ugh i have so many feels

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Screenshots from episodes 4 and 5. Things that are important here: the use of the words team and family.

Keith doesn’t want Pidge to leave the team, but he doesn’t specifically mention the team. He mentions people’s families, which is what Pidge was worried about. No doubt he was attempting to make her reconsider by using a word she was inherently interested in and was sensitive to. Others have mentioned before how ironic/nice is is of Keith to say that specifically, considering he’s an orphan and how the reason he wants Pidge to stay is because she, along with the others, are his family now.

It’s actually Shiro who uses the word team. He tells Keith that people can’t be forced into the team, they must want to stay. He’s not talking about family (specifically), but about the team of paladins they have formed.

Then cut to episode 5 and after they’ve dealt with Sendak, it’s Shiro who starts saying he can’t help but feel like Pidge was meant to be part of the team, but won’t stop her if she wants to leave. That’s when Pidge recalls her father’s words that his team was like family. Pidge is the first person to associate the two words, and Keith immediately says “welcome back to the team”, a clear call back to Shiro’s words back in episode 4 about how a team/family can’t be forced.

Keith is welcoming her back to his family.

On fandom, love, & reading

Hi friends. This is a new forum for me, and I’m not quite sure what my voice is going to sound like, so bear with me. If you’re annoyed with this post, and with me, I’m just going to have to go ahead and direct you to my friend @ivyblossom because she’s the one who asked me to write this. So please, have at her.

Before I say anything, though, because I’m not interested in smoke and mirrors or cloaks and daggers, I’ll tell you this: my name is Marie. I am 32 – no wait, shit – 33 years old. I am a librarian, and a medievalist, and a feminist, and the mother of a one-year-old, and a thousand other things. I am married to a lovely man, though am in possession of a sexual identity that fails to make itself clear even to me. None of this really matters, but the preamble makes it easier to begin to say anything at all. I have been a fangirl always, and in fandom for a while now – I’d say about 15 years – but I’ve always stayed out of the fray. I read, I commented, I admired, but never said anything outright, never tried to initiate a conversation. Now I’d like to have a conversation.

You guys, I am sad about fandom. This fandom. I am so disheartened watching the fallout from this past season of Sherlock. I am disheartened not because – or not only because – it is now clear that there was never an intention on behalf of the show to give us an explicitly queer Holmes. I am disheartened, and I am heartsick, because of the deep sadness I see in the fandom, and the in-fighting between those who are angry and those who are seeking something redemptive – or at the very least interesting! – in TFP. I didn’t hate the episode. I thought the plot was absurd and stupid and pretty abysmally written, but I didn’t hate the episode because I appreciate what it was trying – and for the most part, failing, I think – to do. But I’m not here to talk about that. I can, if I ever get up the nerve to post anything ever again. I have a lot of thoughts about how TFP moves Sherlock closer to canon Holmes, and toward Conan Doyle’s own characterization of his stories as romance – not romance as love story, but real romance as a literary genre consumed by history, and family, and identity – but that’s for another day.

Look, let me tell you: I am nothing if not a Johnlock shipper. This has nothing to do with whether or not I see these two characters together because I do, I do, I do. Nothing can or will change that for me. And yes, I believe that we are right to want and to expect better queer representation in the media. We are right to want and expect to be shown worlds that match the granular, non-binary, indefinable realities of our relationships. We are right to want and expect a queer Holmes. And I believe that Sherlock constitutes a huge missed opportunity to give us that – but I do not believe that that opportunity was missed last week. It was missed years ago, when it became clear that the show was consistently moving away from an explicitly gay reading of John and Sherlock’s relationship.

Okay, wait, I have to back up again – I’m sorry. Like I said, new at this. Back to fandom. Here is my fundamental understanding of what fandom is: fandom is a radical and radically queer set of reading practices. Radical in that it prizes the means of production from the hands of the author and puts them in the hands of the reader; radical in that it allows for us to blur the lines between personal and communal; radical in that it demands such profound intimacy between its adherents. It is this last that has always been the most important to me, and is to my mind the beating heart of fandom and its ability to heal (how many of us have said or heard “fandom saved my life”?). In short: fandom is communal reading as an act of love.

