ugh just leave me be

Nonbinary people with unsupportive family members are so strong and valid! I admire them every day. It’s hard not to have your family behind you, but their lack of understanding, their disapproval, in no way diminishes the validity of your identity, and you still and always will deserve for that identity to be respected.

epiphany | jungkook

Pairing: Jungkook + Reader 

Genre: Fluff + college au 

Word Count: 3.6k 

Part: | 1 | 2 |  

Summary: You hated his guts, especially after he ruined your chance at getting a good grade in one of your toughest classes. But why did your heart beat a little faster every time you saw him? And why did he feel the same way?

Reader’s POV

“I’m afraid I’m going to have to give you a failing grade, Y/N…” Mr.Ransford frowned,“ You should’ve saved your work somewhere separately you know?”

You gaped at him in complete shock, as everything came crashing down on you.

“B-but you don’t understand! It wasn’t my fault-” you stammered, your hands flailing around in a frenzy as you attempted to explain your dire situation to your psychology professor.

“Y/N, I’m sorry I’m afraid we can’t discuss this right now, I have a class in 2 minutes. We’ll talk later, hm?” he said as you sighed, your shoulders slumping in utter defeat.

He patted your shoulders in sympathy as you walked out of the door, tears welling up in your eyes as you thought of all your hard work that was now flushed down the drain. All because of one boy.

That damn Jeon Jungkook.


“YAH!” you yelled, raging, as you approached the boys, a deadly glare in your eyes as you grabbed Jungkook by the collar of his tshirt. Pulling him up from the bleachers where him and the rest of his friends were sitting, all of them gasped, mouths going agape as they witnessed their golden maknae get manhandled by you.

“Y/N~What a pleasure,” Jungkook said, giving you a lazy smirk.

Your blood boiled at the audacity the boy had, to address you in such a way, after he had destroyed your chance at a good grade- heck a good year of college. Without thinking first, you lifted your hand and slapped him across the face, the contact shooting vibrations of pain down your arm as the noise echoed in the air. Immediate silence followed, everyone looking at the two of you with rounded eyes as Jungkook himself, was in shock.

You stood there, your chest rising up and down, breathing heavy as you glowered at him. His hands flew to his cheek as he let out a stream of curse words, his gaze landing on yours, fire kindling in his eyes as he reddened in embarrassment.

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The CW is like that toxic ex that you know you should distance yourself from because you deserve better than them and you know they’ll just disappoint you but for some reason you keep running back to them

I’m so fucking glad I’m alone right now so I don’t have to explain what’s wrong with me.
—  suffering in silence.

Since I apparently can’t avoid this shit no matter how many tags I block, I guess I’m gonna say a thing about it.

TFA in and of itself was a bad enough experience for me, but tbh the fandom made it ten times worse.

When you’re still coming to terms with the fact that you were basically brainwashed as a kid and it’s all starting to hit you now, seeing endless reams of commentary on your dash about brainwashed people being morally culpable, completely and solely, for all of their actions and deserving only of punishment is…not exactly helpful.

Especially when “you are to blame for everything” is…literally what you heard constantly from your abusers.

I love and adore voltron, we have been blessed with such a fantastic and welcoming cast, and we have all these fantastic characters we get to explore.

So why is the fandom fucking disgusting.

Imagine Yurio confronting Yuuri after the podium ceremony

Yurio starts kicking him in the back the same way he did to Victor in episode 10 and Yuuri turns around confused

And there’s Yurio, rageful and ready to strike out , rapidly blinking away the tears in his eyes and he says “I won gold. You lost. So you better not retire you pathetic pig!”

And Yuuri is at a loss , but ultimately chuckles and agrees. “ Yes next year i’ll win gold…and the year after that to , I need to beat Victors 5 year consecutive streak yknow?”

And finally , relieved that Yuuri is not retiring, Yurios tears spill and he launches himself at Yuuri desperately clinging to him.

And Yuuri tenses up at first , but ends up gently hugging him back and asking very softly “ What do you want to do now that you’ve won gold Yurio?”

And Yurio starts openly sobbing , almost hyperventilating and says “ I want to eat pork cutlet bowls with you Yuuri.”

And then Yuuri is crying to and Yurio starts beating his little fists against his back and finally asking for what he wants in desperation and as a final plea

“ I want you to come to Russia with me and Victor. I want to beat you again next year and the year after that to, so you dont ever retire. I want you to never leave me and stay by my side! P-please dont leave me”

And both Yuri’s are just a mess at that point and haven’t noticed Victor at all who entered the room earlier and is looking at them both so fondly before he ruins their familial moment by launching himself into the hug as well and saying “Yuuuuuuuuuurrriiii i’m going to be the one to win next year silly , dont get ahead of yourself just because you won a single GPF.”

And then Yurios back to his old self, screaming and having a huff while Victor continues to tease him , and Yuuris laughing and trying to wipe away his tears. And none of them would have it any other way

// Well, slap my ass and call me Spanky McGee! I never expected 400 of ya’ll to give a rat’s tush about my interpretation of Aversa! How it feels my heart with joy to know others appreciate my sadistic sorceress! Either you all are horribly twisted, or simply have great taste. Perhaps both? Who cares! You’re lovely regardless!
Thank you SO much for supporting and threading with me! Being in this fandom is such a blast! I love each and every single one of you, okay? Fire Emblem is such a fantastic series. It’s only right the fandom is just as swell! My appreciation for allowing me to get to know you wonderful people knows no bounds! 

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The Parks and Recreation episode “Pawnee Rangers” always makes me so sad for Ron Swanson. And now I just pictured it as Sterek, with Stiles’ group doing all these fun things and Derek being left outside at his sad little campfire alone, and I’m inexplicably just incredibly heartbroken.

