Summary: Reggie Mantle grew up protecting what he loved.
I miss you.
received the text on the first day of school, the instant your baby pink ballet
flats maneuvered within the halls of Riverdale High, which were marginally
filled with mayhem from everyone’s first day jitters.
not everyone. You, despite your extra pretty face, extra shiny curls, and extra
preppy outfit, wore a heavy façade that drooped lower than the Maybelline Fit
Me-concealed eye-bags that were situated below your unexplained, cheery eyes that
tried to greet everyone with much positivity as possible. As everyone knew your
perfect reputation, the happy-go-lucky cheerleader that everyone admired and
loved since the day you entered high school. It was never tarnished, so you
refused to let a silly break-up move it at all.
took out your phone and shakily gazed down at the message. It was sent in
clear, with no emoji’s or silly grammatical errors. Your nervous fingers moved
for you, but your brain was being silly that day and it had no planned response
for the text message.
wave of students accidentally crossed and one of them partially collided
against your hardly five feet tall physique, which was a thankful jolt that rattled
you off from replying to the text message. You squeezed the iPhone tightly,
bearing no mind of the glittery fake diamonds from the phone case bearing harsh
indentions against your palm.
moment you were able to fix your locker and lock it behind you, you immediately
set off to find a seat in the gym—hoping that an early departure from
the first day madness would create a false sense of comfort from your inevitable
fate, which was meeting your ex-boyfriend again subsequently after a summer of
trying to forget all about him.
had always said that you were perfect for Reginald Mantle.
were a girl blessed with your father’s dominant sloped nose and your mother’s graceful
and tiny, ballerina body. Being the only child meant being under the revolving
gaze of your mother and father’s watchful eyes twenty-four/seven, and you grew
up to be accordingly limpid; yet, at the same time pretentious for you were the
heir of one of the wealthiest families in Riverdale.
was a boy meant for you even before you knew what he was supposed to be. He was
a constant person in your life, a fixture caused by your parents and his
parents’ meddling. Though, despite your unending play times together and a
hired tutor that taught you and him up until you were in middle school, Reggie
and you grew up in different paths, in different aspects.
and Reggie were in the opposite sides of the spectrum. Nevertheless, you were inexplicably
drawn to him. He was exactly the same as you, but as the same time, so, so different.
was difficult to figure out. He had pushed children off swing sets and had
hogged all the toy cars to himself as he disliked sharing. You hated the smirk
on his face when he teased his inferiors, and still you loved him when he
kissed you goodnight. He’d hold you in the softest way possible, muscled arms
entrapped around you with touch as light as a feather, and similarly he’d used
the same arms dangerously with heated intent at someone else.
never got why people often told you that he was perfect for you. He was, in
your point of view, a mixture of positives and negatives. He was your opposite.
thing about opposites was that when a unity occurred, it would be a co-existent
dependency that held itself with tension.
loved him more than he loved himself. That was probably the reason why the
balance wasn’t right and he pushed himself off, leaving you in the dust.
you alright?” Surprisingly, Cheryl Blossom would be the first person to
question you that today. The said Blossom stood above you, her red curls down
the right side of her chest, a hand on her hip and a raised eyebrow. You tried
to hide the flinch that came with Cheryl’s edged tone, but she assumingly
noticed it since she took it herself to sit next to you on that noisy lunch
to me,” she demanded. “I don’t want anyone on my squad to be sadder than my
supposed star quality. You cannot rain on my parade on this week’s performance.”
fine,” you muttered as you picked on your salad.
a stupid boy doesn’t have the right to state your mood status.” She hissed. “There
are 7 billion people in the world. God knows how much boys will there be after
your life post-Reggie Man—“
Cheryl,” You stood up. “I said I’m fine!”
words were a little too loud, and laced with anger. The whole open-lawn cafeteria
went into a full pregnant pause from your little burst and your eyes betrayed
you as it went to a familiar face that you couldn’t just let go off. His
smirking, never ceasing, hardly-caring face wavered slightly as he looked your
way, as everyone had. He looked down once before pushing his left foot off benched
on the seat and faced in the opposite direction, going back into a conversation
with Chuck Clayton.
couldn’t care less what that meant and you sped off from your table, grabbing
your cellphone with you. Opening the text message up on your interface, your
quivering fingers typed out a reply before hitting send.
thought you said I couldn’t see you again,” the tall and handsome boy chuckled
as he sat coolly on the stools that they had in Pop’s. His tousled, brown waves
would shine into a blondish side under the neon lights of Pop’s infamous signs,
and his pretty blue eyes would turn your messy head into a complete haze of
white noise. “I missed you,” Jackson voiced out, echoing what he had recently texted you that morning.
was seven in the evening, and mostly everyone had this night tacked to watch
the last screening due for the closing Midnight Drive-In. You had thought to go
but you knew that it would simply be another place that would haunt you again
with memories that happened in the arms of a familiar stranger.
couldn’t resist,” you whispered zealously, biting your lip, then striding
towards him until both of your faces had no space with each other. He kissed
back passionately, and you followed along in accord, ignoring the way your
heart bleated in a monotonous fashion, like it was a routine you followed every
morning. Fingers tracing down his rugged, jean jacket, you stopped as it went
to a tracing on his arm. A tattoo of a dangerous serpent.
it,” he pushed himself off you and went to slip down his sleeves. “Any good ‘ole
folk wouldn’t wanna see that snake on a young thing’s skin.”
young thing, huh?” You titled your head, letting him caress your cheek. It made
you feel like being touched by an intruder. You held your tongue from stating
that out loud. “I heard that your buddies are over at the drive-in tonight.”
the handsome, rugged boy agreed, holding your hand like a whisper. “But you’re
much better than any movie, let’s agree. Pretty and innocent [y/n][y/l/n].”
my father saw you with me,” you told him with a trace of a smile hinting on
your lips while leading the boy down to a booth. “He would freak,” you ended
with a pendulous but crude smirk, as the feeling of going behind your parents’
back often created a brilliant feeling of teenage rebellion.
the light that would go unperturbed that night beneath the luminescence of you
with the boy from the Serpents would go back unlit as a sudden burst of
unexpected customers walked in the empty Pop’s.
was a famous group of blue and yellow hues, the king, the boy in between the
boisterous and rowdy laughs, and you couldn’t help but shake as his eyes
immediately turned toward the serpent and your contumacious self.
