13.05.17 // Updated my physics window for the first time in ages! Had some thoughts over the past few weeks surrounding a free scalar field universe model so I drew them up as well as some old game theory because I watched a Beautiful Mind and felt nostalgic. I hope you are all having wonderful days / evening / whatever plane of existentialism you currently observe 😉
i never considered doing a mathematics degree until I met a bunch of math majors in the same class as me, and realized they were just as bad at math as I was. then I was like well shit damn I can study whatever the fuck I want everyone sucks at everything.
I haven’t been at university this week for personal reasons but nevertheless I’ve done so much work and I’m really proud of myself. In particular, I’m so happy with my progress in programming. I managed to write 5 functions in MATLAB 2 weeks before the deadline which I wouldn’t have been able to do at all last semester! Happy days ☺️
Has anyone ever thought about combining witchblr and studyblr?
Like a bos-bujo combo?
Math notes that show how many percent of dragons blood resin are in your new incense recipe. Or geometry practice on a pentagram.
Learning languages translating spells and biology researching the herbs/animals/ whatever you need for a ritual.
Chemistry would be learning, like idk, what makes your homemade bath bomb frizz or something like that.
Just a witchblr/studyblr crossover. Has this been done?
Study in front of the fireplace for a change of scenery? Don’t mind if I do. 📚✏📖☕
Side note: I have started dreaming about differential equations. The other night I dreamt I was scaling a mountain and cackling gremlins were chucking linear DEs at me like grenades, and if I didn’t solve them quickly they exploded. 💣
05.07.17 // Having a little fun with my bullet journal inspired by the trust bujo tag, now I’m back from holiday! I still have a week of semester break before I need to go back to campus and continue research for my thesis. My exam results came out as well and I got all A+s so far so very pleased considering the circumstances! I hope you are all well, remember to put your health first, and remember that the universe has invested quite literally it’s life in you 💕
[ 21.5.17 ]
- been getting to the library early nearly every day this exam season
- i have been getting stressed and anxious recently
- but i sat at my desk this morning and meditated for 10 mins and omg it makes a massive difference do try out guys
I’m just gonna’ fuckin say it, I completed all major requirements for a sociology degree right, and let me tell you I learned fucking nothing about people and society. Absolutely nothing.
I learned more about how the world works having my transcripts frozen and being forced to confront the reality of it.
Why have I suddenly radicalized and rebranded the blog? Because I’m no longer being fed liberal propaganda that was taught at my university lmao.
I’m still literally shit, don’t get me wrong, but I’ve definitely got a better grasp of things than I did while in school “learning.” I’m still learning, as will always be the case, but I’m learning far better things than what was course material.
Face it, our university system is hardly about learning, and innovation and creativity, and exploration of knowledge, etc. … and more about paying for a better job. tbh..
Studying mathematics was actually more helpful to me in understanding capitalism and ableism as systems of oppression, than sociology tbh.
Like if you’re doing a sociology degree thats cool and all, but be really wary of what they teach you tbh.
This is where learning mathematics was really influential to me … learning mathematics basically taught me not to take anyone at their word but instead find a way to prove everything to yourself.
If it can’t be proven to yourself, and you can see no way for it to exist or be true, then … you can disregard it and work on a NEW THEORY in replacement, or figure out what in particular is wrong with the previous theory.
Not to gush about math, but it really is about everything being fake until you make it ~real~ lmao. Like you can just sit at your table and invent math if you really wanted to, you just make definitions, and prove those definitions in your invented universe. It’s pretty cool.
not to say you can just invent how society works, but you can definitely become more critical of other’s opinions of how things work within reason and within your own boundaries.
Maybe I was a bad sociology student? But I got all A’s in every sociology course I ever took so like, Idk yall, I’m just saying be wary.
At the end of the day, you are in control of your own universe. No matter who has tainted it, who has hurt it, who has hurt you, no matter if somebody has torn through it like a black hole to a quasar. It is still yours, and they cannot take that away from you. They cannot take away your beauty, even beauty that is born from destruction; our universe is proof of that.
I’ll try to make this as short as possible. Here’s a quick summary to why I need help. This is kind of unnecessary so you can scroll down if you don’t want to read.
In 2014 I took the university exam and got into a university, studying the subject I admired for long years (psychology), and I was really happy because it was a little too hard for me to achieve this goal for some reasons. Anyway, at the end of the second year/grade I was on the verge of depression™ mainly because of:
•Islamophobic and irresponsible teachers (almost all of them)
•Unrespectful and irresponsible classmates
•Unrespectful dorm mates
So, I decided that I can’t go on anymore and I should quit. This year was gonna be my 3rd year in university but I suspended it (not really sure if that’s what you call it in English. I’m still a student of that university but I didn’t attend classes for one year). Now I’m about to take another exam for university which, by Allah the Greatest’s help, will help me with these things:
•Studying in a better university
•Not having to struggle with money because I will get a good scholarship
•Living away from my abusers
•Getting closer to my future dreams (which is being a neuroscientist and helping+educating people not only about neuroscience but also about life in general)
•Getting a job (well this part is not really clear, but which one of them is 100% sure to happen right?)
Now, what I need help for is, maths.
Yes maths. Due to some reasons (one of which is economical reasons) I couldn’t acquire any maths classes. It has been some years since I last studied math, plus now I need to study it in English. My English is not bad, and I’m not that bad in maths either. I just need someone who can help me out. I only got like 7 subjects to study, not so advanced mathematics.
So if you think you can write some notes down about mathematics for me, in a clear and easy way, and help me with the problems I can’t solve, please send me an ask or a message. I’m not asking for anything big, you obviously don’t need to be a teacher. Meanwhile I will try to find online sources and study myself too but I need someone who I can ask questions. Also I couldn’t find any sources which are easy to understand. So it would be nice if you sent me some.
I’m not asking for Skype lessons or something like that, and I obviously can’t give you any money but once in a while I can doodle a flower or a piece of cake for you if you want.
About two months are left before the exam, and I couldn’t study any mathematics so far. So if you signal boosted this even if you can’t help yourself I’d be thankful.
I’ll write the subjects here. I have more details I can send you if you are interested:
1. Numbers and expressions
2. Quadratic functions
3. Figures and measurements
4. The number of possible outcomes and probability
5. Properties of integers
6. Properties of figures
Even if you can't help me with all of them, some is also fine. I don’t know if I’ll be able to learn all of these in such a short time to be honest… But there’s always hope.
Lastly, please make dua/pray for me. May Allah the Greatest makes our struggles easy for us.