This is what I really want to talk about: reading and love. I’m not sure I have more than a sentence or two to say, actually. Maybe a question. Look, I am not in the business of telling people that they are doing fandom wrong. I’m not sure that there is a way to do it wrong. But watching the tortuous and protracted reading of real world events during and following season 4, all the energy that has been expended collecting hints and clues potentially dropped for us by the writers and the showrunners – will there be a fourth episode?; why are there so many obvious plot holes?; does Piccadilly Circus have a message for us? – is not a version of fandom I fully recognize. All these breadcrumbs people are so painstakingly gathering are, I think, leading back to the wrong text. 

There is a whole beautiful, messy, deliciously flawed narrative laid bare for us now, and it is ours, fully ours. All our energy could go into reading and re-reading these stories, thinking deeply about them, taking them up and playing with them, or better yet creating new and better versions of them. So why are so many of us trying to tell ourselves stories about Moffat and Gatiss rather than John and Sherlock?

anonymous asked:

Tell us some of your Mama!Hawk headcanons please :)

OH MAN

  • My favorite headcanon is that Riza tends to cook food for more than one person and brings it in to share with Ed. Sometimes on the weekends when she’s out and about she’ll swing by their dorm to drop some off. She knows exactly how much she’s making every time; she just wants to make sure he’s getting a proper meal.
  • She shares books with Alphonse and will go to the Eastern library with him to pick some out. She was very well-read as a child and knows that Al was too, so they spend time scouring the shelves for books that they either both haven’t read or that the other hasn’t. 
  • The Elric brothers know her schedule very well and know that she shops on Thursday nights. More often than not they’ll ‘happen to be in thearea’ whenever she gets groceries and will help her carry them home, especially during the spring/summer months when she walks.
  • The Elrics send her flowers every Mother’s Day.
  • The reason the boys are so attracted to her as a maternal figure is because of how she speaks to them. She’s very honest, as we’ve seen in canon. This carries on to their later lives, and they’ll often call her for advice. 
  • Riza was the first of Team Mustang that was informed of Edward and Winry’s engagement.

GOD I’M SO EMOTIONAL ABOUT TONIGHT!!

  • Watching Robert’s eyes literally light up at the thought of bribing someone while milking Rebecca for more money!! THAT’S MY TRASHY BABY!!!
  • OMG Aaron’s excuse for being dressed like a burglar “IT’S COLD!” LMAO!!
  • And Chas didn’t even try to interrogate Aaron like she normally would have bc SHE KNOWS HE’S HAPPY AND IN A GOOD PLACE SO SHE COULDN’T EVEN IMAGINE HIM DOING SOMETHING BAD!! THEY’VE COME SO FAR!! I’M CRYING!! 
  • AARON HAS LITERALLY GOT TO BE THE FITTEST BURGLAR EVER!! ONLY HE CAN ROCK ALL BLACK LIKE THAT!!!
  • Robert being his smug, arrogant self with Rebecca!! GOD I LOVE HIM!!
  • ROBERT TRYING TO GET AS MUCH MONEY OUT OF REBECCA AS POSSIBLE TO GIVE TO AARON SO THEY CAN BUY THE MILL!! ROBERT LITERALLY WANTING HER PAY FOR HIS HOME WITH AARON!! I’M SCREAMING!!!
  • AARON INITIATING A HUG WITH HIS MUM!! THE GUY WHO USUALLY SHIES AWAY FROM SUCH THINGS!! THAT WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER!!
  • CHAS SAYING SHE IS PROUD OF AARON!! 
  • AND AARON SAYING “I LOVE YOU” TO CHAS!!! THAT WAS SO EMOTIONAL!! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH!!
  • Aaron was SO good at bullshitting Rebecca about the burglary!! ROBERT MUST BE SO PROUD!!
  • “BECAUSE I’LL LOSE MY SISTER” - Aaron’s not even worried about himself he’s more concerned about Liv!!! He’s so selfless!!
  • Aaron actually being so strong and opening up to Rebecca about his abuse!! GOD HE IS SO BRAVE AND I JUST WANTED TO HUG HIM!!!
  • Aaron not wanting Rebecca pressuring him into telling Robert about him breaking into Home Farm!! He doesn’t want to disappoint the person he loves the most!! Ugh my heart!!!
  • REBECCA TELLING AARON HOW ROBERT HAS TOLD HER NO ONE ELSE COMES CLOSE TO AARON!!! IT WAS LIKE IT FINALLY HIT AARON THAT ROBERT REALLY ONLY WANTS HIM!!! I’M SO EMOTIONAL!!!
  • AARON ACTUALLY BUYING THE MILL SO HIM, ROBERT AND LIV CAN FINALLY BE A PROPER LITTLE FAMILY!!!
  • AARON LOOKED SO HAPPY WHEN HE WAS TELLING THEM HE HAD BOUGHT THEM A HOME!! THIS WAS SO PERFECT!!
  • LIV ALMOST HUGGING ROBERT BC SHE WAS SO EXCITED WAS SO CUTE!! DEEP DOWN SHE DOES LOVE HIM SHE REALLY DOES!!
  • Robert instantly knew Aaron was lying and hadn’t just changed his mind about buying the Mill!! HE KNOWS AARON BETTER THAN ANYONE!!!
  • AARON NOT WANTING TO ADMIT HE’D BROKEN INTO HOME FARM!! HE FELT SO BAD ABOUT IT!!!
  • AND ROBERT’S FACE WHEN AARON TOLD HIM!! IT WAS SO CLEAR HE WAS ANGRY AT AARON FOR BEING SO STUPID AND FOR RISKING HIS FREEDOM!! ROBERT DOESN’T WANT TO LOSE AARON!!
  • ROBERT ACTUALLY ADMITTING THAT HE LOVES AARON’S BAD BOY WAYS!! HE’S SO IN LOVE WITH HIS SCRUFFY THUG IT’S INSANE!!
  • THEY WERE ALL SO FREAKING HAPPY CELEBRATING BUYING THE MILL!!! SUCH A PERFECT LITTLE FAMILY!! I’M CRYING!! 
  • AND AARON WAS EVEN ENCOURAGING ROBERT TO GO TALK BUSINESS WITH REBECCA BC NOW HE FINALLY REALISES THAT WHEN ROBERT SAYS NO ONE ELSE COMES CLOSE HE TRULY MEANS IT!!!
  • THERE IS LITERALLY NOTHING THESE TWO CANNOT OVERCOME BC THEY’RE SO IN LOVE!!! SOMEONE PINCH ME IT’S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL!!!
philkas @ pride

