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“Okay, enough with the bad sound effects.”

*I didn’t know how to spell out most of what Hunk said, so I checked the episode transcript online, hoping to get an idea but…

MYTH LOKI-PSA!!! ( written with one hand at 5:30 in the morning)

Loki ( or rather Loke/Loptr/Hveðrungr) as in the original Norse god, was many things you might not know. Here are a few of them:

-gender fluid
-pansexual
-a mother
-intersex

These things are not tumblr inventions, or Marvel inventions (both is fine on it,s own and I am a huge marvel fan, and I love tumblr etc). Marvel doesn’t acknowledge most of these points. This is the original mythology/Edda Loki.

Gender fluid:
He loved to transform and transcend between genders. He also practiced magic, which was seen as ergi/womanly ( Ergi might loosely translate as “gay”, in the sense of being “unmanly -__- . though Odin did the same and used magic, he wasn’t seen as ergi ). There are different accounts of him walking around as a woman for pure fun, enjoying male attention etc. - transformation was very much his "thing”!

Pansexual:
Loki had a lot of sex, with any kind of living being ( and trees, and rocks 👌🏻). He didn’t care if it was man, woman or in between or neither. He was known to be sexually hungry, adventurous and daring. He had several affairs, casual sex and two devoted wives, over the cause of his life.

A mother:
Loki fathers children, but he also gave birth to officially one, but potentially more. In different versions of the myths, he might have given birth to a few of his monster children ( he is known as the “mother of monsters”).
They are most commonly told to be his giant wives children, but there are very old untranslated poems and stories where he is giving birth to a few of them. While that is debatable, he did birth Sleipnir the horse.
While people try to say Loki was raped by the stallion, the original Prosa Edda and early poems actually never say he didn’t enjoy being a female horse or the interaction with the stallion. It’s said that him sand the stallion had “such dealings” that he fell pregnant. That’s open to interpretation in my opinion. He wasn’t “raped by a horse”, he was a female horse himself at that point. If you see Loki as a cis male, it might feel odd to think he might not dislike what happens with the stallion. But if you know Loki was gender fluid and sexually very adventures, it’s suddenly a lot less weird or unimaginable. He might not have planned for that encounter, because he only wanted to distract the horse, but there is no real statement that he totally hated everything that happened. I mean, being in a mare-mindset and all? BUT it’s all up to personal opinion, and it’s fine to believe one thing or the other.

Intersex:
Loki as a giant ( or half giant) was most likely intersex.
The Jotnar of Jotunheimr were giants known to have both male and female genitalia, according to many versions of north mythology ( not just the Edda, but other myths and retellings too). They birthed an sired children alike, so when speaking of Lokis mother or father, it doesn’t mean them being male or female, rather if they had given birth to him or not.
There are different giants in the Edda with strikter gender presentation. But when it comes to the Jotuns/Jotnar of Jotunheimr, they were intersexual beings.
There are different versions of Lokis origin ( we ignore marvels silly attempt to make him Odins adopted son. They were blood brothers!), in some he is presented as a half-Jotun, in other just as a normal giant.
But half or full-giant, he was most likely just as intersexual as the other giants in the myths. Most likely!


These are some points people might not know about him. I researched a lot over the years, even talked to a danish Loki-expert who works with Viking museums in Denmark and Sweden. If you never heard of these things about him, please don’t just disregard these details about Loki and his rich history. It’s what MAKES him Loki.


Loki is a character that’s very often debated in depth, to the point where some people even debate if he was truly a Norse god, or if he was later written into the Edda by Christian translators to create a negative character like the devil/Lucifer. Or if he was real, but twisted to appear in a more negative light. ( I chose to believe he was an original character in the myths/religion of the Vikings, not a Christian invention )
But no matter what or who Loki was ( or is), he sure wasn’t a typical god. And I love that!
Got more cool Loki-facts? Please share!!!!!
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P.S.
Excuse typos, or that I didn’t post sources. This was a passion-post. Sourcing all the research I did for over 6 years, back before 2011, mostly offline , with experts/professors, as well as online, would mean I have to find really old links, scan books and articles I don’t have near me and call back people. HOWEVER, all this is 100% based on actual sources and not on tumblr or fan-canons or Marvel. I’d like to actually turn this into an article/master post or at best a video with sources and maybe even experts writing stuff for it. If anyone is interested in making this a group project - I have opened a Facebook research group for it! please join!   Facebook. com/ groups/ 255763984909514/

P.P.S.
Please feel free to add to this, or correct anything you feel was left out or presented incorrectly (if you DO please SOURCE your claims!). I mean no offence to anyone with this post, it was written out of love for the subject. I don’t mean to offend anyone believing otherwise, or like whatever religion etc. But this is my religion too, and I identify strongly with Loki because of all these facts that make him so appealing to.
Also just to note, I am aware that Loki isn’t like “a cinnamon roll” or “a cute bae” that needs saving, etc. I don’t try to make him look good or use him for my personal agenda. This is my personal inclusion from years of research. I want to source all my claims, but for that I need time. again, if you have sources for other cool facts, or for the things I’ve stated, please share share share!

anonymous asked:

What's the best way to get an agent?

Getting a literary agent

In order to get a publisher, you need to find an agent. A few publishers will consider writers with no agents, but the typical submission route sees an agent pitching your work to publishers.

Who are agents?

Agents are experts in the book business. They consider hundreds of books a day, choose a few promising clients a year and try to pitch their work to publishers. If you did get an agent he/she is your best bookish friend! Agents are experts who believe in your book. Treat them fairly and don’t expect them to be you biatch. Their job is pitching to publishers, not advertise your book (nor edit or listen to you whine). Know what to expect.

Originally posted by tingeofgiiinge

What do agents do?

They select authors as clients and try to get them good deals with publishers. They are paid when the writer is paid. Never give money to anyone to read your work! A serious agent would never ask for money.What don’t agents do? They don’t advertise your book, they don’t edit, they don’t cook for you, nor look after your children.

How do I get an agent?

To get an agent you have to write a query letter. In fact, on average, you have to write about 100 queries to find an agent, and that is only if your book is prime stuff. An alternative is to take part in “pitching competitions” like PitMad on twitter or attending a writers’ pitch conference.

How do I select which agent is right for me?

Don’t flood all the literary agents of the world at once. Choose two or three who published books you liked and are similar to yours. If you can’t think of any, you should probably be spending more time reading before you consider publishing.  Check AgentQuery to find agents open to submissions in your genre. Do some research on them, make sure they are a good fit and be ready for rejection.

How do I deal with rejection?

