How can you silence your ego? Now, the ego that you are speaking of is your little ego, but there is another ego called the big ego. The ego that binds you and the ego that wants to bind others is called the little ego. “I, my, mine, my family, my relatives, my intimate ones” — that is the little ego. You are speaking of that ego. But instead of thinking of that ego, think of the other one. The big ego says, “I am universal. I am God’s daughter. I am God’s chosen daughter. God is universal, so if my Father is universal, then I am also universal. It is beneath my dignity to confine myself to any individual or to a few people. I shall devote myself for the use of humanity; I shall serve God in humanity. I can only do the divine thing. Anything that is undivine I cannot do, because for me there is only God and God is all divine.”
The more we think of that ego, the easier it becomes for us. Actually we don’t call it ego; we call it our conscious oneness with the Highest, the Supreme, the Absolute. When we are consciously one with something vast, then the little ego automatically disappears. With this conscious oneness, every day think of yourself as a child of God. If you are a child of God, it means that what God has, you also have. You have inherited everything from God, but right now you are not mature so you cannot use it. A child who is four or five years old knows that his father is a multimillionaire and he knows that when he grows up his father is bound to give those millions of dollars to him. Right now the child cannot have the money because he is not mature enough; he will squander it. So you also have to feel that since you have entered into the spiritual life, infinite Peace, Light and Bliss are not vague terms. They will eventually be at your disposal. Then the little ego that wants to be satisfied with a penny or a nickel will automatically go away. When infinite Peace, Light and Bliss dawn on you, at that time you will not try to possess anything and at the same time you will not want to be possessed by anything. You don’t want to possess and you don’t want to be possessed by anyone else: this is called the true knowledge.
So give up your little ego and feel always your oneness with the Supreme, your universal oneness. You can call it divine ego or you can use any term you like, but only remember that when you say “big ego” and “little ego” it is like a friend and an enemy. Two individuals are right in front of you. One is your friend and the other is your enemy. You mix with your friend, not with your enemy. Naturally you will mix with the one whom you think to be divine. So that is oneness with God, which you can call the divine ego.
Every day, early in the morning, stand in front of the mirror. If you
dare to stand in front of the mirror, then you can easily stand in front
of the whole world. Now, when you stand in front of the mirror, if you
see an undivine face looking back at you, then rest assured that the
whole world is undivine. But if you are getting joy from your face, if
it is pure and divine, then rest assured that the world is also pure and
divine. According to the way you see yourself, the rest of the world
will present itself to you. If you see aspiration in your face, I assure
you this aspiration you are bound to notice in the whole world. If you
see aggressive forces, a devouring tiger inside you, then when you leave
the house a big tiger will come and devour you. We are exact prototypes
of the world. We are like a microcosm and the world is the macrocosm. A
saint always sees everyone in the world — even the worst possible thief
— as a saint. Similarly, a thief will see even the most divine saint as
a thief. We judge others according to our own standard, according to
our own realisation. A thief will think a saint is a thief and a saint
will think a thief is a saint. Those who have not realised God will
always suspect and doubt those who have. Everyone has to judge others
according to his own standard of realisation.
No matter how God appears to us, we will feel ecstasy, divine ecstasy. Ecstasy is delight. When we are in our ordinary consciousness, we are disturbed by the many ugly, undivine things in the world. But when we see God, at that time everything appears beautiful to us. All is good and nothing appears ugly.
Every day try to think of your mind as an empty vessel. When you deal with the mind, if the mind is empty, that means already you have made considerable progress. You have emptied out ignorance, worry, imperfection, limitation and all undivine things. Now what will you do? You will fill this empty vessel with joy, love, purity and all divine qualities.
You want to purify your mind. You will find abundant purity inside the heart and the soul. It is very difficult for people to feel the soul, but it is not difficult to feel the presence of the heart. When you can feel the presence of your heart, you have again made progress. Then, every day meditate on the heart, trying to feel that this heart is composed of nothing but purity. Once you feel absolutely sure that your heart is composed of purity, then every day take a little bit of purity and pour it into the empty vessel that is your mind.
Another thing you can do is think of your mind as an empty basket. Try to feel inside your heart a blossoming tree of purity. Every day pluck one purity-flower from the heart-tree and put it inside the mind-basket.
Gradually the basket will be filled to the brim, and the mind will be filled with the fragrance of innumerable purity-flowers.
- Sri Chinmoy, Mind-confusion and heart-illumination, part 1
One cannot meditate well unless one
knows how to concentrate. At first the seeker should not meditate but
only try to concentrate. Then after two weeks, a month, or if necessary
two months, he can start meditation.
What do we mean by concentration? We mean inner vigilance, alertness.
There are thieves all around us and within us. Who are the thieves?
Fear, doubt, worry and anxiety. These inner thieves are the real
thieves, not the thieves who steal our money. When we start to
concentrate, we have to feel that we will not allow any thieves to enter
into our minds. When we are concentrating, we make it hard for hostile
forces to enter into us. Otherwise, we become victims to the undivine
effects of the wrong forces.
Please try this exercise to develop concentration. In Sanskrit it is
called /tratak,/ which means ‘gazing’. First wash your eyes properly
with cold water, not warm water or hot water. Then make a very small
circle on the wall at your own eye-level, and inside it make a dot. It
should be black, not blue or red or any other colour. Then stand facing a
wall. There should be a distance of about three and a half feet between
you and the wall. Focus your attention on the circle with your eyes
relaxed and half open. The force of your concentration should come from
the middle of your forehead. After three or four minutes, open your eyes
fully, and then try to feel that your eyes have covered your whole
body. Feel that from head to foot you are all eyes. Your whole physical
existence has become nothing but vision. Then please concentrate on the
dot inside the circle. Then you have to start making the object of your
concentration smaller. After a few seconds try to feel that your whole
body has become as tiny as this dot on the wall. Try to feel that the
dot is another part of your own existence. Then you will enter into the
dot, pierce through it and go to the other side of the dot. From the
other side, you have to look back and see your own body. Your physical
body is on one side, but on the strength of your concentration you have
sent your subtle body through the point of concentration into the
object. Your subtle body is now on the other side. Through your subtle
body you see your physical body and through your physical body you see
your subtle body.
When you began to concentrate, the existence in your physical body
became all vision. At that time the dot was your reality. When you
entered into the dot, then vision and reality become totally one. You
are the vision and you yourself are the reality. When you look back at
yourself from the dot, the process becomes reversed. Now you are the
vision there, and the place to which you are returning is your reality.
At this time, again the vision and the reality become one. When you can
see it in this way, your concentration is absolutely perfect.
If you can concentrate and go to the other side of the point you were
calling reality, your whole existence will be far beyond the vision and
the reality. The moment you can feel that you have transcended your
vision and your reality, you have boundless power. You will be able to
use this power of concentration for your spiritual life, for your
intellectual life, while working, while cooking, while doing anything.
- Sri Chinmoy, Meditation: humanity’s race and Divinity’s Grace, part 1