Unf, general surgery… **shudder**.
Buddy, it’s totally normal to be pee-your-pants terrified of starting residency and having actual responsibility for patients. I was. My nurse CP said I looked scared for several months. It’s the fear of the unknown. You will get over that initial fear as you get used to what you’re doing and start learning some real doctor stuff.
nths. It’s the fear of the unknown. You will get over that initial fear as you get used to what you’re doing and start learning some real doctor stuff.
Don’t forget that you are not alone on call. You will have upper level residents backing you up and attendings to call for help if you need them. Don’t be afraid to ask questions of your upper levels. They know how scared you are because they were in your shoes recently and they want you to learn to be confident and competent on your own as quickly as possible. Nurses are also your allies if you respect them and let them be your educators as well. You won’t be the first or last intern they will teach (and endure), so don’t be afraid to use them as resources and teachers.
There will always be uneasiness and fears and uncertainties in this job. Once you learn the basics, you’ll start worrying about more complex things. As you learn more medicine and make more mistakes, new worries will present themselves. I say this not to scare you, but to assure you that what you are feeling today will get better. It’s never as bad as your first day of residency. But the day you feel 100% confident in everything you do is the day you should quit, because you’re gonna hurt someone with your arrogance.