Dismiss it. It’s part of the job and it’s good for big egos. Finding an agent is like finding a soulmate, all you need is one. BUT, if after ten queries nobody asked for a partial of your manuscript, you might want to question if there is something wrong with your query or if you’re pitching for the wrong genres. Alternatively, it could be that your project is “high risk” or not “mainstream” enough, in which case most agents will not take a chance. I personally think that high risk projects are awesome: go indie and publish yourself!

Originally posted by coralineseye

So, how do I write a query?

This is a quick guide on what is a query letter and how to write one to successfully pitch your novel to a literary agent or, less commonly, to a publisher.

Before I say anything about query letters let me disclaim that most of what I learnt comes from the infinite wisdom of Her Holiness the Query Shark, a successful agent dedicated to help hapless, unexperienced writers. Study her website and see plenty examples of failure and success, rejoicing at her snarky sense of humor.

What is a query letter?

A query letter is a short missive (typically an e-mail) that pitches your book in 200-300 words. Don’t go over 400 words, it should fit in one page. A query letter will be likely the hardest thing you will ever write.

What elements should be in a query letter?

A query should answer the following questions:

1-Why did you select this agent?

Successful agents receive about 100 queries a day. Never write “Dear Agent” (guaranteed click-delete response). Agents want to know why you think they are a good fit for you. If you are thinking this is not your job but theirs, you’re better off indie publishing. Ask yourself how many agents are banging on your door right now and how many writers are banging at any one agent’s door. Got the picture? Good. Now do research on your agent. Good lines would be: “you represent this other book (pertinent book similar in style or genre to yours) so I thought…” or “You are seeking books in this genre so…” To find information about your agent of choice, start with AgentQuery, then check the specific agent’s website and any interviews online. Sometimes you might want to go as far as to check their twitter feed or search for videos. Yes, it is a lot of work and a time drain.

2- What is your book about?

You are a writer. SHOW, DON’T TELL! Never say “this is a great story” or “this is the best book you will ever read”, “this is the next bestseller” etc… SHOW THEM!  Start with the conflict. Don’t tell them everything, just enough for them to want to read more, possibly getting a feel for your voice.

3- Why are YOU qualified to tell this story?

Are you writing a book about the Vietnam war and you’re a fifteen-year-old Italian? Well, good luck pitching that. You will have to explain why you think you are qualified, and why you are in a unique, privileged position to tell that story.

In general: You only have 200-300 words, choose them well.

1. Avoid clichés; you are a word crafter. Still, don’t overdo it! Verbose queries are not good. Use your style.

2. No typos, you hear me? None.

3. Be professional. It’s really difficult to get the tone of an e-mail or letter sometimes. Avoid jokes and confusing double meanings.

4. Be respectful. Start with Dear Miss Amman (just an example, by golly, I’m not an agent!) Most agents don’t care if you call them by their first names, but some really hate it. They are professionals and they don’t know you. Play it safe.

5. Don’t beg. If you don’t think your book is awesome, nobody will. (Avoid things like “I have been sick” “I have fifteen children” “I barely sleep” “Forgive the typos”).

6. Don’t boast. Be confident, but professional. If you have some facts that can help you list them clearly.

7. Don’t state the obvious. “I would be glad to provide a full manuscript upon request.” Of course you would be. Finish with “Thank you for your time” or similar.Essential info to include: the title of your manuscript ALL CAPITALS, the word count (approximate to the closest 5,000), the genre, your signature with your full REAL name, address and phone number.

BEWARE!

-Check for specific guidelines on each agent’s webpage! Some will go as far as to tell you what type to use. All will specify if they want a partial with the query (typically the first three chapters pasted in the body of the e-mail).

-Send no attachments unless specifically asked. It’s the fastest way to the garbage bin. They fear viruses and will never open an e-mail with unsolicited attachments (signatures, files, anything).-Separate your paragraphs, so that your e-mail is not a scary block of text. Happy querying :D

GBA

PS
I compiled this and more advice on a free writer guide you can get from my blog. Click here to check it out. No, it’s not a scam. Yes, I’m a real published author.

defiantlilsheep  asked:

I was wondering if you'll give me your opinion on this. As a writer, say for example there's certain hard fact that you may have gotten wrong (like maybe science stuff) and a reader points that out to u. How does that make you feel? Like generally, how does it feel when a reader points out a flaw or contributes criticism (mainly the constructive type). I hope I dont sound too rude...

Nope, you don’t sound rude at all @defiantlilsheep!! It’s an interesting question!

Short answer: It depends!

Mode of delivery, tone, and content matter a lot.

Mode of delivery: private message are preferable to criticisms or corrections left in public comments. If people are reading my fic, it’s either on LJ (which has a private messaging system), tumblr (which has a private messaging system) or AO3, where I link to my tumblr ask box at the end of my fic, so there’s not a logistical reason for people to choose the public route. So when people leave a comment like that on AO3 or wherever else, it sometimes feels like a callout or like it’s more about them showing off what they know than trying to reach out to me and be helpful. Think of it this way: if you saw that someone had toilet paper stuck to their shoe, would it be better to tap them on the shoulder and whisper it in their ear so they can fix it quietly, or to make an announcement to everyone in the vicinity?

Tone: It’s hard to describe, but some messages or comments are clearly friendly and well-intentioned and some read as smug and condescending. As you might imagine, that makes a big difference in how it feels to get the comment!

Content: Hard facts and typos, yes. A comment about hard facts is different than a flaw or criticism more generally, though. If there’s something factually wrong, I want to know (preferably in a private message, from someone who’s genuinely being friendly and trying to help). Ditto typos. I want to know! And generally feel momentary exasperation with myself and gratitude to the person who’s pointed it out for giving me the chance to fix it before other people see it. But the broader stuff….there’s a good chance I don’t want to hear about it bc:

