u r my light and day

autistic in a heatwave tips!

we’re having a heatwave !! which is lovely because i love hot weather, but im bad at temperature adjustment and regulation which can be bad. i also know that lots of other autistics find hot weather sensory hell, so here r a few things that i find help:

- you dont Have to be in the sun all day. lots of people will say stuff tht makes u feel guilty about “wasting the good weather”, but they dont know how it affects u personally, so do whats best for u. if u wanna stay inside all day or never leave the shade, do it!! its better to b comfortable than anything else
- this goes doubly if u live in a place where u actually get aircon in non commercial buildings
- wear as few clothes as possible. sounds obvious, but youd be surprised at how much difference not having even one layer makes. if youre self conscious abt ur body, invest in some mesh or sheer clothing - its stylish, v thin and light, and will obscure ur form - if u r wearing clothes, wet them !! this helps So Much its my fav tip. wetting a hat or pouring water down ur shirt cools u down a load, and can help u stay cool until it all evaporates. last year i managed to be the only one to mostly avoid heatstroke when hiking by doing this. having wet trousers/shorts is sensory hell for me, so i stick to just my shirt. if u cant cope w that, keep a damp cloth on u and put it on ur skin whenever u can
- drink A Lot. if ur thirsty, ur probably already dehydrated. dehydration can lead to feeling sick, headachy, and exasperates sensory issues (i usually burn out twice as often if im dehydrated). to avoid this, drink lots of water. do u hate drinking water? yeah, me too. keeping a bottle full on u is good because its just There so u end up drinking it because its smth to do.
alternately, drink lots of juice/iced tea/soda (fizzy drinks dehydrate u a bit, but theyre better than nothing!)
if u wanna rehydrate quickly, sports drinks r the way to go bc they replace electrolytes (cheap alternative: dissolve salt n sugar into water)
- crunch on ice !! it cools u down, it hydrates u, and u can Lov The Cronch
- dont get burnt: it leads to sunburn which is Sensory Hell, can give u heat stroke, and long term skin damage. do u hate sun cream? Me Too, but its better than sunburn. instead of the gross lotiony suncreams, u can get oil based ones (p20 is the brand here, idk if its international) which tend to b more expensive, but last a full 24hrs, feel non gloopy, and dont smell as strong
- sleep w just a bed sheet as covers bc its much cooler, but u still have the feeling of smth covering u
- ur feet r the most important for temp regulation , so keep them cool most importantly
- cold showers r great but also painful so a softer alternative is room temp showers bc theyll still cool u down without freezing ur various body parts off
- mope on the floor like 24/7 it doesnt exactly cool u down but it doesnt use much energy n its perfect for that summery sluggishness. fav activity 10/10 would recommend

anyone else pls add on suggestions!!

Today marks the day I return home to myself. That I begin the long journey that will be learning to trust in my own power again—to engage life, be light, and stand confidently in my own skin. And when I arrive, I will move gently through each dark, narrow room. And proudly draw back the curtains.
—  Beau TaplinD r a w  T h e  C u r t a i n s 

life has gone to shit in the past few weeks and so i decided to start waking up early and taking charge of my life. it’s going ok so far. i am a night owl, though, soooo listen to me my tips work y’all

getting ur sleep hours

  • okok so iK that this is not always possible n u stay up late doing crap for school or smthing BUT
  • waking up early becomes so much better and easier and calmer when u get ur hours ok
  • find out how many hours u need (varies from person to person; me it’s 8 hours which kills me bc so much frigggging time)
  • depending on what time u want to wake up at, calculate it backwards and this new hour is ur hour that u absolutely cannot stay up past*
  • (* unless u absolutely absolutely have to. i understand that sometimes u just have too much stuff to do and u gta get it done. so in that case u would have to go to sleep as early as u can - meaning after ur deadline has passed, u focus focus focus n don’t do shenanigans.)
  • the idea here is u want a routine ok bc ur body likes routines ur brain likes routines and eventually it’ll wake up naturally at the time

ur alarm

  • this can either go both ways, whatever works 4 u:
    • make it RLLY RLLY shrilly n hella annoying that u hate it and u go and turn it off
      • warning: this can backfire bc u just turn it off and don’t actually wake up
    • or u make it like soft and happy and pretty
      • warning: similarly this can backfire bc u r still sleepy bc soft and happy and pretty
  • either way!!!!!!! DO NOT HIT THE SNOOZE
  • u made the promise to urself to wake up early, honour it. don’t be a shitty person who can’t keep their word. (look @ me guilting u)
  • some ppl like their alarms far but i don’t have enough self control for that lol like my alarm is my phone n getting out of bed b4 sleep to put my phone across the room eh

ur awake. now what?

