two halves of my heart

I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I
Don’t know where I should go
And the tears and the fears begin to multiply
Taking time in a simple place
In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase
And it’s said that a war’s led but I forget
That I let another day go by
I want to be afraid but it seems that these days
I’m caught under water and I’m falling farther
My heart’s getting harder, I’m calling my father
Am I screaming to an empty sky?
Empty sky, no way, that’s me cause one half of my heart is free
Empty sky, no way, that’s me cause the other half of my heart’s asleep

Sing a song but don’t believe
Blasphemy is just for me
Hypocrite, take your pick
Cause the poison’s on my lips

Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?

Lights, camera, action, satisfaction
At your finger tips no one’s lacking stuff
But it’s not enough when it seems that
We have enough stuff just to blow stuff up

Lights, camera, stop! We’re killing ourselves
Just to get to the top
But we won’t stop talking about what we got
And how we all love it when we’re loved a lot

Enough about you, let’s talk about me
And how everybody thinks I’m just so free
Free? Did you hear the verse that came first
And how my own body’s waging war on me?

I bet you didn’t know something as absurd
There’s a word that I’ve said more than any other word
It’s sorry, sorry
And I pray that our word was heard

Sing a song but don’t believe
Blasphemy is just for me
Hypocrite, take your pick
Cause the poison’s on my lips

Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?
Can I understand you?

I want to be alive
When you see my eyes
Can I see your eyes?
Can I see your eyes?

Can I see your eyes?
Can I see your eyes?
Can I see your eyes?
Can I see?
I want to be alive
When you see my eyes
Can I see your eyes?
Can I see your eyes?

Let the water wash away
Everything that you’ve become
On your knees, today is gone
And tomorrow’s sure to come
Tomorrow’s sure to come

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Blasphemy
Tyler Joseph
Blasphemy

I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I
Don’t know where I should go
And the tears and the fears begin to multiply
Taking time in a simple place
In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase
And it’s said that a war’s led but I forget
That I let another day go by
I want to be afraid but it seems that these days
I’m caught under water and I’m falling farther
My heart’s getting harder, I’m calling my father
Am I screaming to an empty sky?

i start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and i
don’t know wher ei should go when the tears and the fears begin to multiply
taking time in a simple place in my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase
and it’s said that a war’s lead but i forget that i let another day go by i want to be afraid but it seems these days im caught under water and im falling further my heart’s getting harder and i’m calling my father 
am i screaming to an empty sky
empty sky no way that’s me cause one half of my heart is free empty sky no way that’s me cause the other hanf of my heart’s asleep

and u will never know u will never understand so wont you say goodnight

the functions as twenty one pilots lyrics (unhealthy edition)

Unhealthy Ti: My brain has given up/ White flags are hoisted/ I took some food for thought/ It might be poisoned

Unhealthy Ne: If it was our way, we’d have a tempo change every other time change/ Cause our minds change/ On what we think is good

Unhealthy Si: As time will fly by and the sky will cry as light is fading/ And he is waiting, oh so patiently/ While we repeat the same routine as we will please comfortably

Unhealthy Fe: A re-beginning moments mending memories/ Pretending enemies are frenemies, sending me straight to bending me

Unhealthy Fi: You are out of my mind/ You aren’t seeing my side / You waste all this time trying to get to me/ But you are out of my mind 

Unhealthy Se:  Quickly moving towards a storm/ Moving forward, torn/ Into pieces over reasons/ Of what these storms are for

Unhealthy Ni: I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I/ Don’t know where I should go/ And the tears and the fears begin to multiply

Unhealthy Te: Forget sanity, forget salary, forget vanity, my morality/
If you get in between someone I love and me/ You’re gonna feel the heat of my cavalry

Anathema
Twenty One Pilots
Anathema

I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I
Don’t know where I should go
And the tears and the fears begin to multiply
Taking time in a simple place
In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase
And it’s said that a war’s lead but I forget
That I let another day go by
I want to be afraid but it seems that these days
I’m caught under water and I’m falling farther
My heart’s getting harder, I’m calling my father
Am I screaming to an empty sky?
Empty sky, no way, that’s me ‘cause one half of my heart is free
Empty sky, no way, that’s me 'cause the other half of my heart’s asleep.
~ twenty one pilots - Anathema    

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I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I
Don’t know where I should go
And the tears and the fears begin to multiply
Taking time in a simple place
In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase
And it’s said that a war’s lead but I forget
That I let another day go by

I want to be afraid but it seems that these days
I’m caught under water and I’m falling farther
My heart’s getting harder, I’m calling my father
Am I screaming to an empty sky?
Empty sky, no way, that’s me ‘cause one half of my heart is free
Empty sky, no way, that’s me 'cause the other half of my heart’s asleep.