Reggie Mantle took it upon himself to breeze through the rows of booths with a
face of disbelief, his voice rising. And as you expected, anger rising as his
comical face slowly slipped to stone cold when his eyes landed on the lingering
fingers of the serpent teenager on your arm. “Who the hell is he?”
off, Reggie,” you glared, bringing yourself to whisper to your current partner
beside you, “Ignore him.” You tried your best to act a casual as possible,
though the sudden racing of your heart that went with the way your ex-boyfriend
stared at you in a mix of hardening confusion and indignation.
other football players were left in a fit of widening eyes as Reggie, in
impulsion, went and grabbed your arm in fury, “I’m taking you home.”
it was a laughable scene, provided that you have been in witness in a
circumstance like this before; on the contrary, you were always behind him
before, supporting him like a good girlfriend. Until now.
showed the chaos within him through the bones between his knuckles—several
scars made proof of that. Now, you were his enemy, the one that caused the fire
beneath his eyes. The booths made a guarded ring.
the hell, man—“ The serpent boy scoffed before
Reggie snapped and gripped and landed a good punch with no regret on the other
boy’s face. That started a full-blown fight, which lead pandemonium where
Moose, Chuck, and several others hurriedly tried to pull the Asian off the
other boy. Reggie’s blows were pernicious, and over the yells of the football
team trying to stop the fight, the only thing you could do was watch everything
on public property, what on earth caused you to do that?!” And Mrs. Mantle let
out a startled shriek and tried to shield her son as Mr. Mantle gave a tumultuous
slap on Reggie’s already bruising face. You gripped your jacket, feeling the
cotton and thinking of it as abrasive as hooves, guilt going off you in waves
as the only thing you could do was watch the aftermath unfold in the Mantle
estate, where you had been protectively ushered off to with your parents and
Sheriff Keller due to Pop’s emergency dial.
is getting out of hand,” Reggie’s father continued, a harsher than stern look
on his purple face. Yanking back his hand, his gaze shot to you, which you
couldn’t bear to hold longer than a second. “This boy has been nothing but
trouble this year—I swear, this was the last straw, Reginald. I need to ship him
was my fault,” you found your voice, hurried and not gentle at all—willing
to cross out the guilt killing your tightening chest. Your parents’
tension-heavy faces whipped their heads to you, their protected daughter that
could hardly do no wrong in this world. “I came there with Jackson—“
I fought him, she had nothing to do
with th—“ Reggie hastily claimed, harsh and
scarily void of emotion. He was seemingly too callous from responding to his
father—and you had realized that this
could have been happening more so than none and that this boy could have grown
up this way, and while your heart was pouring from hearing him protect you, you
knew that it was your call to turn things around.
you squeaked, hearing yourself panic. “I guess I was being rebellious, I met up
with Jackson, and – and- “ You eyed your father. “He was with me and Reggie saw
me and Jackson did something and he got provoked,” you finished, lying. You
looked at Reggie, and he gazed at you, turmoil and hurt swirling in his eyes.
led to a tension-filled silence. You closed your eyes, and could hear the
sounds of Reggie’s father’s footsteps going off to a direction. Somewhere that’s
not here, of course.
that shouldn’t have happened,” he would tell you days later, smirk latched to
his lips like a boy to a candy bar. He’d say it would no feeling, no emotion,
as if he wasn’t someone that was in what happened and he was merely a person
who’d heard of what happened.
memory of his father slapping him because of you would haunt you forever, and
your eyes would wander to his cheek not due to any romantic purpose, but the
ache of wondering how much it hurt to protect you, a person he shouldn’t even
be caring for anymore.
sorry,” you ignored his first statement, and spat out what you needed to say.
The hallways were empty. “I was being petty. I wanted to—“
The words were dignified to be stated out in the open. “I wanted to forget
silence mocked you. The 6’3 handsome and usually word-y jock—the
boy you really, just really, really
loved, gazed at you as if your turbulence, though with a slip of concern on his
façade. You continued, lips burning with words you only imagined you would say
in a dream, “You hurt me, Reggie. I hated
you for making me spend a summer without you. So, yeah. I did something. I slept with that douchebag,
that serpent, just to forget about
you. So, fuck you.”
response was instant. An utter storm shadowed over his face. “Fuck me? Fuck me? Are you fucking kidding me?” His
fingers wrapped tightly around his coifed hair, eyes blazing with chasms of
void and anger. “The only thing I ever did was goddamn protect you! If you hadn’t
been so stupid, you wouldn’t be in this mess. I shouldn’t have protected you
from the start if it was going to lead this way.”
me from the start?” You questioned, beckoned with hatred.
I’ve always been protecting you. I love
you, [y/n]. So much. The reason I ended things is because you were going to end
up broadcasted on this shitty book and—“ Reggie sighed and you looked at
him confusingly. He stepped forward, “Look, last year I was in hell. My dad
caught me doing some stupid shit and he was going to blame it on you. I needed to protect you, it was instinct. I had to break up with you
because I couldn’t bear the guilt that—“
time, it was your turn to slap him. Reggie snapped his head back at you,
stupid jerk,” your body shook from relief and at the same time, numbness. “You
couldn’t have at least told me about that? I literally cried for a week because
I thought I wasn’t good enough for you, the great Reggie freaking Mantle.”
stared at what only could have been eons, before shaking his head and returning
a soft gaze that was only for you. “I’m sorry.”
could shake your head as he placed out his warm hand next to yours, swirling
and wrapping it around yours in the gentlest way possible.
was an epiphany, when you looked at him and you had finally seen a glimpse of an extent that he
would do for you. The balance was off and you had thought of it in the wrong way.
He loved you more than he loved
omg i’m so sorry. whenever i write i’d always get so carried away with excessive details and annoying character musings!!! please tell me what you think! feel free to reblog or like or message me! always open to hear what you guys think huehue. :)
Warnings: ANGST. SO MUCH ANGST. and swearing, light smut.
A/N: wooo it took me two days to write this. this my entry for @whothehellisbella‘s Cool Times Summer Jamz Mix Writing Challenge! My song was Final Song by MØ and I hope I did it justice
You never noticed how the grey clouds highlighted the sky. How through their shadows and darker outlines only made the white, the purity, stand out.
The rubble that had fallen on you had no effect anymore. Your body had become numb a long time ago, something you assumed was the last gift the world presented you with. Making sure your death wasn’t that painful.
You were aware of the body next to you, groaning and crying out in pain, in despair for some kind of help, but that’s all it was. Despair.
He too had been there with you, he too had been under the rubble, but his strength prevented him from giving up. His lower body was probably as crushed as yours was, but all you could do was watch the sky.
YOU GUYS SHE FINALLY GAVE IN- LIKE ITS SUCH A REVELATION and I just needed to get this out here for her ass. @silhouetted-beauty here you go.
I can’t believe this.
I knew it, I knew it all along.