  • ur probably still sleepy af bc ur a sleep-deprived person who would ideally be sleeping but u persevere my friend
  • ok first thing u do is get out of bed bc the bed is ur enemy and it distracts u ok it sucks!!!!!!!!!
  • couple things to stay awake:
    • in the winter especially i blast light in my face 2 tell my brain “yooo it’s like the day now can u wake the hell up” and then serotonin comes in and it’s like “yooo ty
    • wash my face w/cooold (diduthinkiwasgnasaycool) water bc that wakes u up !!! if u’ve ever been woken up w/water!!! yes it works !!!
    • some ppl r like exercise but be warned: this only works if ur body is somewhat used 2 exercise like mine is not and so exercising in the morning just makes me tired tbh
    • stimulate ur mind ya ok some ppl r against electronics in the morning but idk watching a funny vid or smthing cheers me up a lot (laughing!!! important)

rewards

  • bc we r humans driven by desires
    i make like a nice breakfast that i like w/like fruits and like good things and it makes me feeling nice n it’s usually rlly tasty
    • things i like to eat: berry smoothies, burrito wraps, congee, dates lol i’m obsessed w/dates rn
  • sometimes i also plan my outfit n i’m like yooooooo i look so good and it gets me feeling rl nice
  • i also have a short impromptu dance party bc like i can afford it w/the time i have now like i don’t listen to music that much anymore :( but now i have a special time to dedicate to music and dance and it’s gr8

final words

  • pls persevere; habits r not made overnight n u will miss some days n it will be totally ok
  • sunrises r nice to actually see and it’s x108908394 easier in the winter bc later sunrise time soooo js
  • my best friend just texted me “can we nap together tmrw” and that pretty much sums us up idk why that’s relevant but s.o. to him !!!
  • i rlly want a burrito rn
  • ur a superstar u can do it also wtf is sleep who needs that???
  • <3

sigmastolen  asked:

re: how teens and adults text, I would be super interested for you to explain your theory!

ok SO. a lot of this comes from various stuff i’ve seen on the linguistics of tumblr, but at the heart of it is that people in my generation (at least in the us; idk abt other countries’ timelines on this front) went thru (or are still going thru) our Formative Social Years in an environment where we’d regularly interact with even our closest friends on text-only platforms (whether texting or gchat or fb messages or w/e), and b/c so much linguistic/social information is actually conveyed by facial expression and tone of voice, we’ve collectively made up all of these textual ways of conveying that in a concise, efficient way

so like, sometimes on this blog i’ll talk about “straight people”, and sometimes i’ll talk about “str8 ppl”, and even tho i would pronounce those the same, the first is much more neutral — it would probably happen in the context like “i’m not sure how i feel about straight people writing stories that center around experiences of homophobia” — than the second, which which is much more frustrated/venting — it would be more likely to crop up in the context of “all i want is to live quietly in my little queer utopia but no str8 ppl have to come along and heteronomativity UGH #over it #whatever #NOT RLLY OVER IT”. or even with more subtle things like end punctuation: “i’m not going” basically just means i’m not currently planning to go to the thing; “i’m not going.” carries much more of a connotation of “i have seriously considered going and have Reasons for staying at home” (and note that capital — “i have Reasons for staying at home” feels different than “i have reasons for staying at home”). (and this isn’t even getting into things like shitposting or advanced memeology, but there are specific textual markers that go with things like that, some of which would be pronounced if you read them aloud, but many of which wouldn’t be)

but, crucially, for these kinds of things to carry meaning, they have to be used consistently: if i use “str8 ppl” and “straight people” interchangeably in all contexts (as i do for something like “the supreme court” vs “scotus”), then there’s no way to develop a distinction in meaning between the two — the only way to do that is to consistently use the different orthographies in different contexts. (to take another example: if something is “great”, then it’s solidly good. if something is “gr8”, it’s more in the land of “i can’t quite believe this is as earnest/tacky/tasteless as it is but i’m weirdly into it anyway?” (sometimes with a side helping of “do i just enjoy this ironically or do i genuinely enjoy it there is no way of knowing please send help”))

