undiagnosed-illnesses

  • someone: why do you have such poor memory?
  • me, a person who has a terrible sense of memory due to years of suppressing things and having a tendency to only remember times where i experienced an emotional extreme while also having a poor attention span from likely undiagnosed illnesses that i could have really used proper coping mechanisms and techniques for: ha. i dunno. i guess i'm just stupid.
  • what able bodied people think being undiagnosed is like: faking your health issue, not wanting to see a doctor because they'll tell you what you don't want to hear/that you don't have that illness
  • what it's actually like: after seeing nine specialists between 1997 and now the best answer you've gotten was "clearly there's something wrong here but idfk what lmao"

anonymous asked:

(1) Hi Viria, I hope you are well :) I am sorry to bother you with this, but it's really important for me, and I wanted to share it with you. It'll be long and kinda sad at first, but it gets better, trust me. I'm a 23 y/o latina art student. When I was a baby, my mom left my dad and remarried, and my little sister was born when I was 10. She is the light of my life and I love her to no end. Our mom, however, had had and undiagnosed and untreated mental illness for years, and one day

(2) during a severe crisis she hurt us really bad. I was 12. She was taken away to a psychiatric hospital and Child Services prohibited her from ever getting near us again. Since then, I have been taking care of my little sister and practically raised her while my stepdad worked 2-3 shifts to afford our education and payment for my mom’s hospital, living and meds. He was always working and I took full responsibility for my sis. As you can imagine, even though I loved her with my life, 

 (3) the situation was very stressful and exhausting for me. By the time I was 15, I looked every bit a teen mom. One particularly hard night when my little sis had been crying about mom, I couldn’t sleep. So I turned to something that calmed me: the Harry Potter books. I read them online, and somehow ended up searching for HP fanart. That was the night I stumbled upon your DA account. And boy, did I love it! I know back in 2011 your skills weren’t what they are now,

(4) but I was blown away, and what’s more, I felt inspired to draw. I had never tried to make any art before; it wasn’t “my thing”. But that night, you inspired me. As time went by I kept drawing and closely followed your improvements. Your art was so relaxing, calming, and inspiring, that it really helped me during hard times. You kinda dragged me into all the cool fandoms, series and animes, and I found life to be far more bearable with so many awesome things to love and think about.

(5) Your DA and Tumblr were some sort of safe sapce for me. It always cheered me up and gave me joy, peace, inspiration. When the time came, I choose to study Art at college. It turned out you did too, and you kept up all the good stuff in your blogs. Weirdly enough, I kept feeling a sense of pride whenever you improved and got better. I was so strange that you were so so far away and didn’t even know I existed but you helped me so much.

(6) I got accepted at my country’s top University to study Fine Arts; I moved cities and took my sister with me; she grew into a wonderful, sensible, peaceful child, and her presence motivated me to be the best version of myself, while your art motivated me to keep expanding my academic/artistic abilities. Life was hard but good at college, and I had incredible opportunities. I am graduating this spring with an advanced studies specialization, and was recently hired to work at

(7) of a movie. It’s like living a dream. And tonight, just a couple hours ago, the most incredible thing happened. After dinner, my little sis came to me, phone in hand, and said “Hey Ana, you won’t believe what I found. There’s this girl who makes amazing art of all the fandoms you’re in. Her drawings are gorgeous and she has so many!”. She showed me your tumblr. I wanted to laugh and cry. She was amazed when she saw your old drawings and your current ones; speechless.

(8) She fell in love, and you know what? Immediatly after, she went to draw. She’s been doing so the past hours. I know this was offensively long, but Viria, I needed to thank you for what you did. Your art has always been SO much more than just digital drawings of fictional characters. It’s been the source of peace, safety and joy that so many of us crave. You have wonderfully impacted and influenced many people across the world with everything you make.

(9) I am so glad you exist and do what you do; you gave me the hobby that grew into my passion, thaught me so much, inspired me beyond belief and most of all, you helped make life more bearable. And now, you have made the same for my sister. Viria, the world wouldn’t be the same without you. You are truly a magnificent light among us, and for your existence and passion I’ll be forever grateful. Thank you, and may you always live the beautiful, happy, awesome life you deserve. Thank you.


