As promised: an explanation
I have a seizure disorder called epilepsy. Occasionally, when I’m under enough stress and exposed to the right stimuli, my brain acts like an overloaded computer and essentially BSODs. Sometimes this involves falling, sometimes its going unresponsive, occasionally its screaming, and in rare cases, its my body jerking and twitching in a manner outside my control.
This month has been littered with a ridiculous amount of these instances, pretty much all the incidents described above. I’ve barely gone two days in a row without one interfering with my life. But then this month has been unusually stressful. Difficulties with money, food uncertainty, new roommates, change, nightmares… It hasn’t been very friendly for me.
I woke up feeling fine, took a walk that was long, for me. I cleaned my room, did some rearranging. I even managed to make two meals! I was proud of myself. Then the whole day had to go sideways because the light in the kitchen had to start flickering when I was headed in with dishes.
My brain shut down and at the advice of my caregiver and standing orders from my doctor, I’m in bed for a week. I HAVE to recover from this. This means all my projects and commissions, Brainstorm, Si/Si, Voltron portraits, commissions… All of that… It has to wait until I’m better.
I’m very sorry. I feel like I’m letting people down. I want to be able to do the things I said I would do, especially considering this is a Big Deal Month for me, but I can’t.