cornball friends since you both said dogs were your favorite animals on the first day of middle school and everyone else was like ‘sharks, cats, tigers, blah blah blah’ but u and mingyu were firmly like dogs. dogs r the best
kinda ended up being class clowns without even trying everyone knows you guys are always losing stuff, tripping over stuff, and ofc arguing over who is the more dorky person
and middle school turned to high school where everyone was convinced you were going to date each other
because you’re the dog loving clutzs who would always buy ice cream for each other on the way home no matter how many arguments u had in class when u were kids
but high school,,,,,,also meant mingyu getting taller and hotter and less dorky more ,,,,,social
until you were sure he had a friend group too big,,,,,too big with no room left for you
and you didn’t take it to heart,,,you can’t be middle school friends forever waiting for each other outside the school gates making fun of mingyu for spilling ice cream on his overalls and then him pinching your nose in defense
nope you both were seniors now and no one thought of you guys as the dog loving couple anymore,,,,,,,tbh you’d kind of become estranged
what with mingyu suddenly being considered one of the most handsome boys,,,,,,becoming close with the other heartthrob of the school wonwoo and even star athlete minghao
so at some point you made your own other friends,,,a new circle of people,,,,,,and every now and then one of your friends would jokingly point out mingyu surrounded by admirers and tease like “wasn’t he your boyfriend in middle school?”
that is until summer comes around and everyone is nervous for graduation
and you find yourself trying to clean out your locker only to find an old dusty photo in a notebook of you,,,,and mingyu,,,,,hands around each others shoulders when he was still your height,,,,,
and you smile sadly but tuck it into your bag only to close your locker and get slightly shocked to see mingyu leaning against the one beside yours
a coy smile on his face,,,,,which is more handsome than ever and you want to say you hate it but you don’t,,,,,,,you never could
and you’re like “yes?” and he’s like “i found something cleaning my locker out too.” and you’re like ????
only to see him pull out a photo from his pocket,,,,the same one you’d just found and you give him a look of confusion
and mingyu laughs and is like “did you think i wouldn’t have it? this is my favorite photo of us,,,,,,because we don’t have any together from high school,,,,”
and u bite back ur tongue from being like well why do u think that is but u just shrug and say u need to go
when you feel his hand on your wrist and ur like ?? and he’s like “i,,,,,do you want to get ice-cream with me?”
and for a moment you’re sure he’s joking but you see the flicker of hopefulness in his eyes that you remember he’d have when u two were young
and somehow you can’t say no,,,,,,and you guys end up walking out of school and toward a truck near a park where mingyu orders his favorite flavor and yours from memory
and when he hands u the one u ,,,, go “you remembered?” and he laughs like ofc,,,,,i remember everything. when we met and u said ur favorite animal was a dog like me and everyone else said we were boring. that time u tripped over my foot in six grade and i laughed so hard i ended up tripping over a jump rope on the floor. oh - that time you got ice cream on your overalls on a trip to the zoo-”
“the ice-cream on overalls was you mingyu, not me”
he scrunches up his nose and is like “nooooo it was totally you” and you giggle like nope ! i never owned overalls,,,,but you did
and mingyu seems to freeze and reevaluate his whole life in this spot which just makes you laugh a bit harder
and as you continue walking,,,,,mingyu and you share more memories and it’s like,,,,,you never stopped being friends????
but sitting on the swings in the park,,,,you think that did it happen - did you stop being friends?
and mingyu tells u ur cone is melting but u just look at him and quietly,,,,, “why weren’t we close in high school?”
mingyu seems taken aback,,, but at the same time his face softens and he looks down
and even tho mingyu’s grown to be so big and strong for a second he looks so small,,,,,and sad there
and before u can tell him to forget the question he raises his head and goes
“because you stopped looking at me.”
and you’re like ?????? what and he straightens up and is like “when we got to high school,,,,all these people wanted to be my friend,,,,,,and it was nice but when id see you,,,,,,,id smile and look but you’d,,,,never look back at me,,,,,,,i thought - i thougt you’d found out,,,,,”
and ur like ??? found out what????
and mingyu swallows looking off to the side,,,his profile pretty in the summers setting sun
and then he says something you never thought you’d hear
“i thought you found out that i like you,,,,,,”
and ur like wait?????? you like me????? and mingyu blinks,,,
because yeah,,,,,,,,he likes you
he’s liked you since middle school and everyone knew and the first year of high school everyone said you two would date - because wasn’t he being obvious
and ur like ????? no????? and mingyu is like gkfhsd was i supposed to get down on one knee with 5000 roses for u to know???
and ur like WELL,,,,,,you never i never admit these things but im kinda dense ok mingyu you know this ,,,,
and he’s like wELL im dENSE TOO I THOUGHT YOU WERE AVOIDING ME THROUGHOUT HIGH SCHOOL
and you’re like NO????? I JUST?????
and you’re both like ???????? @ each other because
ofc,,,,,just like in middle schools you guys are two blubbering clumsy kids except this time not like literally,,,,,but emotionally
and mingyu finally settles himself and is like,,,,,,,,well now you know,,,,coughs
and ur like i do,,,,,,,,
and he’s like w,,,well what do you think???
and u think for a second before moving your swing closer,,,, leaning toward mingyu to press a kiss near the side of his lips
and he’s like ?????? does this mean you like me too-
and ur like oh no there was just some ice cream there and i wanted to eat it
mingyu: are you kidding, are you seriou-
you: nO oh my god yes i like you too ,,,,,,
mingyu: ok good u need to be more direct obviously we’re both oblivious as heck
you:,,,,,,true but also you did have some ice cream there -
i can never tell if i think im subhuman garbage due to almost 2 decades of abuse from every angle or if its because i actually? am? like should i hate my abusers? should i hate myself? should i just hate both myself and my abusers & live out a vicious destructive pattern of self-loathing and irrational anger over events in my life that were (maybe?) completely out of my control? ???
me, riding in on heely's and smoking a blunt:
hey would all of u mind taking a look at your collective internalized hatred of all lesbians (including trans/nb ones ) and why you feel the need to hate every single thing lesbians do with absolutely no critical thought as to why you feel and act that way lmao thanks
Since you're obviously not an Army I'm gonna ask you to stop using their pictures as your memes. It's disrespectful when you're obviously using them to make fun of them and it's rude? Like we get, oh you're an exp fan, get over yourself. Use their crusty memes insyead.
okay but……. like not to be………. anti-canon or anything…………… but all these canons keep like……….. interacting with my posts and…………………………….. it just makes me so uncomfortable like……………………. I’m canon friendly but can u like………… ask me about interacting first?????????????????????? thanks okay ily <3 :*