I’m not even kidding I was sitting here peacefully chewing sandwich and by the end of these messages the sandwich was too salty so was my cappuccino I swear you got me to tears and now i’m just like

I’m a shaking emotional leaf but thank you so much for writing me! It means so much and i’m so touched and i just wish you and your sister all the best of luck, though it seems like you don’t really need it. Thank you, and I hope life goes wonderfully for you and your family! 

The Essays that got me into Berkeley: Part 1

PROMPT: Every person has a creative side, and it can be expressed in many ways: problem solving, original and innovative thinking, and artistically, to name a few. Describe how you express your creative side.
Sitting on my desk in front of me are seven battered Moleskine softcover sketchbooks, each one representing six months of my life in collage, graphs, personal anecdotes, ticket stubs, and thousands of sketches representing thousands of reality-tv obsessions, seasonal decorations, and countless profiles of strangers that I’ve seen in cafes and on trains in the last three years. Not only can I trace my artistic development since my freshmen year, these notebooks also serve as a personal roadmap, tracing the backstory of one [my full name]. Take, for example, sketchbook #7. There is a sticker for a coffee shop in Spokane, Washington affixed to the front and a map of Tahiti’s main island taped to the back. This journal starts in the June before Senior year, continuing on until this very moment. That particular summer was especially tumultuous, with a then undiagnosed mental illness coloring my artwork in chaotic shades of panic, my writing dripping with despair that stumbled into unbridled rage that freefell into hopelessness, leaving me shattered at the bottom of a dismal pit. Really, cheery stuff. But as green watercolor blobs accompanied by white charcoal capsules cut with element number three waltz out of their clear orange bottles and across this depiction of my subconscious, hope emerges. On a slightly less bleak note, #2 contains some portrayal of Jared Padalecki, my favorite actor when I was fifteen, for every day of the year. I was utterly obsessed, given over losing myself in a pop culture oblivion. #4 has more than its fair share of raunchy fanfiction involving Oscar Wilde and Robert Baldwin Ross. My favorite part of #6 is a massive two-page spread that traces the entirety of geological time from the Early Cambrian to the Holocene. Each one is a quantifiable reflection of the hundreds of different people that I have been in the last four years.

Confession #2,478

I wish there was a day for people with undiagnosed illnesses - I see all these days, weeks and months dedicated to EDS and other invisible illnesses and conditions and that’s great don’t get me wrong, I just feel like everyone forgets to admit how horrible it is to be undiagnosed and how badly people will treat you for it and I feel like I can’t talk about it because almost every month is already dedicated to certain illnesses and I don’t want to detract from them because they’re important too

BAD: Connor Murphy was a precious angel who deserved better

GOOD: Connor Murphy was mentally ill but that does not excuse his actions, he did some harmful things and should still be held accountable for his mistakes.

BAD: Connor Murphy is just an asshole that abused Evan.

GOOD: Connor Murphy lashed out as a result of undiagnosed and untreated mental illnesses and likely felt very out of control of his own life and actions.

anonymous asked:

U really don't think Angie is scammin......okay

many of you sent this type of ask already..

I didn’t say what I thought of Angie either way, and tbh I’m still unsure of the whole picture - but I reblogged her explanation/evidence post since many people I follow reblogged the accusation, and should at least have the chance to read her reply - if people just read the accusation with no critical thought and without looking into it farther or even glancing at her refutation of those points, she’d never get a chance at justice even if it turned out she’s not in the wrong.

honestly this attitude is hypocritical. people reblogging the accusation keep saying “why doesn’t she thoroughly refute every point, then we’d give her the benefit of the doubt” but now that she’s done exactly that (literally what she’s been asked to do), people are dismissing it without even reading. and now apparently sending anons to anyone sharing the post at all too.

my other problem is with the ethics and accuracy of info in the callout. it’s fair to want proof/clarification of the authenticity of a fundraiser the scale of Angie’s, but this attempt at an exposé was poor - it had misconstrued (or just incorrect) info in major places, used questionable sources and methods that could have put Angie in danger IRL, and at times was just grossly ignorant (re: medical disability as well as familial abuse). I’m not criticizing the need to know more from her to feel comfortable supporting her, but there were tons of better ways to handle an investigation into the situation.

