ugh why are you so perfect it makes me cry you are growing up so much and im in love with you

Hogu’s Love ep. 11-12

spoilers for those who haven’t watched the episode yet. obviously. so scroll along..

this was surely one hell of a week for hogu’s love watchers

first, the highlights:

there was kang chul trying to steal a kiss from sleeping (beauty) hogu.

then there was that knee weakening kiss from dohee to hogu. (damn hogu why is everyone trying to kiss you)

then there was the baby heist. (which was epic. thank you writers. byun kang chul you’re awesome)

uhh. what else. 

oh! CAN’T FORGET TO MENTION HOGU’S (MANLY) TRANSFORMATION 

YEAaaas

wow.. so much tears.. so many emotion…

shall we talk about the character development?

let’s start with this fellow. 

he seriously has the biggest character development imo. i mean…

the metaphorical closet has been opened and byun kang chul is out of it.

supposedly.

i mean, i’m still confused. if he developed actual feelings for hogu amidst the heaps of confusions and misunderstandings. then does this mean he’s bisexual?

will he lose all those rapid heart beatings and stomach fluttering once he find out that his first love turns out to be ho kyung and not hogu? so does that mean he’s actually straight?

oh, but the questions don’t end there though. but we’ll get to the rest later.

i still wanna point out this important line from byun kang chul

yes, our narcissistic, insensitive and supposedly loner of a character has called himself… “A FRIEND..” 

rewind to episode 9 shall we.

i can relate to byun kang chul the most among the characters.

not the smart-rich-lawyer-prestigious-university-graduate part

but mostly the afraid-of-people-always-locked-up-in-the-house part

like our friend here, i also don’t like being around people. it’s hard to make friends because of my personality and i’m more comfortable alone.

which is why i always root for this guy. because, he’s trying. and learning. no matter how much he avoids human interaction, he still ends up being surrounded by good people. because he’s a good guy. 

so does that mean i’m a bad person because i cant make friends? lol but pity-real-life-stories aside, byun kang chul is the cutest peanut in the drama. well, second. geum dong holds first place :>

next is the other cute peanut.

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kang hogu is undeniably the most likable character in this drama.

anyone who says otherwise will fall into geum dong’s pile of dirty diapers.

character development! *goes back to episode 1*

fast forward to episode 12!

*SQUEALS LIKE A 13 YR OLD GIRL*

i loved that moment so much you dont uNDERSTAND 

hogu: “good job today, you made money for diapers.”

dohee: “you too, good job today. for chaging diapers”

me: GOD YOU GUYS ARE SO DOMESTIC JUS T FUCK ALREAYD 

errr… i mean… AWW, SO CUTE.

our main character who was once so dense and foolish has now become a man who can read the atmosphere and people’s behaviors, (or at least do hee’s behaviors) investigate unanswered questions (dohee’s baby daddy issues)

and has also become a liar, apparently.

NOT CURIOUS MY BUTT.

lol our has kid surely matured.

but no worries. he’s still our same old hogu :)

next is our fighter.. :)

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oh boy…… this… ugh.. the ending of episode 12… i…

i ran out of crying gifs.

ugh… this girl.. i just wanna

imagine all the stuff she had to go through.. her parents dying.. the sexual assault.. her friend dying.. pregnancy..

speaking of friend dying. on to the questions!

i thought the friend she visits in the cemetery was the father of the baby. 

but then this happened. 

(cue scary bgm)

so who’s kyung ho? based from the intense music and dohee’s facial expression i assume he’s the assaulter?

i guess? 

then.. who’s the friend who died?

so dohee didn’t attempt to file a case for her friend’s accident, she filed a case because she was raped?

that’s why kangchul didnt accept the case?

because it will only  bring harm to dohee?

is that it?

oh the amount of question going through my head. why cant monday arrive faster already. (a sentence i never imagined i would say)

dohee baby girl… i’m so sorry all those stuff happened to you. you’re the strongest woman i’ve ever seen in a drama.. and to think you still kept the baby… took care of the baby.. loved the baby… despite him being conceived because of rape..

DOHEE YOU’RE A++++++++++++++

GEUM DONG. IT DOESN’T MATTER THAT YOUR FATHER IS TRASH. WHAT MATTERS IS YOU’RE LOVED BY AMAZING PEOPLE. AND YOU WILL GROW UP SURROUNDED WITH HAPPINESS AND LOVE.

DOHEE. you said it yourself. geum dong is your treasure. why cant you just raise him?

save tons of money from cfs and competitions while hogu babysits. the after, hire an outstanding babysitter and buy a home for you and your kid. don’t give him to strangers. you will never find the perfect parents for geum dong because YOU’RE the perfect parent for geum dong. 

