my attention to the moaning pile of pity on the floor. Bloody drool was oozing out of his mouth and staining the scratchy carpeting, “hope that divorce is going well! I heard she re-married the guy she cheated on you with!”
I grabbed my box of things and sped towards the exit. I didn’t dare look back.
I made my way to my car and shoved my box of items in the trunk. I drove home angrily, not wanting to think of past events. Once I pulled into my driveway, I didn’t get out of my car. I looked to my side and saw Jazz’s car. Right, today’s her day off. I froze, and completely broke down. I dropped my forehead onto the wheel and the horn let out a long honk.
“What the hell did I just do??” I cried to myself. I held my head in my hands in disappointment and let it all out. The one thing I regretted the most was that I’d still need to return to that sad place one last time to finish up all of my unanswered paperwork and end things finally. I hit my palm into my forehead while muttering “stupid, stupid, stupid” over and over.
It took me a good amount of time, and a lot of heavy sighs to heave myself out of the car and to the door. I placed my box down on the ground and fumbled through my purse for my keys. As soon as I’d pulled them out of my bag, they slipped out of my trembling hands and into the box of clamored items. I took a moment to smack my hand against my face, then after a sharp inhale, I dug my arm into the box and scrambled around for those goddamn keys. After managing to cut my arm against a sharp object, I retrieved my keys and opened the door.
I was greeted with the angelic voice of my girlfriend humming a tune I believe she improvised. She noticed me immediately and walked over. Her face read happiness but suddenly cut to worry once she saw my box.
“Oh, baby,” she took the box and placed it on the nearest table and engulfed me in a warm, loving embrace. I couldn’t help jerk out a small cry. She rubbed her arm up and down my back soothingly.
“It’s okay baby, it’s okay,” she reassured. Her voice was gentle and soft. I couldn’t help but feel my sadness lift. Everything about her just seemed to make my mood fade away. I held her tighter. Of all the things I lost today, my time, my breakfast, my temper, my job, I sure as hell was not going to lose my girlfriend.
She was the only thing right about today.
“Do you want to talk about it, baby? Do you need to let it out?” she brought her arm up over my shoulder.
I nodded. “Maybe,” I choked, “maybe in a minute. I just need this right now,” I mumbled.
“Take all the time you need baby,” she loosened her grip the slightest and led me to sit down on the couch. She closed the door and sat next to me, encasing her arms over my shoulders once more. I leaned onto her shoulders, letting a few tears slide down my cheeks.
“I’ve been having the worst luck, Jazz,” I sniffled.
“It’s okay, babe-”
“No it’s not,” I shut my eyes as the muscles in my mouth contorted into a painful frown, “Jazz, I lost my job,” I whispered.
“You didn’t lose your job, they lost their best, and most hard working employee,” her hand rubbed circles into my side. My frustration and anxiety seemed to melt at her touch.
“I promised myself I wouldn’t let him,” I growled out, “freaking him bother me. I promised myself he wouldn’t affect me, and I totally just-”
“Babe, what did you do?”
I sniffed and closed my mouth. I cut the conversation in silence. The house was quiet other than the low vibrating sound of the air conditioner. Jasmine rested her cheek on the top on my head, while she adjusted her arms so one was over my shoulder and the other was around my waist. Then I decided to speak.
“..I might’ve punched him,” I squeaked.
Jazz let out a breathy chuckle.
“That’s my girl!” she laughed aloud.
That damn contagious laugh. I tried to stifle a giggle.
“No, Jazz, I lost my job because of that!”
“Who cares? That d*ck got what he deserved!”
“I’ll admit that, yeah.”
We had a good, small laugh session. Then the fun started to die down. Once again, I couldn’t help but worry.
“Jazz,” I hesitated, “I-I lost my job..”
“Aw, baby, don’t worry about it. You were the best employee they’d ever dream of having. You’ll get such a better job in a matter of minutes!” she pressed a kiss against my cheek.
“You really think so?” I doubted.
“I know so. Babe, you’re the smartest, strongest, most talented person I’ll ever know.”
“Besides yourself,” I added jokingly.
She smirked, “I mean, if you insist.”
I gave her a little playful push. “How is it you know exactly how to make things better?”
“If it’s alright now, then there really was nothing that needed to get better,” she pressed her forehead against mine.
“Wise words of a wise woman,” I lifted my head up to connect our lips. When we disconnected, I just stared and smiled at the goddess I could claim as my own.
This makes everything right. The only acceptance I need is from my Jazzy. The only love I need is from my Jazzy. The only thing that’s right is my Jazzy.
“How about I call Pippa and Née over and we all go see a movie or something?”
“In a minute,” I wrapped my arms around her as she pulled me close once more, “can we just stay like this for a while?”
“Of course, baby”
“God, how did I get so lucky?”
“I ask myself that all the time.”
A hug from her was all I needed.
A long hug after a long day.
Constructive criticism is always appreciated :)
Here’s a comic and also a life update i scribbled out at 2am last night!! i’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and i Had To put it on paper. nothing quite like that life-after-graduating-conversation you have to have over and over again
Because I’m leaving for Iceland in a few weeks, I’ve been trying to write alot of fics. So far I have around 7 and two in progress of being written. I’m hoping to have over 10 pieces of work done so you guys are ok for the majority of my trip. So far I have written
- The Sequel for “Caught With Your Pants Down” - Poly Anti/Dark/Reader where they find out the reader had been abused by their parent. - Anti x reader where Anti loses control - Relationship with Lightiplier (Angel!Mark) Head-canons - Part 2 for “Intellectual Jealousy” - Host x reader where you have a bad day and Host makes it better - Part 4 (final) of the “Stolen Kiss” series
I hope to have a few more soon!!
P.S If you guys have any requests for the Septic-Egos Ii am currently accepting them because I need to balance out between Iplier and Septic Fics.