okay so i havent seen this done and i wasnt feeling like doing an actual fic but i have so many headcanons about this

  • philip is the one that initially brings it up. he doesnt even ask lukas to go; theyre just hanging out and he mentions that its happening that weekend. 
  • he isnt expecting lukas to ask if he could go. he agrees, of course, because all he wants is for lukas to be able to accept who he is. 
    • lukas is shocked he even voiced his wanting to go. but part of him wants to go somewhere where absolutely everyone is okay with who he is.
    • he knows that being gay isnt inherently wrong; he knows its the homophobia he grew up around/internalized
    • he cant help but be excited. terrified, but excited. 
  • lukas ends up talking to rose, who tells him that shes going, and taking this girl she kinda likes, and some other kids from school are going, too. 
    • all of a sudden lukas is exposed to other lgbt people at school. theyre accepting and seem to just get it
    • anyways, they all plan to meet up for the parade and walk around and see everything 
    • “its your first pride we have to go all out”
  • lukas doesnt want to dress up or anything, but when rose shows up to philips house the morning of with two black shirts with rainbows on the front, lukas takes it. he puts a flannel on over it, and laughs when philip comes out wearing one of his flannels, too. 
    • rose has on a shirt proclaiming Pan Pride
  • before they leave, helen and gabe come down the stairs outfitted in rainbows head to toe
    • Gabe has a love is love shirt on
    • philip is kinda embarrassed, but the minute she sees Helen’s shirt (im not gay but my son is) he just gets this giant smile on his face.
      • philip didnt grow up around homophobia, not the way lukas did. it was around, but in the city, being gay wasnt as taboo. 
      • still it isnt something he ever broadcasted. he definitely didnt have his mom walking around with a shirt like that.
      • but here is helen and gabe, and theyre supporting him and his dumb boyfriend, and they accept him for who he is.
  • so they get there!! and lukas is super overwhelmed. its bright and loud and there are so many people. theyre all happy and theyre dancing and lukas can feel the excitement radiating. 
    • he’s never been open about being gay like this. he didnt even think it would be something he would ever be okay with
      • hes getting there. but he isnt quite there yet
    • anyways!!! he sees all these people (girls holding hands with girls, boys holding hands with boys, etc)
    • there are people kissing and laughing and dancing and lukas has never felt so okay
    • he super tentatively reaches over and takes philips hand. philip just looks over at him and gets this tiny smile on his face. he doesnt say anything, of course, but he pulls lukas into the crowd
    • gabe and helen end up talking to a set of lesbians who recognized gabe from the vet.
    • in the middle of the parade, rose catches a beaded necklace and gives it to the girl she came with, giving her a huge smile. 
      • eventually the two sneak away. philip and lukas see them kissing in an alleyway, the rainbow paint that was smeared on Rose’s cheeks now all over the other girls fingers
    • they meet lots of people. sometimes they ask lukas if philip is his boyfriend, and he doesnt hesitate to say yes. yes, he is. isnt he adorable?
    • it isnt just new for lukas. philip is happier than hes been in weeks. standing here, surrounded by love and acceptance, he doesnt even remember what if feels like to hurt. 
    • ryan kane, his mom, the cabin, all of it goes away.
    • it goes away because lukas is holding his hand, and kissing him in public, and giving him that goofy smile philip loves so much.
    • and it goes away for lukas, too, because he feels more loved than he ever has. he feels loved by philip and by his friends (new and old) and he feels loved by every other member of the lgbt community. 
      • on days like today, theyre all a big family. happy. free. proud
      • and that, that is everything. 
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#at first i was like #yoo look at that smirk on daniel’s face #he knows #he knows she wouldn’t have let anyone shoot him #but then peggy stays silent  #and idk but in the last gif #maybe daniel’s still convinced peggy wouldn’t have let him die #BUT at the same time i can also see daniel’s insecurities creeping back in #and i’m sooo asdfghjk #because i know homegirl was just currently realizing that the idea of losing daniel is scaring the shit out of her #and that being scared to lose him is making her scaredx1000 #bc uh-oh she just lost a love and now she’s vulnerable like that again #so i rly rly have this intense need to tell daniel that no ok? she would not have let anyone shoot you #im sure