You walked through the club looking around as you headed
towards the exit. Your hips twisting with each step, your hands crossed over
your chest and balled up from how angry you were. You were a scowling beauty
tonight. You had on a skirt set, black long sleeve crop top shirt that was off
the shoulders. A black skirt that was long on your right side, but on the left
side it was cut into a slit that reached up to your left thigh where it had two
lines and were tied together revealing your smooth milky chocolate skin. Your
makeup was done lightly, red lipstick on your plump lips and your hair was in
its natural state curls tumbling down your shoulders and framing your face. You
had on no bra nor panties, another surprise you wanted to give your man for all
his hard work, the outfit had fitted tightly on your body so much so that even
if you were to get hard your nipples would be showing through the shirt. But it
seems as he danced with the girl on the club floor he had other plans.
You were dating Christian Yu, and despite what everyone else
though dating him was not easy. In fact, in your eyes it was harder than most
jobs because he was a video director meaning he had to film a lot of things and
though it was great, what wasn’t great was the females that came on to him. You
had always fought him, not wanting to date him because you knew what would
happen if you said yes. You were scared to get attached to someone, especially someone
famous because a sense of responsibility and assurance came with that. You were
a jealous lover, and a bit possessive but it wasn’t no worse than any average
person. However, after spending some time with him you couldn’t help but fall
for him. He was charming, sweet, loving, he made you feel like a woman. You
were head over heels for everything he did and maybe his dog Lori had
contributed to the feelings that you had for him.
While you were both loving each other, things were going great
for the first few months. Sure, every couple had their problems but you two
were a different case. You worked for stores managing them and helping count
items for stoking purposes. You had a few coworkers that liked to flirt with
you and yeah sure the moment Christian saw it he was more than livid, dragging
“What the fuck do you
think you’re doing?!” Christian asked the male who had his arm around your
waist keeping your feet from touching the floor as he caught you.
“She was about to fall
so I was going to catch her.” The male said shrugging his shoulders trying to
play it off.
“So, she almost fell
because you knocked the ladder over. Don’t touch her man. You can’t just hold
her like that because she isn’t yours. She’s mine.” And like that Christian was
taking you out of the male’s arms as he carried your protesting body towards
the storage room to fuck you to the point that everyone else heard who you
The thought alone rushed through your mind and made your
lips twitch, you wanted to smile you did. You wanted to laugh and be happy but
that little miss Savannah had to fuck it up for the both of you.
“Christian I don’t
like her.” You mumbled at the set of the video. Christian had been laughing in
the direction of the female that was mixed with both Korean and white. She was
cute sure, long brown hair and little freckles on her face. She had green eyes
and though she had some work done she was curvy. Here she stood, laughing and
joking with everyone she could get her hands on even trying to flirt with DPR
Live and you knew if your friend had saw her man in such a position she would’ve
“Why don’t you like
her baby?” Christian asked softly finally turning his attention to you, his
dark brown eyes looked down at you with love but at the moment, you couldn’t
even feel it because your unsettled feeling overtook you more than his looks.
“I just.. Don’t trust
her Christian.” You didn’t know how to explain it, maybe it was a woman
intuition but the way she threw her hair back over her shoulder, the way she
bit her lip and made eyes at Christian. Artist or not you knew she was trying
to push up on him, and he was too busy running around your ass to notice but
you did. You saw it all.
“Are you jealous?”
Christian teased and you rolled your eyes trying to walk off. Christian moved
to grip at your waist howling with laughter as he pulled you closer to his body
wrapping his arms around your waist from behind. “Come on baby it’s a joke. I
don’t want her okay? I want you. I mean she said she just wanted to work with
me because she was a fan and inspired by my music videos.” He shrugged swaying
with you from side to side as you frowned and crossed your arms over your chest
feeling so small in his arms because you were shorter than him by a few inches.
“But still Christian,
look at her and how she is acting around all of you.” You whined softly trying
to not complain but you couldn’t help it.
called out your name as he shook his head sighing. “I love you okay?” He asked
cupping your chin making you look up at him into his eyes. “I love you okay?
Nobody but you, I want you in my world and I want you to be by my side always.
Besides you work with a few people that always seem to try to touch you or be
close to you while you’re working and I trust you to only focus on me, right?”
He asked and when you didn’t say anything he frowned. “Right?” He asked you
again leaning down to start pressing his lips against yours in multiple kisses
causing your lips to curl into a smile.
“Okay then, so trust
me and we will be fine okay? She isn’t you, just a talented artist that could
help my career.” He reminded you nuzzling your nose before he tilted his head. “You
know though, if you did ever let me use your pretty voice I wouldn’t need any
other person outside of the Dream Perfect Regime to work with. So, think about
it.” He let your chin go to grab your hand instead as both of you walked
towards the rest of the crew and Savannah. During the whole segment of them
talking, you watched her. She didn’t say too much but the look on her face when
she saw him was pure love, and when she saw you? Pure disgust and you knew you
had been right about your feelings all along, but you weren’t going down
without a fight and she was mistaking if she thought you were.
You shook your head once again, angry tears starting to brim
your eyes as your body started to shake with each step you took. The club was
packed with people who wanted to see Savannah’s new music and her video. It was
a lot of important people here who could help her career and you weren’t one to
knock down someone’s success you were all for it, but when she came for your
man and tried to take everything you fought so hard to have, that’s when the
problem became personal. Your head spun lightly from your anger mixing with the
few drinks you had, and the music now seemed to drown out in the background as
your heart pounding with the beat that was vibrating under your feet. Blue led
rave lights shot through the dark space, the lights were dim and you could
barely see where you were going. The night had started off great, Christian
couldn’t even keep his hands off you as you got yourself ready. You had planned
a lot for him and you once you got back home, but as soon as you walked through
the club she was jumping on Christian calling his name.
“CHRISTIAN! I’m so
fucking glad you came.. It means so. So much to me.” She said it in a sultry
tone trying to mask it with a look of innocence.
“Me and my boyfriend
wouldn’t miss it for the world.” You informed her as she finally stepped away
from the hug she had given the male as she damn near jumped on him.
“Oh, Y/n you’re here.”
She said as she gave you one look before she went back to Christian starting to
The thought alone was enough to finally break you, tears
streaming down your face from anger and hatred. You felt you had been cheated
on, or at least it was coming. She had drug your man from you to dance with
him. She pushed against him, swaying her hips and dropping it to the floor
while Christian just seemed to stand there at first mesmerized by her before he
started to dance back against her. It was embarrassing, what were you here for?
You didn’t even want to come! But because she told Christian to bring you and
he seemed to listen to her every command you had come for her. And she got what
she wanted, to make you look like a fucking fool in front of everyone here. You
reached a hand up to dab against your face not wanting to mess up your makeup.
You were getting closer to the door and you felt a hand grab on your wrist. You
didn’t even need to look at him to know that it was Christian’s larger hand
holding onto your wrist as he drug you through the crowd to a room.
