unnoteria

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Why I started drawing in general is an embarrassing story. I was reading W.I.T.C.H. as a teenager and really wanted to draw myself as one of the characters. A funny thing is I finally never did.

From time to time I draw a self-portrait. Sometimes they might be the only things I draw for weeks. Sounds narcissistic but kinda helps me connect with myself better or deal with stuff. And a self-portrait is always better than nothing at all. Am I right?

The ones above are placed in a chronological order.

The first one (happy with short hair) is from spring 2012. It was a really good time. I just got over some really crappy stuff and was finally happy. Like really happy. I plan on colouring it one day ‘cause the b&w just doesn’t show it as it should be. Part of my hair was pink back then :)

The second piece (in greys, inspired by the No Face character from an amazing anime - Spirited Away, which if you haven’t seen yet you should right away!) is from fall 2012. The happiness was long gone and replaced with anxiety and sadness. I made some very hard changes that inclouded hurting someone I never wanted to hurt in any way. But it was slowly heading for the better. Or at least I hoped so.

The last work is quite fresh (fall/winter 2013). My life has turned 180 degrees. But before that I had a major breakdown in February. Then a lot of struggle with what I wanted from my life or from myself. Now I feel better, even quite good. But not “good” or “perfect”. There is a lot of work ahead of me and I’m willing to do it, but it’s hard.

Hope the 2014 is good to me.