twas him

I love how Sam said, “You can stop.”

Not, “You have to stop,” “Stop right now, or so help me God, I will punch you.” or even, “You’re a monster, Dean.”

He made it a choice, not an order. A, “you have the ability to do this, Dean” unlike everything Dean ever told him.

It was a,“You have the ability to stop, Dean, and I have faith that you will make the right choice.”

It was another, “People can change. There is reason for hope.”

Dark Secrets - Part 3

Context: You are a Slytherin who enjoys long walks in the Forbidden Forest, keeping dark secrets, and falling for a guy you never thought you’d fall for.

Warnings: None, just slight fluff

Part Two

Hagrid took you both back to his little shack on the school grounds and settled you both down with a nice hot cup of tea. You were still visibly shaking and Draco sat next to you, his arm draped over your shoulders trying to comfort you.

Hagrid cleared his throat and you both look at him. He was waiting for his explanation.

You swallowed, taking a deep breath before you began. “I like to go out to the forest to clear my head, especially after a long week of hectic work. And Draco followed me outside to make sure I was okay. And while we were talking,” You looked over at him. “We heard voices and knew that if we got caught, we would be dead.”

“So we ran.” Draco said. “We didn’t really know where we were going.”

You nodded. “When we finally stopped, he turned his light on and that’s when we saw…”You paused, not able to finish what you were trying to explain. The thought of that giant thing was terrorizing you and you were sure to have nightmares about it.

Hagrid sat there for a moment before sighing. “Well, I won’t say anything to Dumbledore, but I do need you two to find a different spot to hang out at. Maybe the Black lake? I heard it gets pretty nice there during the spring.” He moved to retrieve more hot water for your teas, and you gratefully accepted.

“So you aren’t mad at us?” You asked.

Hagrid shook his head. “Not mad, just worried. I thought I saw someone heading off into the forest so I decided to go look and had Fang with me. I told him to stay put and maybe that’s what you heard.” Fang looked over at you two with his droopy eyes.

You both nodded before taking sips of your teas simultaneously. You felt a shiver run through your body as the panic attack subsided and you felt comfortable under Draco’s arm.

After sitting with Hagrid a while longer, he walked you both back up to the castle to make sure nothing else happened. You and Draco walked into the Slytherin common room and collapsed by the fire.

“I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep well for months after seeing what we just did.” You said, letting out a slight laugh.

He smiled at you but saw hints of pain in it. He knew you were being serious.

After getting up you started for the stairs, only to feel your anxiety rise again. Stopping, you looked over at Draco, who was watching the fire.

“Do you mind if i…” You started. His icy blue eyes darted over to you, making you gasp. He was gorgeous.

“Y/N?” He asked, standing up and walking over to you. He stood a step below you and you felt the heat radiating from his body.

“..sleep with you..”You mumbled out. Anxiety was seeping out of your fingertips.

“You want to sleep in my room tonight?” He asked.

“I mean, it’s silly. Nevermind.” You said, turning around to make your way to your room.

He grabbed hold of your hand, pulling you to face him. “I wouldn’t mind that at all actually. Tonight has my nerves rolling and I’d feel a lot more comfortable with someone there.”

You were both locked in each other’s eyes before you nodded to him. Holding onto your hand, he led you to the boys dorm and into his room, making sure you were comfortable in his bed before climbing in next to you. You turned to face him, getting as close as possible to him without being too intimate.

“Thank you.” You said as you felt sleep invade your mind. His warm breath washed over your face as his words slipped into your mind before you let the darkness consume you.

You awoke, breathing heavy from the vivid nightmare you just had. Looking around you, you realized you were sitting up in Draco’s bed. Turning to look at him, he was sleeping soundly and you couldn’t help but watch his sound features. He rolled over and started to wake when he realized you weren’t lying down.

“You okay?” He asked groggily. His deep voice penetrated your core and you felt butterflies in your stomach.

“Not really but I’ll be fine.” You said, lying back down next to him. “’Twas a bad dream is all.” He unconsciously laid his hand over your side, pulling you closer to him as he closed his eyes.

“Don’t worry, I’ll protect you.” He said sleepily before he was sound asleep again. You felt your heart tighten as you lay in his arms. He smelled sweetly of honey and caramel and you couldn’t help but snuggle closer, feeling warmth and safety in his arms. You felt darkness over come you and soon you were back in your dreams.