“Let me go! Let me go you fucking jerk!” You shouted at him
over the blare of the music wanting him to give up. Christian just sighed as he
led you to one of the VIP rooms that had a view of the club below. The walk up
the stairs made your feet hurt, the black pumps made your feet look sexy but
walking in them only did you justice when you went so far. Christian shut the
door behind you both, locking it before he went to the window to look out at
the club below.
“What is wrong with you?” He asked you as he hunched over
the window. He looked out a minute waiting for you to answer him but once you
didn’t he turned around to look you in your face. He was a fucking masterpiece.
Black suit and dress shirt with a black tie. He had his hair curly and free
falling over his face. His pierced nose and strong facial features, diamond earrings
in his ears. He watched you with dark eyes and you could see that his teeth
“What is wrong with you? Dancing with her like that! Why are
you even here?” You asked him shouting at him as you stood your ground.
“What the fuck are you talking about?!” Christian shouted
back at you losing his cool that quickly.
“How dare you Christian! I saw you! I SAW YOU!” You screamed
at him as you took a step closer to him.
“I didn’t do anything wrong! You are seriously over reacting
y/n!” Christian tried to reason with you but he didn’t know what he did wrong.
One minute he was on the floor dancing with a girl that he didn’t even feel but
for her publicity and the sake of his image he stayed close to her and in a few
seconds, he is getting a tap on his shoulder from one of your friends telling
him that you’re walking out of the club. “Please tell me what the fuck I did
wrong. I deserve to know that much.” Christian said calmly taking a step closer
“I told you I didn’t trust her! I told you she was bad news
and you didn’t listen. I never thought it would be because you actually liked
her or wanted to be with her. Like what if I went and danced with a man the way
you danced with her? What if I would’ve flirted with someone the way you teased
and joked with her? What if I would’ve let someone be all against my ass like
you let her do to your dick? You’re supposed to be mine and you got me out here
thinking that I’m so special but it’s her on you!” You could feel the tears
sliding down your face from how hurt and angry you were. It was the way you
looked that caused Christian to snap and charge towards you.
“How could you say that to me! I told you that I didn’t want
her! That you were overreacting! The fact that you even think I’m that kind of
guy blows me! I don’t bring anyone around Lori unless they mean something to
me. Look at all these people here! These important people at that, If I wanted
to cheat do you honestly think I would’ve brought you here? Do you think we
would have let your friend come when she could’ve let shit get back to you? I
told you nothing was happening because I didn’t want her!”
“I saw how you watched her dance Christian! You were giving
her the eyes!”
“I was trying to see what she was doing! And what I would do! She dropped it
down on me and I was shocked as hell that she did it in front of you! I’m tipsy
so are you and I knew I had to play my cards right for the both of our sakes.
But if I had just left her there by herself then she would’ve looked like an
idiot.” Christian sighed softly raking his hands through his hair seeing the
hurt on your face. “Look, I know it’s not what you want to hear. And I know
that I hurt you by protecting her but I don’t want her y/n. I want you. I’ve
told you that over and over again. You’re the only one I see. When I do anything,
or go anywhere. You’re everywhere. I do not care about Savannah. I shouldn’t have
protected her and it was my fault for not thinking. But, I love you y/n. I only
want you. Why can’t you trust me and see that? You think that I like when you
go to work knowing that any guy can touch you like that or try to be with you?
You’re my heart. And I don’t want to be without you. And no girl can change
that.” Christian reached out for you as he pressed you back against the wall.
You stumbled lightly but let him guide your body backwards. “You are
overreacting. I love you. I love you so fucking much. I love you.” He kept
repeating as he kissed your lips sweetly.
You were unsure at first, not knowing if you wanted to
believe him or not, but after receiving more than five kisses you started to
kiss him back, his warm hands placing on your hips as your arms moved to wrap around
“Regardless, I know that the reason you had those ideas was
because of something I did. I should have worked harder to know that you were
happy and you felt safe and secure. It won’t happen again okay?” He asked
softly as he started to kiss you again. You could feel your heart skipping a
beat and beating faster as you kissed him back. Your head tilted to the side.
Letting him kiss you more as he pushed you against the wall harder, his lips
molding against yours as he held your body close to his, the world around you seemed
to fade away as your body burned with the kiss. He flicked his tongue across
your bottom lip and you opened your mouth to let his tongue in letting him
explore your mouth. His tongue flicked across yours and over the insides of
your cheeks. He tasted your wet cavern, the kiss turning into a French kiss as
his hands slid up your body to grip at your braless chest. You whimpered
slightly against his lips feeling your breast hardened as you arched your back
off the wall to feel more of his touch. He groaned liking how you were reacting
to him, pressing his hips against your side, you could feel a little poke of
his growing bulge. Your hands moved to grip at his jacket suit and he got the
hint letting you push the material over his shoulders and onto the floor. He was
trying to slide his tongue down your throat as his hand moved towards your slit
to open the skirt, his hand moving to rub against your pussy, you mewled into
the kiss as his finger skimmed your wet heat. He broke the kiss to lean down
and kiss against your jaw slowly. He kissed towards your ear, his middle finger
rubbing against your clit as he chuckled lightly against your ear.
“You’re so fucking wet. Is this why you didn’t wear any
panties?” He teased.
“Shut up.” You groaned but the thought alone made your pussy
“You don’t tell daddy to shut up.” He licked the shell of
your ear, letting his fingers spread your lips as his middle finger continued
to rub at your pussy. Your hips bucked against his hand, your lips meeting each
other’s once again as he let his fingers play with your clit. You could feel
the juices drip down your thighs, your legs were trembling as you felt yourself
become closer. He broke the kiss to get on his knees, letting one of your legs
go over his shoulder he pressed his lips against your pussy.
“Christian-what if they come look for us?” You asked softly
as a sharp breath left your lip from him dragging his tongue up your slit
“Well, let them come and search for us, they won’t find us
until I make you cum.” Christian breathed hotly against your core before his
tongue coming to swipe against your clit. He flicked his tongue up and down
against your dampened pussy but because he was too impatient he was quick to
shove his tongue inside of you gripping at your hips to pull you towards his
face. He started to eat you out, thrusting his tongue in and out of your pussy
letting it drip onto his chin as he ate you out. Letting his tongue swirl
around in your inside, he curved the pink muscle inside of you finding your
spot immediately fucking against it. Your hips jerked lightly, hands moving to
tangle into his hair as you rolled your head back. Your fears were still there,
insecurities rising but, he was here eating you out, his face buried into your
pussy and his mind on you not her. You knew deep inside that he was right, you
needed to trust him more and it was something you would have to work on in the
future if you wanted to keep him. You were enjoying his tongue too much,
fucking his face with your hips and calling out his name, pushing his hair back
from his forehead so that you could see him more, you groaned as your lower
stomach started to tighten up signaling your release was close.