Derek needs hugs, guys. Or I do. Someone does.


SHINRA Week | Day IV [Favorite Relationship]
“Would you mind keeping my folks company for a while?”

act one,  part one.

-  ‘ flood will get you if the fire don’t. ‘
-  ‘ any way the wind blows. ‘
-  ‘ there ain’t a thing that you can do when the weather takes a turn on you. ‘
-  ‘ ain’t nobody gonna stick around when the dark clouds roll. ‘
-  ‘ set out walking and you don’t look back. ‘
-  ‘ where you going, there ain’t no one knows. ‘
-  ‘ don’t ask where, brother, don’t ask when. ‘
-  ‘ it was a world of gods and men. ‘
-  ‘ it’s an old song, it’s an old tale from way back when. ‘
-  ‘ it’s an old song, but we’re gonna sing it again. ‘
-  ‘ they were always singing in the back of your mind. ‘
-  ‘ it’s a sad song, but we sing it anyway. ‘
-  ‘ it’s a tale of a love that never dies. ‘
-  ‘ come home with me. ‘
-  ‘ i’m the man who’s gonna marry you. ‘
-  ‘ i’ve met too men like you. ‘
-  ‘ i’m not like any man you’ve met. ‘
-  ‘ you see the world? i’ll make it beautiful for you. ‘
-  ‘ only the gods can change the world. me and you can’t change a thing. ‘
-  ‘ are you always this confident? ‘
-  ‘ when you look at me, what do you see? ‘
-  ‘ so, why should i become your wife? ‘
-  ‘ what else you got? ‘ 
-  ‘ times being what they are, hard and getting harder all the time. ‘
-  ‘ lover, when i sing my song, all the birds gonna sing along. ‘
-  ‘ we’ll lie down in eiderdown, a pillow ‘neath our heads. ‘ 
-  ‘ so, what’s your song about? ‘
-  ‘ they lived off the land. ‘
-  ‘ it was sometimes famine, sometimes feast, depending on the wind. ‘
-  ‘ well, go on. sing your song. ‘
-  ‘ gather ‘round, you vagabonds. ‘
-  ‘ i’ll sing a song of a love gone wrong. ‘ 
-  ‘ and the sun, in turn, burned twice as bright. ‘
-  ‘ it’s not finished. ‘
-  ‘ i’m as free as a honeybee in a summertime frame of mind. ‘
-  ‘ when my man comes around, i know he’s gonna bring me down. ‘
-  ‘ for now, i’m living it up on top! ‘
-  ‘ you think i give a damn? ‘
-  ‘ why would he trade the sunshine for a couple of nickels and dimes? ‘
-  ‘ no one here’s a millionaire, but we’re living it up. ‘
-  ‘ what we have, we have to share. ‘
-  ‘ give me the sky. that you can’t buy or sell at any price. ‘
-  ‘ oh, i’m just getting started! ‘
-  ‘ who says times are hard? ‘
-  ‘ anybody want a drink? ‘
-  ‘ brother, pass that bottle around! ‘
-  ‘ if no one takes too much, there will always be enough. ‘
-  ‘ let the world we dream about be the world we live in now. ‘
-  ‘ he could make you see how the world could be, in spite of the way that it is. ‘
-  ‘ i was alone so long, i didn’t even know that i was lonely. ‘
-  ‘ i was cold so long, i didn’t even know that i was cold. ‘
-  ‘ this is how it’s always been. ‘
-  ‘ all i’ve ever known is how to hold my own, but now i wanna hold you, too. ‘
-  ‘ you take me in your arms and suddenly there’s sunlight all around me. ‘
-  ‘ for a moment i forget just how dark and cold it gets. ‘
-  ‘ i don’t wanna ever have to let go. ‘
-  ‘ say that you’ll hold me forever. say that the wind won’t change on us. say that we’ll stay with each other and it’ll always be this way. ‘
-  ‘ as long as we stay with each other, then it will always be like this. ‘
-  ‘ better go and get your suitcase packed. ‘
-  ‘ those who go, they don’t come back. ‘
-  ‘ i’ll be bored to death. ‘
-  ‘ takes a lot of medicine to make it through the wintertime. ‘
-  ‘ everybody dresses in clothes so fine, everybody’s pockets are weighted down. ‘
-  ‘ the wage is nothing, the work is hard. ‘
-  ‘ you’re early. ‘
-  ‘ i missed you. ‘
-  ‘ seems like he owns everything! ‘
-  ‘ kinda makes you wonder how it feels… ‘
-  ‘ the wind. it’s changing. winter is coming on. ‘
-  ‘ we have work to do. ‘
-  ‘ well, find me when you’re finished. ‘
-  ‘ and young love, too, grew old. ‘
-  ‘ if you wanna keep your head, you gotta keep your head low. ‘
-  ‘ in the coldest time of year, why is it so hot down here? ‘
-  ‘ it ain’t right and it ain’t natural! ‘
-  ‘ lover, you were gone so long. lover, i was lonesome. ‘
-  ‘ when you feel that fire, think of it as my desire. ‘
-  ‘ every year they have this fight! ‘
-  ‘ see, i’m putting myself through. ‘
-  ‘ all the pretty songs you sing ain’t gonna shelter us from the wind. ‘
-  ‘ in the darkest time of year, why is it so bright down here? ‘
-  ‘ when the gods are having a fight, everybody else better hold on tight. ‘
-  ‘ fire ain’t gonna light itself. ‘
-  ‘ every year it’s getting worse. ‘
-  ‘ i recall there was a time we were happy, you and i. ‘
-  ‘ everything i do, i do it for the love of you. ‘
-  ‘ if you don’t even want my love, i’ll give it to someone who does. ‘

GoT Afterthoughts 7x06 Beyond the Wall (Jonsa Edition) SPOILERS

Hello lovelies … apologies for the delay! As most of you know, my Marine was home briefly. ❤️ 

 We begin our episode with the war room map/table in Dragonstone and a fire crackling in the background -ominous foreshadowing? We then join Jon and the boys hiking through the winter wonderland. Tormund being Tormund pokes Gendry for some fun, before the talk with Jon takes a more serious turn. He asks about the Dragon Queen, and Jon tells him that she’ll only help if he bends the knee. Tormund tells Jon he’s spent too much time with the freefolk and now he doesn’t like kneeling. 