the upshot of this is that to be fluent in tumblr (or texting, or fb messenger, or w/e) means to actually be paying a lot of attention to subtle points of grammar and spelling, to know when to use “did u kno” or “ur” or even pull out an old-fashioned tip of the hat to “e733T haxxor 5killz”. most of these are very subtle distinctions, the kind of things you feel intuitively rather than write out explicitly, and so it’s very hard to convey them concisely and accurately to someone who’s not already immersed in the linguistic environment

and let’s be real, people in my parents’ generation aren’t. i mean, sure, many of them have facebook accounts, but these kinds of platforms weren’t around when they were in their “really getting to grips with social interaction” years, and their most important social interactions usually don’t take place exclusively online. for me, all of my closest friends are people i’ve only interacted with online for more than a year now (with a few brief face-to-face visits when various travel arrangements have allowed), so tumblr, facebook, and gchat are absolutely critical to my social life and interpersonal interactions; for my parents, their closest friends are people they see in person at work every day, so social media is a light overlay to their social lives, not the thrumming core

as such, my parents don’t grok these distinctions. to them “what are you doing?” means the same thing as “lol wut r u doing”; “gr8” is just like “great” (and “gr9” takes some parsing … ); dogespeak doesn’t have the same distinctive valence that it does to us. since they don’t know about these distinctions, they don’t feel the need to maintain more “proper” spelling/grammar when texting with a friend — different people have different set points for this, obvs, but in general i feel like “standard (setting aside all the class and racial implications in that term …) spelling and grammar” (with lighter-than-standard punctuation and capitalization) translates to “relatively neutral/pleasant conversational voice”, and then deliberate misspellings, abbreviations, letter substitutions, and grammar deviations are markers used to indicate shifts in mood — i have a vague sense that bitterness tends to collapse down and preserve grammar but weird spelling (“lyk w/e im happy 4 u but pls, i kno u lied 2 get that”) whereas enthusiasm tends to preserve spelling but weird grammar (“what i can’t even no how do air AMAZE”). since people in my parents’ generation don’t realize that doing so unintentionally changes the way their words come across, they feel free to text “poorly” (ie with lots of errors/substitutions, generally mixing various text-flagged vocal tones in ways that are often incoherent) in order to do so more quickly (b/c lbr typing everything out can be a pain (esp on a non-smartphone), and since parents don’t do it as much, they’re not necessarily as fast as our spry young fingers on a familiar interface)

so yeah, that’s what i suspect is going on

tl;dr: parents don’t use orthography to mark vocal tone in the way youngfolk do, and thus feel free to condense their texts and otherwise use textspeak. youngfolk are using orthography to mark for tone, and thus text more “correctly” to preserve their social intentions

renthecupcake  asked:

i miss nct u so much o h my goD but i love the way you write for nct and just generally any idol you know n love well also i love when you mention ten. the enemies to lovers trope is one of my favorite tropes; could you write one for ten? bless ur beautiful soul i hope all of your days r blessed with the light of your soul

