“I feel like I’m in the wrong world. ‘Cause I don’t belong in a world where we don’t end up together. I don’t. There are parallel universes out there where this didn’t happen. Where I was with you and you were with me. And whatever universe that is, that’s the one where my heart lives in.” Comet, 2014
In this universe, we aren’t right for each other- and that’s okay, it’s okay because in other universes? We are never apart, never more perfect for each other, and we find one another no matter the circumstances. For that, I am grateful.
The poets say
shimmering and teeming and alive
I can not help but wonder,
if this is so,
how I can feel so completely
floating and soundless
barren of any thought or opinion of my own
void of anything
to set me apart from the dark
Just today alone, I’ve answered three asks/fanmails that were talking about the Higher Self and what exactly it is. I think the Source is trying to tell me something. It’s a commonly confused subject, since the Higher Self isn’t the spirit that travels outside of our body (consciously or subconsciously). I’ve tried to form the best explanation I can gather, with the help of some of my spiritual comrades too, and I’d be more than willing to add to this with input from anyone.
Let’s do this in question format, since that’s the easiest to format!
When I travel outside my body and I’m not aware of it, is that my Higher Self?
In this case, it isn’t your Higher Self that’s causing you to travel. This is your spirit just in another plane/dimension, that you consciously, as a spirit, chose to travel to. We can all exist in many dimensions at once, which I’ll explain in more detail below. Your Higher Self never leaves your internal being, but instead travels as a self inside yourself in all the ways you exist and every will exist. The Higher Self travels with you, as the internal intuitive force/Source connection, but is not the consciousness choosing to travel.
Then what is the Higher Self if it can’t leave my being?
The Higher Self is something that every spiritual being and human soul has. It is an aspect of ourselves that is within the very center of our spiritual being, and is our intuitive guide. In a way, it’s the personification that we mentally create to communicate with the Source-aligned center of our being. The Higher Self is pure divinity, truly our “highest self.” The Higher Self will never do harm, since the Higher Self is our mental interpretation of the pure Source energy within us all. The Higher Self is our True Self, completely free of ego and attachment, but translated through our mental personification. The True Self can’t be mentally interpreted, since Source energy is too much for the mind to directly comprehend, so our minds and spiritual consciousness translate this True Self into something more mentally palatable: the Higher Self.
How can I communicate with my Higher Self?
The Higher Self is best reached through meditation, specifically ones that call for aligning with the Universe Within/the Source inside your spirit. Often, this translates easiest, in the everyday, as a pure and strong intuition. The kind that’s strong enough to prevent you from harm when there are no logical signs, but you just know you’ll be harmed if you don’t listen to your intuition. Or the intuition that steers your towards your best and highest purpose and reminds you “hey, maybe you shouldn’t do _____ because it’s going to harm you in the long run.” Intuition, and listening closely to it until you can clearly discern your intuitive voice from anything mental or egoic, is a great gateway towards communicating with your Higher Self.
Is my Higher Self another being that isn’t “me?”
Nope! The Higher Self is as much you as your every thought, in fact, it’s more you than thought (since thought is in the mind). The Higher Self is your truest and brightest form. The “healer within,” the “universe within,” “inner god(dess),” the “all you are.” These are all names for the Higher Self. Communication with this Self just means deeply listening to that pure voice inside yourself. The Higher Self will always communicate what is in your best and highest interest, and you will know that very deeply, since it takes a lot of dedicated meditation and energy work to really get to know your Higher Self. Talking to your Higher Self is basically talking to the personification of your Life’s Purpose/Dharma. The Higher Self will perfectly align you to who you are meant to be and what you are meant to do. The Higher Self has no purpose traveling outside of your being, since it is you (and you can’t travel outside of your spirit) and, even if this was possible, there would be no purpose to it. The Higher Self is for your own personal guidance and alignment to the Source, not for communicating with other beings–your consciousness is for that (whether you mentally remember it or not). The Higher Self totally accepts who you are, where you are on your journey, and everyone in your life. The Higher Self is totally open to emotion and experience, understanding that sadness, grief, anger, fear, joy, love, completeness, and acceptance are all divine emotional experiences that can be experienced with total compassion. The Higher Self brings compassion into emotion: in a way, your Higher Self is your heart. Your deepest, most loving, most open, Self.
I don’t understand how I can spiritually travel if I don’t have another self. How does this happen?
Since the Higher Self is an internal part of one’s spirit, not the spirit that goes out subconsciously and interacts with people and beings and stuff, it is not the you that can travel. It is a part of yourself that you can be conscious of in all travels, but not the part of you that does the traveling. When you access your Higher Self, you do so through conscious intention, and you will always consciously feel the guidance (or at least the rise of an intuitive reaction!). This interaction will always align you with your dharma/life’s purpose, and will never do harm or close you off from pure compassion. It’s a common belief to think the Higher Self is one’s spirit outside of their physical consciousness, but this is a misunderstanding. It’s easy to see how this is a hard thing to figure out, though! Terms are really tricky, and it took me a long time to make sense of this concept. (And now I’m doing my best to explain and hopefully provide a bit of clarity).