here are just some of the things about the accusation post that I’m uncomfortable with (I’m listing them not to prove things - her detailed post which covers all of this with sources/specifics is for that - but to say why I can’t support or trust the accusation post by itself): 

-accuser (or at least someone involved with the investigation) called her providers to get information about her and their services to her (these people/companies/services will not disclose to a random caller that they give a patient a service, that’s confidentiality) which is a huge breach in patient privacy. and then tried to use the fact that they wouldn’t give them personal info on their services towards Angie as evidence that Angie is a fraud.

edit: I have since received the following clarification which is confusing because in the accusing post there is explicit wording about contacting certain services/providers, but ok:

^ either way, not everything that a provider possibly does will be listed right on their website lmao Angie has gone out of her way to explain that there is a special arrangement between that provider and other services that work with her.  

-accuser misconstrued / misrepresented numbers (one example: implying she had claimed her rent was $5,000 or so a month when that was a YEARLY estimate and she never claimed it was monthly)

-other Australians (you can find this in reblogs of her explanation post) have been debunking and correcting things the accuser said about various AUS govt funds, programs and legal aid; it is clear that the accuser did not have all the information about Angie’s eligibility or lack thereof, or about how much of her daily and yearly expenses these would have covered. those are big holes in the accusation.

-accuser misconstrued the fact that she had terms / quantities changed to ones more comprehensible by ppl in the USA - when she had already explained her reasoning for this publicly (being on a platform with a majority of users from the USA and all)

-accuser misconstrued other statements (said she forbid people from calling the charity, when her real words - I’ve seen the post cited - were along the lines of “pls don’t spam / harass the charity”) and went as far as to cite Angie once using a profile picture of herself pre-disability as “suspicious”

-accuser called her suspicious simply for how many times she’s been close to homelessness/fatal neglect - this is speculation, not reasonable evidence, and besides, it’s not automatically suspicious or unrealistic to need continuous funds / be in danger a lot when someone is continuously bed bound, seriously disabled, and being charged thousands a week for basic life care she can’t do by herself. this part of the accusation was worded in a way that was disrespectful and totally ignorant re: what it’s like to be disabled to that extent. the post could have stuck to reputable forms of evidence without throwing in a speculative “isn’t it weird that this gravely disabled person cut off from lots of resources is always in danger and struggling to live? how unusual” which is just callous to people with permanent disabilities who do need constant help.

-accuser, with no relevant evidence or medical knowledge of the type of disability Angie has, tries to speculate that the doctors notes “looked fake” (again based on nothing but speculation) - as if it’s at All weird for someone with a complex neurological / regional pain related condition to have ongoing diagnosis, multiple terms to refer to clustered symptoms, opinions of multiple doctors, etc. it’s also not at all weird for different doctors to have a different style of writing a letter lol - I’ve bounced between specialists myself for undiagnosed chronic illness, and neither of those are red flags - doctors regularly print or email something they typed up in their patient notes database or a word type document. again, people automatically taking this as reliable evidence are out of touch with what it’s like to be disabled to that extent and seeing multiple doctors.

-accuser calls into question changing URLs, changing fundraising platforms, etc, all while omitting one very important fact that is necessary to qualify those situations (which Angie has made common knowledge) - that she has been stalked persistently by a documented abuser and had her funds threatened, and this has publicly put her in danger over the past couple of years. other people have also tried to slander and stalk her in the past which she’s also talked openly about. she’s had to change platforms semi regularly for her safety. most bloggers I follow have changed URLs far more than Angie without it being treated like a federal offense. once again not reputable or concrete evidence, lots being stretched, & lots of omitted context.

-accuser cites a person as a major source of info who has been outed in the past with evidence as fraudulent / dishonest themself, and is therefore not a reliable source.

-accuser brings in petty unrelated shit like an allegedly biphobic post that was taken out of context in the first place (why was that even on a serious scamming callout??) this just reveals desperate and unprofessional attempts to smear character.

-accuser frames the fact that Angie is a Chinese woman living in an English speaking country with both a Chinese and anglicized name that are both used officially in different contexts as “suspicious” despite how ridiculously common that is like… come on.