I have an awful migraine. But i really wanted to get this up for you guys so i made modifications to it and now here it is. I hope you guys like it. I’ll post more soon. 

Part 4

Originally posted by imagine-everything41

anonymous asked:

This might be dumb, but I had a question on the relationship between Burr and Monroe. Did they have a falling out? Because it seemed like they were friends at one point, being stationed together and Burr stopping Monroe from dueling Hamilton, but I remember reading a letter that Burr sent to his step son when Monroe was running for president basically saying Monroe was the WORST possible choice and that everything he ever did sucked.

The first thing ever found of a mention from Aaron Burr about James Monroe is that at parties at Valley Forge, James Monroe–who was an aide de camp for general Stirling–the primary duty of Monroe was to “fill his lordship’s tankard.” Stationed together, both Burr and Monroe became two of Theodosia Prevost’s “youthful admirers” (Isenburg 66); Theodosia was ten years Burr’s senior and twelve years Monroe’s. Monroe even wrote letters to Theodosia. The tone of the two men’s letters to the older woman were both echoing the same thoughts. 

Both Monroe and Burr held equally respectable positions in the Continental army–Burr was an aide to both Montgomery and Putnam and Monroe an aide to Lord Stirling. Both sported battle scars. 1776, Monroe received a severe wound during Washington’s raid of Trenton on Christmas day that went close to costing him his life. Burr’s health suffered when he succumbed to heat exhaustion at the Battle of Monmouth. 

During the 1790s, Burr was the “eyes and ears” to Jefferson, Madison and Monroe of the recently rising Democratic-Republican party. Burr ended up a large shareholder of the Pennsylvania Population Company and leader Nicholson relied on Monroe (who was involved) in his land deals. When Aaron Burr greatly lost the presidential election of 1796 to George Clinton (another Democratic-Republican) Monroe cautiously assured him that it was Burr’s youth that was costing him the elections. Though the Virginian had supported George Clinton, he still considered Burr an “attractive possibility”, adding to a letter to Madison, “I should not hesitate to aid Burr in opposition to Adams. If he could succeed, it might have its good effects and could not possibly do any mischief.”

They were both fellow Republican senators and they both made a point of befriending one another. Monroe’s respect for Aaron Burr also stemmed from his admiration of Theodosia and his respect for her. In 1791, Burr encouraged Theodosia to travel from New York to Philadelphia with Monroe, who like Burr, had to commute  if he was going to see his wife (Elizabeth Monroe lived there with her family). Burr, in turn, did favors for the Virginian. After Elizabeth’s father died, Burr represented Monroe and his wife in a case before the New York Chancery that concerned her father’s estate. 

After attacking Gouverneur Morris as ambassador to France, the senator from New York was now under consideration for a possible appointment as the next minister to France. Allies with both Monroe and Madison, it ‘twas them who proposed him for the job, though Monroe did raise concern when he learned that Burr’s old Princeton confidant, Federalist William Paterson, had expressed support for Burr in this instance. In the end, Washington selected Monroe. The two also led a campaign against Jay’s nomination to Europe. With Monroe abroad, Burr assumed a more visible leadership role among Republicans in the Senate. Both Monroe and Burr were in constant communication with one another, Burr forwarded newspapers and gossip, keeping the Virginian updated on the lasted developments on the national political scene. 

The two had strengthened their ties to each to each and  shared any mutual friends especially Albert Gallatin an immigrant rising star in American politics on the Democratic-Republican side. Burr had even suggested that his stepson, John Bartow Prevost, should act as Monroe’s personal secretary in France. Burr also worked closely many of Monroe’s other closest personal friends like Tazewell. Burr was introduced through Monroe to many others including Beckley’s agent James Swam, a Boston merchant who had met the Southerner in Paris and Monroe immediately introduced to Burr.  

Aaron Burr’s relationship with Democratic-Republicans was still growing stronger in 1797 and in June when James Monroe returned from his diplomatic position in France, Burr, in the company of Jefferson and Gallatin, came aboard ship to welcome him home. After his dismissal and ultimate embarrassment at being recalled by George Washington–then president–his political party held two dinners in his honor in Philadelphia and New York; Burr was present at both. 

