ugh just gets me

.

me, at school: I can do four hours of homework tonight, right? right. that is a super reasonable thing to expect of myself.

me, at home, after 50 minutes of homework: what sort of cruel and unusual punishment did i think i was capable of handling

  • me: they hurt me!! I'm gonna be distant! that'll show them!
  • them: hey
  • me: hey ๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ซ

there are two settings. the first is success, a crushing perfection that simmers below the surface, a gritted-teeth force that breaks down more often than it runs. it is relying on panic to wake you up, it is nightmares about numbers, it is being unable to stop shaking when the test comes back, it is empty scores, no flaws found but still feels sore. it is the appearance of self-assurance, top-of-the-class, always-in-yoga. nobody gets into the room when you’re sobbing over your gpa. they only smell the candles and not the burning.

the second is failure. it comes in the wake of the smallest thing. a shrug and “you could have done better” rather than a smile. that’s it. and then it’s time to destroy everything. she frowned at me once, we aren’t really her friend and we must never speak to her again. he didn’t want to get dinner, not only is he not interested but he finds us repulsive. it is realizing you are sixteen minutes late and just skipping class rather than showing up late. it’s refusing to study because you understand nothing. it’s taking something down before someone can rip it down for you. it’s isolating yourself so nothing can hurt you and it’s hurting because you’re isolated. it’s missed calls, never-at-work, always-too-drunk. 

that’s it. all or nothing.

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I’m only a man with a candle to guide me,
I’m taking a stand to escape what’s inside me.

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Percico holding hands for the first time commission for @binyeum

Dating the Swim Team Captain does have its perks, doesn’t it, Nico? He’s so embarrassed. Percy’s goal is to make him flustered and happy at the same time and Nico wearing knee high Converse was something I never knew I needed. 

I’m such an emotional, nostalgic mess today. It’s only just hit me that, even if we do get a S7, this show will be ending soon and I’m really not ready.

honestly the amount of hate i see online against josh klinghoffer makes me so so aggressively angry

he’s an oUTSTANDING guitarist, who’s been with rhcp as a member for 8 years now, and a part of the rhcp world for almost 20 years

anthony has said, numerous times, that josh was not only the ‘best’ choice for john’s replacement, but the ‘only’ choice

john frusciante left the band 8 years ago and he left because he was creatively going in a different direction to the band. there is and was no bad blood there. saying ‘i miss john’ won’t bring him back to the band because he actively chose to leave for very acceptable and understandable reasons

josh had some absolutely HUGE shoes to fill by replacing frusciante, and he’s more than lived up to that legacy, and if you actually listen to the getaway album then you’ll see how much he’s growing as a guitarist and how damn well he fits into this band

the people who booed at josh in bologna should be ashamed of themselves. he is a humble, exceptionally talented guy who lives and breathes music - and if it weren’t for him, rhcp would have broken up 8 years ago. grow up people.

I HAVE SO MANY EMOTIONS ABOUT SUGAWARA KOUSHI AND THE DATEKO MATCH BECAUSE this is it THIS IS THE MATCH where the team almost lost Asahi, the match that broke up the third years and shook Sugawara’s confidence so much that he was RELIEVED when Kageyama came along to take his spot because he thought that this match defined his talent. He thought his toss wasn’t good enough because Asahi couldn’t get through the spikers. And FINALLY they have a chance at revenge and the whole time 

YUI NOTICES HE’S ON THE BENCH. SHE PROBABLY SAW THE LAST GAME BECAUSE SHE MENTIONS REVENGE LATER ON SO SHE KNOWS HOW IMPORTANT THIS MATCH IS. SHE KNOWS AND STILL. 

So Sugawara is reduced to losing it on the sidelines while the whole Asahi regaining his confidence thing is going on. 

THE WHOLE TIME HE’S LOSING IT. AND THEN AND THEN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT HTE FUCK WHAT WHEN KAGEYAMA IS GIVING ASAHI HIS GAME WINNING TOSS GUESS WHO TAUGHT HIM WHAT TOSS ASAHI LIKES BEST. THAT’S RIGHT, SUGAWARA FUCKING KOUSHI FIGHTING FROM THE SIDELINES, DOING ANYTHING IT TAKES TO GET HIS FRIENDS TO WIN EVEN IF HE CAN’T FIGHT ALONGSIDE THEM. 

SO THEN they win the game and everyone goes on and on about how Karasuno finally got their revenge and Suga is super happy and all but of course he isn’t a robot he’s got feelings about the fact that while Daichi and Asahi got to settle their scores on the court he didn’t get to do that. And as gratifying as it is to see your friends succeed it’s still got to sting a  little so he says: 

And this WHOLE MATCH FUCKING SAYS EVERYTHING ABOUT SUGA AND I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT HIM because he does get a bit down about not being able to fight alongside his friends on the court as most people would but Daichi is right, he still wants to fight. It stings and he doesn’t resent Kageyama and right now he’s looking to fight anyway he can even if it’s through Kageyama but the point is, he STILL WANTS TO FIGHT EVEN THOUGH AT THIS POINT IN TIME HE’S NOT NECESSARY TO THEM WINNING. EVEN THROUGH THAT DISCOURAGEMENT AND HIS FRIENDS MOVING AHEAD WITHOUT HIM, HE STILL WANTS TO FIGHT. and i want to cry 

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All right, I’m gonna go ahead and call pre-boarding for all Zabvronians with elite status. Ah… Oh. No, wait. That’s… that’s only me. Suck it, coach trash.

  • Thedas: *is attacked by a corrupted tevinter old god every blight*
  • Thedas: *regularly gets wrecked by a figure from elven legends*
  • Thedas: *is haunted by ghosts telling history of ancient times*
  • Thedas: *is littered with powerful ancient elven artifacts*
  • Chantry: ha ha those silly heathens and their imagination ha ha praise the maker the less he does the more he's real