i miss ten too,,,,,where is he,,,,,,,

  • rival!teachers au 
  • where ten teaches theater and you teach advanced physics and the lab is right across from the theater room so every now and then when you’re teaching a lesson you hear someones “acting” through the walls
  • and you have to stop the lesson to go over and be like AHEM mr. chittaphon KEEP IT DOWN
  • he always smiles sweetly and says he’ll do it, but when you turn around you can hear the students snickering probably because he’s making a face @ your back
  • but also when you’re both alone in the teachers lounge he’ll put his hand on the coffee maker before you can and be like 
  • “stop embarrassing me in front of my students.”
  • and you’re like “stop having your students act out loud scenes when lab is going on”
  • and ten is like do YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THIS IS THEATER
  • you’re like DO YOU NOT GET PHYSICS ???? MATH??? SILENCE AND EQUATIONS??? 
  • ten just narrows his eyes,,,hands on his hips and murmurs that no one even uses physics in real life
  • and you’re like are you kidding me come back here and say that to my face you theater major-
  • ,,,,,long story short you guys argue about whose subject really matters and ten is like more students think he’s a COOLER teacher than you
  • and you’re like hahahah surE they do that’s why everyone is always in my office asking me about dark matter and the universe EXPLODING
  • everytime you get at each others neck,,,art teacher taeil and history teacher taeyong try to break it up while p.e. coach johnny just mass texts about it to the entire faculty
  • you two even got called in by the principal once because of an argument you had in the hall
  • leaving the office grumbling about whose fault is was and who started the fight first,,,,,,,
  • until you realize that a really big trip to the museum of science is short on chaperons,,,,,,and all of the teachers have classes or cant get subs,,,,,,,,except for,,,,,,,,,,,,,,mr.chittaphon
  • it takes you thirty minutes outside of the theater room to swallow your pride but once you’re in there you know you can’t take anything back
  • so,,,,walking over to where ten is sitting with a couple of boxes of costumes you clear your throat and the sour look on his face when he looks up already ticks you off
  • and he’s like “Yes?” and you’re like “,,,,,,,,,,,as you know tomorrow,,,,,,there’s a trip to the museum,,,,,,,-”
  • “the museum of science?”
  • you bite back you’re tongue and you’re like yes,,,,,,the museum of science,,,,,,
  • with ,,,,,,,,,what looks like the biggest grin in the world ten rises up to his feet and is like “you need me to chaperone, don’t you?”
  • you almost say no just because of how annoyed you are but you nod slowly and try to force a smile
  • ten puts his hands in his pockets and like a smug teenager goes “ill do it, but,,,,,,,,,,,,there’s something i want.”
  • and you’re like god what is it is it some public stunt you want me to do to make fun of myself
  • and he’s like “no. i want you to act out a scene,,,,,,here,,,,,,,,for me.”
  • you blink,,,,,,,automatically answering “ten- i mean mr. chittaphon, im a physics teacher. a scientist. not an actor.”
  • and he’s like OH I KNOW but i want to see you try since theater is so “easy”
  • handing you a script that he seems to have pulled out of thin air he motions toward the empty stage
  • you grip the paper, but think about how you have to do this - for the students
  • and you get up on there, clearing your throat and gingerly reading the lines from what looks like pride and prejudice
  • cutting into your dull reading ten waves with his hands and he’s like “more emotion or ill just say i cant come into work tomorrow.”
  • you want to snap at him but you start reading again,,,,trying to add ‘feeling’ into elizabeth’s lines 
  • when suddenly ten comes up on stage and shakes his head and is like “looks like i have to do it with you- ok from line 53-”
  • leaning in close,,,ten takes your hand and you jump a bit but you check the script and it is the ball scene and he asks “so what do you recommend to encourage affection?”
  • and you feel your mouth dry,,,but you manage the “d-dancing, even if one’s partner is- ba-barely tolerable”
  • before you can as much as blink, ten spins you around the stage, hand on your waist as he leads you in a clumsy waltz
  • and for a second you think he’s doing it to be funny but ,,,,, he’s also just a very good dancer
  • and as he leads you across the stage you can’t help but naturally let it happen 
  • looking up into ten’s eyes,,,,,dark and glinting with something joyfully mysterious
  • up close you realize how golden his skin his,,,,,how his features are handsome ,,,,,,, even though you wouldn’t admit that aloud
  • and when the dance finishes, ten lets go of your hand and bows,,,,,,,only to let out a chuckle
  • and you get defensive telling him what was he thinking - dancing wasn’t part of the deal-
  • but ten just smiles and shrugs,,,,,, “i guess elizabeth was right, dancing does make my affections toward you a little better. ill be here tomorrow to chaperone.”
  • you look at him,,,,shocked,,,but also trying very hard to suppress the blush coming on because what affection,,,,why is he playing around
  • until ten jumps from the stage,,,,stretching his hand out to offer to help you down and when his hand wraps around your waist to steady you
  • your eyes locking again,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it really
  • it really isn’t that bad,,,,,,
  • and in the silent theater you catch yourself looking at ten’s lips,,,,,,him staring back at you and it might just be gravity and the force of nature
  • but it feels like you’re both leaning in —-
  • until the door opens and a student calls out ten’s name and he practically drops you to hurry over and you dust yourself off and pass by like nothing happened
  • but,,,,,,uh,,,,,,,,something totally did happen hehe
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S I R I U S + R E G U L U S
The brightest stars in the sky

You are loved more than you know. I hereby pledge all of my days to prove it so. Though your heart is far too young to realize the unimaginable light you hold inside, I’ll give you everything I have. I’ll teach you everything I know. I promise I’ll do better. I will always hold you close.

