i was so stoked about The Reveal at the end of ep 10 i hardly even registered the next episode teaser thing but on my 4th rewatch i finally gathered myself enough to pay attention and noticed this shot
of viktor just looking completely apathetic and dead inside and at first i was afraid because i thought something terrible might happen during the short program, but then i noticed a) the snow and b) makkachin, neither of which can be found in spain at the moment so this is clearly a flashback
which leads me to the conclusion that the lifeless, empty man we are seeing here is pre-yuuri viktor, the man who’s been neglecting life and love for two entire decades to pursue a sport that was once his passion but now just feels old and unfulfilling and christ i cannot handle these feelings but i hella welcome the idea of really getting into his past and truly getting to witness exactly how much he’s grown emotionally and especially how much light and joy yuuri has brought into his life since meeting him
ugh god yes bring on the viktor feels im so excited but also scared
This movie is like full-frontal heartbreak. I’m definitely not shying away from that, that’s absolutely what it’s about. It’s that first fall to this existential netherworld. You can attack yourself with memories or, depending on perspective, you can take a step back and say, ‘Actually, it wasn’t so bad. That was fun, we did have fun and it was nice.’ So I had my two actors play in a pool and talk to each other and I gave them a couple of key words. But they said some stuff that we pulled and made really negative and terrifying and kind of ominous in the beginning.
“He’s killing himself with these memories and his brain is so scattered and he literally cannot get the voices out of his head, but in reality it wasn’t so bad. He regrets everything he said and he’s like ‘Ugh, why couldn’t I have just done this different?’ He’s just reevaluating everything and going over every word he ever said to her being like, ‘How could I have saved this, how could I have fixed this, it’s all my fault, I fucked it all up.’ In the second part of the film, you’re just like, ‘Dude you didn’t, it just kind of fell apart, that’s what happened.’ I just wanted to externalize an incredibly internal struggle and then see it again from the outside.
LAST STREAM DRAWS. REQUEST FOR @somesketchyshit HELLLAAAAAAAAAA she asked for two people wearing a scarf and drinking hot coc… she forgot the o so i’m just.. repeating her mistake sorry(notsorry) HHAHAH
so i drew Young Jack and Adult Angel. and they make the cutest father daughter team and i’ cry but this is a happy post so no crying. .-.
Just imagine Magnus Bane meeting Maryse Lightwood and her little band of brats and thinking“ugh, like we need more Lightworms around…” and little Max is setting things of fire, Izzy is playing with boas and sparkles (Magnus likes that one), Alec is always standing like a church boy at his mother’s side. Shadowhunters will be Shadowunters…
But Maryse leaves the room for two seconds and already Alec has spilled something on Magnus’s silk jacket and is extremely apologetic and “by the angel I am so so sorry” and he cannot wait to get out of there but he feels bad for the runt. Being raised to feel like a walking mistake sucked. Magnus would know.
And then Magnus comes back some ten years later and realizes, wow, that boy is exactly the same. Hidden inside himself, waiting for someone to realize he was wrong, wrong, wrong and fix him to how he was supposed to be. And Magnus feels the same pity he felt then but he can actually do something about it now… so maybe he could stop someone from growing up to hate himself just like his own mother had tried to do to him.
He wouldn’t let this Shadowhunter become just another mindless robot Shadowhunter.
I don’t know… something about Magnus knowing Alec all his life and wanting to help him grow into a healthy and happy person no matter what is just really endearing to me.