PLEASE WRITERS DONT GIVE GEUM DONG AWAY. IM COUNTING ON YOU. (i will seriously purchase a ticket to seoul and set fire to tvn myself im not kidding)

anyway it’s 1:30 am and i have to get up at 4. plus this review is way too long already wtf im so hooked to this drama it’s painfully obvious.

idk how to end this so imma just end it with a capture of this precious moment

anonymous asked:

Can I have a scenario with EXO's Chen where the reader is struggling with depression and closes herself off from people so she dont hurt them. Sorry if its too vauge/or depressing :3 im really struggling rn and your writing makes me happy :3

Promise - Chen Scenario

Originally posted by yahbrahchill


pairing: Jongdae x Reader

genre: fluff

word count: 991

rating: 13+

warnings: mentions of depression, strong language


’(Y/f/n): I’ll be in town this week, wanna hang?’

You paused as you examined the words flashing across your phone’s screen, mind racing to come up with a believable excuse.

‘Oh, I’d love to! But my ass of a teacher assigned a huge book report over the weekend :( maybe next time…’ You typed, hands sweating from the guilt building in your chest.

You set the device down on your bed and buried your face in the soft silk of your pillowcase, turning your head to the side and breathing in the fresh air. Your white walls contrasted nicely against the dark oak of your floors, littered with past articles of clothing you didn’t have the strength to put in its proper place. Eyes scanning to your dresser with little with notes, pictures, and knick-knacks you’ve collected over the years and you sighed quietly to yourself.

You rolled over and stared at the plain surface of your ceiling. making yourself sit up as another sigh left your frowning lips. You rubbed your eye indolently as a quiet ‘ding’ caught your attention, bringing you back to reality.

You flipped the now glowing device back over and skimmed over the contents of the message that had appeared.

'Chen Chen <3: Hey baby, I feel like it’s been forever since we last went out! wanna catch a movie or something?’

Damn it, Jongdae was practically the only person who - no matter how much you covered it up - managed to see through your lies. All your life you’ve learned to put walls up; learned that if you let people get too close - they would just get hurt. So you did, and with Chen, to know that someone that you’ve loved for so long could be hurt by you? It’s terrifying.

You attempted to push him away in high school, but he insisted you went to prom with him.

“Y/n, it’s your senior prom! You have to go!”

“Prom is just a scam to get teenagers to pay money just to seem popular, I don’t even have a date anyway!”

“Then go with me…”

You tried to push him away after graduation, be he insisted that you let him take you on a date.

“C'mon! It’s not like one dinner will kill you,” He winked.

“Yeah, but if it’s with you it might.”

“Please~?”

“Ugh fine! Just quit making that face; it’s too cute for your own good.”

You thought you had pushed him away when you went to college - he was an idol now for christ’s sake - they can’t even date, but he insisted that you have a secret relationship with him.

“A what?” You scoffed.

“A secret relationship! Now hear me out, I may not be able to date you publicly per say, but I love you. And I can’t let the love of my life get away from me because of some job.”

And here you are now, for five whole years you’ve been in love with the man that you know is too pure for this world. And the fear of hurting him too has been haunting you every night.

'Sorry Jongdae,’ you paused, swallowing hard before continuing. 'I have a ton of homework left. maybe some other time.’

A swarm of guilt, sadness, fear, and anger coursed through your veins as you hit send. You threw your phone onto the bed and slid down the cream wall of your bedroom, hugging your knees to your chest as you hid your head in shame. Hot tears brimmed in your eyes as you sobbed silently to yourself.

Why am I like this? Why can’t I just trust people? Why can’t I just be normal? The last word of the storm of thoughts you threw at yourself stuck out the most. Normal, why can’t I just be normal. You looked up at the ceiling once again and fiercely wiped away the tears falling down your cheeks, only to be replaced by more as the sound of sobbing filled the room once again.

“Why can’t I just let people in! I trust them and I know they won’t hurt me so why would I hurt them!?” You shouted, angry at no one other than yourself when your outcry was cut short.

“Y/n, i-is that how you feel?” The melodious sound of your boyfriend’s voice broke the growing silence.

You turned your head to the side, shame and embarrassment flooding over you as your cheeks heated up.

“Why d-didn’t you tell me?”

You looked over at the boy and saw the one sight you never wanted to see, tears streaming down his flawless cheeks as his perfect lips quivered.

“Damn in, this is exactly what I was afraid of. Jongdae I’m sorry, I-I-I’m so so sorry,” you sobbed out.

“Y/n, no don’t be sorry, I was the one who didn’t notice you were hurting, I should be sorry.”

“Chen no - please don’t I just, I was scared of hurting you and now look at you, crying over someone like me. I’m holding you down, please don’t cry over me.”

“Would you stop? Quit blaming yourself for something you can’t control, you have all the right to be sad or scared and I understand. But please stop blaming yourself and saying that you’re holding me down. I love you so fucking much Y/n and I never want you to be hurting alone, okay?” He confessed before helping you stand, taking your smaller frame in for a tight hug.

“I-I don’t know what to say.”

“Then don’t say anything, just promise me that whenever you’re scared, hurt, sad, anything. Come to me,” Jongdae said, hugging you impossibly tighter.

“I promise.”


A/N: Hi~ I hope you enjoyed this little scenario! And to the anon who sent the request, I hope this helped even just make you smile. Know that you can always message me anything that you need to talk about! stay strong!

-Admin Yeonie