In 1797, Alexander Hamilton in a fit of anger challenged James Monroe to a duel and Monroe was quick to agree with, “I am ready, get you pistols”. Burr was caught in the thick of it when Monroe asked him to serve as his second. At Hamilton’s confrontation and challenge, John Barker Church brother-in-law to the challenger was present. Burr had never been in a duel until the fall of 1799 when during a duel with Church, he survived when a bullet passed through his coat after the first fire (Hamilton had triggered the event by supplying Church with fake gossip concerning land syndicate purportedly offering a bribe). For whatever reason, while preparing for the second round, Church apologized, ending the duel. 

Burr, not wishing to have a duel of any kind, urged Monroe, “If you and Mulenburgh really believe, as I do, and think you must, that J. is innocent of the charge of any concern in speculation with Reynolds, it is my opinion that it will be an act of magnanimity and justice to say so in a joint certificate. To this, he also added, “Resentment is more dignified when justice is rendered.” Celebrating his reasonableness and generosity, Burr expressed a sensibility in him. To him, a gentleman had to be willing to admit publicly when he had wronged someone else. This was something Monroe and Hamilton alike refused to do (due to the fact that both believed they had done nothing wrong). The Hamilton-Monroe duel died a rather undignified death. From July 1797, when Hamilton appeared on Monroe’s doorstep until December of that year, letters changed hands. Burr refused to deliver several of Monroe’s angry letters, trying to keep it from escalating and was appalled by what he described as the “childish” behavior of both men. 

The challenge took a comical turn when neither men would take responsibility for their actions. This way, both Monroe and Hamilton convinced themselves they had not backed down; but it was a ruse, and everyone knew it. (After Hamilton published the infamous Reynolds Pamphlet, Monroe made Madison read the entire thing to make sure there was nothing insulting about him in it; but by this time Madison had grown tired of Monroe’s quarrel with Hamilton as well). In November, Jefferson and Madison organized a meeting of Republicans in Philadelphia to discuss what could be done. They consulted Burr, who concurred with the party consensus that the Hamilton-Monroe affair should end as quickly and as quietly as possible. The two men never dueled. This would not be the last time that Burr was involved in Hamilton’s “drama”. 

In a letter to Aaron Burr to James Monroe, Burr praised a man he had taken in as a prodigy, Burk. He even asked the Virginian to take the young man under his wing and protect him from any further prosecution after he had been sent to jail from writing in the press. Thomas Jefferson, frequently wrote of Burr to his own prodigy, Monroe. 

Over the many years, after the Democratic-Republicans turned on him and he was thrown from the Vice-Presidency and put on trial for treason, Burr wrote little of James Madison during his presidency though he certainly did not remain silent when he learned that James Monroe was next in line for the “throne”. In a November 1815 letter to his son-in-law, Burr launched into a wordful battle against Monroe, calling the man and his nomination “equally exceptional and odious.” Though Burr had equal hatred at this point for Madison and Jefferson, his real venom was bitten at James Monroe. He called the last president in the Virginian dynasty “naturally dull and stupid–extremely illiterate… indecisive… pusillanimous and of course hypocritical.” He was unsparing in his criticism of Monroe’s military career, observing that he had never “commanded a platoon nor was ever fit to command one.” He said Monroe was a sycophant. As the aide de camp to Lord Stirling who was “regularly drunk from Morning to Morning, Monroe’s whole duty was to fill “his lordship’s tankard and hear with indications of admiration his Lordship’s stories about himself.” This was damning stuff–and Burr was not even close to finishing. As a lawyer, Monroe was “far mediocrity” never rising to the “honor of trying a cause of the value of a hundred pounds.” But Monroe’s elevation, despite his lack of ability, was not anomalous, according to Burr. Rather his was a “character exactly suited to the View of the Virginian Junto,” which maintained itself on sycophancy, instead of recruiting men of “Talent and Independence.”

Burr hoped Andrew Jackson would beat Monroe to the presidency. This was the last account of something written on James Monroe by Aaron Burr. Monroe in his later years, never spoke of Burr, Burr had fallen out of his dialect and words around 1810 and he never spoke of him again. 


↳ prompt: benefits of cynicism

human ideals are a messy distraction to your goals; you are glad to be rid of them.

Into The Mystic 11x11

So I watched the episode on Thursday because I’m British and I live in England and in order to watch it as soon as it airs I’d have to stay up until 2 in the morning (Which is what I regularly do, but waiting an entire day to watch it forces me to go cold turkey with social media sites to avoid spoilers)

And I loved it. I know I’ve been saying that about every episode but each one has something amazing in it that I can’t help but love.

