ugh this kind i really dont like

im rlly sorry for that lil outburst i try to keep this salt free here but vex having her plot-lines split between her and vax and what little of her own being super sparse for a character that’s there for the majority of the story compared to her twin brother is. a little annoying for me. because i’m bothered by female characters having their male counterparts given more focus and importance while they’re usually pushed to supporting roles.

like i was so so happy when we finally got to the grandmistress ceremony and now her becoming pelor’s champion??

anyways sorry about that this was just the straw that broke the camel’s back on this issue

Sometimes I feel like I don’t really fit in with the Fanders community cause all of you are really nice and supportive and then there’s me who fightens over half the school with looks and attitude, imagines the very detailed murder of anyone who even slightly annoys me, has almost no empathy for other people, and can be kind of an asshole.

i tried rewatching bleach and realized the only reason i ever liked it as a kid was because i thought the hollows were cool. then as soon as it gets in to the soul society arc where they have to go and save rukia i just get bored. i liked learning about the hollows and how ghosts become hollows and what hollows do and how they act and the difference between souls who didn’t chose to be hollows and the evil ones that did

like i love the monsters and ghosts and the idea of a high school student being essentially a substitute grim reaper but once it gets in to all these rules and regulations and and soooo many characters i just. can’t force myself to give a shit. and also i dont find ichigo to be an interesting character once he’s no longer just kind of a bratty clueless teenager and instead is like, an actual powerful force or whatever. he’s got no motivation besides “get stronger” like. i liked when he was like “fuck that im not gonna commit myself to being a soul reaper i want my normal life back”

ugh anyway it doesn’t matter im just rambling, i remember really liking the series as a kid but i barely remember anything about it after like, episode 20. the stuff that always stuck with me the most was the very earliest stuff and it was cool to rewatch that


11.10.17 Trigger warning: eating disorder. (ugh i hate using the real name for it)

A big tonal contrast of these pictures, but this is not really a picture i expect many reblogs and things, but I kind of feel like this rainbow today. Dont hate me for the lack of aesthetic! This week ive been really bad. I dont like giving details because a while ago i would have tried to copy someone on tumblr and i dont want people to do that. But the long and short of it is I either cant eat at all or i eat far too much for my stomach, as well as made myself sick a few times. Not saying how much, but if anyones reading this thats sensitive to it, less times than you might think, more times than anyone should, and its scary and painful and embarrassing. But i wanted to say because I try to be as transparent as possible on this blog.
But i have quidditch today. I had to not go for the past 2 trainings because the first time i couldnt eat. The other time i had made myself sick and didnt want to shake myself about and make the pain worse. But today? Today I had a really big bowl of porridge with cashew butter and flax seeds and blueberries and lunch is this sandwich and smoothie and to keep me going through training are these snacks. Im still not in a brilliant place, but im having a really good mental health day and wanted to celebrate that. Thanks. Xx Emily

anonymous asked:

Hey! I LOVE your work, you're amazing!!!! Everytime I see one of your works I think "Ok, that's my favorite" aND THEN you post another one and another one and another one AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE bc you're always surprising me. You're seriously SO good! Idk how to speak bc you're seriously UGH I'll stop speaking sorry if I disturb you

noo you didnt disturb me at all!! THANK YOU SO MUCH i dont know how to react amg im so happyy, that means a lot to hear ;A; your kind words really made my day sobs;;

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Hey hey hey my dudes depression and watching the fandom fall apart is lit

I havent had a genuine crush on someone for about 7 years and i did not appreciate it nearly enough

Im just gonna say it once: fuck this wholeheartedly


1. Name, Age, Country?

fannie, 21, hungary

2. Appearance?

this is meeeeeeee

3. Hobbies?

i really love reading and dancing tho i havent been to a class in a long time :(

4. What is your dream job?

something to do with travelling or it would be nice to be a writer but that’s like… maybe in my next life

5. What kind of shit would we find in your bag?

idk my bag is usually pretty much empty except for my wallet and a book?? i know, not very lady-like but i always forget to put actual useful things in it

6. How would you describe your personality?

ugh i dont know this is hard to answer… i mean a try to be kind to everyone and make them happy but at the same time im just like… leave me alone pls. but tell me about your passion and dreams!! cause those things fuel me. lol I told you I cant answer this

7. When did you find Jack’s channel?

almost a year now ! it was in december last year, i was watching felixs last guardian lets play and jack was in the recommended section and i fell in love immediately

8. Put in order your top 3 favourite Egos!

anti, robbie, jackieboy man

9. Favourite/ most nostalgic video/series of Jack’s to watch?

definitely the last guardian, for obvious reasons, but i really love night in the woods cause of the voices!! oh, and the lost legacy!!