-as a side note, people have been total hypocrites re: how they question her disability - doubting it because ‘oh she has the time and energy to make posts’ (ignoring that she does have friends help her with maintaining posts, letters, documents etc), but then when she doesn’t immediately respond to all the accusations in less than 24 hours they slam her for that too (where’s your concern for her energy and ability now?) again like.. regardless of if y'all are right about Angie’s specific case, this is hypocrisy and you evidently don’t know how to treat / talk about seriously disabled people.


there are more but that’s enough lol. again this wasn’t meant to corroborate itemized proof against the accusation, or state an opinion on the conduct of Angie’s fundraiser (like I said I literally don’t know) - if you’re looking for that I would recommend reading Angie’s post thoroughly and coming to your own conclusions. all the links, math, explanations are there. this was to denote my more objective concerns with how the callout was conducted and why I can’t trust it as credible or support it ethically.

if you think Angie’s situation doesn’t add up even after reading her explanations, feel free to pursue more info in a way that is more accurate and ethical, or just don’t give your money. but you don’t slap together a callout with this many holes and discrepancies and bad conduct and let it go public right away when you run this high of a risk of ruining someone’s life if you’re wrong - you make sure you have your shit straight. you bring questions to the person first without jumping at them in an accusing/dehumanizing way right off the bat (which yes will get you blocked, shockingly), and give them a chance to provide evidence and explanation before you try and no platform them. and if it comes down to you making the public post and they reply with evidence/explanations after reading your accusations, you do your due diligence again by taking that into account. 

like I said I have no idea how much of Angie’s fundraiser has been handled in a legit way (I for sure don’t think she’s faking being disabled and that’s about all I know), but I feel uneasy that hundreds of people are taking that post at face value and aren’t even giving her thorough response a glance - you’re deciding a vulnerable woman’s fate, of being cut off and kicked off her platform, through hearsay, which is stupid and dangerous in this kind of situation. 

if you’re right, congrats I guess, on your pure dumb luck (because your investigation had so many holes). but god help you if you’re wrong and you further isolate her with your sloppiness. matters like this require attention to accuracy and ethics, things that were lacking in this callout. I’m not dumb for being concerned about that, and finding it reason enough not to take that callout at face value without looking at both sides more. don’t think badly of me just for reblogging Angie’s explanations and giving people a chance to read them as well as the accusations.

Growing up Undiagnosed

-Not being able to read until first grade

-Once being taught how to, reading everything in sight and reading at a college level by fourth grade

-Having two friends group dump me for being annoying

-Forcing myself to learn body language, then learning it so well people call it “creepy”

-Struggling in math and spelling but excelling in other classes

-Reading in class to focus but being told I can’t read in class so I struggle

-Being called weird and creepy for being able to remember little details about people

-Having to create a system for new friends to find out their boundaries and the face they pull when they’re tired of a topic so I can keep friends longer

(I put spaces so it is easier to read, others with ADHD can add as well)

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I have such admiration and love for all the other people out there living their lives undiagnosed and chronically ill. What a weird, lonely, hilarious, heartbreak of a process it is. Y'all are so strong and so fucking gorgeous

Image description: a white nonbinary person sits in their wheelchair in a set of four mirror selfies taken in the doctors’ office. they are wearing all black, have short dark hair, and a long scar up their thigh. In one pic they are wearing sunglasses against the fluorescents

I’m just imagining 10th grade Connor being, as most 10th grade boys are, the worst little shit imaginable. Like this insufferable little 10th grade twerp with shaggy hair, an oversized hoodie, and a bad attitude. And I hate this kid.
But when I start to think of him more complexly.
Because his mom makes such a big deal about his “first day of senior year”, and assuming he hadn’t previously been held back, we can assume that Connor is at least smart enough to pass his courses and be on the track to graduation.
And yes, one could argue that maybe Connor is just naturally very smart. But I’d like to propose a Connor who actually cared about school, despite what people around him and his concerning attendance record said. A Connor who was struggling with both his mental illness(es?) and school work, but held out a bit of hope for what graduation might bring. So he works with what he can and gets decent grades.
10th grade Connor with his undiagnosed mental illness(es?), actually doing homework in detention he got from skipping class because of his mental illness(es).
Also, 10th grade Connor scaring away certain boys in his grade from talking to his sister because he knows them, but 9th grade Zoe is pissed bc all she sees is her brother just ruining her chances of getting a date to homecoming.
Feel free to add to this