This time it was Eileen, the deaf hunter.

I really like the fact that they had a deaf cast member on the show who SURVIVED AN ENTIRE EPISODE! 


But this is a recap and thoughts on the episode as a whole (If I miss any part, message me.)

It opens with the lovely scene where everyone in the fandom goes “Right, who’s going to die?”

*enter cute baby who was on the trailer*

And then, action begins! Blah blah blah, Banshee, both parents die, horrible backstory for the baby (Which leads her to be a hunter in an effort to hunt down the monster that killed her parents, not like we’ve never seen that before *cough* Krissy, Sam and Dean, and a smattering of others)

And my immediate thought about Eileen’s mother was, “Oooo, a witch!” But I was later proven wrong.

Skip ahead a couple minutes

And Sam is insomniac who can’t sleep and “hasn’t left the bunker in days”, according to Dean. Wow, Lucifer had a bad effect on him, twas to be expected. 



… feeding seagulls. I LOVE IT!

But one thing was pointed out to me after the episode (Thanks @lubilu17 !) Is that Casifer has a different colour suit. He didn’t have the regular black one, he wore a dark blue one. At least that’s what it looked like to me when I rewatched it.

Now, maybe it’s just the way the lights hitting them but they definitely look blue!

Lucifer is gradually changing Cas’s look! I wonder what it will turn out like. Maybe he’ll upgrade to a white suit.

And then Casifer whistling; I can’t help but hearing the Noah’s Ark song:

The animals went in two by two, hurrah! hurrah!
The animals went in two by two, hurrah! hurrah!
The animals went in two by two, the elephant and the kangaroo
And they all went into the ark, for to get out of the rain.

That’s what I hear, correct me if I’m wrong, which I most likely definitely am. You guys have any ideas?

“The things we think we wont miss we end up missing the most.” That line is so going to come back and bite us in the ass.

*Introduces a new angel*

*Kills him in the same way Cas was killed in the season 5 finale!* Well what were you expecting?

“That’s the problem with you rank and file angels, no vision.”

And in true Lucifer style, he tastes the blood.


Skip forward to the Viagra scene

Heh. Dean, what will you use that for?

Then it goes over to Sam and Dean digging up Jake Townsend’s bones to burn.

And I’ve seen many posts about Dean when he stopped digging the grave and left it to Sam, people are putting it down to Amara being Deans Kryptonite,

And It’s weakening him:

  • Get’s tired quickly (The grave scene)
  • Can’t hold an erection (Viagra scene, even though it was improvised. Thank you, Jensen.) 
  • And later on in the Casifer in the bunker scene, which i’ll elaborate when I get to it.

But now, when the episode made me very happy! 

They spoke to Mildred! She’s an epic elderly lady!

They introduced Marlene the cleaning lady AKA: Eileen the hunter

Who is DEAF! I’m glad supernatural has brought in someone who has an impairment. And what makes it even better is that Sam uses sign language.

Well, he used “Thank you.” and he got it wrong, I wonder what he said originally… Hmmm… Anyone know sign language? 

To Casifer in the Bunker

This is where I talk about the other way Dean is becoming weaker.

Dean has a rule that is constantly mentioned and that is “No chick flick moments.” Meaning no touchy feely crap that makes me show my emotions.

Which is the exact opposite of what happens in this scene. It’s like Dean doesn’t care about keeping up his façade anymore and it’s either because he thinks he’s talking to ‘Cas’ and he can trust him or it’s the bond with Amara that’s weakening him.

Amara is Dean’s kyrptonite.

All it takes is the three words from ‘Cas’ and he just stops and empties out everything about how he fears the bond with Amara. 

“It scares me.”

Dean is scared of the power and control that Amara holds over him; he knows, from personal experience, he will never be able to resist Amara or the bond between them. (I’ll make a theory about the bonds affect on Dean and where it could lead soon.)

And what we learnt further from the scene and the fact that Casifer was searching for lore and information on the Darkness, is that Lucifer has no idea how to defeat her.

Last time it was with Gabriel, Michael and Raphael teamed up with God. Now it’s just him. I think that him telling Sam and then Cas that he could defeat the Darkness if it meant them saying “Yes.” was just a ploy for him to get topside again. One of the Devils tricks.

