can you imagine bucky trying to desperately rub off the star on his metal arm and just completely breaking down because he can’t? he’s not strong enough. which makes him think: what if he’s not strong enough inside? will he do what he did again? he wasn’t strong enough to resist all those times, it’s all on him… “it wasn’t your fault, Buck,” says Steve, “they brainwashed you.”

bucky wishes his right arm was metal to scrub off the star on his left. but the one he has already caused so much pain. what would another metal arm bring?

he breaks down all over again.