It’s just dawning on me how absolutely stellar Dennis is at calming people down like with Mac by touching his face and with Charlie by doing that thing where he like…grunts at him…and how gentle he is with both of them and it’s goddamn devastating to think about where he learned that because from what we know about Dennis he sure as hell doesn’t have anyone in his life who would show him that kind of affection. Which means it literally has to have come from him which is what makes it so painful because Dennis has been dealing with unchecked, undiagnosed trauma and mental illness for decades. It’s Dennis that has to learn to calm himself down after a nightmare or a panic attack or an episode because the way he’s structured his life means that there’s a zero percent chance of anyone seeing him in those moments of “weakness.” So whenever something happens and, for better or for worse, he’s alone and after dealing with this stuff alone for years and years and years he’s gonna learn what works. And then he uses that knowledge to help other people. And of course Dennis has massive, massive flaws of character but I think that those small interactions with Mac and Charlie point to how much he’s been through and how much he really does care.

The discrimination in the workplace against those with mental health issues, diagnosed or undiagnosed, is horrible.

Faced it today. The climate of fear. Being unable to mention you have doctor’s sessions because of ‘health reasons’. Then they ask what for and we say 'it’s private’. We control our disclosure, but even then people look at us in shock and write us off.

Disney Villain Apologist

I like to explore ethics and the nature of good and evil. I love “origin of evil” stories, and retellings from the villain’s perspective. When I watch movies/read books, I generally empathize with the villain. 

I watch horror movies and cheer for the monster. Which, makes sense because I’m one of the creatures humans like to cast as the monster. I’m a proper faerie tale villain.

So, I’m gonna go down a list of well known Disney villains, and justify their actions.

Snow White:

So we start out of the gate with a tough one. Not because her actions are difficult to justify, but because we know nothing about Queen Grimhilde. The story starts in the middle.

Where did she come from? How did she come to be Snow White’s step mother? Is vanity really the only reason she hates Snow White? I doubt it.

She’s a two dimensional character who must have a story, and we have no right to judge her until we know what it is. 

Besides, Snow was kind of insufferable. This is a movie with eleven characters. Only two are women. One is a perennial victim with no agency over her own situation, and the other is painted as the villain. There’s something fishy here.

Cinderella:

Okay so Lady Tremaine was awful (and she dies in the original faerie tale) but the step sisters are just as much victims as Cinderella herself. Their mother was abusive to all three of them. She was just worse to Cinderella. That’s often the case with abusive parents. They are emotionally abusive and neglectful to all their children, but they pick one to be their preferred target.

The step sisters became awful out of self defense. In some other versions of the tale, one or both of them actually apologize to Cinderella, and mean it. It doesn’t get them out of well deserved punishment for being terrible to her, but it redeems them a little.

Alice in Wonderland:

The Queen of Hearts has some kind of undiagnosed and untreated mental illness. It’s illuminated in the book that the King quietly pardons people behind her back, they show back up at court the next day, and she doesn’t even notice, because she’s delusional and they’re doing their best to cope with it. As the Cheshire Cat said, everyone’s mad here. There are no therapists to take her to.

Peter Pan:

This one has some deep symbolism, and it’s kinda cool. Captain Hook represents old age and inevitable mortality. That’s what everyone’s afraid of, but it’s not something to be feared, it’s just part of the process. Peter’s refusal to grow up, and influencing others to follow in his footsteps, was holding them back from their potential. The protagonists went home because they realized it was actually a pretty toxic environment.

An alternate fan interpretation (which was not the intention of the original author) is that the Lost Boys are dead, and Peter is a spirit keeping them from moving on, and Hook is Death itself. Wendy and her brothers had a near death experience and went to Neverland.

Sleeping Beauty:

Ah, here’s my favorite Disney villain. This one requires some knowledge of politics. It wasn’t just a party. This was 14th century Europe. I think the tale is French, specifically. The Christening of a royal child was a major political event. It Mattered who was and was not invited.

If you had two neighbors, and they weren’t on the best of terms, and you invited one but not the other, you were picking sides in a potential war.