When you get to a certain point (like 3-6 years of spiritual work), you’ll usually start being conscious of what your spirit does in higher planes, but most people are subconsciously traveling higher planes, not mentally aware of what their spirit does (if you were completely aware, your mind would have to comprehend all memories from shards, all dimensions you’re in, etc etc). You can easily be in multiple planes at once, but reflecting these multiple existences into one consciousness (the human mind) is incredibly overwhelming.
Sometimes, most commonly, people will experience their subconscious or higher plane travel through dreams or meditation. This is just you in a different plane, out of your body, like spiritually projecting. All spirits are multi-dimensional beings, and can travel with or without a body. The mind just rarely comprehends most, if any, travel outside of what the mind intends to do (conscious travel). Think of an analogy to dreaming–you always dream during a night’s sleep, but your mind doesn’t always remember your dream travels. They still happened, but all your dreams are sometimes too much for your mind to comprehend, or unneeded information, so the mind doesn’t hold onto it. We only witness, mentally, what we need to for our role in this body with this mind. Our whole spiritual experience can’t be comprehended through our mind, so our travels are often not “recorded” mentally for us (though they are recorded in our personal Akashic field).
This traveling is still wholly us, though. The Higher Self never travels, since it’s the internal connection to the Source that is within us all. The more integrated and aware of this Intuitive or Higher Self, the more Source-aligned a person is. The more bright and unconditionally loving they are as a result. Spirits can do harm, like during subconscious or conscious traveling, but the Higher Self will never ever do harm. In beings that harm others, they are disconnected from the presence of their Source self, their Higher Self, not reacting as their Higher Self, which is what most people believe the Higher Self does–acts as a spiritual being. The Higher Self is really just an internal guide.
During spiritual travel, we can (and always do) exist in multiple places at once (like when astrally or spiritually traveling, you’ll be aware of both your body and astral self; you’re multidimensional, yet still one self). Only someone who views you will interpret you as a separate self spiritually, astrally, physically, etc; despite you actually being all one conscious self, just viewed in different states. It is difficult to comprehend the idea of multidimensionality, since thinking of yourself as one being in many states is an odd (and not commonplace) concept. When your spirit acts without you knowing, you’re still conscious of it (and can return to the memories, know what you did if someone says you did something, etc), but you just can’t always remember it when it happens, since not all that information is comprehensible to the mind instantaneously. All the acts of our spirit are still accessible, we just have to intuit it consciously, to tell our minds to perceive something specific.
I hope this all makes some sort of sense! I tried to make this as in-depth as possible, for such a philosophical and esoteric topic.
Why does time only go in one direction? And why is the future so different from the past? They seem obvious questions, but they have troubled scientists for over a century. A new theory has proposed an answer — that time doesn’t run just one way, and that there is another universe, a mirror of ours, where time runs backwards.
In one universe, we’re fourteen, running down the empty streets of a snow blanketed city with snowflakes in our hair and icicles on our eyelashes.
Everything is quiet.
In another, we’ve stumbled into each other on a busy sidewalk; your hand reaches out to steady me as I wobble and mine finds yours on instinct, holding on, and for that millisecond where our eyes meet, I see the stars in yours and know we could’ve been something amazing.
But it’s over as fast as it happened, touches fleeting and words minimal.
We go our separate ways, the ephemeral sounds of everyday life drowning out everything we could have said.
In the next, were living in Scarsdale complaining about the taxes.
You push our daughter on the wooden swing set we got her for her third birthday, and I can’t help but smile at the identical look of unabashed joy in both of your eyes (she’s got your eyes, amber with a touch of green)and I know things can never get any better than they are now.
In another, we sing lullabies to each other as we hold each other close and shoot poison into our veins in one desperate attempt at finally forgetting the horrors of our intertwined realities, the pain becoming a distant memory as we sing our own messed up version of Hey Jude.
There’s all those and more, realities where we fall in love and have our happily ever after, and others where we never meet, but brush by close enough that it becomes a “could have been”.
There’s thousands of would haves and could haves and should haves, missed opportunities and leaps of faith, fate or God or the universe trying to push us together in whatever way it can, but we’re stubborn and we’ve never been good at following orders.
We can only hope that one day, our journey will let us stumble into each other; that we can meet where the stars end, when we’re fourteen again on snow blanketed streets and chasing after the same snowflake.
The world that our mind perceives is just one of many…some have come to the conclusion that there are as many as 10 dimension within our universe. Others havbe stated that there maybe another universe laid over our own and lingering just inches away from us…
Now consider the secrets that those places may hold…and the implication of those secrets…