Part 4 of ? of the “Art Trade (with capital letters)” (at this point I think that anyway we can say we kinda have a never ending art trade xD) with mah gurl @trashmuh ! ♥  
She requested more Xalender and Muhren interactions, I wanted to work on lights. Cantina time ! Muh wish it was a date I suppose.

My Favorite Albums of April 2017

My monthly lists of new albums I was feeling, and some other discoveries made during April.

My Previous lists: January, February, March

Best:

Bishop Briggs - EP
Genre: R&B / Soul / Pop

Proof: River, The Way I Do

Blackbear - digital druglord
Genre: alt-R&B

Proof: i miss the old u, chateau

Cashmere Cat - 9
Genre: Electronic / Synth-Pop

Proof: Wild Love (Feat. The Weeknd & Francis & the Lights), Quit (Feat. Ariana Grande)

Cold War Kids - LA DIVINE
Genre: Alternative / Indie Rock

Proof: Love Is Mystical, So Tied Up (Feat. Bishop Briggs)

DJ Quick & Problem - Rosecrans
Genre: Hip Hop

Proof: A New Nite / Rosecrans Groove, Funny How N****s Gon Change Things (Feat. MC Eiht & Suga Free)

Gorillaz - Humanz
Genre: Pop / R&B / Hip Hop

Proof: Andromeda (Feat. D.R.A.M.), Let Me Out (Feat. Mavis Staples & Pusha T)

Her - Tape #2 EP
Genre: Alternative / R&B

Proof: Blossom Roses, Swim (Feat. Zefire)

Jacob Banks - The Boy Who Cried Freedom EP
Genre: R&B / Soul / Blues

Proof: Chainsmoking, Unholy War

JMSN - Whatever Makes U Happy
Genre: R&B / Soul

Proof: Drinkin’, Where Do U Go 

Joey Bada$$ - ALL-AMERIKKKAN BADA$$
Genre: Hip Hop

Proof: TEMPTATION, LAND OF THE FREE

Kendrick Lamar - DAMN.
Genre: Hip Hop

Proof: DNA., LOVE. (Feat. Zacari)

October London - Color Blind: Hate & Happiness EP
Genre: R&B / Soul

Proof: Dramatic, Somebody’s Getting My Love

Overcoats - Young
Genre: Indie / Synth-Pop

Proof: Leave The Light On, Nighttime Hunger

Sevdaliza - ISON
Genre: Synth-Pop / R&B / Electronica

Proof: Marilyn Monroe, Hero

Tinie Tempah - Youth
Genre: Hip Hop

Proof: Texts From Your Ex (Feat. Tinashe), Girls Like (Feat. Zara Larsson)

Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Revival
Genre: Alternative / Indie

Proof: Whispers, Killing Me To Love You

Bonus:

Previous albums I discovered (or just finally got around to listening to) this month

Code Green - 7 Day Trip
Genre: Hip Hop / R&B
Released November 2016

Proof: Too Silly, Luv and Vibe

Passion Pit - Tremendous Sea Of Love
Genre: Synth-Pop
Released March 2017

Proof: Hey K, The Undertow

Penthouse Penthouse & Bobby Saint - Uploaded EP
Genre: R&B / Soul / Electronic
Released June 2016

Proof: 69 Camaro, Saved / Forever

October London - Color Blind: Love EP
Genre: R&B / Soul
Released October 2016

Proof: Shoulder To Lean On, Slow Dance

The-Dream - Genesis
Genre: alt-R&B
Released on TIDAL January 2016/Everywhere Else March 2017

Proof: Virtuous (Feat. Wiz Khalifa), Level

Others:

Alexandra Savior - Belladonna of Sadness, Allen Kingdom - LinesAlthea - Cold Thoughts EP, Amp Live - Atmosphere EP, Amir Obé - None of the Clocks Work EP, ANE - Bitan EP, Anik Khan - Kites EP, Aye Nako - Silver Haze, The Chainsomkers - Memories…Do Not Open, ELHAE - AURA II, Eric Bellinger - Cannabliss EP, Father John Misty - Pure Comedy, Feist - Pleasure, Flume - Skin: The Remixes, Future Islands - The Far FieldThe Gold Setting - Volume and Tone EP, IAMSU! - Boss Up 2 [Mixtape], Incubus - 8, Jessie Reyez - Kiddo EP, John Mayer - The Search For Everything, K.Flay - Everywhere Is Somewhere, Kweku Collins - grey EP, Little Dragon - Season High, Mary J. Blige - Strength of a Woman, Mila J - Dopamine, Nappy Roots - Another 40 Akerz, Nef The Pharaoh - The Chang ProjectThe New Pornographers - Whiteout ConditionsNJOMZA - sad for you, Saudin - Before I Met You EP, Shamir - Hope, Talib Kweli & Styles P - The Seven, Trombone Shorty - Parking Lot Symphony, Wale - SHINE