  1. if the story is out in the world, the odds that I’m going to change something other than a hard fact or typo are slim, so if you’re telling me there’s something wrong with the story that’s just gonna stress me out and feel shitty.
  2. giving constructive criticism takes skill and practice, and reading a lot of fic is not the same thing as learning how to workshop fiction; tbh a lot of readers don’t know how to give criticism that’s really constructive, and will leave comments that say things like “that twist was obvious” or “that was heavy handed” or “that dialogue was bad” without explaining (without knowing how to explain?) exactly what made that obvious or heavy-handed or bad. At that point it’s not concrit, it’s just telling me why you thought something was crappy. It’s only concrit if it’s constructive, if it’s teaching me something new or helping make me a better writer, and maaaybe .01% of “constructive” comments do that.
  3. the line between a flaw in the story and a matter of personal taste gets reallllll blurry for some people. There’s one commenter who comes to mind who, across multiple stories, only comments about whether the “right” person bottomed and sometimes about whether Ginny and/or Pansy were the “right” amount of bitchy. That is not constructive. Reading a story that doesn’t jibe with your headcanons doesn’t make the story bad, it just means you see things differently. But I’ve gotten a fair number of comments that are just about how readers would have preferred a different way of writing X event/character/sex scene, and that is annoying af. It’s fanfic! If you want something done differently, write it yourself!
  4. some commenters hide behind the idea of “constructive criticism” and use it as an excuse to be dicks. “Your story sucked it was flat and cardboard, bad sex, no feeling, wish I had my time back, you shouldn’t write more.” “That was really mean! If you don’t like it, stop reading!” “Why are you being so sensitive, jeez, it’s constructive criticism!” Like, buddy. My non-friend. My non-pal. Nothing about that is constructive, you’re just venting your shit all over my inbox.

tl;dr:

  • Corrections on typos and hard facts (like, scientific facts, dates, etc. that you’re going to include a source for) are welcome and appreciated
  • Preferably in a polite private message 
  • Your headcanons/preferences/kinks/power trips/mean feels disguised as concrit are not welcome, in a private message or otherwise

But! I know I differ from some other authors in this, and would be interested to hear what other people think!!

NH Week Day One - Gifts

Special Delivery

Modern AU
Rating:
T (for language)
Words: 3295
A/N: This is the first NH prompt I’ve written in what feels like forever. I won’t be participating in every prompt this week but I’ll definitely promise you at least three. Hope you enjoy (it’s one of my favorites I’ve written for these two.)

Hinata, no.”

“Really, it’s fine.” She insisted, anxiously fiddling with the ends of her hair. “I want you guys to—“ holding the phone away from her face momentarily, Hinata waited for her coughing fit to pass before inhaling deeply, pressing her phone against her cheek once more, “I want you guys to have fun.”

But it’s your birthday!” Ino all but shouted into the phone. Hinata winced, holding the phone away from her ear slightly. “What kind of friends would we be if we went out without the birthday girl?!

She bit back a laugh. “Don’t worry about it. Trust me, you’re going to have a lot more fun without me.”

Bullshit,” Sakura grumbled. Hinata could only imagine the two girls wrestling back and forth over Ino’s phone. “We only have the most fun when we’re all together.”

Exactly. Who is going to hold Forehead’s hair back now when she inevitably drinks herself sick? I’m not doing it.”

Hinata couldn’t help but smile upon hearing Sakura mutter something in the background that sounded like ‘fuck off Pig’. And when she could hear the two start bickering she couldn’t hold back her laugh.

“I’m serious you two. Go out, have fun. I’ll be here, drinking soup and watching Netflix.”

But how am I supposed to give you your gift!?” Ino whined, her attention back to her phone.

“You can give it to me when I see you guys on Saturday for your New Year’s Eve party!”

But then it won’t be your birthday anymore,” Hinata could hear the pout over the phone and had to sigh.

She should’ve known they would’ve protested as much as they were currently. She understood to an extent. It wasn’t that she was too sick to go out—she may have been exaggerating her up-and-coming cold that had notified her of its presence when she woke up that morning—but she was sick, and she did have to go to Ino’s party four days from now. If she went out tonight there was no way she’d be well enough to go to that.

Hinata wasn’t a big fan of drinking and parties—so she mainly went along with it all since most of her friend were—but if she had to choose when to do it, she’d rather be at her best. And two parties in one week would simply be too exhausting for her little introverted heart to take.

So if it meant skipping out on her own ‘birthday party’, she was alright with that.

“Go out. Have fun. Don’t get too drunk. I’ll see you two on Saturday and we’ll make up for the lost time then. Ino, you can give me your present then.”

A pair of giant, over-dramatic sighs were the only response she got.

Smiling, she continued, “Call your Uber and go have fun. I have a date with Netflix. Love you girls, see you Saturday.”

And as quickly as she could, as to not give them any further time to object, she held her breath and hung up the phone. She knew her best friends, and she knew that if she didn’t end the call, she’d likely be suckered into going regardless. She already felt a tad bit guilty for cancelling but reasoned with herself the same way her friends would.

It was her birthday, so realistically she could lay in bed all night if she wanted.

Letting out a deep breath, she laid back further on her bed and reached for her laptop.


Across town, two women—dressed to impress and with faces very carefully made up—frowned at each other across the couch they were sitting on.

The blonde sighed, turning her attention back toward her phone and sighed, idly tapping the blank touch-screen with carefully manicured fingers.

“So what?” Her pink-haired companion asked. “We still go out? That’s hardly an option now.”

The blonde was silent for a few more seconds before an idea struck her. Slowly, a wicked grin spread across her face.

“Oh no,” Sakura deadpanned. “I know that look. That’s not a good look. What’re you thinking of?”

She rolled her eyes, “It’s nothing bad. Wipe that look off your face, it’s ugly.”

Sakura huffed, blowing a carefully curled piece of hair out of her face. “Alright fine. What’s the plan?”

Ino simply grinned wider, “We send her gift to her.”

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KNOWING YOUR PARTNER CAN POTENTIALLY
MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.

REPOST. DON’T REBLOG.

– BASICS.

NAME: Blue or Bluebird
PRONOUNS: She/Her I am a femala
•  SEXUALITY: I like nice guys with facial hair
 TAKEN OR SINGLE: Lookin’ for a gentleman bc I am too busy in life to deal with any less

– THREE FACTS.

  • I have been trying to do art since I was like ten and I’m proud of the progress I’ve made in improving, but I still have a lot to learn
  • I enjoy making ppl happy, whether through writing or fluff or just being my usual corny dorky self (if you have talked to me through IMs much you know what I mean, also thank you for putting up with my tyPOS)
  • Me not responding to anything instantly ever does not mean I am intentionally ignoring you I just get distracted vERY EASILY and forget, or in the case of asks/rps, if I don’t have a good reply to give you I’m not going to give you a half attempted one I just can’t do th at

– EXPERIENCE.

•   HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?): IM RLY NOT SURE, but it’s been about 5 years specifically here on tumblr and I was rping years before that
•   PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED: g osh idk man I’ve been everywhere from some adoptable forums like squiby and chickensmoothie (I used to be very into such fkjhd not anymore tho I have rl pets who are far more fun and important) to deviantart rp groups, and of course here
•   BEST EXPERIENCE: Here. Don’t get me wrong, I hate that tumblr keeps updating and wrecking things (i remember when asks weren’t even rebloggable liSTEN i have been here that long), but the friendships I’ve made here have lasted unlike anywhere else. Tumblr itself is a pain, but all of my partners are wonderful I adore y oU

– MUSE PREFERENCES.