10. Would you describe yourself as an active member or a quiet member of the community?

i try to be active and make gifs here and there but i think im a quiet one mostly


I was going to have this be the first chapter to a long fic i’ve outlined, but I think it went in a direction I don’t like. Therefore I’ll just post it here for tonight and do the idea I was originally going to do tonight, tomorrow. :)


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so today was going fine i guess until my last period of the day during P fucking E when (1st) i realized that the guy i like has lost interest it seems, he wasn’t talking to me as much as usual and keeps flirting with LITERALLY every single girl. it was like,, fine but he usually kind of sticks to me for that period and now he wasn’t and it makes me s a d. (2nd) it’s PE and i hate PE. i don’t participate [yeah ok ik im that person ew) because i just dont like doing sporty stuff with my peers, mostly because i don’t like them. it’s not that im bad, im actually a really physically active person [except running bc asthma ugh] and this lead to (3rd) everyone hates me [surprised?? im not lols.] when we were splitting my team up into 2 groups they were pushing me back and forth between them because no one wanted me [reasonably] and then they all started making fun of me which is normal for me but it just pissed me tf off and then (4th) james(the guy I like) was doing his whole teasing thing which is good bc at least hes talking to me but he was just less interested today than usual and yeah im going to take a bath and a nap see you on the flip side

one thing i struggle with a lot is like, the difference between opening up to others and burdening others? and… i do think some of it lies simply in.. frequency, and having a balance in that relationship (i mean unless you’re talking to a therapist or something then go wild) but i do think theres a tone to that conversation too?

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anonymous asked:

Hi there i love the stories that you do for the rfa +saeren i was hoping you could do one where you wanna go skating with them but your mom says no but they go anyway thannnnks. Love what you do.

skating? did you mean like ice skating? i’m gnna do ice skating….i hope u dont mind… skating is cute…………..gotta blast

~headcanon requests b closed rn~


  • this! is! so! un! fair!
  • Yoosung has been waiting to take MC ice skating since he met them in APRIL
  • he was crushed when MC told him they wouldnt be able to go together
  • but when MC started talking about how their mom was going on a business trip that weekend
  • Yoosung had a real good idea
  • he shows up at MC’s house unannounced saturday night
  • dressed in his cutest winter outfit and looking especially proud of himself
  • they were in pajamas
  • “MC, grab a coat, cause i’m taking you ice skating!”
  •  “but, Yoosung, my mom will be so mad…”
  • “but your mom isnt here right now”
  • Yoosung winks at MC
  • MC jumps up and tackles Yoosung in a hug
  • “let me just get ready!”
  • after that, the whole night Yoosung is especially hyper since he’s breaking rules and being a lil badass
  • even after ice skating he’s like 
  • “MC, lets go to that 24 hour diner!”
  • “but Yoosung, it’s almost midnight”
  • “hey, no mom, no curfew! right?”
  • MC beams at him
  • “right!”
  • MC doesnt even get back home till like 3 AM
  • Yoosung considers staying the night but maybe thats a little too badass for him OK


  • not only does MC’s mom not want them to go ice skating with Zen
  • she kind of doesnt want them to do anything with Zen
  • cause “he’s just a bum actor who will never amount to anything”
  • ugh parents amiright
  • welp!! MC is just like fuck that he’s MY actor that i LOVE
  • MC was bumming out in their room after their mom said they cant go ice skating
  • Zen came to the door but their mom sent him away
  • “MC, why was that punk kid asking to take you out? i thought i told you to stop seeing him!” 
  • their mom was talking to them through a closed bedroom door
  • “dont ask me, mom. guess he just really likes me. i’m going to sleep now so i’ll see you in the morning”
  • “okay, i’m going to bed too. goodnight, sleep tight”
  • as they answer, they start sending a text to Zen
  • “i cant believe you came to my door…”
  • as they send the text, they hear a faint knocking on their bedroom window
  • they run to the window and open it
  • “Zen??!”
  • “hey baby. i know your mom sent me away, but i promised i’d take you ice skating…so please come with me?”
  • he offers MC his hand
  • and so, MC turns off their lights, locks their bedroom door, and sneaks out of the house with Zen
  • it feels so freeing for MC to be with the man they love
  • they didnt care if they had to sneak out every night
  • they didnt even care if they got caught
  • because for MC, beside Zen is just where they belong


