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That Girl is a Problem

Paul Lahote is PISSED when Jake brings around his best friend. She wasn’t supposed to know about any of this. Or was she? 

Pairing: PaulxReader, JacobxReader (Friends)

Warnings: Cursing 

Song(s) to Listen To: Truthfully by DNCE OR/AND That’s What You Get by Paramore 

A/N: This is my first Twilight relate imagine at all, so even though constructive criticism is encouraged, pls don't rip me to shreds lol. Also, if this goes over well, I have a part 2 planned. Hope you guys like this!!

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welcome!!!!!! this is long overdue. i’ve been promising myself i’d made this forever. so here it is - the ultimate masterpost of wlw (women loving women) books. not all characters are lesbians, some are bi or pan, though all books feature f/f relationships and/or themes. there are 150+ recommendations, so enjoy!

YOUNG ADULT CONTEMPORARY:

FANTASY/PARANORMAL/SCIENCE FICTION:

CRIME/MYSTERY/THRILLER:

HISTORICAL:

ADULT FICTION:

COMICS BOOKS/GRAPHIC NOVELS:

NON-FICTION:

When one of the biggest movie stars of the last 10 years refers to herself as “so gay” on one of the most-watched late-night television shows on the air, it forces people to reconfigure how they think about what it means to be “gay” and who and what that term includes. Suddenly, anyone who only knew Stewart as “that girl from ‘Twilight’” and “Robert Pattinson’s ex girlfriend,” is confronted by her sexuality in a new and startling way, and it upends assumptions about the community, which is exactly why coming out is still so crucial.
They would ask if I was a man or a woman. They could arrest a woman for impersonating a man, so you had to be sure you were wearing three pieces of women’s clothes. You learned to avoid the police by walking on the side of the street where the cars were parked, or in the opposite direction on the one way streets so they would have to back up to get to you. It was always in the backs of our minds that we could be arrested. Any woman wearing pants was suspect.
—  Jackie, a lesbian who lived in New Orleans during the 1950s, quoted in Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America
When a girl loves a girl the touches are softer,
fingers like feathers, tracing underneath the breastbone in the midst of twilight.
When a girl loves a girl the tears are harder,
they fall like glass, clear like her eyes laced with honesty and love that smells like lavender
When a girl loves a girl the other girls tongues are sharper,
abomination falls from their lips, lips that have touched their friends in the dark, rich with intoxication
When a girl loves a girl the boys shrink into themselves,
a hurricane is cast around their heads, a rushing desire to have what they can’t, wanting to claim what is not theirs, demanding that it’s being ripped from their calloused hands.
When a girl loves a girl the world whispers, some louder than others
the indoctrinated have matches for fingers, lighting fires for our eternal souls to rot in
the preachers of peace shrug their shoulders, sometimes they chant for us, it’s never loud enough.
the planets sing for us as we dance among the stars,
When a girl loves a girl, she owns the universe.
—  “I Wanted Her, So Did the World” // Angie P

The series of interviews conducted by Dr. George Henry with lesbians in the ‘30s illustrates a contentment in the lives of many of these women that would have frazzled the censors had that picture been reflected in the media. Many of his interviewees were self-actualized individuals, living to their full potential in mutually productive relationships. They say things such as:

I’m doing the work [as an editor] I always wanted to do and I’m very, very happy. I’m very much in love with the girl too. We click… She has had the most influence for good in my life.”  — 20-year old white woman

If I were born again I would like to be just as I am. I’m perfectly satisfied being a girl and being as I am. I’ve never had any regrets.”  —  26-year-old black woman

Our relationship is just as sweet now [after eleven years] as in the beginning.”  — 29-year-old white woman

Since we have been living together our lives are fuller and happier. We create things together and we are devoted to our [adopted] baby.”  —  30-year-old white woman

I have a great confidence in the future. I think I’m going to be a very well-known artist… Homosexuality hasn’t interfered with my work. It has made it what it is.”  —  30-year-old white woman

Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America, pg. 112 by Lillian Faderman

Because she defines herself independently of men, the lesbian is considered unnatural, incomplete, not quite a woman—as though the essence of womanhood was to be identified with men.
—  Excerpt from the 1971 resolution passed by the National Organization for Women, quoted in Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America

But most lesbians never went to bars. Occasionally middle-class lesbians could make contacts with other women if they were members of a private group such as the Nucleus Club, an informal New York-based organization of the late 1930s that held weekly parties for lesbians together with gay men.