•   FEMALE OR MALE: I have played both genders, sometimes equal amounts in the past, but I seem to rp males more often, probably bc pre-tumblr rping I was often rping guys to make up for the drastically uneven number of males to females on forum rps and such, especially with ocs
•   FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: Fluff is my life I love platonic or romantic fluff, but I also know it needs balancing and I can do angst too just ask Katie while we’ve been working on Duke and Mallory’s backstory. As for smut… nnnnno thank you you keep it. If I am very comfortable with my partner, I do not mind rping some foreplay, -timeskip-, and the intimacy afterward, but that is all. My muses are always G-rated, so that in addition to my personal comfort is wh y dksjhd and I appreciate that most have respected this fully thus far
•   PLOTS OR MEMES: Both? Both is good. You need some silly along with serious~
•   LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: d epends on inspiration, sometimes small conversations say enough, sometimes there is extra feelings going on and I feel like writing more, I am a person who’s length tends to vary based on that which is why my replies can be shorter, the same, or longer than my partner’s previous reply
•   BEST TIME TO WRITE: NOT LATE AT NIGHT ramblings and plotting ooc happen then I can’t focus on quality r epliES, I am a blue bird not a night owl kjhfd
•   ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): There’s usually at least one or two things I have in common with my muses, but definitely not everything. For some examples: Dakota and I are both good and loving with animals; Duke and I are aware that the legal system does not always work and ppl with money can bribe power, although I am not willing to become a criminal that’s not the right route fkjh; both of them and I value respectfulness and are passionate about life in general.

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Well, I figure I should give you all an update on how I’m doing. In fact, this is the first time since I was released from the hospital that have felt like or was even capable of giving you an update. That’s because for the last three days, up until this afternoon, all I felt like doing was crawling into bed and dying. And I mean that very seriously.

But no worries. I’m doing much better now. I’m sure the road ahead will still have a few bumps to discover, but let’s hope the worst is behind me.

So after being admitted to the hospital, I given something of an overview of what my “regimen” of chemotherapy would look like. Now my primary doctor (one of apparently a dozen who have their hands on me in some way or another) had already told me that I would need to have a port installed in my chest. It would be device that would be under the skin, but would allow them to inject the chemo drugs into me without constantly having to stick me for an IV.

However, that would have to be skipped this time. One of the many negative side effects of chemotherapy is a significantly lowered immune system. For the next three months, with maybe some small breaks, I will essentially have to quarantine myself. Everything around me will need to be sanitized. Any infection whatsoever could put me at serous risk. And since the installation of this port is technically a surgery, it carries with it the risk of infection. Any surgery does, but normal bodies would be able to fight off such an infection. Mine won’t.

So instead of risking such an operation right before my immune system will be hit, they instead opted to install what’s called a PICC line. Somewhat like the port, it will allow them to draw blood and give me injections without sticking me for an IV. But the installation of it is slightly less invasive.

What happens is they lay you out on your bed, use an ultrasound machine to examine the inside of your upper arm, find a suitably large enough vein, and thread a line in that will travel through the vein all the way to your heart, into which the chemo drugs will be injected directly. The purpose for this contraption is to avoid injecting the drug directly into a vein. Apparently the drugs can be very rough on smaller veins, and straight out of the needle, it would be far too corrosive. But since the veins near your heart are thicker and tougher, they can stand it, and I suppose the drug is slightly diluted by blood by the time it reaches more sensitive areas.

That happened at 4:00 am on Wednesday morning. Go figure. Anyway, the next day is when they gave me the first big drug, although it wasn’t technically a true chemo drug. Basically it’s purpose was to trigger my body to begin attacking the tumors.

The next day is when the fun really begin. The first order of the day was a lumbar puncture (spinal tap). They drew a certain amount of cerebral spinal fluid out of my back, and injected an equal amount of one of the chemo drugs into its place. Then I had to lie on my back for two hours (ended up being more like three) to avoid what I was told would be the worst headache of my life.

So after I recovered from that, then came the next two. Both of these drugs were vesicants, meaning that if they got onto my skin, very bad things would happen. The first had to be injected manually over 15 minutes by the nurse, while the second could be allowed to drip on its own from a bag over the same duration. And the final drug also dripped on it’s own, but over 4 hours.

The next day saw the injection of only a single drug. Don’t remember much about that. But that is when the nausea really started to hit me. I lost my appetite completely. Nothing appealed to me. And even attempting to eat much of anything made me nearly vomit. So I stopped eating, which began a very bad downward spiral that led me into the situation I found myself in over the last three days.

The next day, Saturday, was to be my final day in the hospital for at least a few days. I had a second round of the drug that required a lumbar puncture for injection. But unlike the first time, where I was hooked up to an impressive array of machines which monitored me and placed in a very controlled environment, this time some young doctor and a nurse flew into my hospital room by the seat of their pants, slung me over my damned food tray, shot the drug into me, and told my a 30 minute lie down would be all that I needed. I was discharged from the hospital an hour later. The haste and frankly unprofessionalism with which this second LP was performed was due to the fact that the regular team who did it didn’t work on the weekends.

And so I was sent home. By the time I got there, my entire back was on fire, my head felt as though it was being split open, my stomach ached and wrenched from the lack of food, and yet i felt the constant urge to vomit.

The next morning the back pain was gone, but the headache had somehow gotten even worse, and could only be relieved by lying completely flat on my back. Any elevation whatsoever caused a difference in pressure that did indeed give me the worst headache of my life, as promised. The situation with my digestive system did not help either. I couldn’t move lest I invite horrible pain, and I also couldn’t eat lest I invite a terribly upset stomach. On the rare occasions when I did manage to get some food in me (think two saltine charters) I couldn’t lie down without bringing on terrible nausea. But I couldn’t sit up without my brain feeling like it was being ripped out of my skull.

You will believe me when I tell you that is the most miserable I have felt in my entire life. I literally wanted to die, rather than face it anymore. I knew chemotherapy would be rough, but nothing prepared me for that.

This situation lasted for two and a half days.

I could barely stand to eat because sitting up made me want to end my life, but I needed to in order to not starve to death. I was deadlocked, a vicious cycle of an inescapable headache and incurable nausea.