  • Jaehee is not someone to disrespect the wishes of someones parents, OK
  • if MC isnt allowed to go ice skating, she should respect that
  • its not like Jaehee has been looking forward to a cute ice skating date since she realized she had feelings for MC or anything…
  • …its not like she was going to hold MC’s hand for the first time at the rink or anything…….
  • god, why does their mom have to be so strict
  • should Jaehee still try to take them out???
  • is she going to regret doing what she’s about to do
  • Jaehee picks up her phone and texts MC
  • “hey, i know you arent allowed to go ice skating but idk, i really want to”
  • “i wanna go too, Jaehee :(”
  • Jaehee takes a deep breath
  • “well what if we told your mom we were going to do one thing but went ice skating instead?”
  • “oh, yea! that could work. i do that all the time. how about this friday night?”
  • oh well…….shit, that was way easier that Jaehee thought it would be
  • “sounds great!”
  • for a few seconds all Jaehee feels is EXCITED
  • but then the guilt hits her
  • Jaehee takes extra special care to avoid MC’s mom when she picks them up on friday
  • she’s a little shy at first since she cant stop thinking about the fact that she is living a lie
  • but on the ice, MC almost falls and grabs onto Jaehee for support
  • after straightening up, they hold her hand
  • all Jaehee’s anxiety melts away in the palm of MC’s hands


  • Jumin was not used to being told no
  • usually girls line up to go out with him and even their parents are excited
  • but MC’s mother claimed they have no time for silly dates with silly boys
  • honestly Jumin is PISSED
  • he is not a silly boy? he is a serious boy
  • and ice skating is more than silly
  • its romantic, and it’s the perfect time for Jumin to show MC his fun side
  • even Jumin has a fun side OK
  • this really just will not do
  • can he pay MC’s mom off? is that like a thing he can do?
  • he brings it up to MC and they say NO
  • okay thats fine, plan B
  • plan B….plan…B…what should plan B even be….?
  • the only thing Jumin can even think of is to just…steal MC….
  • alright, yea. thats like totally feasible. 
  • so Jumin texts MC to make sure they’re ready to leave
  • when he gets to the house their mom answers the door
  • “i’ve come to take MC on a date”
  • “they wont be going on any dates anytime soon. i’m sorry, Jumin.”
  • she tries to close the door but he sticks out his foot to stop it
  • “MC! i’m here!”
  • they run down the stairs and out of the small space in the door
  • “what the hell-”
  • “dont worry, miss. i’ll have them home by 10 PM”
  • Jumin and MC then proceed to sprint to his car
  • they hop inside and MC cant stop laughing
  • “holy shit i cant belive we just pulled that off….she’s gonna kill me”
  • Jumin tells MC not to worry, he’s prepared to take full blame for this
  • but MC doesnt really care that they pissed their mom off
  • they just want to go ice skating with Jumin Han ITS NOT A CRIME
  • and, just like he promised, Jumin had MC home by 9:50 PM
  • he was hoping that bringing them back early would soften the blow…