 Now, what Tormund said next admittedly confused me (and I’m paraphrasing): “Mance was a great man, a proud man, but how many of his people died for his pride?” To my knowledge it was Mance himself who died because he refused to kneel -not the freefolk? Were Wildlings slaughtered off-screen unbeknownst to us? I’m not being facetious -if I’m wrong in my confusion, someone please correct me. Otherwise, what we have here is a plot hole -almost like Tormund giving Jon a reason to kneel, to not be like Mance and not put his family and people in peril over his pride. I’m not ready to bag on the writing just yet, but this is a blatant inconsistency -just sayin’…. 

 But moving on … Gendry airs his grievances with the brotherhood and the Hound tells him to suck it up buttercup and that’s that for now. We are then brought to Jon and Jorah speaking not of Dany (which, ya know -would make sense since this whole “epic romance” plot and all) but instead, they are bonding over their fallen fathers. 

 Jon: “my father was the most honorable man I’ve ever met, he was good all the way through, and he died on the executioners block.” (We’ll come back to this). 

Honorable Ned’s son, honorable Jon takes off Longclaw and offers it to Jorah. Jorah insists that Jon keep it, deeming himself unworthy. 

 Jorah: “It’s yours. May it serve you well, and your children after you.”

Cue WINTERFELL music and a pensive looking Jon. Contemplating your future children, Jon? Imagining their red hair and curls? Tully and Stark looking? Okay, I’ll stop now -but come on guys -what an Easter egg! And right from there we jump to Winterfell (SURPRISE) and Jon’s future wife (and mother of his children).

Our lovely Stark sisters are in the traditional Stark spot upon the battlements. Arya tells a heartwarming tale of Ned catching her practicing archery and clapping when she finally hit the bullseye. It was sweet, and lovely, and everything I’d been praying for for weeks, but then the accusations fly and all is lost. Arya has the letter that Cersei made Sansa pen to Robb. Sansa is naturally upset about this and defends herself with the truth: they made her write it (even Robb knew that when he read it, geez Arya come on -It’s not like you did/didn’t do things, too!). Does everyone remember when she was Tywin’s cupbearer? Because I do. 

 I don’t blame either of my precious angels for what they did/didn’t do to survive as scared, isolated and traumatized little girls -and dammit, they shouldn’t either! But more on this later …. 

 Now, I don’t like what they made Sansa say about Arya “should be on her knees thanking her” -it’s not that she isn’t right about the part she played in re-taking Winterfell, but THAT was definitely some shitty writing. 

 We flash back to our boys, and Tormund is attempting to bond with the Hound. Aside from being some of the best comic relief this show has delivered in a long time, I’m becoming sweet on Tormund x Brienne. Stop me! I love Brienne x Jamie too much! I’m trash! Someone just wheel me out to the alley and light my ass on fire! 

We got a nice little callback to Ygritte and naturally Sansa too -because “Gingers are beautiful, they’re kissed by fire”. More on this later, too ….. 

 We switch over to Beric and Jon first discussing how much Jon apparently doesn’t resemble Ned (sure Jan) and then the creepy religion (again, burning children is bad, guys -I’m with Varys on this religion). Jon doesn’t serve the Lord of Light, he serves ONLY the North. They do seem to agree on one thing: they are protectors, and Jon recites some of his Nights Watch vows: “I am the shield that guards the realms of men.” More on this later …. (Are you guys picking up a theme here yet? Let’s see if you figure it out before I get to the end of this post). 😉 

 After the Hound points them towards the mountain he saw in his vision, we go to Dragonstone where Dany decides to compliment Tyrion by insulting him? lol What she likes about him is that he’s not a hero -heroes are stupid with their constant pissing contests (she’s not wrong) -except I’m not sure I’d consider Daario or Drogo heroes? Tyrion points out that all these brave men have fallen for her -including Jon Snow, because apparently unbeknownst to US the actual viewers, he’s been oogling her ….?? Daenerys denies it, but you can tell by her body language that this pleases her. But -“he’s too little for her” ???? What does that even mean? 

Honestly, I can’t figure out my Little Lion this season and it’s kind of pissing me off. Is he cracked out on Dragon love too? Or is he being clever and playing the game? Varys did say he needed to find a way to make her listen. Does Tyrion think Jon can influence her? And where the hell is Varys, by the way? 

Dany brings up the upcoming meeting and her impulsive temper comes up -and the Tarlys (expect them to come up again in the near future too, guys). Tyrion warns her about ruling with fear and then the convo shifts to the subject of Dany’s mortality and her line of succession. Dany jumps into serious angry paranoia mode (Targ trait) and flings accusations of Tyrion’s loyalty at him again. Look -I fully understand that this is a touchy (and rightly so) subject for Dany, but I don’t think he’s in the wrong here -the line of succession is important to any monarch, and especially one that intends to ride into battle. But …not today Tyrion, not today. 