We had been told that the headache from the LP could potentially last two days, but that it should clear up on its own after that. Well it didn’t. The situation because so dire that my mother had to call the hospital back twice just to ask for any help at all. The first time we were told (by I believe the same hotshot who “performed” the second LP) that they could do what was called a “blood patch,” where they would draw out some amount of blood and inject it into my spinal column to even out the pressure. We began packing our bags, fully expecting to go back up the road that night. We were then contacted again by a nurse speaking for my primary doctor, who informed us that the blood patch would be an absolute last resort, as it could not only put me at risk for infection, but it could end up injecting cancerous cells directly into my spinal column, the exact opposite of the whole point of having these LPs in the first place.

I was told to drink plenty of fluids to keep my blood level high, which apparently would allow my body to fill in the spinal fluid on its own, and that I should also try drinking a little caffein.

This did not work, at first. I sucked down all the water I could, and even tried a little of my secret shame (Mnt. Dew), and neither helped. Neither did my nausea or extreme hunger abate, as I continued to struggle eating with all of this going on.

I had more than one emotional breakdown during these last few days. I came very close to losing hope entirely. But today we finally had a breakthrough. In one of the few moments I could maintain a stream of thought that included something other than pain and misery, I tried doing a little research on other people who had experienced a lasting headache after an LP. As it turns out, it could easily last more than two days, and you were to drink A LOT of caffein, not just a bit. So today, my mother pushed my (at my earlier request when I was for more lucid) to eat half a hotdog and drink a whole glass of Dr. Pepper (as the Mnt. Dew tasted absolutely disgusting to me now with my taste buds destroyed). It was a struggle, but I managed to get them both down, and then I lied down and waited it out.

Two hours later I was a different person. The headache was suddenly gone. The nausea was under control, and I was no longer on the brink of starvation.

You have no idea how lucky you are to be able to sit up and do anything when anything other than perfectly prone bed rest makes you want to die.

I’m finally starting to recover from this whole episode. I still have rough times ahead of me. There’s one more chemo drug I’ll receive on Saturday that I have yet to experience, as well as a repeat of one I have had before on Thursday. I have no idea if the other rounds of treatment will follow this one’s patter. I think that’s still to be determine. And the worst of the fatigue, a result in a dramatic drop in red blood cell counts, has yet to hit me. That’ll come near the start of next week.

But for now, I feel almost normal. And I can’t tell you how unbelievably grateful I am for that.

queenofpoorlifechoices  asked:

Hey! I just wanted to say that I really enjoyed "the uncle who works for nintendo." Out of all the games I've played so far this year, it's the one that's stuck with me the most. Just out of curiosity, why did you include male name options for the best friend? The game's commentary on misogyny and female friendships is what resonated the most with me personally, so I was surprised to find out that it's possible to potentially "miss" all of that by making the friend male.

This is a good question, and it’s a design decision I thought about quite a while.  The release of the game and some responses to it have allowed me to reflect on the effects of that decision, and I’m not sure it was the “correct” one, but I can at least provide my rationale.  Forgive me, but it’s a bit long.

An acquaintance of mine once explained the idea of privilege as consisting, 95% of the time, as not having to know something.  I think that’s a pretty accurate take.  So I decided the game could model that privilege, without the player necessarily being aware it was doing so.

This worked for my picture of the game because, as a young boy (I speak here from experience) you’re hyperaware of your overtly or implicitly competitive relationships with other boys, but not necessarily the ways in which you’re ostracizing young girls or being trained into a system that oppresses or excludes women.  As feminist critics would rightly point out, however, a young girl’s perspective is one in which you simultaneously compete with other women for resources and spots in a social hierarchy, while you also constantly encounter various barriers to action and threats to your person from men because of your gender.

I kept separate paths for both genders in the game because I wanted to be able to reflect that kind of parallax experience.  For both I wanted to explore the sort of subtle, self-degrading, passive-aggressive competitive bullshit I feel like commercial games culture propagates,  and I also wanted to situate that realistically within the experience of misogyny for young girls interested in games.

Now here’s where I have to admit that I made a gamble that in a lot of cases I don’t really think paid off.

In my previous games, I’ve had very little change based on player action or choice.  As I say in my author’s notes, it’s not a terribly interesting aspect of games or storytelling to me.  However, I’ve always included multiple paths that allow you to arrive at the same places.  This frustrates some players to no end, because they’ll retry the game and choose a different path and the endpoint will be the same.  But the fact that there was a choice to many players always implies difference, and I thought I could exploit that here.

Here’s what I thought would happen: players would be more likely to first choose a friend of the gender with which they most closely identified.*  After a playthrough or two, they would try choosing friends of different genders in the process of attempting to unlock different endings.

Now, what I hoped was the players who first chose male best friends (and, frankly, I bet these players were mostly men, and identify fairly strongly as such) would try a game with a female best friend, and suddenly confront an aspect of this situation that up until that moment they had been privileged enough not to see.

Responses I’ve read to the game, however, suggest many players who choose male best friends finish the game and aren’t even clued into the gender themes until they read my ending notes.  There are probably a few reasons for this.  First of all, you can indeed get all five endings (and the sixth, secret ending, and the author’s notes) with a friend of either gender.  So there are probably some folks who see that listed of [LOCKED] endings and jump right into power-gamer mode, discarding all choices that don’t seem to to tie directly to opening up new paths.

So, for one thing, it’s interesting that it’s so easy to assume that gender choice doesn’t in fact block off content.  I figured it would be obvious to try different genders as the player experimented in pursuing different endings, so much that I wouldn’t have to force it.

I think I was wrong.  But after all, in mainstream games what does the choice of gender really affect?  Most of the time, it’s who you can romance, but it never really seems to change the inflection of the entire plot.

So if I had to draw a conclusion here, it is that what I failed to really see was how utterly trivialized gender is by standard games, and how it would never occur to any given male player that playing as a woman might actually make a difference in what (or how) a game makes meaning.  Instead of explicitly deconstructing the privilege I set my sights on, I sorta feel like I gathered my firewood and forgot to strike the match.

In retrospect, there would have been plenty of ways to approach this problem: making an ending dependent on switching the friend’s gender if the initial choice was male, for instance, or making the author’s notes dependent on such a switch.  There are countless others.  The fact of the matter is, I did not provide players with any explicit impetus to explore gender options, and I feel like the game is weaker for it.

So the beast is out there in the world doing what it does, and it’s sort of imperfect in meeting the goals I’d wanted to achieve.  Rest assured I’m thinking through plans for an update (fix some typos, clarify some wording and paths, implement a new sound macro) and I am trying to devise good ways to address this issue.  I think most of the people who will ever play it have played it by this point, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be improved for anyone who encounters it later.