  • parents are pesky things…
  • Seven sighs when MC tells him over the phone that the ice skating date was rejected by their all-powerful mother
  • but he’s prepared to find a way to work around this
  • i mean he’s a hacker. he solves problems, finds back doors, and cheats the system all the time
  • “Seven, what are we gonna do?!”
  • MC’s voice pulls him out of his thoughts
  • “give me two hours, and i’ll have a way for us to go ice skating”
  • “okay…i’m trusting you”
  • “i wont let you down!”
  • Seven hangs up and starts to brainstorm
  • after an hour, he still has nothing
  • dammit, brain! work! ice skating is our top priority!
  • finally Seven has a plan
  • its not his most ingenious solution ever, but HE WILL GO ICE SKATING WITH MC IF IT KILLS HIM
  • Seven decides he can take MC out during the day when their mom is at work, they just have to get back before six
  • so the two enjoy themselves at the rink
  • Seven fell like six times
  • it was mostly him squeezing MC’s hand while they pulled him
  • they were having a little too much fun, cause when Seven checked the time
  • “oh fuck, it’s 5:43″
  • they sprint to Seven’s car and he drives as fast as possible to their house
  • when they pull up, MC’s mom was literally in the process of unlocking the door
  • Seven drives to the other side of the house so MC can climb in through their bedroom window
  • Seven’s helping them inside when they hear a knock on the door
  • “MC? how was your day today?”
  • “one sec, mom!”
  • MC whispers to Seven as they climb inside
  • “thanks for a great day. i love you”
  • then with a quick kiss, MC closes their blinds and its as if they never even left


  • ice skating is one of the few christmas activities Saeran enjoys
  • he likes the cold, and he thinks ice skating is really chill like you just skate in a circle with someone cute and hold hands
  • he hates how much he likes it TBH
  • when MC actually agreed to go with him he was so happy 
  • but of course, their MOTHER just had to say no….
  • moms: Saerans mortal enemy
  • “hey MC, i’m coming over”
  • “Searan, i dont think my mom will let you”
  • “you have a window, right?”
  • “yea….?”
  • “perfect”
  • about 15 minutes after that text conversation Saeran was tapping on MC’s window 
  • they open it
  • “MC, are you ready?”
  • they blush and look down
  • “i…i dont know…”
  • “whats wrong? dont you want to go ice skating?”
  • “of course! its just…this is my first time sneaking out”
  • oh my god no way
  • that is so cute
  • Saeran reaches through the open window and takes MC’s hands
  • “i know things like this can be scary…”
  • he squeezes their hands
  • “but dont think about the scary parts. just think about me, okay? i promise i’ll protect you”
  • MC’s cheeks get ever redder, and Saeran helps them out of the window
  • they’re a little jumpy through out the date, which just makes Saeran act even more gentle
  • he never lets go of their hand and keeps them close on the ice, making sure they never fall
  • he shows of his skating skills by pulling MC along
  • they ended up being glad they snuck out
  • it was so worth it to spend the evening holding Saerans hand



so like i kind of hate the reynolds now..ugh its so hard for me to stick to a save but i still want to do it, its just i made my queue really story based and i dont want it to be so i think im going to redo my queue use minimal poses (not that you guys have seen me use poses in the first place lol) so yay?

k bye imma watch @thefoxandhersimblr ’s stream now

language-amante-deactivated2017  asked:

Lace marble sea satin 💖

I can always couojnt on you to pick the mst interesting ones lol :’)

  • lace: how would you describe your best friend(s)? there’s two people i consider my best friends, one is so pretty like, I’ve never seen anyone so beautiful like not even on a picture i dont mean just irl im not even kidding. She’s so kind and wants everyone to do well i don’t think she can even be jealous. A few times she cried cause she was happy for me like..ugh i love her okay, and we really understand each other and she’s always been there for me okay i’m getting emotional. The other is so fun to be around, our taste in pretty much everything is the complete opposite and we make fun of each other’s music/movie/fashion choices all the time but have the best laugh together and want pretty much similar things from life also we both love hockey, i havent seen her for a while but during big games we’re always on the phone laughing okay im done, you asked

  • marble: what do you look for in a partner? intelligent but humble, why is that so hard?? likes children, understanding, preferably blonde youknow

  • sea: what music, art and/or literature brings you peace? hmm classical music, ohh and certain folk songs, not the squeaky annoying kind tho. Art, Repin, i love Repin and you know it, Tolstoy ofc. 