We jump back over the wall, and now the boys are traipsing through blizzard-like conditions. Is it still the same day? Has night fallen, or is it just dark due to the snow storm? Ugh, this episode is leaving me with more questions than answers! They spot, and are spotted by an undead bear, and a few redshirt Wildlings are taken out. Thoros and Beric light the sonofabitch on fire, Tormund whacks it with his battle axe -I mean, this damn thing takes a lickin’ and keeps on tickin’, and ends up with Thoros in its mouth, before Jorah takes it out with a dagger (assuming it was dragon glass?). A chug of alcohol and a cauterizing of the wound, and he’s miraculously up on his feet and ready to continue. 

On a side note: poor precious hound and his fire PTSD. 😔 Cant wait for Clegane bowl -hope it ends with fire and Sandor conquering his fear while exacting his revenge. 

And now we’re back in Winterfell, and a distressed Sansa is confiding in Little Finger. If ya’ll didn’t pick up that she was sniffing him out, then I just can’t help you. Sansa doesn’t trust him. I strongly suspect she knows that letter turned up because of him. I’m 99% confident she was jugging him for info …. 

Sansa is nervous about the letter, though -rightly so, because if the lords see it, they may withdraw their support -BUT she isn’t worried for herself, she’s worried for Jon and keeping his army (amassed to 20k now -when did that happen? Go Sansa!) -so wake up and suck a fat one, Sansa haters! Don’t you guys get it yet?!?! Sansa is loyal to Jon -shit, even Little Finger gets it. Why do you think he’s so bent on sewing discourse between the sisters, now? Because all his attempts to drive a wedge between Jon and Sansa have failed! 

We return to the winter wonderland, and now it’s Jorah/Thoros bonding time. I’m sorry that I don’t care enough to repeat their exchange -it wasn’t exactly riveting, and I pretty much knew that it was his “death knell”. Anyone else getting whiplash from all this back and forth? 

Upon their climb, they hear the clinking of an undead scouting party. Interesting …. they send scouting parties ahead? The NK and his Generals are pretty smart. Which caused something to pop into my head: are Gilly’s brothers the NK’s Generals? But back to the action … they start a fire to lure them in and ambush them. Jon kills the General and all but one of the wights fall. Aside from the convenience of all but the one they need falling, this is also interesting. If they take out the generals who raised them, the wights will automatically fall -so if the NK is taken out, then his entire army would perish! Hmmm … 

So, my dudes tackle Bones and he lets out an ear piercing screech, which apparently alerts the others (hmmm -they communicate, too?). With an avalanche of the undead rolling down upon them at high speeds, they collectively shit their pants while hogtying Bones, and Jon orders Gendry to run for Eastwatch and get a Raven to Dany, declaring that he’s “the fastest”. Well, this is all well and good, but please explain to me just exactly HOW Jon knows this? Because I didn’t know Gendry was fast …did you? And not only do they send this poor kid who’s never even seen snow before, off into the arctic wilds by his lonesome, entrusting his supposed internal GPS (I guess???), but they take his freaking weapon so he has no means to defend himself, to boot! 

And off he goes, while Jon and the crew race for shelter and find themselves standing over the weak ice of a frozen pond/lake. With no other place to go but forward, they take their chances and make for the rock in the middle, as the dead close in on them and after grabbing a few more redshirt Wildlings, the wights break the weakened ice and begin falling into icy water, creating a barrier and a trap for our boys. Winded, but alive, they freeze their tushes off, as night falls and an exhausted Gendry collapses before the gate of Eastwatch. Daddy Davos comes to cradle on of his fostered sons as Gendry breathlessly pleas to send a Raven. 

It’s morning on the rock, and our dudes have snuggled to keep warm overnight. The Hound rouses from his comfy Jon Snow pillow to kick the grumbling Bones, who’s probably just salty that he didn’t get invited to the slumber party. Sandor gives him a good morning kick in the ribs, and when Bones squeals in displeasure, so do some of the wights surrounding them. Another clue of their links? 

Unfortunately, Thoros hasn’t made it through the night. They burn his body and Beric says the creepy Lord of Light’s prayer. I hope someone had the good sense to take his flaming sword first, but I doubt it, because while I love my boys -they aren’t exactly clever …they did go on a wight hunt, after all. 🙄 

Jorah and Jon discuss the connection and Jorah suggests trying to take out the WW’s as their best chance of survival. Jon says no, they need to take that thing (Bones) back with them and a Raven is on its way to Dany -she’s their only chance. I suppose she has the same magic GPS as Gendry. 😳 Beric joins them and counters that argument with just taking out the NK -he turned them all after all …kill him and they all fall. 

Now, Jon puzzles me here. His reply to Beric’s suggestion is: “You don’t understand." 

What Jon? What don’t we understand, baby?? Tell us!!!! Is Jon suddenly afraid of his own mortality? I don’t think so, but then -what don’t we understand?????? 

*screaming internally* 

Beric counters with how the lord brought them both back and maybe this is why. I’m not sure what Jon’s thinking while his chest heaves and he eye fucks the NK -but …. perhaps he really is afraid? Maybe of failing and being forced to rise and fight on the NK’s side? Suggestions are welcome here …. really. 

We jump back to Winterfell and Sansa has received an invite to KL. So, who sent this invite? Sansa refuses to go -and is certainly justified considering …. She intends to send Brienne in her stead, but Brienne is uncomfortable leaving Sansa unprotected because of Little Finger. She requests to at least leave Podrick behind, but Sansa denies her request, and after trying several times to politely put her off, she finally rudely dismisses her. Now, I have no doubt that Sansa is truly frightened to go to KL because of Cersei, but I also think that she specifically chose Brienne to represent her -not only because she trusts her to represent her interests, but also because of what Little Finger implied earlier -about Brienne intervening with Arya if necessary. I’d like to think that Sansa is not only protecting her little sister, but also Brienne’s honor of having to side with one of the sisters should things get ugly. (They won’t, trust me). 