But although police harassment of lesbians was not common in the 1930s, they knew, perhaps by their observation of gay male experiences, that it was a potential they had to take into account, and that awareness must have dampened the enthusiasm of many to join such a club. The Nucleus Club parties were in private homes, but the group still thought it essential to adopt the rule that each gay man would pair with a lesbian as they left the party and they would go strolling out arm in arm so that neighbors would think the couples had been to a heterosexual gathering.

One should not underestimate the fun in this game of “fooling the straights,” but underneath the fun was genuine fear.

Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America, pg. 108 by Lillian Faderman

Every Fangirl's Most Likely Future...
  • Me: *Reads a book*
  • Me: *Joins its fandom*
  • Me: *Stays up all night reading the books again*
  • Me: *Spends the whole day reading fanfics and blogging about the fandom even though there's an exam the next day*
  • Me: *Fails the exam*
  • Me: *Ends up living with parents unemployed 10 years later*
  • Me: .....
  • Me: My life's a mess.

lillehavfrue  asked:

what book(s) on lesbian history would you recommend to a baby gay (me) who knows practically none?

tragically i currently only have one specifically lesbian history book, but i know a few overall lgbt history books which can also provide some perspective on lesbians of the past. i’m going to provide links to the cheapest editions i can find too because books are fuckin expensive

odd girls and twilight lovers by lillian faderman | the only specifically lesbian history book i’ve managed to get my hands on. it’s fucking awesome. it was one of the first queer history books i read and i absolutely could not put it down. any lillian faderman book is going to be a great lesbian resource, just search her on thriftbooks and have at it tbh.

the gay revolution by lillian faderman | a veeeeery comprehensive overview of the fight for gay rights in america from pre-stonewall to marriage equality. it’s pretty dense so i haven’t finished it yet, but reading it is so fascinating. 

word is out by nancy and casey adair | neither lesbian-specific nor a “history book”, per se, but hear me out: it’s a fascinating collection of interviews that provides a snapshot of gay life in america pre-AIDS, which is so mind-boggling to even think of. there’s no retrospective lens of academia or theory or anything - it’s just words, exactly as they were said, from gay people in the late seventies. you may know this as the book that made alison bechdel realize she was a lesbian. it’s great. 

charity and sylvia by rachel hope cleves | i lied, this is also a lesbian history book, but i haven’t actually read it yet - it’s a textbook for a class i’m in right now. it’s the true story of two women who were married in the 19th century in massachusetts, and it sounds lovely.

a queer history of the united states by michael bronski | so, so cool. this covers queer existence in the US from pre-1492 (!!!!!) to the 2000s. it explains why and how exactly america became a pseudo-christian heteropatriarchy and american masculinity and really demonstrates that queer people have been around literally forever.

i have a lot of other books i haven’t listed because i haven’t had time to read them so i can’t really vouch for them, but feel free to poke around in my goodreads list which is full of queer lit. 

One woman tells of how her parents, upon discovering her crush on a physical education teacher when she was fourteen years old, first sent her to a psychologist “to find out if I was crazy.” When her parents’ persistent rejection of her sexual identification during her teen years caused her to be so depressed that she attempted suicide, they committed her to a hospital psychiatric ward where the nurses “tried to fix me up with boys” and the psychiatrists “made me feel I was the only one who ever felt love for someone of the same sex.” When her depression continued after her release, her parents again had her hospitalized, this time in a state mental hospital. She was not alone there, she says. She met a thirty-year-old lesbian who claimed “she had been in and out of institutions all her life for being a lesbian. I thought she was the sanest person there.” Similar stories were not uncommon during the mid-twentieth-century.
—  Lillian Faderman, Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America