Christian pulled back to lick his lips, wiping his face
clean he kissed up towards your hips before he gripped at the end of the crop
top shirt to push it over your breast, he leaned down to cup your nipples,
swiping his tongue against your already hardened puckered buds, he enclosed his
mouth around your left one first, sucking and nipping on your plump mounds
holding them in his hands. He opened your legs wide, grinding his bulge against
your soaking core, and you pressed your hips back, shifting them to make your
clit land against the roughness of his pants, you were grinding against him,
dry humping him as he teased your breast and groped at them. He could feel how
wet you were getting, you wanted to stop him after a while so that you wouldn’t
cum but he didn’t let up rolling his hips harder against you until you were
cumming against the fabric of his pants, staining them with your juices. He
chuckled against your flesh pulling back to crash his lips against yours.
“You got my pants all ruined. It seems I’ll have to punish
you when we get home.” Christian warned, he unzipped his pants slowly, not
caring to unbutton them just untucking his shirt so that nothing gets caught.
He let his dick spring free, it stood high in the air, dripping with precum. He
gripped at the base of his cock with one hand the other gripping at your left
leg to raise it up, his hand trailing higher towards your plump ass cheeks. He
slid inside of you slowly pressing his forehead against yours, he bit on his
bottom lip as he entered your tight wet heat keeping you close. Once he was
buried to the hilt, he lifted your other leg up to cup both of your ass cheeks,
your skirt bunched around your hips and hanging towards the floor as he entered
inside of you repeatedly. He started slow thrusting in and out of you, grinding
inside of your heat trying to stretch you out and get a feel of you wrapping
around his dick. He kissed at your lips, the make-out was heavy, lot of tongues
grinding against each other as you rolled your hips against his.
“Fuck baby.” He grunted shuddering as you did it again. He
loved it when you fucked yourself on his dick. “Go ahead y/n. Show me that you
want it.” He moved to press the palms of his hand against the wall on either side
of your head. You agreed as he steadied himself, starting to push your hips
against him, your hands resting on his shoulders around his neck as you fucked
yourself, looking down at where your sexes joined together. It was always so
hot to you to see how he pushed inside of you, how your heat wrapped tightly
around his heat. How he pushed deep inside of you. It was all too erotic for
your mind to comprehend and the sheer pleasure that jolted inside of you, every
time you pulled back and slide yourself down on him.
You started to set a rhythm, getting more into it,
concentrating on the tricks you learned for him, squeezing around on his dick,
rolling your hips against his hips. A knock at the door jolted you both,
Christian growled out, he had been silently moaning and watching you get off.
It was a beautiful sight to see and he loved it. But now he was annoyed with
whoever was trying to ruin his moment.
“Who is it?” He asked in a low thick tone a growl erupting from
his lips as his messy curly hair got into his face, looking up at him you felt
you could’ve came again just by how he looked. A fucking gorgeous man.
“Christian. Savannah is looking for you, she says her new
producer wants to thank you.” You knew the voice well, it was Mino one of
Christian close friends.
“Can you tell her to wait?” Christian asked, he gripped at
your hips when you tried to move whispering with a rough deep voice against
your ear. “I never told you to stop. Don’t get in more trouble y/n.” He slapped
at your ass cheeks causing you to moan and nod your head. You agreed starting
to fuck yourself on his shaft once again, the sound of your hips bouncing
against his was resonating against the walls as the rest stood outside.
“I did, I’ll handle it.” DPR voice was next to ring out in
the hallway and part of you wondered where your friend was since he was never
without her. But hearing the annoyance in his voice you knew that something was
“Go faster y/n.” Christian commanded and you obeyed letting
your hips pick up the speed, slamming yourself onto him whimpering as you tried
to keep your body up, your legs locking around his waist gather, the heels of
your foot pressing down into his lower back. “That’s it, just like that baby
girl. Fuck you feel so good taking my dick into that pretty pussy.” He
whispered huskily against your ear, catching your lobe between his teeth to
grind his teeth against it.
“Christian!” Savannah shouted, and Christian could feel you
stop your hips causing him to growl.
“WHAT!” He barked at the door as he pushed your hips against
the wall. He was agitated at this point, all he wanted was time with you that
he had been deprived of lately.
“Christian I knew you were in there! Come out here! There
are people I need you to see!” Savannah chirped and he shook his head holding
onto you as he started to fuck into you harder against the wall. The somewhat
intimate pace becoming rougher as his frustrations grew every second. His head
pressed against your shoulder and he released a low groan his hands staring to
become sweaty against the wall and he tried to keep you hoisted up. Once he
didn’t answer she shouted again.
“CHRISTIAN!” She shouted once more and he shook his head
snapping his hips against you. He switched angles to pound against your spot,
causing you to cry out his name.
“Christian!” You choked out a loud cry.
“Louder!” He said as he yanked at your hair pulling your
head back, you gasped out loud as he let his hips go faster, until he couldn’t
get any faster nor harder. Driving into you, with his knees bending a bit and
legs spread apart. One of your hands moved to grip at his hair and the other
gripped at his shoulder blades through his shirt.
“Christian! Daddy! Fuck right there-I’m cumming!” It felt so
good to say those words to a girl that has tried her hardest to keep you away
from Christian and not only tonight but always. You could hear and feel the
silence as her heels clicked against the ground and she walked off, but your
mind was swirling only the faint part of your mind could register what was
happening. Most part of your mind was preoccupied with the fact that your stomach
was clenching from the release that was creeping up. Your eyes shut as you
dropped your mouth open. Christian grinded his hips against you changing his
strokes to long and deep causing him to brush against your clit. You gave into
him, listening to his deep commands to cum again and you did it, coating his
shaft with your essence.
“Fuck y/n! Shit you feel so fucking good, just like that
baby, fuck yeah just like that.” He moaned against your ear as he continued to
slam into you, a few thrusts later and he was filling you to the brim, his hips
grinding against yours to make you bury his load inside of your sensitive
pussy. He held you close to his body. Both of your breaths were heavy, your
eyes hooded and he pressed a soft kiss against your cheek before he kissed your
lips. Though you couldn’t hear the music that well, the familiar beat of a song
filled the room and Christian chuckled as you hit his shoulder.
“Shut up..” You muttered with a soft pout.
“I spy with my little eyes, a girly I can get cause she don’t
get too many likes. A curly headed cutie I can turn into my wife.” He was about
to sing the rest but your covered his lips looking in his eyes.
“Forever is a long time but as much as I fought to avoid
you, you better be giving it to me. Deal?” You asked and let your hand drop
“Deal.” He grinned kissing your lips. He pulled out of after
some time and helped you fix your outfit, grabbing at his hands he pulled you
into the bathroom and you tried to help him clean his pants. Once you were
done, he pulled you back onto the club floor, his arm wrapping around your
waist, to hold you close. Savannah walked towards you both and as soon as she
opened her mouth Christian cut her off.
