ughbenedict

no but listen to this

  • john getting shot (non-fatal) in sherlock’s presence
  • sherlock getting so furious that he risks everything and attacks the shooter (if shooter is alone) and hits them with his bare hands and they fall to the ground
  • he hits them and hits them until the shooter gets knocked out completely and sherlock’s hands are bloody
  • sherlock lets go of them and turns around with tears in his eyes to see john on the ground looking at him mesmerized
  • sherlock hurries over to john where he’s leaning against the wall he and grabs his head with his bloody hands and asks him if he’s okay with his broken voice
  • “are you alright, are you ALRIGHT”
  • john just nods and shakes his head at the same time
  • and sherlock breaks and he can’t hold it in anymore and the tears can’t be stopped
  • and he just closes his eyes and uses his hands to guide john’s head closer to him and he kisses him hard and sobs into his mouth
  • and then he stops because he can’t stop crying and he hulks and can’t breathe because john got shot and it was sherlock’s fault and everything is sherlock’s fault and he hates himself for ever letting this man into his life and he hates himself for falling in love with him

the first night john and sherlock share a bed as a couple, sherlock has a nightmare. he’s back at dartmoor and he sees dr frankland with the gas mask, but instead of seeing moriarty beneath it, he sees mary. suddenly she’s in her wedding dress and she shoots him again and before he knows it, he’s back in one of the torture chambers. mary (in her wedding dress) and moriarty begin torturing sherlock both verbally and physically; “john’s too good for you”, “he’s going to leave you”, “john watson doesn’t love you”. the detective shoots up like a bolt and is as white as a sheet and john slowly wakes up too, seeing how distressed sherlock is and wrapping his arms around him. “i love you”, “it’s okay, sweetheart, i’m here”, “i’ve got you, shhh,” john murmurs tenderly and peppers equally tender kisses all over sherlock’s sweat-slicked face and neck, until they both slowly drift back to a calm sleep. sherlock never tells john what he had a nightmare about that night, but from that night on, he knows that he is and always has been good enough for john watson, because john chose him.

this is it guys, the last few hours until we see either the most groundbreaking romance ever aired on television or the floor is lava literally?? 

i want to thank all of you so so so much im not being even fucking soppy i’ve been through SO FUCKING MUCH these past 3 years since i joined this fandom i battled so many demons including depression, eating disorders, and just everything shitty and you, all of you helped me live through it all and here i am - waiting for the most beautiful thing to happen - sherlock holmes and john watson to kiss for the first ever time in 130 years 

i owe you my life guys, if it werent for you i would 100% dead im not even exaggerating i love you i love you i love im fucking drunk but johnlock helped me learn whats love and i finally escaped from a physically abusive relationship so thank you so so so so much

i want to break my heart into tiny tiny pieces and give it to every individual here and for all the people who follow me i love you u cant comprehend how grateful i am to be with you -  @bimartin (ily so much u fucking idiot), @quietlyprim @marcelock @cuccaine2 @glassofteajlc @hotsmugstache @johnlockfulfillment @teapotsubtext @cloisteredself @softlavenders @propergenius @johnlockogie @johnsjawline @1895ad @1895 @nondeducible @writemeastoryofsolitude @kinklock  @rainlock @szpok @gayufo @brothersholmes @sadlawyer @warmth-and-constancy @darkmofftiss @deserthearts @darlingbenny @deducingbbcsherlock @deducethegay @detectivelyd @dry @dramaqueern @drool-is-love @shylocks @shylockgnomes @thediogenes @balletlock @softelytjlc @jeslock @syupon @paintingwithpablo @theymakemagic @heartoftheconspiracy @sherrinfordholmes @grumpybijohn @grumpy-swoop @graceebooks @gaytheist @greglestrade @cakepopsforeveryone @therealmartinsgrrrl @rosegoldsherlock @rominatrix @susscx @theneckstroke @thecumbercollective @thetwelfthpanda @the-7-percent-solution @taikova

@sapphicvelma @sapphicsherlock @gaytectives @galpalkirk @gaymotives

@mokee @honeytjlc @whoopdoopitsmagic @itsmarkgatissbitch @tjlobserve

@autisticprotagonist @sherlock @sherlocksdarksecret @sherlockwatson

@sherolck @sherlocksbelstaff @sherlockism @teacroft @waitingforgarridebs

@watsnn @watsonshoneybee @watsonsdick @waterfallgay @oxfordlunch @lyingholmes @witch-lock @wizphobe @blueink3 @confirmedjohnlock @consultingbeekeepers @consultingdetextive @consultingwives @captain-liddy @cupidford @cptskirk @ufogirl @december1963 @crylock @johnlocktm

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thank you so so much for all of you and to everyone how is following me 

because of you i am still alive and well and i cant wait till sherlock holmes and john watson kiss

i love you so much!!! thank you!