Not Feeling:

COIN - How Will You Know If You Never Try, Young M.A. - Herstory EP

rent [movie] summarized
  • seasons of love: ooooh THATS what this song is from !
  • rent: apparently these ppl don't understand paying rent is part of fucking life? but okay?
  • you'll see: boi u beTrAyed Usss now we gotta pay rent, which is part of life but we don't wanna do it !1!1!
  • one song glory: Rodger just can't write one fucking song and it's pathetic
  • light my candle: k r they really talking about candles ??
  • today 4 u: angel is perfection and she is too good for this world you can't argue with me on this she's adorable and this song is adorable fight me
  • tango maureen: so joanne + mark are just like incapable of understanding maureen is an independent bisexual woman so their bitch ass complains
  • life support: u can do dis bby u got aids but u ok bby I believe in u
  • out tonight: freaking hoe anthem this is the sOng to HOE TO stRip To ThiSss
  • another day: rodger has fuckin baggage and he's fucking rude tbh
  • will i: awe bby
  • santa fe: deadbeats can dream, can't we?
  • i'll cover you: collins and angel are too good for this movie they are literally perfect they don't deserve this
  • over the moon: whAt theE aCtUAl FuCK??????111111!!!!!!
  • la vie boheme: lIt
  • i should tell you: we both got issues but let's coMbINe our issues and date cause that's just sO healthy !!
  • la vie boheme b: lIt pt.2
  • seasons of love b: it's abt to go downhill kids
  • take me or leave me: apparently strong women who are naturally flirtatious and also bisexual NEED TO be like??? super careful and always cater to their overprotective lover???? but that's none of MY business :))
  • without you: idk man this is just depressing cause mimi is messed up and rodger isn't emotionally there enough to help her.
  • i'll cover you [reprise]: anGel ANd COllINs dId nOooT deSerVe ThIs !1!!/!- THESE Sfucking IDIOTS are out Living LIDE and being fucKin duMbassEs and aNGel, toO pure fOr tHis World, dIes iM fucKing dOne tHis is FuckEd UPPP
  • halloween: this is p sad i mean he's realizing things and it's almost been a year wow ??
  • goodbye love: i don't even know it's like they all hate themselves and everyone else they are all so fucked up I'm
  • what you own: this song is such a waste of time like rodger goes to santa fe then comes back all in one song it was such a waste I don't understand
  • finale a: mimi is dying whoops
  • your eyes: i finally did a thing but ur dying lol whOOps
  • finale b: aw jk I'm here for now but I'm lowkey abt to die ahaA we good fam we good
  • love heals: this whole fuckin musical is messed up but it's amazing bye
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this is how they survive. they paint the world full of shadows and then tell their children to stay close to the light. their light. their reasons, their judgments.
because in the darkness, there be dragons.
but it isn’t t r u e.

Hi :) reminder in light of recent events :)) do not out your friends :))) without their permission :))) if someone doesnt want other ppl to know theyre trans :)) or gay :)) or whatever :))) dont fuckin do it!!! you could literally ruin their lives!!! do not!! do it!!! and if someone ELSE outs them and ur there??? be a good human being :)) and tell them that they’re being a sack of shit and they have no right to comment on or about that persons personal life :)) and also u r allowed to add a ‘fuck you’ :)) thank u have a nice day i hate my entire life

time to be g

GDI time to be sappy for a moment and i’m usually awful at these things but dear god

it’s been (wait one minute while i check my archivesd\ and count on my fingers) 5 months since i entered this community, and in those 5 months i met the sweetest kindest and nurturing people ever ?! i started out with the modest motivation of improving my art and practicing stylization but what i found was such a loving and adorable community. i really haven’t had this much of a blast in a community/fandom/mob in terest(??) in forever !!! so, to quote our founding forefathers here’s to hoping for more good days 🎉🎉🎉

some special mentions under the cut b/c we Must Increase One More Tier Soft (super sorry for the spam fuc )

Keep reading

A day in the life of Sam's inbox, part two

11:35 AM: Hi baby bro i’m on my way home from the hunt r u at the motel?