“I’m your video producer nothing else. I helped put you on,
we helped you with this party. And now me and you are done, you don’t need me
for anything else. And if in the future you ever need me to do a video, it’ll
be up to my baby to decide if I should do it or not. You’ve caused more than
enough scenes for one night and yeah as a friend you’re cool but that’s all you’ll
ever be. So please excuse us both and enjoy the rest of your night, with your
friends.” He bowed his head smiling at her before he led you off walking
towards the door, and much to your surprise every person that was rolling with
Christian and saw you leave left themselves as you all went to another hangout
spot for the rest of the night.
La douleur exquise: The heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have.
Summary: You’ve been helplessly in love with your brother’s best friend all your life, but he can’t see you as anything other than a little sister.
Pairing: Wonho(?) x Reader (feat. Jungkook) ((let me live))
Word Count: 8.8k
Warning(s): No smut in this chapter but I’ll promise there will be in the next chapters!
A/N: Hi! So I’ve actually had this done for quite awhile and was debating on whether or not to post it in it’s entirety but I have a lot in store for this idea so I decided to do it in parts! This idea is based off of these pics here xxx of Wonho cuz he just looks so boyfriend & I love him so hardgysasjsknc. And I’m tagging this as a Jungkook scenario because you’ll be seeing him more eventually. Also, I’m working on drabbles in the meantime as well DON’T THINK I FORGOT THEM OK I’LL BE POSTING ONE SOON hope you enjoy this in the meantime!!
A/N: I am back bitches! I haven’t written in like months xD Anyway, I hope you like this, feedback is appreciated and don’t hesitate to drop in a request or talk to me anytime!
You could be overreacting but you did feel a little hurt. For the past three hours, you had been trying to catch Luke’s attention but your boyfriend was too busy paying attention to the friend from back home. You weren’t that girl who stopped her boyfriend from talking to every or any girl, let alone his old friend.
You understood that Luke wanted to spend time with Alice and you were completely fine with it. You just wished he wouldn’t ignore your existence like he was doing right now. Maybe he could include you in the conversation he was having or ask you to sit with him or hell, even a smile in your direction would suffice. But he didn’t do any of those. Instead he spent the entire party talking to the pretty girl with bright eyes from back home. Yes, you were quite satisfied with your looks but Alice, who looked impeccable without even trying made your self confidence go a notch lower.
You sighed, tearing your eyes away from the two old friends. The party was at full swing around you. The chattering of people blended into the loud, thumping music that vibrated through the apartment. Shaking your head, you silently scolded yourself for feeling this way. You’re not going to be that girl, Y/N.
But saying you weren’t jealous or hurt would be a lie. And what better way to numb your pain than downing the cheap beer in the red cups.
You weaved your way through the crowd, making your way to the kitchen to grab yourself a drink. Or some drinks.
You were through with five cups of the cheap alcohol and very tipsy when you saw a tipsier Michael approach you.
“Y/N!!” He drawled out your name, slinging an arm around you. “Come dance with us!”
You giggled as the weight of Michael’s hand made you spill a little of the alcohol in your sixth cup. “Mikey?’ You questioned seriously.
“Hmm?” His glazed eyes looked down on you.
“Is this… Is this a dance party?” You slurred your words.
Michael looked down at the floor thoughtfully, then nodded. “Yes Y/N, I think it is.”
You smiled widely, downed the alcohol and then raced to where people were already swaying to the beat. The alcohol was buzzing through your system and you felt alive and energetic. A little too energetic.
“DANCE PARTYYY!” You yelled and several other drunk people joined the hooting. And for the first time in the night as you moved to the rhythm, you had your mind off of Luke.
You didn’t know how long it had been since your impromptu “dance party” or how much more alcohol you had drank since but here you were, doing karaoke on top of a table. Your black heels were discarded off somewhere, your hair was a mess and sweat dripped from your forehead. “YOU’RE THE REASON THE ONLY REA-”
You were abruptly cut off when your microphone- the television remote- was snatched from your hands. You looked down at your boyfriend, his blue eyes a little annoyed.
“Y/N, what are you doing?”
“Luke, I’m having fun,” you whined. “Give me back my rem- my microphone.”
Luke swatted your hand that reached out to grab the remote and gently, but firmly, pulled you down the table. “No, Y/N, you’re making fool of yourself.”
You frowned. So now he cares. “No, Lucas, I’m having fun.” You yanked your arm out of his grip. “And these people actually pay attention to me, even though I’m not their girlfriend.”
“What are you-”
“DON’T STOP DOING WHAT YOU’RE DOING,” you cut him off which he reciprocated by putting his hand on your mouth.
“Let me spea-”
“EVERY TIME YOU MOVE TO THE BEAT IT GETS-”
“Y/N, stop!” Luke said, angrily. He grabbed your hand and lead you out of that room.
“Quite a classy one you got yourself there, Hemmings.” Alice said, still seated on the couch where the two were previously sitting.
That snarky remark set you off. ”Watch what you say, you bitch!” You spat out.
“Y/N!” Luke reprimanded.
You scoffed. “Oops, sorry! Not classy enough or you, I forgot.”
Luke glared at you to be quiet. He then turned to Alice,”Sorry, but we’ve got to get going. I’ll see you around.” He moved closer to wrap his arms around her and even went as far as to peck her on the cheek. You frowned and turned away, your heart hurting at the sight of him being so affectionate with someone who wasn’t you. Someone who he had been giving all the attention instead of you.
You waited by the door as Luke returned after saying his goodbyes, your heels in his hands. As soon as he reached you, you grabbed the black stilettos out of his hand and proceeded to walk out without him towards the car. You waited as he unlocked the car and stepped in, closing the door a little too loud.
The car ride was silent, tension thick in the air. Luke’s hand were clenched around the wheel, knuckles white while you chose to stare out the window at the passing cars. Instead of dropping you off at your own place, Luke chose to drive you to his own apartment. He wasn’t going to leave your drunk ass alone. So he wasn’t a complete douche.
“What is going on with you?” Luke asked as soon as you stepped inside. You dropped the heels by the door and Luke tossed the keys on the couch. “Why have you been acting so weird today?”
You turned to face him, crossing your arms in front of your chest. “Why have I been acting weird? Why have you been acting weird the past few days?”
Luke scowled. “What are you on about?”
“Of course you don’t know,” you sighed and headed to get some water from the kitchen. Luke followed you.
“Don’t just walk out like that.”
“Well then you shouldn’t just ignore me like that,” you smiled sarcastically continuing to sip on the cold water you retrieved from the fridge.
Luke rolled his eyes,”Of course this is about you needing attention.”
You slammed the bottle on the kitchen counter. Your intoxicated brain heightened you emotions, making your eyes water.