Which is what King Stephan did. He sided with the Seelie court over the Unseelie. The “good faeries” weren’t actually good. They were Seelie. Which means they look pretty, but they’re just as dangerous and just as unpredictable.

This was a slight that would have risked war if he’d done it to a human. Faeries take those things far more seriously, and he knew that. He should have known that failing to invite her was going to lead to trouble.

Maleficent even gave him an opportunity to apologize. She was prepared to pretend she thought it was a mistake and allow him to save face. He threw it back at her and insulted her. And she cursed the kid when she could have cursed them all and destroyed the entire kingdom, and by fae standards would have been totally justified.

Stephan was a moron. If he’d invited her, or even just apologized and moved on, the faeries would have given the most awesome gifts they could in an attempt to one up each other, as opposed to the party favors Aurora wound up with.

I find Maleficent very relatable. Fae witch with a corvid companion who has fun with curses, references infernal contacts, and is secretly a dragon. I like.

The Sword In The Stone:

Madam Mim was just playing a little game. Merlin was an insufferable pompous jerk to her. Clearly they have a history of him being that way. It’s no wonder she wanted to break his toys.

The Little Mermaid:


This one’s actually really really easy.

So, the bit about how Ursula has her little garden… She casts spells for people. Magic has a price, which someone has to pay. She has to give something up to work her magic for people, and they sign a contract about payment. It’s not her fault if they fail to fulfill their end and complete the contract. They are responsible for the consequences of their decisions, and blaming her is a cop out.

As for her specific arrangement with Ariel, which required Ariel to find something (true love’s kiss) to seal the spell and bind her to the human world, Ursula was totally justified. Her plan from the first moment was for Ariel to fail, and then trade her for her father.

She had good reason. She’s Triton’s sister. That’s canon, it’s in a scene they cut for time. She’s the rightful queen and he stole the throne. Of course she’s bitter.

Aladdin:

Jafar spent his entire life serving an incompetent boob who’s running the state into the ground. He went a little nuts, and went a little over the top, but if you think about it, he never actually hurt anyone but the abusive royal family and an apparent kidnapper turned imposter prince.

The Lion King:

There’s canon somewhere that Scar got the scar when he saved Mufasa from a wildebeest stampede when they were kids. He could have let Mufasa die then and he would have been king, but he was maimed in a selfless act, and they named him after the mark he got for his troubles. Mufasa was an arrogant jerk. Having saved the king’s life, Scar was relegated to a little alcove off by himself on the edge of the pride. No wonder he wound up bitter.

Also, The Lion King is Hamlet with animals and he can’t help that Shakespeare wrote him as a villain.

Hercules:

Ugh. They butchered my pantheon, and Hades is the only one who isn’t totally absurd.

STOP MAKING HAIDES THE BAD GUY!

Within the narrative of the story, the background is Zeus tricked and/or forced Hades into the Underworld while the other gods got to party it up on Olympus.

The fact that there’s no actual mythology for this and Haides isn’t unhappy with his kingdom not withstanding, the movie character has every right to be pissed.



There are a lot more of these I could do, but these are some of my favorite highlights, so I’ll leave it at that. Hope you enjoy, and I’d love to hear additions or counter arguments anyone wants to make.

So you think you've summoned a demon through the Ouija board

Oh snap! After playing on the Ouija board, all these creepy things are happening inside your house! You’ve summoned a *dun dun DUUUUNNNNN* DEMON!!!

I’m here to tell you that no, no you didn’t. You did not summon a demon. 

Think of it this way. Demons are the opposite of angels. Could you accidentally summon an angel? Do you think that with some letters on cardboard you could accidentally invite an angel into your home? And in doing so, have that angel trapped in your home while strange things happened all around you?

No. Angels have way better things to do. So do demons.

But demonic possessions and demonic hauntings ARE a thing. But the Ouija board is not the start of it. Again, an all powerful entity does not care about letters on cardboard. If, somehow, a demon does come into your home and your life after using the Ouija board, they had their eyes on you WAY before you even thought about ever using a Ouija board. There has only been one case, EVER, of a demon possessing someone after Ouija board use, and it currently being dismissed as a possible hoax or severe mental illness. All other cases have been disproved either as hoaxes, undiagnosed mental illness or epilepsy, or induced by hallucinogenic drugs. All of them.

