It’s easy for me to put things bothering me on the back burner. It’s easy for me to work 5 days a week this summer, go to shows, and hang out with friends all the time. I put my problems out of my view.
My uncle (Dad’s side) is visiting from Virginia and he had a talk with Neil and I tonight. I love him to death and I am so thankful for him. But shit got real. Talking about my living situation and my relationship with my mother. He talkes about how bad it is and to me and Neil about more terrible things she has done recently. I am at the point where I cannot concern myself with my Mom, that is too much for me. I’m done with it.
He told me that he believes in Neil and I beyond belief and that we need to believe in ourselves like that. Whenever he visits I get long talks about what I need to do to keep myself on the right track, and I appreciate it, because I don’t have that at home. I don’t have someone to put me in my place. He said it was time for Neil and I to move forward. And he’s right. I’ve been stuck for a long time. I’ve been down for a long time.