“No, Luke, this is about you being a complete dick to me the past few days. This is about you,” you jabbed a finger on his chest, ”completely ignoring your girlfriend’s existence when your friend from back home arrived. This about you,” you jabbed a finger on his chest again as he stepped back, ”choosing to give the girl, who by the way flirts with you every chance she gets, all your attention,” a smack to his chest as he took another step back. “This about you being an absolute asshole to me.”
You were about to hit his broad chest yet again when he caught hold of your hands just in time. In a second, his strong arms had flipped the two of you around. The argument flew out of the window when your back hit the kitchen wall and his mouth was pressed to yours. His hands slipped around your waist, pinning you against the wall. Your fingers found their way into his curly blonde hair. His lips moved against yours, the soft pink flesh grinding against your own. His tongue slipped into your mouth, tangling with yours. He groaned against your mouth as you tugged lightly on his hair. You wrapped your legs around his waist, your dress riding up your thigh.
His palms were cupping your face when the two of you finally had to break apart for air and immediately after, Luke’s lips were attached to your neck. He pressed wet kisses all along the curve of your neck, nibbling and sucking gently on your soft skin.
“Lu- Luke…” He made it hard for you to speak. Luke knew you were sensitive near the neck and he took all advantage of it. You pulled his head away from your neck, smiling softly. “Lucas, I’m still mad at you.”
His blue eyes, darker under the dim light, stared into yours. “I know, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you feel that way.”
“I’ll heal it, I swear. I’m really, really sorry.” He smiled at you apologetically.
“I’m not sure I’m classy enough to forgive you,” you taunted, a smirk gracing your lips.
“Y/N,” Luke whined. “You called her a bitch before I could even defend you.”
“Didn’t think you’d defend me,” you answered, fingers playing with he soft curls at the back oh his neck.
“Hey, I’ll always stand up for you,” he said, meaningfully as he bumped his forehead to yours. You smiled before giving him a small peck on his forehead.
“Y/N,” he called out.
“Hmm?” You hummed in acknowledgement.
“You said you’re still mad at me right?” He questioned.
You nodded, a teasing grin on your face.
A cheeky smile came on to Luke’s face as he said, ”So does that mean we can have angry sex?”
request: can you do a peter parker imagine based on dodie’s would you be so kind? i think that’d be super cute - anon
summary: you and Peter have known each other since you were little, and he’s been head over heels since you were both 10. now, you’re both sophomores, and in a sleepy, 6am haze, you confess your feelings for each other.
word count: 1.5k
this didn’t quite follow the request but i think it still turned out really cute so here u go
You had known Peter forever. You met when you were five, and by third grade, you practically lived in his apartment. You’d walk home with him everyday after school, and the two of you would build cubby houses out of sheets and pillows, dim fairy lights flickering around your heads as the batteries ran out with the darkening sky. You would speak in hushed voices and play tic tac toe on the backs of your hands with glittery pens until you fell asleep in a bundle of blankets and little limbs. Peter always lost.
He was in love with you. There was no other way to put it, he had been since you split your sandwich with him and told him he had pretty eyes when you were ten. You made it yourself - almost half a bottle of sprinkles in between two slices of white bread, stuck on with far too much butter for anybody’s liking. Your small legs hung over the edge of the old wooden dock May had taken the two of you to, gentle waves lapping just below your shoes. You had pulled the sandwich apart and handed him the bigger half, butter on your fingertips that you licked off. Peter told you that was gross, and you told him he was gross. But he knew you were only joking.
You and Peter were lying on your stomachs under a canopy of white sheets, light blue lights glowing above you as they draped off the chair propping the sheets up. You’d both just started your sophomore year, but you were glad you still got to spend so much time together. You left blue dots over your notes as you tappen your pen to the page in front of you, Peter humming a tune. He clicked his tongue to the roof of his mouth annoyingly, and you shoved his shoulder with yours. A giggle fell from his lips, muffled by the cushion he was hugging close to his chest as he leaned over, scribbling a little grid in the corner of your page with a purple glitter pen. You glanced over, a smirk curling onto your lips as you drew an ‘x’ in the middle box.
“Prepare to lose!” you challenged, shoving him gently.
He grinned, shaking his head, “You’re on.”
You took turns scribbling your symbols into the grid, though Peter wasn’t paying much attention. His eyes were fixated on you, tracing over your gentle movements as you thought out each turn. He smiled when your ribcage would rattle with giggles each time you caught him, ears burning red.
“What?” you asked, touching your face a little self-consciously, glittery ink marking your skin where you did. Peter let out a soft, mischievous giggle, quickly leaning forward and writing in an 'o’ in the winning square. Your jaw dropped open, blinking in shock at the three circles lined up diagonally on the page
“No way,” you said, turning to look at him, faces close together.
“Not undefeated anymore, huh?” He teased, poking you with an ear-to-ear grin plastered to his face as he sat up on his knees, and you pushed him playfully.
“Hey!” he grinned, and you stuck your tongue out at him. He leaped forward, reaching out and tickling your sides. You gasped out a laugh and rolled over onto your back, holding your hands out to stop him. A giddy smile was engraved into his features as he continued tickling you, loud laughs escaping both his lips and yours. You wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him down and wrapping your arms around him too with a giggle.
“Mmph… Let me go! Y/N!” He cried out through his laughter, squirming in attempt to pull free. You shook your head, keeping your tight grip on him until he stopped struggling with a defeated sigh.
“Aha!” You shouted, letting go. “I win!”
“You win what?” He asked, rolling off of you and landing by your side, so the two of you were on your backs.
“I just win.” You told him, brushing your hair out of your face, a smile still ghosting your lips.
“Well, I think that’s dumb.”
“I think you’re dumb.”
“Hey!” Peter exclaimed, pulling a cushion from underneath him and throwing it at you. You mock-glared at him, pulling the pillow to your chest and looking at the cheap kiddie watch on your wrist. He got it for you on your eleventh birthday, it was bright pink with stars and glitter decorating it, the face displaying faded digital numbers that were always 10 minutes slow. You frowned when you saw the time, turning your attention back to Peter.
“It’s getting late, I should be going home…” You said, a small pang of sadness hitting you when his face dropped.
“Noo, May’s making your favourite pasta, special!” He protested, sticking his bottom lip out in a pout.
“I’m sorryyy,” You said, dragging out your words, “I have to, Mom said to be home by 9:30…Save me some?”
He smiled, though he still looked a little disappointed. “Yeah…okay. And of course. I’ll walk you home?”
You nodded, and the two of you crawled out of your sheet-hideaway.
After you said your goodbyes to his Aunt May in the kitchen, Peter walked you three blocks in the stinging cold to your front doorstep. The streetlights glowed orange and casted dark shadows over his features as he flashed you a smile.