  • satin: what never fails to make you happy? children, 100% of the time

shinoa is the kind of “proud girlfriend” who tells every little cute and/or embarrassing thing that mitsu did to everybody and mitsu is all like “what the hell why are you lyiiiiiiiing ugh i dont know you” but she actually really likes to hear shinoa talking about her so much cuz it makes her feeling important to shinoa and shinoa knows it (8 

anonymous asked:

may I ask for headcanons on RFA + Saeran 's reaction to MC being insecure and wants to get something like plastic surgery

idk if u want V too but imma do it cause i hate myself


  • Yoosung is one of those boys who finds makeup fascinating
  • whenever MC would do their makeup in the morning he’d always ask questions
  • “doesnt it hurt to use makeup so close to your eyes?”
  •  “wow MC, how can you keep your hands so steady?!”
  • he seemed the most confused when MC would contour their nose, though
  • “MC, what does that do?”
  • “it makes my nose look smaller”
  • “but your nose is already perfect”
  • Yoosung seemed genuinely confused it was so adorable
  • “i’ve never really liked my nose, Yoosung”
  • “why not??”
  • this poor boy is honestly shook as hell, he thinks everything about MC is just absolutely perfect
  • MC continues to contour as they answer Yoosung
  • “i just dont like it. i’ve even been saving up for a nose job”
  • Yoosung grabs MC’s shoulders and turns them toward him
  • he kisses their nose repeatedly, making a “muah” noise every time his lips meet the tip of their nose
  • “Yoosung! you’re messing up my makeup!”
  • he ignores MC and continues peppering their nose with kisses
  • “please don’t change your nose, okay? i’ll miss it”
  • MC giggles a little, their cheeks turning red
  • “okay, Yoosungie. i’ll try to love my nose for you”
  • Yoosung goes back to kissing their nose repeatedly, not totally convinced that MC understands the depth of his love for their nose


  • dating someone as perfect as Zen started to take a toll on MC’s confidence after awhile
  • he looked so perfect everyday
  • every one knew Zen had a gorgeous face
  • but even his body was perfect
  • MC even started going to the gym with Zen
  • but they still felt as if Zen out shined them
  • MC wasn’t the type to need recognition or anything
  • but sometimes they felt like they were living in Zen’s shadow
  • “Zen…what do you think of my getting plastic surgery?”
  • one day while MC and Zen were having dinner together they finally mustered up the courage to talk to Zen about their insecurities
  • Zen nearly spits out his food
  • “what are you talking about?!”
  • “I’ve just been thinking about it lately, since-”
  • Zen interrupts them, frantic
  • “since what? you’re already perfect, MC!”
  • MC was calm before but now matches Zen’s frenzied tone
  • “no i’m not, you are!”
  • Zen calms down quickly
  • “I just wish I was as beautiful as you sometimes, Zen. you’re perfect. im plain.”
  • Zen grabs MC’s hands from across the table and looks into their eyes
  • “you’re anything but plain, MC. i may be beautiful on the outside, but you’re beautiful on the inside and the outside.”
  • “Zen, you’re beautiful on the inside, too”
  • “all the inner beauty I have is thanks to you, MC”
  • Zen leans across the table to kiss MC
  • “I don’t want anything about you to change, ever”
  • if Zen thinks MC is beautiful, they think
  • maybe it really is true


  • MC visited Jaehee on her lunch break often
  • it was always Jaehee’s favorite part of the day
  • for some reason, she just loved to watch MC talk
  • the way their eyes would light up sometimes
  • or even the cute way they would hold up a finger while they finished chewing as if to say “gimmie a sec” before they started talking again
  • it was all so cute to Jaehee
  • “Jaehee, im thinking of getting lip enhancement surgery, what do you think?”
  • Jaehee can’t think of anything to say at first
  • but she knows instantly that she hates that idea
  • why does she hate that idea so much?
  • “my lips are just so small…i don’t know, i’ve just kind of always hated them”
  • “MC, please don’t go through with anything like that”
  • “but why not? i’ve been doing some research and it’s actually very safe-”
  • at that moment, for some reason, Jaehee realized why she hated the idea so much
  • she suddenly kisses MC
  • when Jaehee pulls away from MC, their face is bright red
  • “i like your lips just the way they are”
  • Jaehee had never kissed MC before
  • but she loved it just as much as she thought she would
  • MC can definitely never change those lips