But finally, I am very glad the game resonated with you in its treatment of female friendships and the experience of misogyny.  It’s incredibly validating to hear women responding to my portrayals of these issues in such a strong way.  Despite the fact that I didn’t quite pull off what I wanted to, I’ve received dozens of responses from folks of all genders who felt like The Uncle Who Works for Nintendo made a place for them, or the children they used to be.  This has been one of the most affirming experiences of my life, both as an artist and as a feminist, and I really very sincerely thank you for your kind words, and hope that what I’ve said here answers your question in a way that doesn’t diminish that resonance.

*Gender is, if course, extremely complex and more than just binary.  But I’m only one person coding this whole thing and have limited knowledge, time, and resources.  I could not leave gender vague, or absent entirely — I knew it was something I wanted to tackle — and so I approached it and its issues specifically as they seemed to commonly manifest among 11-year-old children playing videogames in 1999.

Random Facts about Rookie Nine

(Warning: I have started writing this since 4:30 am here. I just wake up when I was suddenly eager to crazy fangirling over this. Please don’t mind much about typos and grammar.)

Rookie Nine refers to members of Team 7 (Sasuke Uchiha, Sakura Haruno, Naruto Uzumaki), Team 10 (Ino Yamanaka, Shikamaru Nara, Chouji Akimichi), and Team 8 (Kiba Inuzuka, Shino Aburame, Hinata Hyuga). They are called Rookie because their teachers promotted them into chuunin as soon as they are graduated from academy. It is kind of uncommon for fresh graduate to make into Chuunin Exam, as usually one team takes year(s) before they are ready, which means Rookie Nine is basically like Generation of Miracles in another manga. Here 50 random facts I compile – which I warn you, will be really random.

  1. Team 7’s members are Sasuke Uchiha, Sakura Haruno, and Naruto Uzumaki, while their teacher is Hatake Kakashi. The team is specialized at volunteering the frontline.
  2. Team 10’s members are Ino Yamanaka, Shikamaru Nara, Chouji Akimichi, while their teacher is Asuma Sarutobi. The team is specialized at spying and interogation.
  3. Team 8’s members are Kiba Inuzuka, Shino Aburame, Hinata Hyuga, while their teacher is Yuuhi Kurenai. The team is specialized at tracking and survival.
  4. Each teams has one girl and two boys as members, making Rookie Nine in summary consists of six boys and three girls.
  5. Team 7 usually meets at Konoha Bridge and Team 10 is seen like a regular customer of Yakiniku shop.
  6. Iruka-sensei is Rookie Nine’s teacher during academy days.
  7. All of Rookie Nine members seems to have good old times with the Third Hokage, as displayed by their grieves over the Third’s funeral in the anime. The grandpa must have taken care of them really well.
  8. All of Rookie Nine members have strong loyalty to Konoha, include Sasuke before he decides to leave in the end of Part I.
  9. According to academy overall grade, Ino comes out as top of her class, while Sasuke ranks second, and Shino ranks third. They are sorted by ninjutsu, taijutsu, genjutsu, teamwork, and assertiveness.
  10. Sasuke can actually rank first, but his lack of cooperation has downgraded his rank. He is teamed up with Sakura and Naruto in order to learn teamwork. Sakura and Naruto, being not too skilled at fighting, naturally force Sasuke to always help them out of crisis, to which it becomes a good habit and Sasuke himself starts to see them as real teammates.
  11. Dead-last Awards are given to Naruto who loves to prank and causes trouble day and night; Kiba and Chouji who don’t seem that good at studying; and Shikamaru who is too lazy to do anything. I bet they can be usually seen standing in the corner of the class, being scolded and punished by the teachers.
  12. Sorted by intellegence, Shikamaru ranked first with his above 200 IQ, but again, he is too lazy to do anything and prefers watching the faraway sky than thinking about his grade.
  13. Shikamaru is closely followed by Sakura, who solves super difficult chuunin written test all by herself, when even the genius Sasuke, Neji, Gaara, and the other strong participants need to cheat since they can’t answer.
  14. Shikamaru is only surpassed by Kakashi-sensei, who is practically being the most intelligent human in the world by being a chuunin in the age of 5-6.
  15. In term of power, Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura (in the age of 16) are the three strongest among them. Of course, Kakashi-sensei is super strong too.
  16. According to Sakura, Team 7 has the best teamwork with Team 10.
  17. Each members of Team 7 is also being disciple of Legendary Sannin (lit. trio ninja). Naruto is disciple of Jiraiya, Sakura is disciple of Tsunade, and Sasuke is disciple of Orochimaru. Each of second Sannin has surpassed the first generation with their rocking New Three Deadway Locks.
  18. Team 7 is the only one team that becomes direct student of a hokage (the Sixth).
  19. Sakura is the only one who becomes student of two hokages (the Fifth and the Sixth).
  20. Sasuke is the only one who becomes student of two village leader (the Sixth and Orochimaru).
  21. Naruto is the only one who is a son of hokage (the Fourth) and becoming hokage himself (the Seventh).
  22. Sakura is the only one from Rookie Nine who doesn’t come from a clan, where as the others come from the honoured clan of Konoha (Uchiha, Uzumaki, Hyuga, Nara, Yamanaka, Akimichi, Inuzuka, and Aburame).
  23. Hyuga is technically strongest clan in Konoha at the moment, since Uchiha and Uzumaki have just started restoring clan member.
  24. Yamanaka, Akimichi, and Nara clan have cooperated for generations. Their infamous Ino-Shika-Chou golden combi is creditted a Harmony.
  25. Inuzuka and Aburame clan work their technique out with animals (Inuzuka cooperates with dog, Aburame with bugs – I mean, insects).
  26. Hyuga and Uchiha clan both use eye technique as their kekkei genkai (lit. bloodline passed technique). Hyuga clan uses Byakugan and Uchiha clan uses Sharingan.
  27. During a war, it is usually Nara clan who takes the command as they have natural leadership and tactful thinking. Shikamaru, even though is appeared to be irresponsible with his own life, does very well during Sasuke Retrieval Team arc and Shinobi World War arc.
  28. Naruto, Sasuke, and Kiba declare they want to be hokage, although in Kiba’s side, it is most likely because he is provoked and irritated by Sasuke’s out of nowhere declaration.
  29. In the age of 12, Shikamaru is the only one who makes into chuunin and the rest are still genin. In the age of 15, Naruto is the only one who is still genin (Sasuke isn’t counted since he left) and the rests have been chuunin. In the age of 19, Shikamaru and Sakura make into jounin, Naruto is still genin, Sasuke is still not-ranked, and the rests are chuunin.
  30. Naruto may officially be the strongest genin in the history, as he saves the world when he is still a genin. Sasuke does, too, but he is unranked ninja at the moment.
  31. Sakura and Ino are medical ninja, Hinata (anime) and Naruto is able to perform healing.
  32. Naruto, Sakura, Ino, Shikamaru, Chouji, Shino are only child in their families. Sasuke, Kiba, Hinata have sibling.
  33. Ino’s, Shikamaru’s, Chouji’s, Hinata’s, Naruto’s father are seen in the Shinobi World War, with only Chouji’s and Hinata’s father survive.
  34. Among the Rookie Nine teachers, Asuma-sensei and Kurenai-sensei dated and even have child named Mirai. Kakashi-sensei stays single forever, even tough he is a hokage and rumoured to be inhumanly handsome.
  35. Kakashi-sensei takes over the lead of Team 10 (aka Team Asuma) when Asuma-sensei dies, and Team 8 (aka Team Kurenai) when Kurenai-sensei gets pregnant. Thus it makes Kakashi-sensei has been jounin leader of Team 7, Team 8, and Team 10 respectivelly.
  36. Sasuke married Sakura, and makes them the only couple within a team.
  37. Naruto married Hinata, who is from different team but still a Rookie Nine member.
  38. Chouji and Shikamaru both married strong kunoichi from another village (Chouji with Karui, Shikamaru with Temari).
  39. Sasuke is the only one who has ever lived outside Konoha.
  40. Naruto has bestfriendship and rivalry with Sasuke, while Sakura has pretty much alike relationship with Ino.
  41. Kiba sees Naruto as rival, too.
  42. Kiba is supportive toward Hinata’s feeling for Naruto, as well as find her funny to pick on.
  43. Shino is angry when he isn’t invited to be in Sasuke Retrieval Team; depressed when he isn’t identified by Naruto; sad when he is neglected by others most of the times.
  44. Shikamaru and Chouji share understanding to each other, that they are never seen arguing.
  45. Shikamaru has soft spot for Naruto and sees him as a brother that needs to be nurtured. Naruto seems becoming one of reason that pull Shikamaru’s wisdom out of his unenthusiastic tendency.
  46. Shikamaru once states that he is not close with at all Sasuke. It may also due to their contrast personalities, although they are both praised as genius.
  47. Naruto is often shocked by Shino’s (extremely unidentified) appearance.
  48. Sakura and Ino seem to be in good term with Hinata.
  49. So far in final chapter only Naruto, Shikamaru, and Shino who are seen on duty. Naruto being hokage, Shikamaru being advisor, and Shino being academy teacher.
  50. Naruto’s (and Hinata) son, Sasuke’s (and Sakura) daughter, Ino’s son, Chouji’s daughter, and Shikamaru’s son, are all in the same grade. The wive must give the birth in almost same year.