BUT, hypothetically, you just used the Ouija board and now weird things are happening in your home! What is going on??

You have a poltergeist. A poltergeist is any spirit that is able to control things in our world, such as turning off and on lights, throwing things, or scratching you or walls and furniture. Poltergeists can be good or bad. Most are good, and are just using your energy to try to get your attention one way or another. Unless you are being physically harmed, assume the poltergeist is friendly. They are just communicating the only way they can. I mean, if you suddenly went invisible and mute, and tried to tell someone you were there, you would throw stuff too.

If you do have a demon in your home, they would not resort to just turning lights on and off. They are far, FAR more powerful than poltergeists. Symptoms of a demonic haunting are:

-very deep scratches or wounds on your body. And not like cat scratches, deep cuts

-being awakened or disturbed by low, dark voices or growling

-feeling like you want to stay inside all day, not wanting to be outgoing 

-a feeling of dread or a sick feeling in your stomach when entering certain rooms

-a deep aversion to anything religious

-any religious items kept around the house will fall of the walls, or be smashed

-having a priest enter your house and they feel attacked or are physically attacked by an unseen entity

-all the poltergeist activity listed above happening frequently. Daily. Constantly.

If none of these things are happening to you, then you’re all good. But I gotta say it again, YOU WILL NOT SUMMON A DEMON THROUGH THE OUIJA BOARD. 

YOU WILL NOT SUMMON A DEMON THROUGH THE OUIJA BOARD.

IF YOU USE A OUIJA BOARD AND YOU START TO NOTICE DEMONIC ACTIVITY, IT DID NOT COME FROM THE OUIJA BOARD. IT CAME FROM YOU.

And like I’ve said before, demonic possessions or hauntings only occur to people who are deeply religious, and have grown up knowing and fearing demons. If you do not have demons in your religion, or are not religious, you will never have to worry about demons. 

But theouijagirl, what about Zozo???

Zozo seems to be a demon, but I can almost guarantee you that you are not talking to him. Let’s say Zozo is a demon, and likes to spend his time hopping around Ouija boards and deliberately freaking people out. Then Zozo is a huge MORON. Then Zozo is a powerless, weak demon that feeds off the dumbest form of fear possible. Go home, Zozo. Go home.

Or, if this isn’t the case, then you have a trickster spirit trying to scare you by pretending to be Zozo. 

And now that you know this, if you are on the Ouija board and encounter someone claiming to be Zozo, you know you are dealing with a regular trickster spirit or the most moronic, idiotic, pathetic demon to ever crawl out of the Underworld. You are totally safe.

I hope this is informative for you guys. Feel free to send me an ask if you have any questions!

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so I’ve been homeless living out of my backpack on other people’s sofas for about 2 months now? and I’m getting really ill - I have a degree to keep up with and until I stop paying rent in my old place where I can’t live because it was very bad for my mental health I can’t rent somewhere new. 

The problem now is that I need to have a permanent address in order to continue my X3 weekly therapy and I can’t afford to rent somewhere new until probably end of May depending on what my old housemates are doing. 2 month homeless has been really difficult and I don’t know if I can face another 2 month. 

I’m unable to work because I’m physically disabled (fibromyalgia and problems left over from leukima) and have learning disabilities (dyslexia and autism) and have diagnosis of borderline personality disorder and dissociative identity disorder as well as an undiagnosed illness that is causing malnutrition. 

In short I’m in a really tricky situation and I don’t know what to do, I feel really guilty asking people to donate money but I’m in my overdraft and I need money for my hormone prescriptions (I’m trans), a new pair of boots, a dentist appointment, a chiropractor appointment, a new walking stick, and travel seeing as I’m not always staying near my university.

If I made a page where people could make donations it would really help me out. I’m not buying cigarettes and I’m quitting drinking and I’m trying to cut all my spending by doing things like unsubscribing from things like netflix etc. It’s my birthday in 1 week and I’m asking all my family to give me £10 or £20 instead of a present.

If you think you could be willing to donate or help out in another way please respond to this I want to know if this is something I should look into. - it’s going to be £20 to see a dentist and £60 for treatment. My mouth is damaged from a past eating disorder and the illness causing malnutrition is making my gums break down I really need this fixed and I don’t know what to do.