We flip over to Dragonstone and Tyrion tries to convince Dany not to run off to the rescue, but (thankfully), she doesn’t listen. She mounts Drogon and off to the rescue her and her lizard babies go! 

We’re back at the boulder now, and an apparently bored Sandor is throwing rocks at the "cunt” wights. Not that I blame him, but we all knew where this was going, right? The ice has re-frozen and slowly, the dead advance on them again. This shit was really unbelievable, tbh. With the sheer amount of wights surrounding them, they should have been swarmed, but somehow manage to keep most of them at bay. Jon yells “fall back” (to where????) as Tormund gets grabbed and, oh my heart!!!! I swear I had a mini stroke! But thankfully, Sandor grabs him just in time (he knows he fucking LOVES fire kissed Gingers, okay?)!

And just when it seems that all is lost, Dany and lizard puppies arrive to fuck shit up!! Okay, despite their destruction to actual human life a few weeks ago -this was beautiful and visually very satisfying! This is what the dragons are for! They take out a good chunk of the NK’s army -which is WHY I assume he targets the dragon still flying overhead and raining down hellfire on his army, rather than Drogon who was chilling while they all saddled up. I mean, it’s just a guess, but it’s truly the ONLY logical explanation I could come up with. 😐 

Dany reaches immediately for Jon, but a wight charges, and Jon turns to dispatch it, as well as a few of its comrades while the others climb atop Drogon. You know, Jon being the hero he was accused of earlier in the episode? The NK marches forward and takes aim at Viserion -who is still fucking up his army (as I mentioned above, and why I think he may have targeted him), as Jon continues to blindly fight the wights instead of climbing his dumbass on the fucking dragon! Why? So it can be HIS fault for what happens next, of course! 

I legit cried when Viserion died. I’m a grown-ass woman, and I don’t give a shit! It was heartbreaking, to watch him plummet from the sky and crash into the lake, his eye drifting closed as he slipped below the ice … and personally, I think Dany’s facial expression nailed it: gut wrenching shock. As a mother, my heart broke for her, even though I know that the dragons future demise is necessary. 

An angry Jon charges right towards the NK for a standoff, as if he took Beric’s words to heart and was prepared to sacrifice himself right then and there to kill the NK and save the whole damn world! But the NK doesn’t want to scrap -instead, he reaches for another ice spear, and Jon seeing that he intends to take out another dragon, screams for them to go. 

He turns to sprint for Drogon (I guess? Because Drogon had already begun to take off?) but he’s tackled by wights and dragged into the icy water. The group hauls ass into the air as an ice spear whizzes towards them, but Drogon avoids it and almost sends Jorah to an early grave. Dany glances back for any sight of Jon as Drogon flies them to safety. 

After the dragons fly off, the NK and his army nonchalantly shuffle on as if nothing happened. We get a shot of Longclaw by the ice hole and suddenly Jon lunges out of the water and uses its hilt to drag himself out of the icy lake. Soaked and frozen and probably figuring this is the end, he raises his sword to go out fighting and uncle Benjen drops in to save the day! He hauls a popsicle Jon onto his undead? horse and tells him to ride for the pass, declining Jon’s offer to come with him and telling him “there’s no time”. Now -I’ve seen this part criticized, and I get it, I do -except what is Benjen supposed to do? He can’t pass the wall -he’s dead too. Guess he figured it best to go out fighting then endless undead loneliness. Maybe he figured he had no more dumbass nephews to save from beyond the wall anymore? Whatever the case, it was sad to see yet another Stark perish -even if he was technically already dead. 

We’re back at Eastwatch now, and the Hound is dumping Bones in a dingy, as Beric says farewell and they’ll meet again. The Hound says he fucking hopes not, but I don’t think he means it. 😉 Atop the wall, Dany gazes forlornly at the landscape below, as Jorah tells her it’s time to go (and calls her “Your Grace”, and not Khaleesi? Since when?). As she turns to leave, the horn blows and Benjen’s horse comes into view (and where have I seen this scene before?) only this time, WITH a rider. Hey -how the fuck did he get his horse back, anyway?

The Targ ship unfurls its sails, and we’re in Jon’s cabin as Davos literally peels the frozen furs from his trembling body, and sweet mary mother of God, Kit’s abs! 😍 As Jon freezes to death, I’m just praying that Davos continues with his disrobing of Jon (and the camera follows), but nope … 😔 Dany watches from the doorway with a mixture of worry, awe and since she’s only human, probably lust (I feel you girl, I really do). On a serious note: she’s privy to all those horrid scars that were never stitched and are still literal almost gaping gashes in his chest -and one directly over his heart. I bet Davos’ words are ringing in her ears again. 

After that gratuitous abs scene, we head back to Winterfell, where Sansa is snooping through Arya’s room -probably looking for the letter. Instead, she stumbles onto Arya’s face collection. WTF! Naturally, Arya catches her snooping, and begins to terrify Sansa, and myself collectively, with some creepy dialogue that rings as an ominous threat -except, well … let’s break this down a bit. She is sharing some of her past. She wants to play the Game of Faces, but Sansa is not having any of this shit.

I’m pretty sure that Arya drops a MAJOR foreshadowing bomb here: “We both wanted to be other people when we were younger. You wanted to be a queen, sitting next to a handsome king on the iron throne and I wanted to be a knight riding off to battle." 

Okay, back to the terrifying conversation… Arya: "With the faces, I can become someone else, live in their skin, speak in their voice. I can even become you …”

*she picks up the catspaw dagger and steps closer to Sansa* 

 (With the dagger in her hand): “I wonder what it would feel like, wearing those pretty dresses, to be the Lady of Winterfell. All I’d need to find out is your face.”