Okay, those are the facts. I want to add more but my eyes already hurt watching laptop screen.

yoongi; have a break, have me

》typing this on my phone for the devil @mvnyoongis ♡ good luck, satan-i mean, sweetie! pls excuse any typos i’m half dead but i wanted to write a lil’ something before i hibernate.

if yoongi had been right, or at least, if he had kept track of the time since you woke up until now, it would approximately be three hours and forty-two minutes since your bum has been glued to the chair by the study table. now don’t get yoongi wrong, he knows how important this is for you. the whole procedure and the amount of facts and knowledge you’d need to remember accordingly to move forward to complete your goals to proceed to living your dream; yoongi knows of the struggles and watching you slump over the table as you read through the same thing over and over, it sort of aches his heart.

he rolls over on the bed, chin in his palm, elbow propped as he lazily fixates his eyes to the back of your head. he clears his throat, shifting slightly before he coos your name, followed by: “shouldn’t you take a break…? it’s been hours since you got up to stretch,”

on cue, you stand with your eyes still robotically locked onto your notes. you do a few moves to pop the joints and you wiggle your arms a little to give your muscles a bit of movement before you slop down to the chair, “done.”

yoongi rolls his eyes, finding you’re being absolutely ridiculous and his book isn’t as entertaining anymore. whining, he frowns at you, “that wasn’t even proper! at least do it right,”

“busy,” you murmur, locked in the haze of wanting to remember everything in order that you brush him off. usually, it works. all the time, actually. until yoongi finds a reason to break this pattern because you yelp at the sudden force dragging your chair back and fuck the day yoongi suggesred the rollers to be installed at the sole of each leg.

“hey! let go!” you desperately clutch onto the edge of the table, finding leverage to anchor yourself down but yoongi’s stubborn like you, chuckling, “don’t think so. you’re gonna take a break and you’re gonna take it now,”

“piss off! i didn’t force you to take breaks when you were busy!” oh, wait a minute- “yes you did,” yoongi snaps, grunting as he tugs onto your chair harder, “now it’s time for me to return the favor,”

the image of you making yoongi stay hydrated and fed as he curls himself up in the studio flashes. as to that other time when he was practicing nonstop. or that one day he locked himself in the recording room but only unlocked the door for you so that you’d have the benefit to care for him and it looks like yoongi’s not going down without a fight.

“you’re going to break the chair! and my arms!”

“so don’t make me and let go,” he hisses, hating how your arms are trembling but you’re as fucking hard headed as he is. but in the end you relent with a grunted fine and your fingers release your hold for yoongi to nudge you back straight to the bed. with minimal effort, yoongi gets you to lay with him in the soft blankets and cozy mattress that dips as both of your weight presses down. his arms slip around your waist and he buries his face in your neck, grinning, “there we go,”

“you know, usually when i make you take breaks, i give you food and make you drink water,” your hands betray you when they slide over his forearms, relishing on the warmth of his skin and the gentle caress of his lips at the side of your neck, his chest molding against your back delightfully, “well, you ate already. and that big bottle of water of yours is empty. so obviously you lack of love and care so of course, it’ll be from me,”

“…where the hell did you get that logic?”

“just shut up and let me hold you for a while.”

anonymous asked:

I'm a teen author trying to become a published teen author. I've read about success stories, but I'd love to hear any more advice. Should I mention my age in query letters? I'm unpublished as of now.

First of all, whenever you pitch to an agent, you want to sound professional. I think that being a teen might be a great selling factor from the marketing standpoint, but it implies that likely you lack experience. I would first try to impress them with your work and your professional query, then mention at the end that you are a teen to justify your competence.

Originally posted by dailyhappylife

For example, “I am particularly qualified to write about young adults” (if that’s the case, I’m not sure what your work is about) “because I am still in my teens.”

Below is some advice on how to write a query letter in general, I hope it helps ^_^

GBA

Writing the perfect query letter to get an agent or publisher

Before I say anything about query letters let me disclaim that most of what I learnt comes from the infinite wisdom of Her Holiness the Query Shark, a successful agent dedicated to help hapless, unexperienced writers. Study her website and see plenty examples of failure and success, rejoicing at her snarky sense of humor.

