ugly-crier

ZODIAC SIGNS AS TYPES OF CRIERS
  • Aries: Sporadic crier; sometimes cry for what seems like no reason; always sputter and snot everywhere when they cry, although not a particularly ugly crier; great at cheering others up when they cry; can usually be cheered up themselves pretty quickly after a bout of crying
  • Taurus: Vulnerable crier; usually, all guards are up with taurus, but taurus often uses crying to break their walls down and show their vulnerabilities; can't stop crying once they start and sniffle for a very long time afterwards; need tons of comfort in the form of self-care, comfort food, and someone to coddle them in order to go back to normal
  • Gemini: Rare crier; can usually disconnect themselves from their emotions to prevent crying when they don't want to; can also produce tears when they do; even when they are so upset they can't control their tears, gemini often cries with a smile on their face; always feel humiliated after crying for real and highkey try to downplay it
  • Cancer: Angriest crier of the zodiac; cries because of duress, humiliation, embarrassment, and frustration; loud, hiccupy crying; unintelligible when crying and has to calm down before they can speak again; best at comforting others who are crying and want someone to do the same for them
  • Leo: Excellent at faking sadness for melodrama; great at keeping real tears under control in public and prefer to cry in private because they think it's ugly, but when life really gets to them they burst can out into public, uncontrollable sobbing
  • Virgo: Often cries quietly or silently; hiccups when crying; refuses to be seen crying in public even if it means holding back tears to the point it hurts and excusing themselves from the situation; uses crying to cope with heavy stress
  • Libra: Sensitive, empathetic crier; is usually a pretty composed, albeit snotty crier; can not bear to see others cry and has to comfort them or leave the room; cries more because of other people's problems then their own
  • Scorpio: Even better than leo at faking sadness and using tears as a method of personal gain; real crying is ugly and snotty; often cries due to frustration with the disconnect between themselves and their emotions; very unstable when crying and unintentionally lashes out when anyone attempts to comfort them
  • Sagittarius: Ghost crier; you'd be hard pressed to catch a sag crying; usually cry when in physical pain; emotional pain/stress must be unbelievably high before a sag cries and when they do, they do it for hours in private
  • Capricorn: Private crier; doesn't cry often, but when they do, it's very easy to tell; most prone to getting bloodshot eyes in the zodiac; somewhat quiet crier; almost never cries because of a movie, show, etc
  • Aquarius: Tear-shedder; 99% of the time, they can cry without a single sound, only tears dripping down their face; a very rare, rare 1% of the time, however, they are the loudest, ugliest, least composed criers of the zodiac and can howl into their pillow for hours, and then it doesn't happen again for long, long time; they don't understand people who cry all the time over trivial things, although they themselves have probably cried over their favorite book/movie etc
  • Pisces: Biggest crybaby of the zodiac; cries due to pretty much anything; sessions can last from one or two tears to hours of crying; crying is usually wet and snotty and they go through a million tissue boxes; least prone to getting bloodshot eyes but most prone to have very sensitive eyes all the time; most prone to crying because of movies, tv shows, books, etc; people often don't take them seriously when they cry because it happens so often but pisces ALWAYS have a reason for it (even if they don't know what that reason is themselves)
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this is… me.

this is me after a long tearful weekend, a long tearful night, a long tearful morning, and a long tearful drive home after breaking up with my supportive ex-boyfriend (now just a good friend). this is me after a few stressful months of consideration, of self reflection, and brute-forced self acceptance. this is me, doing what i imagined myself doing after having a long talk with my mother, but with a lot more pain.

this is me, tired and scared. this is me, relieved. this is me, bipolar and post-traumatic, with a messy room and in mismatched colors. this is me, trying to smile and make faces because i know i’m an ugly crier, because i know that if i laugh, maybe i won’t feel the need to cry as much anymore. this is me, blasting aida nikolaychuk and trying not to think about the next coming years. this is me, with crooked teeth, biting back doubt.

this is me, who dreamed of kissing girls first. this is me, who walked through my home, playing the pretend prince who saved princesses. this is me, who convinced my entire first grade class to write handmade cards to my teacher crush so I could confess my feelings without her knowing. this is me, who decided, in fear, to push those feelings down because they weren’t “right.” this is me, who continued to dream those dreams and think those thoughts no matter how hard I tried not to.

this is me, trying to give myself all the reasons why i can’t be lying. this is me, trying to assuage myself from wondering if i did the right thing. this is me, coming out.

this is me, a lesbian.