 *she flips the dagger and hands it to Sansa HILT first* 

 When Sansa takes the dagger, Arya casually turns and leaves the room.

ARYA WAS PLAYING THE GAME OF FACES. Yes, it’s shitty, and she gave her sister a mini stroke, but here’s the thing: I believe they are BOTH playing Little Finger separately -to protect one another AND Jon, they just don’t realize that the other is doing it yet. I’m fully confident that either Bran is going to sit our Starklings down, or they’re going to figure it out on their own. And speaking of Bran, where the hell is he? Is he off with Varys? WTH?! 

Okay, and we’re finally at the scene that y'all were dreading …. Jon’s eyes drift open to a teary-eyed Dany who’s relieved to see him wake. Immediately, he apologizes for her loss. She shakes her head and lowers it to hide her tears (probably trying not to make him feel worse), and Jon reaches for her hand. He tells her he wishes he could take it back and that they’d never gone. Dany shakes her head again and disengages her hand. She disagrees -she needed to see to understand. 

She tells him that the dragons are her children -the only children she’ll ever have, and asks him if he understands what she’s trying to convey. Jon shakes his head yes, as Dany vehemently professes her support in helping Jon defeat the NK. 

Now, I received an ask earlier last week when this episode leaked, about whether I thought Dany was doing this only for vengeance -and certainly, that does factor into her decision, I’m sure. And I don’t fault her one fucking bit, tbh. I’m a mother -if you hurt my kids, I’m coming straight for you -why do you think the term “mama grizzly” was coined? But, on the other hand -she’s now seen this horrific undead army, and what they are capable of. As someone who freed slaves, it only makes sense that she’d want to help make sure that humanity is not enslaved by the NK and the dead. This is WHY Dany is here, you guys. Not to be queen. Not to be Jon’s wife. But to help save humanity with her fire-made flesh dragons, and die in a very messianic way -as such has been the arc they built her character upon. 

Jon immediately thanks her, and calls her Dany. She’s taken aback -and explains that no one has called her that in a very long time. She brings up Viserys and in a roundabout way, says he was a dick, as to which Jon replies: “alright, not Dany. How about my queen? I’d bend the knee, but …” he nods his head towards his injured state, as Dany asks about the people who’ve sworn allegiance to him (because she suddenly cares about that now?) and Jon says (and like I TOLD YOU ALL LAST WEEK when I watched this leaked scene, how very important and almost foreboding his words are): “They’ll come to see you for what you are.” 

WHAT YOU ARE. Not who you are. Not how caring you are. Not anything other than ambiguously WEIRD: what you are!!! 

Dany is still touched by this seemingly heartfelt declaration, and with more tears welling in her eyes, grasps his hand and proclaims that she hopes she deserves it, and Jon reassures her that she does. After some silent eye contact, she pulls her hand free from his grasp and tells him to get some rest. 

He obliges and closes his eyes, and then when she leaves the room, his eyes reopen and he looks -guilty? As he releases what sounds like an exasperated sigh. 

And finally, we end the night with the dead dragging Viserion from the icy depths with some heavy duty chains, and the NK reanimates him. Okay, I just have to say how fucking stupid that is. Where did these massive chains come from? Why didn’t he just raise his arms and raise Viserion like he did the Wildlings at Hardhome? It would have been a lot cooler if he came lunging out of the water all blue eyed, rather than be dragged up with chains. Ugh whatever! 

Okay, so for a penultimate episode, I’m not majorly impressed, but I didn’t hate it.

So, some things we need to go back and touch on (as noted throughout). Have you all figured out where I was going with it? Yes? No? 


We got Ygritte callbacks with “Gingers are kissed by fire”. We got the Jon/Beric convo which was kind of reminiscent of Half Hand/Jon’s convo when they were with the Wildling’s as prisoners, and Jon even recited a piece of his Nights Watch vows! We’ve got Tormund bringing up Mance, and his refusal to kneel AND we’ve got an almost replicated scene (horn blowing and all) of Uncle Benjen’s horse riding for the gate of the wall, only this time, WITH a rider! 

What does that remind me of? Well, a previously duplicitous undercover Jon infiltrating the Wildlings -using them to achieve his goal of getting back to Castle Black alive, to warn the Watch of the impending attack and to do his duty -hold the Wall against the Wildlings. How did he do that? By deceiving Ygritte -despite his feelings. 

Now, I’m not saying I’m right, and it’s just a theory -but I truly do believe that Jon is playing Dany. BUT, I also truly believe that he does like her, and that he does really believe she has a good heart. She did just lose one of her children to save him and the crew …  Jon’s odd and ambiguous words: “They’ll see you for what you are” is for our benefit -a clue to know where the story is headed. However, I do think that the fact that he actually admires and cares for her (cares, NOT loves) is making him feel pretty shitty for what he is/has to do, on top of the guilt he feels for being at fault for Viserion’s death. 

It’s no coincidence that he couldn’t look in her eyes when he offered to bend the knee. It’s also very telling that he did so when no one was around to hear/witness this. While Dany has been wearing her obvious heart eyes on her sleeve for a few episodes now, Jon has been pretty guarded, he hasn’t shared ANYTHING personal, his expressions have been odd -and blank, mostly (as in this scene, as well) … this developing “romance” has felt “off”. With Dany’s attraction being so blatant, I think that Jon easily picked up on her feelings for him, and he’s using that -playing on those feelings, to secure an alliance. 

So why is this necessary if Dany already agreed to help him? Truth be told, I feel like Jon just doesn’t fully trust her. Good heart or not, she is a stranger, he’s seen her temper and how quickly she turned on Tyrion that day -this is Jon being smarter than Father (also brought up several times in the episode -as well as his honor) and Robb -who ironically was also brought up in this episode by way of Sansa’s letter! 