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The last few years
Have been an ongoing exercise
In determining what really keeps me breathing
Realizing that the assured safety of a warm hearth
Doesn’t make my pulse race
And understanding how easily distracted I am
By the promise of adventure
Writing the definition of “need”
With a pen full of my own blood
And willingly sacrificing myself for the answers

But I’m no stranger to fear
And when the time finally came
To unmoor this ship and set sail
I couldn’t bring myself to stray far from shore
So I compromised
Splitting my heart cleanly in two
Equal halves given in tribute
To a girl who had sheltered me in her bones like home
And a girl who loved me like an animal caught in an electric fence
Balancing my existence in the space between them
Knowing that it couldn’t last forever
But settling for the tenuous existence
Of counting the seconds until Armageddon
And praying every night that I could make it until morning

But some things are sudden and inevitable
And in the space of only a few days
They were both gone
And everyone knows I’m an optimist
That I don’t like giving up hope
But that emptiness is beginning to resemble forever
And how do you recover from that?

They were the closest thing I had to foundation
The constants that kept my fragile architecture from collapse
And this gasping void that remained in my chest
Left my heart without structure
Nothing remained that was solid or stable or strong
So how could I even begin to build a home here
Capable of sheltering anything vulnerable?
How could I ever again call this body a sanctuary
If I didn’t even know how to protect myself?

So I found a way to make giving up look like growth
Hiding behind the chill of therapy and bottles of pills
And after a while I got used to the cold
Once the numbness sets in it’s really not so bad
Eventually you just stop bothering to look for warmth
Winter is a slow death but at least it’s relatively painless
And after the monotonous press of darkness
It almost felt welcoming

But sometimes these things aren’t so predictable
And despite all of the locks I had placed on my front door
In a hopeless attempt to keep the past from repeating itself
I suddenly found a girl standing in my living room
With eyes the color of the still sky after a hurricane
When you come up from below deck
And the silence of sunrise gives you hope

I know this sounds cliche
But she was nothing like I had expected
A combination of opposing forces
That I never dared to imagine was possible
Hard and soft in all the right places
Quick wit and gentle hands
And a body that melts so easily into mine
But tempered with a delicious darkness
A sea of secrets sitting just beneath the surface
Sharpened and sure and drenched in promise

And something about pressing her flint to my steel
Created a spark that finally found a way
To cut through that biting chill
Igniting all of those dead parts inside of me
Like underbrush in a California summer wildfire
Burning so hot and fast and uncontrollable
That even though it threatened destruction
For once, I didn’t have the time to think twice
Sometimes the choice doesn’t lie between safety and electricity
Sometimes the choice is as simple as letting yourself catch flame
So I walked into that inferno with my head held high and determined
Because I heard a story once
That there are whole forests built from trees
Who need to burn to the ground in order to grow again
And after so many months of relentless Winter
Her heat is starting to feel a lot like rebirth

—  Pyriscence by Jessy Hudson
9

Once upon a time we fell apart.

You’re holding in your hands the two halves of my heart.

Once upon a time, we burned bright.

Now all we ever seem to do is fight, on and on…

Once upon a time on the same side.

Once upon a time on the same side, in the same game.

And why’d you have to go, have to go and throw water on my flame.

I could’ve been a princess, you’d be a king.

Could’ve had a castle, and worn a ring.

But no, you let me go.

You stole my star.

La, la, la, la, la, la, la.

Cause you really hurt me,

No you really hurt me…

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Lesbian gay bisexual trans questioning I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I don’t know where I should go and the tears and the fears begin to multiply taking time in a simple place In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase and it’s said that a war’s lead but I forget that I let another day go by

  • tyler joseph: i start to part two halves of my heart and i don't know where i should go and the tears and the fears begin to multiply. taking time in a simple place where my head rests on a pillow case and it's said that a war's lead but i forget that i let another day go by. i want to be afraid but it seems that these days i'm caught under water and i'm falling farther, my hearts getting harder, i'm calling my father. am i screaming to an empty sky? empty sky, no way, that's me. 'cause one half of my heart is free. empty sky, no way, that's me. 'cause the other half of my heart's asleep.
  • me: damn why'd u have to go off on me like this