12:01 PM: Sam u should really put those panties on that we bought last month ;)

12:05 PM: And maybe that plug u picked up back in NV

12:06 PM: The black one, just in case u were wondering

12:45 PM: I’m only texting when i am at a red light btw

12:52 PM: I miss u and can’t wait to see u cause i think u r so sexy

12:53 PM: Ok, that one was a little corny but it’s true

12:56 PM: I’m stopping at the store to get salad for u i know u like rabbit food

1:01 PM: I luv u Sammy, see ur cute ass soon

part one

anonymous asked:

Hello and thank you to both the new and old admins for all your hard work! Are there perhaps any new preggo!soo fics any pairing is fine, and I've already read all the ones previously recced in mpreg. */u\*

Hope you’ll like thse :) - Admin R

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a summer playlist with everything you could ever want for every adventure you could ever go on
A playlist featuring The Chainsmokers, DJ Snake, Tep No, and others


Tracklist:

Close My Eyes (Don Diablo Edit) - Corderoy
Drive - Jai Wolf
We Come - Boehm
Waiting For Love - Avicii 
Not That Simple (Kyle Tree Remix) - Mike Posner
Breathe - Seeb
California Dreamin (Calvo Remix) - Freischwimmer
Panama City Beach - Pink Slip
Capsize - Frenship
Summer - Marshmello
Is It Love - 3LAU
Silence - Don Diablo
Golden Light - Madden
Visions (Boehm Remix) - Cheat Codes
Realise (Two Can Remix) - Carmada
Show Me Love (EDX Remix/Radio Edit) - Sam Feldt
Waited Too Long - 90 Pounds of Pete
Say It - Flume
Chasin’ You (Extended) - Supermans Feinde
Marathon - Lost Kings
Freak - R3hab
Oasis - Kygo
Back In The Day - De Hofnar
Kings of Summer - ayokay 
Full Circle - Quinn XCII
Troubles - Imad Royal
Stargazing - Jus Jack
Where I Wanna Be - A R I Z O N A
Paradise (Boehm Remix) - Josef Salvat
Getting Away - Vindata
Raging - Kygo
Feel Good Inc. - filous
Colors (Sam Feldt Remix) - Halsey
I Wanna Know - Alesso
Darling - Said the Sky
Dancer (Kygo Remix) - Didrik Thulin
I Got U - Duke Dumont
Give It Up - Jack Wins
Serious - Kygo
WHERE THE HELL ARE MY FRIENDS - Lany
Weekend - Mac Miller, Miguel
LA Confidential - Tory Lanez
9 - Drake
I’m Ready - Skizzy Mars
Round Whippin - A.CHAL
GUD VIBRATIONS (Instrumental) - NGHTMRE, SLANDER
Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap
Loud Pipes - Ratatat 
Your Soul - Hippie Sabotage
Always (Wave Racer Remix) - Panama
Too Good - Drake
Inside Out - The Chainsmokers
Dream - Autograf 
Nothing Left - Kygo
Coming Over (filous Remix) - Hersey
Flame (Roosevelt Remix) - Sundara Karma
Water - Ra Ra Riot
How Hard I Try - filous
Hiding - San Holo
Sleepless (Radio Edit) - CAZZETTE 
Feel So Close (Radio Edit) - Calvin Harris (shoutout 2012)
Isla (Aevion Remix) - Felon
Talk To Me - Rainer + Grimm
Ocean Drive - Duke Dumont
Roses (King Arthur Remix) - The Chainsmokers
It Isn’t Mine - Slaptop
Burn Fast (Louis Vivet Remix) - Bryce Fox
Beautiful Heartbeat (Deorro Remix) - MORTEN
Emotional - Flux Pavilion
Without You (Vindata Remix) - ODESZA
Insane - Flume
Six A.M. - PANTyRAID
Cocaine Model - Zhu
Free My Mind (RAC Remix) - Katie Herzig
People - Kav Verhouser
Alcoholics - Skizzy Mars
High You Are (Branchez Remix) - What So Not
Never Be Like You - Flume
Sun Models - ODESZA
Gemini (Ekali Remix) - What So Not
Bob Marley - Grizfolk
Say a Prayer for Me - RUFUS DU SOL
Closer Than This - St. Lucia
I’m In Love - Kygo
Turn Me On - ID
Show Me - Marc E. Bassy
Girls Like U - Blackbear
Change Up - Yung Jules
Throwback (feat. Bueller) - Ashton Harris
Ego - Tove Stryke
Real Love (The Chainsmokers Remix) - Clean Bandit
What You Waiting For - Gazzo
Maybe - Carmada
With You (Daniel Richard Remix) - Jupiter Project
Middle - DJ Snake
Tropic Love - The Diviners
Addicted To You - Avicii
Atmosphere - Kaskade
If Only (Remix) - PatrickReza
Want U 2 (Marshmello & Slushii Remix) - Marshmello
Hold On, We’re Going Home - Drake
Lay It All on Me - Rudimental
Like An Animal - RUFUS DU SOL
Just - Couzare
Magnets (SG Lewis Remix) - Disclosure
Here For You - Kygo
Warm - SG Lewis
Wicked Games - Parra for Cuva
Bad, Bad, Bad (Matt DiMona Remix) - LANY
HyperParadise (Flume Remix GANZ FLIP) - Hermitude
White Lies - ODESZA
Music In You - Sebastien 
Together As One (Radio Edit) - Dropgun
From Me to You - Yolanda Be Cool
Basically, I - Robert Delong
Care - R3hab
Alone - Marshmello
Sleep, For The Weak! (Lost Frequencies Remix) - Lea Rue
New York City - The Chainsmokers
Feeling Right - Matoma
Chemistry - Rawch
No Role Modelz - J. Cole
My Love For You (Radio Edit) - RAI
Running Out - Matoma
Once in a While - Timeflies
Oceans - tyDI
Lush Life - Zara Larsson
Metaphysical - Autograf
In The Morning - Zhu
Able to See Me - Hippie Sabotage
Lana Del Dre - Tep No
The Way You Want Me - Lucky Rose
Count On You - Autoerotique
With You - Embody
Drunk & I’m Drunk - Marc E. Bassy
Payday - Derek Pope
ILYSB - Lany
Drama (feat. Drake) - Roy Woods
Genghis Khan (Louis The Child Remix) - Miike Snow
When To Love You - Andrew Luce
Stay - Kygo
Borderline (Vanic Remix) - Tove Stryke
Until You Were Gone (Boehm Remix) - The Chainsmokers
Faded - Alan Walker
Takes My Body Higher - Shoffy
Can’t Have (Ape Drums Remix) - Steven A. Clark
Ocean Drive (Shaun Frank Remix) - Duke Dumont
Fragile - Kygo
In The Arms Of A Stranger (Brian Keirulf Remix) - Mike Posner
Thunder Clatter - Wild Cub
Wild Sun - The Strumbellas
Night Dive - Mount Dreams
I Don’t Care - LANY
More - Jan Blomqvist
Thankful - Feki 
+ more to be added! 

