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So often in very violent sexual scenes, the woman is the one being tortured and terrorized and abused. I have been in that situation, where you know it’s acting, you know it’s not real and by the end of it, I’ve been in tears. Your skin gets stretched so thin at some point that, as much as your brain knows it isn’t real, the body thinks it’s being attacked, and responds accordingly. It’s an interesting part of acting, where the body overrides the brain, and the body thinks it is real. So having experienced that with being the violated one in a sexual scene, it’s different being the aggressor.

Because Amy is not someone who is overpowered by rage. She is driven by the rage she’s had since she was a little girl. When you’re playing Amy it’s not like you’re unleashing something really animal. Everything is worked out in advance. So when you’re playing it, it gives you a buffer, because she’s so clinical. In the case of that scene it’s more horrific for me to watch it than to do it. Because it’s the sociopathic brain you’re living inside. David and I worked out this thing, she’d practice to see if she could conjure an emotional response: “My first love. Can I produce real tears?” Check. Being inside the sociopathic brain, it’s not pleasant, but it’s different than being inside someone who sees red in a moment. (x)

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Cliff Burton (Metallica) - For Whom the Bell Tolls (Live in August 31, 1985 at Day on the Green, Oakland, CA).

 "Cliff was so completely honest to himself and the people around him. He hated all this being-put-on-a-pedestal bullshit.“ Lars Ulrich, 1986

 "To this day, I think of him every day.” Kirk Hammett, 1988

 "He was a wild, hippie-ish, acid-taking, bell-bottom-wearing guy. He meant business, and you couldn’t fuck around with him. I wanted to get that respect that he had. We gave him shit about his bell-bottoms everyday. He didn’t care. “This is what I wear. Fuck you.” He loved music. He was really intellectual but very to the point. He taught me alot about attitude.“ James Hetfield, 1993.

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Tears are the most accurate representation of feelings. Humans will cry if their feelings are strong. Either, they like it so much or it’s too sad. Too lonely, too wrong. And so on, so forth. The human heart is fickle. There’s no such thing as permanence. Love, then hate. Hot, then cold. Upset, then grateful. Full of resentment, then understanding. And so on and so forth. Ultimately, tears are this.