twist and rip my heart out

So every year my school has a mandatory 50s/60s themed swing dance and today was the swing dance. So I’m dressed up in a leather jacket and pretty much look like a greater from Grease or something and I’m dancing with my friend who’s partner ditched her. My friends has never seen supernatural. So we’re dancing, and suddenly a very familiar, painfully sad song comes on. Twist and Shout. I just stop dancing and look at the band. Because here I am, dressed in a leather jacket, on a THURSDAY of all days, at a 50s/60s themed dance. I had to excuse my self to go into the bathroom and cry because it’s Thursday, I’m wearing a leather jacket, the weather is beautiful and my heart was ripped open and torn to shreds by gay porn. My friend thinks I’m crazy.

My top Destiel fics you MUST read.

1:Twist And Shout

My first destiel fic I ever read was Twist and Shout and if you ship Destiel it is a fic you probably already heard about or read.
It’s super sad, it will rip your heart out. It’s beautifully written. I can’t even get past April 1965 every time I try and re-read it. But, it is NOT my favorite, runners up for sure

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2:Painted Angels

I NEVER thought I would ever read a fic better or as good as Twist And Shout, But then fictionalanxiety told me to read a fic with her.Which was Painted Angels I fell in love. Favorite fanfic and if you haven’t read it you should! Like seriously,blown away. It is beautiful, made me cry from both pain and joy and just, it’s wonderful in all ways. You should also follow the author winjennster.

Find fic here 
Being taken off AO3 Feb 1st. Author is working on getting published.

3: Autumn Hollow

Second fanfic I ever read. It is chillingly erie and it leaves you on the edge of your seat through the entire ride. You end up playing a game of clue as you try and break down the mystery. Who is Dean? What is Dean?  It’s definitely a fic everyone should read.

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4: Sweaters And Cigarettes

Great concept, Goth!Cas, nerd!Deann.  John drama, smut, it’s an all around good read.

You need an AO3 account to read it, which doesn’t take long to set up.

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5: Blackbird Fly

Amazing amazing amazing fic. There is so much angst and its just amazing. My heart was swelling reading it. It leaves you on the edge for sure!

Find fic here

A Celtics Fan letter to Kobe Bryant with a twist. 


Dear Kobe Bryant,

I hate you.

Can you blame me?  As a Celtics fan, I rooted against you for two decades.  I rejoiced in your agony when my Celtics beat you in the 2008 Finals.  Paul Pierce deserved it way more than you did.  You already had three rings at the time.

But three just wasn’t enough for you.  You got your revenge and ultimately your fifth ring in 2010 while ripping my heart out in the process.  I hope you still know how lucky you are that Kendrick Perkins was out for Game 7.

I read your letter in the Players’ Tribune today and was shocked.  Not because you announced your retirement – we all already knew that.  I was shocked because of the way your letter made me feel.

In my mind, I have always grouped you and Derek Jeter together.  You are the players that we as Boston fans bitterly hate, but cannot help but respect.  You played the game the right way – with passion, pride, and professionalism.

You were true students of the game who pursued greatness by working harder than anybody.   You became generational icons of your respective sports.  You embraced every challenge.  You gave it your all. You put your bodies on the line.  You knew how to win.  You respected your sport, your craft, and your rivalry with Boston.

December 30 marks the last time that you will play in Boston.  This is also the last opportunity for us Celtics fans to cheer our team to victory against arguably the most dominant player in the storied history of the Celtics and Lakers.

As you go, so goes what is left of the rivalry that once dominated the NBA.  Perhaps someday it will be rekindled by new faces.  Perhaps not.

So when you come to the Garden next month, I hope the crowd puts you through hell.  I hope we heckle you and boo you more emphatically than we did in the championship bouts.  I hope you miss every single free throw.  I hope you never forget what it’s like to be surrounded by 17,000 screaming fans who bleed green and would give anything to watch you fail one last time.

I hope we beat LA once again.  

And when you get pulled from the lineup halfway through the fourth quarter when my Celtics are up by 20 points, I think something beautiful will happen.

Every single person in the Garden will stop booing.  We will rise to our feet and show respect in the form of the loudest, most passionate standing ovation you have ever witnessed.  We will chant your name.  We will wipe our eyes.  We will say our bittersweet farewells.

They say you never truly know what you got ’til it’s gone.  So before you go, I just want to say thank you for being far more than just a great basketball player.  To an entire generation of NBA fans, you are basketball.

I can’t believe I’m saying this… but I’m really going to miss you.

Love (and hate) you always,

A Celtics fan who didn’t appreciate you enough.