  • “Jumin, can i ask you about something?”
  • “of course, my dear. anything at all”
  • “what do you think of me getting plastic surgery?”
  • plastic surgery?
  • Jumin’s thoughts on MC getting plastic surgery:
  • easily the worst idea he’s ever heard in his whole life
  • he couldnt even wrap his mind around why MC would feel the need to do something like that
  • everything about them was so beautiful
  • every tiny detail
  • Jumin had also been around a lot of women who had plastic surgery done
  • there was something about MC that just naturally drew him in
  • they didn’t need to change anything
  • “there’s no need to try to improve something that’s already perfect”
  • “Jumin, i’m not perfect”
  • “yes you are. everything about you it perfect”
  • Jumin kisses their forehead
  • “from your forehead”
  • he kisses their nose
  • “to your cute nose”
  • he kisses their lips
  • “to your lips”
  • Jumin pushes MC’s hair away from their neck, kissing it too
  • “to your neck”
  • he lifts MC’s hands up to his lips
  • “to your hands”
  • “Jumin, stop”
  • MC was giggling
  • “I’ll only stop if you promise not to get plastic surgery”
  • he smiles up at MC
  • “okay, i promise”


  • “Seven. let go of me!”
  • “never!”
  • about three seconds ago MC and Seven were laying in bed together
  • just kind of talking about nothing
  • and MC brought up wanting to get plastic surgery in the near future
  • and Seven, not knowing how to communicate like a normal boy
  • just kind of grabbed them and pulled them into a hug
  • but like one that they couldnt get out of
  • he just needed to buy some time while he thought of what to say
  • he definitely didn’t want MC to get plastic surgery
  • he wanted his MC to stay the same forever
  • “have you ever seen video’s of plastic surgery? that shit’s gross as hell!”
  • wait, no. that’s not what he wanted to say
  • “Seven what the heck are you talking about?”
  • MC continues to struggle against his hold
  • “im talking about doctors slicing and dicing you up!”
  • “ew!”
  • “and have you ever seen plastic surgery gone wrong?”
  • he tightens his arms around MC
  • “Seven…! i cant breathe!”
  • he releases MC 
  • “what is wrong with you today?”
  • “i just…i dont want you getting that kind of thing done, okay?”
  • “why not?”
  • “cause you look, like, super amazing already and i hate the idea of some weird”
  • Seven cant even finish his sentence
  • “okay, okay. if you’re so worried about it then i wont do it”
  • “really?”
  • Seven’s face lights up and he pulls MC back into his arms
  • not this again


  • V was enjoying a quiet morning with MC
  • they were curled up on the couch with a magazine
  • “what are you reading, sweetheart?”
  • “it’s an article about plastic surgery”
  • V tilts his head a little
  • why would MC ready something like that?
  • “is it interesting?”
  • “yea, a little. i think i might get a consultation soon”
  • the confusion V is feeling becomes very apparent on his face
  • MC laughs a little
  • “V, don’t look at me like that. it’s normal for people to want to change things about themselves”
  • V is honestly having a hard time comprehending anything about MC changing, inside or out
  • “MC, are you unhappy with your appearance?”
  • “yes, V. that’s why i’m looking at a plastic surgery article and thinking about getting a consultation”
  • V thinks hard for a moment
  • he wants MC to be happy in their own skin
  • because MC makes him happy to be in his
  • he gently grabs the magazine from MC
  • “V-”
  • “how can i help you feel beautiful, MC?”
  • “what?”
  • “I want you to feel as beautiful as you look to me”
  • MC was the person on the planet that V loved most
  • he wanted them to know that every second of everyday


  • “Saeran, i want you to close your eyes and picture something”
  • “okay, my eyes are closed”
  • Saeran was sitting on the couch and MC stood in front of him
  • “me: but prettier”
  • Saeran opens one eye
  • “MC, that’s not possible”
  • “yes, it is! with plastic surgery!”
  • Saeran stood up
  • “okay, what are you talking about?”
  • MC was seemed so excited about the idea
  • and Saeran just cant understand why
  • “I hate this concept”
  • Saeran gently cups MC’s cheeks with his hands
  • “this is the face i see in my dreams”
  • “this is the face that lit up my dark world”
  • “this is the face i love…”
  • “so please don’t ever change it”
  • MC puts their hands over Saerans and kisses him
  • they couldnt get over all their insecurities at once
  • but if someone like Saeran truly loved them this much
  • maybe they really were beautiful