Addressing the weirdness of Jon calling Dany, “Dany”? I believe this was to assert a familial tie -in the same episode where her brother was brought up, and ironically, the dragon that died, was named for. They are reminding us they’re actually FAMILY (incase we forgot) because of what’s going next episode, y'all. They want us to be kind of squicked out when it happens. 

All the mentions of Dany’s inability to conceive? Well, for two reasons, really- to hit us (and Jon) over the head with the fact that Dany can’t get pregnant, so boatbang can happen, basically -and Mr. “doesn’t want to sire a bastard”, feels confident to hang up his vow of celibacy if there’s no shot of getting Dany pregnant. And also, for all of our tongues to be wagging about “oh no, could their be a magic Targ baby”? like many have been. A red herring for the red herring, anyone? A baby requires a time jump -a time jump cannot happen -the dead are literally KNOCKING on the Wall. If you’ve got a logical explanation for me -let’s have it. And yes, I’ve heard the shadow baby theory, and while I think it’s uber cool, I’m not really onboard with it -who would it kill, as that is their purpose?

Also -the NK and his Generals are impervious to fire -unlike the wights. But -will dragon glass and Valaryian steel kill the NK? I’m starting to doubt that … 

 And before I sign off on this, I wanted to address one more thing (that I specifically looked for in my re-watch) -the mention I saw floating around here, of the Wolf eyes on Longclaws hilt opening as Jon emerged from the frozen lake -it did look like that, but it was just a shadow-a trick of the light, if you go back and watch it. 😉 

 Thanks for tuning in again. See you next week for my final recap of the season. And FYI: my kiddos start school the next day, so I can’t stay up til 2 am recapping -my recap will be posted on Monday, instead. ✌🏻


i’m sorry but after episode 18 it’s pretty much lolix week for me and you caN’T STOP MMEEee

i’m lurking all over tumblr and stuff go read this short by scriptskull, people, do not disappoint me

we’ll return to regular programming this weekend but right now I HAVE FEELS TO WORK THROUGH

Controlled - Chapter 1 - Bien Joué! (Volpina Ending Different)

“Pound it!” the duo cried as they fist-bumped.

“Listen Volpina,” Ladybug said immediately, kneeling beside Lila. “I’m really sorry about what I did before,”

She gave her the the necklace which Lila snatched and got to her feet, an angry glare on her face. She hissed at the super heroine, her pistachio eyes glowing with hatred.

“You’re right Ladybug. We’ll never be friends.” Lila said, pushing her hand away and getting to her feet.

“Fine! Be that way!” Ladybug snapped. “I’m trying to be nice to you and this is how you treat me, huh?" 

Lila was a bit surprised that the hero would act this way, so was ChatNoir, but she regained her angry mood and stormed away, cradling the fox necklace. ChatNoir was about to say something but he could tell Ladybug was too angry for any advice.

"But…Ladybug…wasn’t that a bit-” Chat began, reaching out cautiously.

“Ugh! Just leave me alone Chat! We have to check on Adrien!” Ladybug cried angrily. “Why are you

Before saying anymore, she flung herself over the city with Chat grabbing the Eiffel Tower railing in worry.

"Ladybug…is something wrong?”


“On her period?” Adrien asked, as the two boys walked along the path to school.

“Well, this ‘mystery girl’,” Nino said, fingers in the air as quotes, “Is angry at YOU of all the people, then she’s obviously on her period.”

Adrien was way too embarrassed to ask what a period even was, but realised it had something to do with changing into an adult. He decided to keep it to himself and not to push the question even further and looked back at Nino.

“Hey Marinette, Hey Alya!” Nino called, waving at both of them.

“Hey!” Alya called, dragging Marinette with her arm.

Marinette looked disgusted and rolled her eyes.

“Hey guys.” Marinette said, not interested, putting on a forced smile.

Nino sensed something was wrong and immediately pulled Alya to him.

“What’s up with her?” Nino asked.

“She’s been acting Chloé all day today!” Alya called. “It’s kind of strange actually, she’s acting all passive!" 

"Hmm…” Nino whispered sadly. “It’s obvious there’s something going on, she isn’t even stuttering around Adrien!”

They dropped the conversation and headed back to class when they heard the bell ring. Adrien and Nino went on ahead and Alya and Marinette slow down. 

“Hey girl, guess what? A new Adrien model magazine came out!” Alya said, pulling out her phone. 

If there was anything that would make Marinette happy, it would be a picture of Adrien in a model pose.

“Pfft, whatever.” Marinette scowled, giving Alya the cold shoulder.

“Marinette…are you okay, I mean, if there’s anything wron-”

“Just shut up okay?” Marinette snapped back. “Ugh, you’re worse than Chloé!”

Alya was deeply hurt and knew Marinette didn’t usually act like this. She took a deep breath. On her period. Probably on her period, I’ll give her some time, she’ll be fit as a fiddle once again.

“Mari…are you on your-”

“Don’t touch me!” Marinette grimaced, her teeth gritting.

Alya swallowed, trying to process what was happening. She was like a different person, the real, bubbly young girl was gone. She licked her now dry lips. She’ll be fine. She’ll be fine.

It was a 5 minutes before class when the roar of fighting occurred. Alya and Marinette entered the room, to see Adrien and Nino sitting where they usually do. 

It was first Marinette with a jab at Lila, her voice full of hate and disgust. Lila by now was feeling horrible about what she said to Ladybug, and was planning to say sorry for her arrogance, but Marinette’s jab really hurt. She just wanted to be accepted, nothing more.

“Hey Lie-La? Have you brought any new lies lately? What is it today? Did you inherit millions? Become president of Paris?” Marinette taunted.