a summary of the main periods of music
  • renaissance: MODES MODES MoDEs and lets make everything blend and ooOHH lots of chords yes yes many chords buT WE OVER-COMPLICATE EVERYTHING
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  • baroque: one melodic idea aND THEN WE TEAR IT APART WITH OUR FUGUES AND CONTRAPUNTAl and ornaments. homophonic? try poly. jumpscare dyNAMics and we have no pauses you keep playing till you die
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  • classical: e v e n s i m p l er! one melody and all the lesser important parts below it. and wE SLOWLY FAde intO DYNAMICs. piano! orchestra!??!!! PIANO!!!!!!! OMFG ITS A PIaNO!!!! ew harpsichord whoa moZART
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  • romantic: acccceelerando nO WAIt i want ritardandoooOO jokes. so free! so emotional! the tears and the feels uGH. REVOLUTIONS AS WELL. why's this orchestra so pathetic lETS ADD 784 NEW INSTRUMENTS!! and i want it to be so hard no one can play it
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  • 20th century: a boop bap dap and a dippity do lookie do its jazz! and yes that accidental is meant to be there. also ignore the septuplets just play with it. also i wonder what happens if we hit different instruments. ok that soup bowl is now a percussion instrument. anD EVERYTHING IS SO COMPLEX HAHA PEASANTS SUFFeR!!
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  • neoclassical 'new-age': bo oop bOp bIP BIEEEEEEEEP dInK!!!!(\(!!(!!$(($ DINK DINK DINK Dndfy *cats meowing harshly* *car crashes into house* NYEEEAAAAAAAAHHJHhhHHH
  • “You don’t get to tell me who’s overreacting. You’re under-reacting!" 
  • "All murder is illegal. Also, attempted murder." 
  • "Well, that’s just mean. And kind of weird." 
  • "We cannot tell you. We’re not allowed." 
  • "Murder wasn’t my intent." 
  • "I meant nothing by it." 
  • "We have forgotten so many things." 
  • "I guess I was wrong earlier—I don’t know. Weird, right?" 
  • "I have conflicted feelings here." 
  • "It is not a feeling I wish to experience again." 
  • "So, let’s not waste any more time." 
  • "I don’t remember what I was just saying." 
  • "That is—ugh. I’ll have to think about what that is." 
  • "You need to run." 
  • "This day started bad, and it does not appear to be getting better any time soon." 
  • "You can guess what happened, I think." 
  • "I know that there is more coming, as always. This is what I know." 
  • "Don’t look. You will not at all like what you see." 
  • "It’s all a shame, whatever it is. Such a damn shame everything is." 
  • "You are weak. You are nothing." 
  • "I know I am safe. Sadly though, I am not okay." 
  • "I don’t know. But I’m trying to find out, okay?" 
  • "I know what is what." 
  • "You know, it would upset me if it weren’t just who you are." 
  • "I could do so many things to you without you feeling it. Remember that if you remember nothing else." 
  • "You seem kind of— I mean, lately. Lately you’ve been—" 
  • "It’s awful when you can see the reason for someone’s feeling toward you while knowing wholly that they’re wrong." 
  • "I do my best with what I have. I don’t have much." 
  • "I’ve been working on something I’d like to show you." 
  • "Denying that you are guilty is a major sign of guilt." 
  • "Ask me what?" 
  • "I mean, I know. I know everything." 
  • "I wish I did not know." 
  • "You know, I don’t want to talk about it just yet." 
  • "It’s a shame anything had to change. I sure do dislike change." 
  • "Not saying that it is a long time—uh, who knows what a long time is even? Not me! But it just seems that way, that’s all." 
  • "Here I am, as I thought I might never be." 
  • "These days, the world seems to never be ending for some and not others." 
  • "The world is a worse place now than it ever was before, but far better than it ever will be again." 
  • "The past is always better than the present. And the future is the worst of all." 
  • "I extend my deepest sympathies. Not that my sympathies will do you any good." 
  • "Have you ever remembered a life you did not lead?" 
  • "It was a better day earlier. Back when I hadn’t heard that story." 
  • "This present, this now, is no good. No good at all!”

