ugly face of beauty

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SO YEAH OKAY HERE’S THE FULL STORY OF HOW I MET TYLER AND JOSH

I GOT TO THE VENUE AT 10:30AM BUT SINCE I WASNT GOING TO THE SHOW I COULD HANG AROUND INSTEAD OF WAITING IN LINE SO I WAITED NEAR THEIR BUS AT THE BACK

@sohelpmedun DROPPED BY AROUND 11:30 (but left a bit after)

AT 12 WE SAW A CREW MEMBER COME OUT OF THE BUS AND @sohelpmedun ASKED IF HE COULD GIVE MY LETTER (+ CLIQUE ART) TO THE BOYS AND HE SAID YES HE’D PUT IT ON THE TABLE IN THE BUS 

AT 12:45 I WAS SO FREEZING COLD I WENT TO BUY A COFFEE IN RECORD TIME 

AT 1:20 TYLER AND MARK ARRIVED AT THE VENUE AND WENT TO THE BUS AND I WENT UP TO THEM (KEEP IN MIND THAT THERE WAS STILL NO SECURITY BARRIER BUT I WAS SCARED I’D BE BOTHERING THEM SO I STILL KEPT A BIT OF DISTANCE). TYLER WAS WEARING A THIN OLIVE GREEN HOODIE WITH THE HOOD UP AND A BLACK/DARK BLUE CAP HE LOOKED SO FUCKING GOOD. I SAID HI TYLER AND IM PRETTY SURE MY VOICE WENT A LIL TOO HIGH PITCHED AND HE SAID HEY HOW’S IN GOIN AND I FUCKING DIED AND I SAID GOOD AND HEY MARK AND MY MIND WENT COMPLETELY BLANK I WANTED TO TELL HIM I HAD A LETTER AND ART FOR HIM BUT ALL I COULD DO WAS STUTTER AND TYLER SAID LATER OKAY I SAID OKAY AND THEN I SAW SECURITY WAVING AT ME TO GET BACK SO I DID AND TYLER AND MARK WENT INTO THE BUS AND REAL SOON AFTER THEY WENT INTO THE VENUE

SOON AFTER I MET A COUPLE LOVELY PEOPLE WHOSE TUMBLRS I DID NOT CATCH BUT WE HUNG OUT AND WAITED FOR THE BOYS. BY THIS TIME I WAS DYING TO PEE BUT I HELD IT IN. THE SECURITY DUDE PUT UP THE BARRIER.

BETWEEN THAT TIME AND 2:30 TYLER WENT INTO THE BUS, JOSH ARRIVED AND ALSO WENT INTO THE BUS. WHEN WE SAW TYLER WE CALLED OUT TO HIM AND ASKED IF HE COULD COME OVER BUT HE SAID HE WAS COLD AND DID THAT CUTE LIL THING WHERE HE RUBBED HIS ARMS TO EMPHASIZE THAT AND IT WAS SO FUCKING CUTE I DIED AGAIN. MY MIND WENT BLANK AGAIN AND I COULDNT GET MY CAMERA OUT IN TIME SO I DIDN’T GET TO SAY ANYTHING ELSE TO HIM EXCEPT HI. WHEN JOSH GOT ON THE BUS WE YELLED HI TOO AND HE SAID HE WOULD COME SEE US LATER AND I YELLED I GOT ART FOR YOU BUT I WASN’T SURE IF HE HEARD BC HE HAD ALREADY GOTTEN IN THE BUS

AND THEN !!!!!!!!! AT 2:30 JOSH CAME OUT AND SAID IS THERE ART FOR ME SO THAT MEANS HE FUCKING HEARD ME AND I DIED YET AGAIN BUT APPARENTLY THERE WAS A GIRL WHO MADE ART FOR HIM AND SHE GAVE IT TO HIM AND IT LOOKED RLY GOOD IT WAS LIKE OIL PAINTING OR SOMETHING. ANYWAYS JOSH SAID HE COULDN’T STAY LONG BUT HE COULD TAKE PICTURES AND. HERES THE BEST PART. I ASKED HIM DID HE SEE MY LETTER AND HE SAID WHERE IS IT DID YOU GIVE IT TO SOMEONE AND I SAID YES HE SAID HE’D PUT IT ON YOUR TABLE AND HE SAID OKAY THEN I’LL SEE IT LATER AND BY THIS POINT MY BRAIN WAS ON AUTO FUCKING PILOT I DONT KNOW HOW I DIDNT JUST COLLAPSE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM OR PEE MYSELF BUT I HELD MY SHIT TOGETHER AND DIED FOR LIKE THE MILLIONTH TIME. I TOOK A PICTURE WITH HIM AND HE WENT INTO THE VENUE.

I FUCKING MET TYLER JOSEPH AND JOSH DUN LOOK AT THAT HAIR THOSE CURLS HE IS SO BEAUTIFUL UP CLOSE AND NICE HE IS A LITERAL FUCKING ANGEL AND AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM GONNA GO WAIT OUTSIDE AFTER THE SHOW TO SEE IF I COULD CATCH THEM AGAIN 

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The only person in the whole con who asked for photos with me was the most amazing photographer and I’m so grateful to him for these stunning shots…
@thepurple-eyedmonster-accidiarum - I can’t thank you enough for the suggestion of a Modern Evie. Xxxx
@swiggle-muffin - as requested

Shout out to my pickers ok?

People that pick when they get nervous

People that never know they’re picking until they’ve reopened a scar or they’re bleeding.

People that have dark spots on their faces, arms, and legs.

You’re not ugly. You’re not gross. You’re all beautiful and loved.

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🖤 u know when ur never gna look good in any selfie anyway so u just take them in ur pjs??? same🖤

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