22, 89 buck plsss!
“That’s bullshit and you know it!” + “Okay, so maybe I lied! Maybe I’m not over you! Maybe I still have feelings! Stupid, stupid, uncontrollable, feelings!” “Well what made you think I don’t feel the same way?”
“I’m just saying that I don’t think she should be going on this mission.” Bucky crosses his arms, ignoring the annoyed look Natasha is giving him.
Steve sighs, turing to look at his friend. “Why not? She’s more than qualified and she’s the only one who can get the data files.”
Bucky grunts. “She’s immature. She puts herself in danger which in turn puts all of us in danger. She needs more training.”
Y/N looks up, narrowing her eyes at the long haired soldier. “That’s not the real reason you don’t want me going, now is it?” She snaps, folding her mission files back into the folder.
“That’s the exact reason, nothing more nothing less.”
“That’s bullshit and you know it, Barnes.” Y/N seethes, holding onto the arm rests of her chair.
Bucky scoffs, not making eye contact with the smaller girl. “Maybe I don’t want you to screw it up and get killed, ok? Maybe I want you to come back here, safe and sound.”
Y/N rolls her eyes, shaking her head. “You don’t get to care about that anymore. You left me, remember? I’m not your girlfriend anymore, I’m not your friend anymore. My safety is not your fucking responsibility.”
Bucky stands abruptly, his chair scooting back a few inches. “I don’t give a shit if we aren’t together, I’m going to care about you until I stop loving you. I’m going to tell Steve ‘no’ every single time he thinks about putting you in a dangerous position. If you get hurt, I will spend my time finding the person who did it and kill them instead of actually working!”
“You still love me? It’s been five months and you’re just now telling me this? Five months of you ignoring me, treating me like shit and making me hate myself? You said you didn’t love me anymore!” Y/N yells, her face turning red from anger.
“Okay, so maybe I lied! Maybe I’m not over you! Maybe I still have feelings! Stupid, stupid, uncontrollable, feelings! Pretending to hate you was the only way I could keep you safe. When you’re with me, you’re not safe. People know you’re my weakness, they know if they hurt you they can get to me. I was done putting you in danger!”
“You’re lying.” Her voice drops to a whisper, tears welling in her eyes.
Bucky sniffles, holding back his own tears. “I wish I was. I love you, Y/N. I always will. I hated having to sit there and watch you get over me. Watch you with other men. Watch you cry because of how bad I was treating you. It killed me.”
“You think I’m over you?” She tilts her head, tears pouring down her cheeks. Bucky nods, looking at his feet. “Well what made you think I don’t feel the same way? What made you think I didn’t still love you? That I didn’t miss you every single day? What the fuck is wrong with you?”
Bucky rubs his eyes, looking at her. “I made a mistake letting you go.”
“Yea, you really did.”
“Am I making a mistake asking for you to come back?”
Y/N rushes into his chest, his arms wrapping firmly around her. “Not at all.”