so i meant to do this when i hit 3k but i’m lazy and waited until now. oops
anyway, thank you to everyone who follows me aka puts up with my trash blog and rants. i can’t believe over the past six? seven?? months i’ve made so many awesome friends through this site. and somehow have over 3k people who wanna follow me. i appreciate tf outta all of you. if we’re mutuals (or not) you can always always alwaysssss tag me, msg me, etc. I LOVE YOU ALL. i’m not gonna bold or italicize anyone because you all rock.
happy holidays y’all!  ♥ ♥ ♥

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I’m excited for a lot of the prints I’m working on but this is one of the ones I’m most excited about. I love Princess Tutu so much and I’m just excited to finish something for it. T^T And once again I want to re-watch it because every time I draw fanart for it I remember all the feelings I have when I watch it. <3

Seriously, if you haven’t watched it yet definitely give it a try!

Also sorry for so much WIPs lately. I’m trying really hard to finish all my prints for upcoming conventions I’m tabling at and I need to order them soon for one of the cons. ;w;

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I’m having a really hard time atm. I start so many things, work hard on them and end up not finishing anything for some reason. It’s not like I don’t want to, it’s that I’m actually afraid of the outcome or something. It’s a really bad feeling of being frozen in place and I absolutely hate it, ugh.

I don’t like this drawing. But I’ll post it anyway, because I really loved the whole month of October and I’m very proud and happy with the things Jack and Robin did to bring Anti to life! I’ve always loved creepy and spoopy stuff. I’m one of these weird people who get really inspired by Horror movies, theories and just anything scary in general. This month has been incredibly cool and gave me many ideas! But I’ll try to keep in mind that I don’t have to work on everything at the same time, haha. 

UGH sorry i said i was done but, im stressed cause i feel like i answered that kind of abrasively…this is a sensitive subject for me bc ive literally never seen as much homophobia in a fandom as i have in the sonic fandom and ive been in like. a LOT of fandoms. ive never seen so many people who outright refuse to take anything gay as a commission, ive never seen so many people attacked & belittled for shipping gay things

its really depressing when sonic is my favorite thing in the world! and i want it to be a safe & happy thing for me especially when i grew up with so much family abuse bc of homophobia. like i really just want to make something positive about my identity and put it into the thing i love most. and its not like i go attack people who ship straight ships so idk. just let me have fun