It just seemed to hit me again. I’m going away to college in a little over two weeks. Sure, I’ve been buying things for my dorm, looking up what books I’ll need for class, and seeing what all there is to do in my new college town, but I haven’t exactly thought of the reality of it all.
Just a few years ago, I watched as my older brother graduated high school and moved on to college. It seemed so far away for me, so far that I thought the day would never come. Well, I’ve graduated high school now. At the time I couldn’t actually believe it was happening and it still seems surreal. I won’t be going back to my high school I loved so dearly.
Now, I’m not saying I want to go back to high school. No, I want to go to college, but this whole growing up thing just seemed to sneak up on me. In four more short years, the same amount of time I thought could never pass during high school, I will be graduating from college about to go out into the real world. Yikes. Me in the real world.
Once, I was telling a friend that I couldn’t believe that I was going to college in the fall, and he shocked me by his response, just by the stone hard truth in it. He said something like, “why do people act surprised at the passing of time when it is literally one of the most predictable things in life.” If I think about it: I’m 18 years old. Most 18 year olds graduate high school. Most 18 year olds move on to college that same year. It should be quite obvious that it’s all going to happen to me as well, except that it’s not obvious. You get so caught up in the now and any future things seem so far away. After just a little bit, you slightly forget about those future things. You keep going on with your days, weeks, months, and then the things that were in the future are suddenly in the now. It kind of freaks you out, because the last time you seriously thought about them they were far in the future.
I should be fast asleep by now. Most people probably think I am, but I’m not. I was trying to sleep, but suddenly the floodgates of my mind were opened. Everything came rushing in, and I needed some way to help get it out. That’s where you come in. Thanks for listening.
Stay classy my friends.