“Well, goodnight, Y/N,” He said gently, running his hand through his hair.
You grinned at him. “Night, nerd. Love you.”
“More,” He replied.
Little did either of you know, that you both really meant it.
The sky outside had only just lightened when you let yourself into Peter’s apartment the next day, fingers numb from the biting morning breeze as you shut the front door gently behind you. May had gotten a key cut especially for you in 6th grade - she even bought you a keyring with it, but it had fallen off and all that was left was the metal-smelling chain. You tiptoed past the kitchen and the living room, making your way to Peter’s bedroom with quiet footsteps. Stepping inside without a sound, you grinned when you saw him curled up under his blankets, his chest rising and falling with slow and steady breaths. You stifled a giggle, crawling under the covers beside him and throwing an arm around him. He jolted gently, eyes opening to slits and he sighed a smile when he saw you.
“What are you doinnggg?” He mumbled nearly incoherently, voice gravely and hair unruly from sleep as he closed his eyes again.
“Sleeping.” You whispered, laying your hand on the side of his face and letting your own eyes shut. He squirmed, covering his face with his hands as a whining noise came from the back of his throat.
“Don’t touch my face - Stoppp, your hands are so cooold..!” he sulked sleepily. You giggled almost silently and he let out a small *hmph* sound. “Why are you so cold…” he mumbled,
“You’re so freezing… freeeeezing…”
You pushed his hands away and grabbed his face with both hands, grinning. He let out a little squeal then a huff, quickly rolling over so his back was to you.
“Aw, c’mon, nerd, I’m just playing!” You teased, to which he gave no response. A smirk spread across your features and you reached out, tickling his sides just as he had to you last night. He let out a gasp and broke out into a grin, pushing you away with his hands but you persisted, sitting up and straddling him with your knees so he couldn’t move. Laughs tumbled from his lips, though he kept his eyes closed. You could feel it racking his body as you held him down and carried on tickling his sides, his laughter getting louder and louder until he couldn’t control it. It was contagious, and you found the same thing happening to you, until your arms turned to jelly with elation and you were both sitting there in a haze of utter glee, your snorts filling the room like music.
“God, I love you” Peter said between half-asleep laughter. You grinned impossibly wider and cupped his face with your hands, though he didn’t complain this time.
“Duh, I love you too, dork,” You told him, beaming.
“No,” He chuckled, “No, really”
You froze, hands still on his cheeks and your eyes widened like saucers. “Wh-what?” You stuttered disbelievingly.
His face flushed crimson and his movements came to a halt as well. “I-I…” He murmured, “I said, I love you.”
You stayed silent for a moment, and before you could even think about it, you were shutting your eyes and pressing your lips to his. It was a short but tender kiss, with your lips moving soft and smoothly with his. When you pulled away, Peter’s eyes fluttered open. You mirrored the grin that broke out on his face, warmth spreading through your chest.
John is standing in front of a shelf of boxed cereals in Tesco when it
Rosie bounces in her pushchair, coos over the array of choices in front
of her. She is drawn to the brightly coloured boxes, sugared and unhealthy,
more treat than breakfast. He ignores her fussing, chooses something with
plainer packaging, whole grains, no sugar.
He suspects that Sherlock indulges her sweet tooth, though he has no
firm proof of this.
There is a woman watching them from the end of the aisle, a withered
old crone, stooped and unkempt. There are age spots on her trembling hands. She
It is not unusual. Rosie is a particularly comely child, all wild blond
curls and bright, inquisitive eyes. She draws attention wherever they go.
He flashes a polite smile in return, turns away.
The woman is still smiling, still watching. Their eyes meet and he
"Oh,“ he says. "Oh Christ—”
and he staggers a bit, presses his knuckles hard against his mouth. The world goes
a bit fuzzy at the edges.
Rosie ratchets from curiosity to alarm in six seconds flat. She
sniffles, and then begins to wail.
The old woman takes a halting step forward, stops. Shakes her head.
Backs up. Turns away.
That jars him loose. He sets his basket down on the ground, grips the
pushchair with both hands. Steps forward with a determined stride.
"Don’t you dare,“ he says, and his voice is terse, low, hissed through clenched teeth. "Don’t you dare go
If she truly wants to run, he’ll not be able to stop her. She’ll be
able to shuck her disguise and melt into the evening crowds before he could possibly
catch up with Rosie in tow.
She does not run. Instead she slows her stride, defeated, and stands
facing the door. He looks at her back, at the tense line of her shoulders under
a lumpy cardigan, at the wisps of grey hair working loose from a messy bun.
Rosie has gone red in the face, screaming in her chair. She flails her
chubby fists, kicks her legs.
Mary turns around.
Her expression is pained. Her eyes are strange behind dark-tinted
contact lenses, her makeup thorough, convincing. She looks at Rosie, then back
to him. There is moisture gleaming on her cheeks.
His own eyes sting. His hand trembles.
She stands very still for a moment, watching him. Then turns and walks
out of the store.
He is tempted to shout, to give chase, but he can see her through the
glass, making her way slowly through the crowd. She is not fleeing. She is
giving him ample time to follow.
He breathes out hard through his nose, shuts his eyes. Clenches and unclenches
his hand. Flexes his fingers. Murmurs a few soothing words to Rosie, who has
started to settle down.
In his pocket, his phone chimes with an incoming text.
Don’t forget the biscuits. SH
He huffs out a disbelieving laugh, shuts his eyes. One of the fluorescent
lights overhead has begun to buzz. Rosie makes a tentative whimpering sound,
His phone buzzes again.
He thinks of Mary, gasping out her last breaths in his arm under the
rippling blue aquarium lights. He thinks of the way she’d smiled at him on
their wedding day, their first dance to the plaintive sounds of Sherlock’s
violin. He thinks of the way her face could shift from warm to cold in an
instant, the way he’d loved her, the way he’d loathed her, the way he’d tried
his very best to push it all aside and start over. The way it had almost,
He goes back up the aisle, gathers up his basket from the floor. Goes
into the next aisle, overly aware of the sound of his own breathing, of the
squeaky wheel on Rosie’s pushchair, the intermittent buzz of the overhead
He picks up a box of the biscuits Sherlock favours. Hesitates, then
adds a second box to the basket.
He wonders if Sherlock knew. And then he thinks of Sherlock’s face,
that night, the shocked frozen devastation in his expression. Thinks of all
that came after.
No, he decides. Sherlock had not known.
He adds a third box of biscuits. Goes down the aisle towards the
cashier. Smiles as she coos over Rosie. He bags up his shopping, pushes Rosie
out through the door. It is getting dark.
He looks to his left, in the direction that Mary had gone. Stands for a
long moment just watching the people as they hurry along the pavement.
Then he turns right, sets out into the crowd at a comfortable pace,
back towards Baker Street, back towards home.