You have no idea how many times I have lied awake this late at night playing things back over in my head. Things you said, things I wish I could rewind, moments I could undo.
Sometimes I really wish I could just erase you from my bloodstream.
Why did I think what we had was special? When I was just another girl to you. A girl you barely knew, or probably never intended to fully know. I was just someone ready to drop everything at your convenience.
Why did I think I could be someone worth the effort of going beyond?
Silly me and my thoughts.