2

Come what may

Come what may;
I will love you, until my dying day

Set 3 and my favourite one! I decided that this is a good ending for 2014 (and you’ll get the outtakes later) so 2015 I’ll start with a bunch of Cosplay photos we made on the Shooting we had in September on various original locations in London.

Sherlock: mi-caw-ber
John: itsloki
The others can be found here: 1 2 3 4 5

Thank you all for the support during the year, the encouraging words and messages when I moved to London 2 months ago and all your feedback and support.
I just reached the 2k line a few days ago and when I started tumblering some years ago I never thought this would happen. That’s why I’m looking forward to a thrilling new year in 2015 with all of you!

Special thanks to: itsloki kassna blackhellkitty fatummeum readable-sherlock-art sannybun somelikeitpink chestnutwind mansikka-sammakko theburningblack johnlocking-always slashtrix saku-haku mrshudsonsbrownies anotherwellkeptsecret pikalotte yamipanther johnlocklives cumberbeni gogingergiraffe jumperben-holybatch welcome2chaos tydarkpromise thepersonalscienceofdeduction  seasonsofjohnlock 221bsherlock theshatteredsilhouette megshezzastardis traumachu floccinaucinihilipilificationa harrietpatriciawatson vaticcancammeos thewomvn addictedtohumans ughbenedict slythericious a-watson-with-a-box-of-art yayforjohnlock thejohnlockedwhovian cumberbum mrshudson-magnussen stoff-im-gehirn iriarty jeanfuckingmarco sherlockholmeson bellekat ishuramjohnlocked cameronfedora ishipitliketitanic ilikealotofthingss glas-onion gabgabs547 moriarghty you-keep-me-right-jw

& all the other lovely ppl I forgot to mention or that changed their names and confused the hell out of me (I’m very sorry!)

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

remember how two days ago I was like I can’t do a follow forever I follow to many people??? well here I am, my statement still stands, because I probably forgot like ten hundred people - if we’re mutuals and you can’t find yourself in here it’s because I’m trash and I still love and super appreciate you really

anyway this turned out mostly into a mutuals appreciation I love you all Too Much alright, you’re all so very fantastic and I wish you just the very very best in life :*

(mutuals are in italics, I don’t know what bolded means but you’re even more special nerds)

a-d

8oo, aaliyah1979-2001, abessinier, aconissa, adachimerica, agehachou, amperehope, anewkindofthrill, anotherwellkeptsecret, antisepticbandaid, aranea-serket, baconbreath, basildawson, beebunny, bendydicks, bennyslegs, bergamoth, bilbobeutlin, brotoro, buckingrabbit, bumbleshark, butt-0ns, capaow, cinnarabbit, colorfulrussianfireworks, confirmedfurry, cuteknife, czbaterka, daggermandias, danadelions, dangshezza, darklock, detectivelyd, disatisfying, divinedorothy, douglasrichardsonsghost, dragonmad, drakesboyfriend, drfurter, drwtsn, duod

e-j

eggtragedy, emillu, fantomesdenotrelit, fawnjohn, felixandria, flamiekitten, floccinaucinihilipilificationa, floozys, flowerlock, flowers-in-his-hair, flyingrotten, forsciencejohn, francisxie, fuckyoursolarsystem, gaytectives, gethinblake, ghostbees, gingerbronson, gingerthon, gnacat, gnarlypup, graceebooks, greglestrade, halflock, hammerlock, harteus, hislastbough, inchells, indyfalcon, ineffableboyfriends, iriarty, ivorylungs, jamiehenry, janusjupiter, javvn, jingleallthevvay, johix, jonnethreeway69, joolabee, justaholmesboy, justicespank

k-p

katzensprotte, kingcheddarxmas, kingshezza, kinklock, krispy-bits, kyary, leppu, lestratosphere, lifewithanamericanaccent, littlemammal, littlenim, markjl, martainducreff, martinfreemanmartinjfreeman, maryismoran, matushka-rossiya, meimrr, ministryhasfallen, misandry1996, mjolkk, moosefix, moxel, msaether, myfawnwy, natazilla, nescafes, nevernoahh, nonbinaryjohn, nondeducible, notjackwhite, officialjonathanaris, ohvelveteena, ojisea, ooobee, orcabelly, orphanslot, pantlesspumpkin, pollykatt, prycroft, psychologicalmumbojumbo, psychosematic, pupyup,

r-x

rakatakat, rutobuka2, sallydonovan, samandrill, sanjistaboo, scattered-starks, schroedingerz, severalghostbats, sherkeys, shinka, shootbadcabbies, shuttleshark, shutupmerlin, sincerelywrong, speckledhound, subtxts, sweetlittlekitty, taikova, thealogie, thebusylilbee, thecarefree, thekneegrope, thexth, tjlc, trashfoetus, turinqs, ughbenedict, uzumakijpeg, vellium, vvitch-bitch, whristophcaltz, whybenedict, xargon