Lila turned around in shock, her eyes full of hurt. The entire class were surprised at what was developing, especially since the jab of pain and hurt was coming from Marinette. Marinette folded her arms grinning, her eyes gleaming maliciously. Lila tried to look away but looked around to the class, throwing her arms out.

“What? No, I-I’m trying to turn a new leaf too!” Lila said, a small smile appearing on her lips. “I was just trying to be accepted by all-”

“Ha! You think people will listen to your stupid lies?” Marinette chuckled. “The lies are still coming out of your mouth still, I see!”

Adrien’s green eyes widened. He never talked to Marinette frequently, but she was never like this. What was happening had nothing to do with her period. This was who she was. Who she really was. Was she really this mean to everyone? So full of hatred and mean? 

“Look, I’m sorry-” Lila said desperately, starting to feel helpless.

“How funny is that?” Marinette said, her evil grin widening. “You’re putting the damsel in distress act now! No wonder you’re so pathetic!”

Lila fell down to her knees, placing hands on her face, the tears streaming down her face and reaching her knees. She may have been mean and full of lies, but she was a sensitive girl, who hated making enemies of any kind.

“Stop.” Kim and Juleka said coldly, as they appeared in front of Lila. “What is wrong with you Marinette? Being mean to Lila like that?”

“Yeh!” Rose cried in great shock. “She was trying to turn over a new leaf as well!”

“Why are you being such a Chloé all of a sudden?” Alix said, disgusted.

“Someone needed to expose the girl!” Marinette said sassily, placing a hand on her hip.

“But she apologized!” Alya pointed out with anger screaming on her face.

“Not you too!” Marinette cackled at the sight of Alya defending Lila. “I thought you were a friend! Guess not!”

Alya’s mind flashed back to the time Marinette gave her a sweet macaroon and her bright smile and flashing blue eyes. It was like the sweet girl was slowly being taken over by something else…something much more powerful.

“Marinette, whatever is happening to you, stop!” Adrien snapped angrily, causing Alya to forget the flashback. “Stop acting like an idiot.”

Marinette was taken back by the fact her crush stood up against her. Adrien was never one who became angry, no matter what the reason. But what hurt her the most was the fact her called her an idiot and yelled at her.

“Pfft, only because YOU said so.” Marinette said in annoyance, which surprised Adrien even more.

Why did she just listen to him and not the others? 

She quickly walked out of the room. Stopping at Nino calling out to her.

“Where are you going? We have class in about 2 minutes!” Nino cried.

“Where do you think?” Marinette grinned. “Ditching school doesn’t sound too bad, right?”

Nobody answered when the door slammed shut hard with a thunk, making all the students wonder, 'What happened to Marinette?’

Everyone in the class immediately burst into questions.

“Ditching school? Is she insane!?” Alix cried in surprise. “I mean, I’ve done some crazy stuff before but that is just crazy!”

Even the quiet Juleka broke the silence.

“This isn’t like her,” Juleka said sadly. “I’ve known Marinette for a long time, even before I met Rose and the others, and she has changed…I wonder what happened.”

“Maybe it was just me, but weren’t her eyes a bit duller and more purple than usual?” Adrien pointed out, incredibly concerned.

The only ones quiet were Chloé and Alya. Chloé was so shocked that anybody could act so in spite that it just surprised her and made her feel sick. Alya was just feeling horrible inside after all the hate that Marinette had in her voice.

Lila felt as if she wanted to die. She just felt as if Marinette was a horrible person all in all and didn’t want anything to do with the raven-haired girl.

One thing was sure though.

She was not on her period.


The whole incident was partly Tikki’s fault. Tikki has been starting to change as well. Her calming eyes going purple and her bright sweet red and black going to a purple black and red.

“They deserved it Marinette, don’t worry!” Tikki said reassuringly.

“But Adrien was looking so angry at me,” Marinette said, a little worried. “His face was so…scary.”

“Adrien still has feelings for you, he’s just hiding it, trust me, they all deserved it!” Tikki grinned.

“What about ditching school? Isn’t that a bit over the top?” Marinette said uneasily.

“Oh come off your high horse and get to real life,” Tikki snorted. “Who needs school? You’re a superhero! You deserve waay more credit than all the praise the people give you!”

“Yeah, you have a point Tikki, Marinette agreed. "These Parisians are extremely egoistic!”

“Come on Marinette, let’s go to the bakery!” Tikki said. “I want some cookies!”

“Sure, why not? Being Lady Luck, the possibilities are limitless!” Marinette said, throwing her hands in the air. “Tikki, transform me!”

The kwami got sucked into her earrings, transforming her into Ladybug.

But she wasn’t Ladybug.

Her suit wasn’t red. It was a glowing purple and her eyes tinted purple along with her usual blue. As if the blue and purple were fighting against each other for dominance.

“Time to show Paris who’s the real superhero is!”

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markson text convos that probably happened pt. 3
  • jackson: mark where r u??
  • mark: u ghhhh
  • jackson: mark srsly we r in the middle of a shoot
  • jackson: u cant just disappear
  • jackson: dont u dare leave me unseen. tell me where u r??
  • mark: ugh just leave me alone
  • jackson: pls mark,,, come back
  • jackson: jaebums about to start tearing out his already thinning hair
  • jackson: he wont look good bald
  • jackson: come back, if only for the sake of jaebums hair
  • mark: noooo i dont wanna
  • jackson: if u arent back in the next five mins im posting your nudes into the groupchat
  • mark: idc do it. i am not ashamed of my dick
  • jackson: mARK WHY ??
  • jackson: fine then, im exposing your kinks. you know which ones. youll never be able to look youngjae in the eyes again..
  • mark: ..,,
  • mark: ill b there in 5
  • jackson: :>