photo isn’t mine obviously

I guess I never understood.
True pain, true remorse, true sorrow.
People have spoken sad stories about how a beautiful life has been destroyed, and their tears never effected me.
People have talked about different ways to destroy yourself. 
Drinking, drugs, and more than I care to name.
There is only one subject all people carelessly leave out that will tear you apart from the inside out.
It’s the deadliest of all destructions, and the drinking only follows in its path.
This destruction has a pulsing heart and emerald green eyes that shine with gold specks underneath the suns glory.
This destruction has dimples and eyelashes that flutter softly when he blinks.
This kind of destruction kisses you softly, and it is never a sudden hurt that washes upon a soul.
It’s a slow, gradual pain that continues to stain your heart and wisdom.
It’s feeling blissful and euphoric.
Happiness breeds sorrow, and that’s why it is so deadly.
One will never see it’s appearance until they remember all they used to have. They will never realize their heart has fallen apart until the pieces tear them up, leaving bleeding wounds.
Only when they are numb and their mind is void will they realize what they have done to themselves.
Drinking never felt this way, the impact was minuscule.
A fun night, a headache the next day, and then I moved on with my life.
Not now.
I’ll carry the burden of all that is, and all that could have been deep within me. Deep within the darkest part of my soul that whimpers for rays of light.
Drinking and drugs ruined my life, but falling in love ruined my life more.
—  d e s t r u c t i o n ; gabriella