Back over to Sam, Eileen and Mildred.

And having it confirmed that Eileen is a legacy of the Men of Letters! Decended from Edward Dubin II, Eileen’s granfather!

A Woman of Letters! FINALLY!

Then this:


Then closing the Casifer in the bunker scene.

Dean confided in Cas, or who he thought was Cas. And he looks relieved, though a bit wary. He definitely has his suspicions about this not being Cas. 

Just before the Banshee scene 

Mildred and Dean have the sweetest conversation ever, paired with the best line Dean could ever hear and the one line most Destiel shippers (Including myself) Thinks it means Dean is pining for Cas.

But also I don’t think it’s likely…

Anyway, back to the line:

*cough* Follow it to Cas. *cough*

“Your hand is still on my knee.” 

“Well I could move it up.”

Then the Banshee attacks and we find out that Dean is, in fact, the most vulnerable person in a building filled with old folks.

I think it is due to the bond with Amara and it makes him feel raw and open because he cant fight it, or resist it.

He feels vulnerable…



I ship it.

Saileen? Eilam? Either or.

Now it’s all over, the Banshee is dead, Dean is fine more or less and they are leaving to return to the bunker.


Back at the bunker Sam apologises for not searching for Dean when he was in Purgatory. Which is finally addressed since season 8!

And Sam has a box filled with memories, playing cards probably from his magic faze as a child, the wooden samulet from 10x05 FanFiction, cricket ball in a box; probably the same one Bobby and Dean played catch with, family pictures:



and now Oak Park Retirement Living leaflet.

Now Sam is sleeping soundly and Dean is the insomniac due to Amara and him being vulnerable.

And that’s the recap of the entire episode. I may do this weekly, maybe not because it was LONG.

If you got to the end of this, WELL DONE! And I hope you enjoyed it!

Soon to come, a theory on the Amara and Dean bond, the affect and the possible further implications.

Thank you for reading!

okay im rewatching The Scene
  • “i have a rarely large bed if kaylie would like to take that.” scanlan………………………..youre……….just…..
  • im already ready to die.
  • “are you really cockblocking?” LET VEX COCKBLOCK  P L E A S E
  • kaylie smiling bc she knows the night is going to end in a dagger to the heart
  • zed the drummer falling asleep on the table……me too
  • drunk keyleth used to be so cute now its just Concerning
  • a bottle of wine and two glasses
  • “shes gonna rob you blind” SHES GONNA DO WORSE
  • kaylie continuing to smile as shes literally about to try and kill him
  • “ive already heard a bit about your tales, shorthalt.”
  • i wanna hear scanlans music….the cliffs of dagger bay??? sounds sick as shit
  • me too mari
  • “you know ive heard most of these stories…” I HAVE. TO PAUSE.
  • “from my mother sybil” “who?” 
  • ……..WELP
  • *small voice* shes gonna fight me
  • “first of all…”
  • ashley: YIKES
  • “golden hair” KAYLIE HAS SCANLANS HAIR
  • “if youve come to fight me, youre going to be terribly disappointed because im just going to let you kill me if thats what it takes” i love scanlan shorthalt
  • “every year that youve been alive is a year that i could have been a better person”
  • “knowing youre part of me makes me love you even more.”
  • “stab me right here if you like, and i will not resist.” 
  • TWAS FATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TWAS FATE!!!!!!
  • SHE HUGS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • AND STARTS CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • “why? why cant i do it?”
  • “but i think deep down…youre a shorthalt.”
  • “ive known for a while that theres been something missing in my life. some sort of focus, some sort of moral compass, and maybe, just maybe it just arrived at my doorstep?”
  •  “her arms kind of tense for a minute, like an involuntary–just trying to pull you closer.” I LOVE MY DUAGHETR
  • “you’re still a scoundrel.”
  • no one loves scanlan and kaylie shorthalt more than i, dave shorthalt, do

“Dating Start!”

A small Valentine’s gift for @raintalker! She’s one of the sweetest persons I know! Sorry, if I didn’t nail your appreance to a 100%. Well, somehow we’re all camera shy to a degree, ain’t we?

Eh, G!Sans is a bit ooc here, but everything goes on Valentine’s! :-D

Hope, you’ll enjoy this, rainy! ^^