What is a query letter?

A query letter is a short missive (typically an e-mail) that pitches your book in 200-300 words. Don’t go over 400 words, it should fit in one page. A query letter will be likely the hardest thing you will ever write.

What elements should be in a query letter?

A query should answer the following questions:

1-Why did you select this agent?

Successful agents receive about 100 queries a day. Never write “Dear Agent” (guaranteed click-delete response). Agents want to know why you think they are a good fit for you. If you are thinking this is not your job but theirs, you’re better off indie publishing. Ask yourself how many agents are banging on your door right now and how many writers are banging at any one agent’s door. Got the picture? Good. Now do research on your agent. Good lines would be: “you represent this other book (pertinent book similar in style or genre to yours) so I thought…” or “You are seeking books in this genre so…” To find information about your agent of choice, start with AgentQuery, then check the specific agent’s website and any interviews online. Sometimes you might want to go as far as to check their twitter feed or search for videos. Yes, it is a lot of work and a time drain.

2- What is your book about?

You are a writer. SHOW, DON’T TELL! Never say “this is a great story” or “this is the best book you will ever read”, “this is the next bestseller” etc… SHOW THEM!  Start with the conflict. Don’t tell them everything, just enough for them to want to read more, possibly getting a feel for your voice.

3- Why are YOU qualified to tell this story?

Are you writing a book about the Vietnam war and you’re a fifteen-year-old Italian? Well, good luck pitching that. You will have to explain why you think you are qualified, and why you are in a unique, privileged position to tell that story.

In general:You only have 200-300 words, choose them well.

1. Avoid clichés; you are a word crafter. Still, don’t overdo it! Verbose queries are not good. Use your style.

2. No typos, you hear me? None.

3. Be professional. It’s really difficult to get the tone of an e-mail or letter sometimes. Avoid jokes and confusing double meanings.

4. Be respectful. Start with Dear Miss Amman (just an example, by golly, I’m not an agent!) Most agents don’t care if you call them by their first names, but some really hate it. They are professionals and they don’t know you. Play it safe.

5. Don’t beg. If you don’t think your book is awesome, nobody will. (Avoid things like “I have been sick” “I have fifteen children” “I barely sleep” “Forgive the typos”).

6. Don’t boast. Be confident, but professional. If you have some facts that can help you list them clearly.

7. Don’t state the obvious. “I would be glad to provide a full manuscript upon request.” Of course you would be. Finish with “Thank you for your time” or similar.Essential info to include: the title of your manuscript ALL CAPITALS, the word count (approximate to the closest 5,000), the genre, your signature with your full REAL name, address and phone number.

BEWARE!

-Check for specific guidelines on each agent’s webpage! Some will go as far as to tell you what type to use. All will specify if they want a partial with the query (typically the first three chapters pasted in the body of the e-mail).

-Send no attachments unless specifically asked. It’s the fastest way to the garbage bin. They fear viruses and will never open an e-mail with unsolicited attachments (signatures, files, anything).-Separate your paragraphs, so that your e-mail is not a scary block of text. Happy querying :D

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I am sitting here fucking bawling, sobbing my eyes out over the fact that John never got to read Alexander’s last letter IN WHICH HE ASK JOHN TO JOIN HEM AY CONGRESS AND HELP AMERICS SPREAD HER WINGS AND FLY AND BE HAPPY AND BECOME GREAT AND ITS BASICALLY HIS UTMOAT DECLARATION OF LOVE AND JOHN NEVER GOT TO KNOW

Please forgive any typos I’m having a hard time seeing because I’m crying so fuckig hard and I can’t see through the tears I literally have tears streaming down my face and neck not in the way tumblr usually means ‘I’m crying’ I am legitimately upset

kneelb4kesha  asked:

Hi! So I checked your FAQ and I couldn't find anything on whether or not you have plans to do a short story compilation for October Daye... just wondering if that's on the docket? Obviously that takes time and effort so no pressure, I'm just wondering if it's something you've considered. (If not, this girl's gotta go on a hunt for certain anthologies asap!)

I am not a publisher!

Things publishers have:

* The budget for original cover art
* Access to printing resources
* Distribution resources
* Someone to copy-edit all my bullshit

Things I do not have:

* Any of that

I mean, I commission the amazing @taraljc to design eBook covers for me, but those are all very story-specific, and not great for collections.

“But wait,” you may cry.  “Self publishing is a thing which exists in the world, and you already distribute your InCryptid shorts in eBook form!”  And this would be true, but also false, because I don’t sell my InCryptid shorts.  I either give them away or sell them to anthologies, which means that when there are copy-editing issues (see #4 above), I can shrug and say “you get what you paid for,” and not feel bad about the fact that typos exist.

(Typos in my totally-for-free work that I did all by myself for no financial reward have led to negative reviews because someone didn’t like the fact that the the word “the” appeared twice in a sentence.  Which is totally fair–you do you–but the fact that it happens with free stuff means that it happens twice as much with stuff that people have to pay for, which means you have to have a CE budget.)

Also, I am very passionate about the digital divide, which is why I have gone out of my way to arrange for physical editions of everything possible, including Velveteen vs. and Sparrow Hill Road.  So self-publishing a collection of Toby stories would not, for me, fulfill the accessibility requirements I put on my own work.

As far as a traditional publisher doing it…any Toby collection would have to come from DAW, as they publish the novels and it would be uncool of me to go elsewhere.  Which means DAW needs to know that there’s enough interest to make it profitable.

TL;DR: I would love to do a Toby collection, but it would have to be through a traditional publisher, and they would have to know that there was a market.  So tell ‘em, if it’s something you want.

Submit Anon: I'm better than you. I'm more Kawaii.

So not too long ago I went to a small ish con. My first actually. I had went with a few friends. And promptly stuck to them like I was literally glue because of my social anxieties.

I went as a few different cosplays. The first day I went as Seras Victoria the first day. Tank girl as the second. And Karkat from homestuck the third. Surprisingly enough I actually received a good deal of attention. So I got to meet all kinds of  new people. Some I’d rather not have met.

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Mekakucity Actor 12

Okay, so I don’t typically post my theories about Kagerou Project/ Mekakucity Actors. I prefer to watch and wait rather then post information that could be false. However I noticed something that is bothering me that no one has addressed and that is this quote, “If I went back to that time it’s possible that a future like that could have happened.” (Please forgive typos and bad writing skills plus long post. Will contain spoilers.)

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