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anonymous asked:

Kurloz, has Kankri ever caught you changing your stitches, and if so, how did he react?

T9 be h9nest, I’ve seen it m9re than 9nce. It usually ends 9ne of tw9 ways. I sit with him in silence until he’s d9ne. 9r…

I kick his 69ny triggering ass!

HE STILL WON’T LET THE SELF INFLICTED TRIGGERS GO… :O(

MSPARP CronKri Sadness.
  • CRONUS: *he was curled in on himself, lying on the ground and staring at the spreading pool of violet.*
  • KANKRI: *Kankri was just walking al9ng 6ef9re he catches sight 9f him, His eyes instantly widen with a gasp and he rushes 9ver t9 him* Cr9nus?!
  • CRONUS: *he took a shaky breath and looked up at him, barely moving his head.*
  • CRONUS: k-kan...?
  • KANKRI: 9h my g9d Cr9nus, Wh9 did this t9 y9u? *he kneels d9wn next t9 him*
  • CRONUS: m-me.. alternate me
  • CRONUS: in a r-rage
  • KANKRI: 9kay, 9kay, um... *he starts t9 panic a little, n9t kn9wing what t9 d9*
  • CRONUS: ... kan...?
  • KANKRI: y-yes?
  • CRONUS: am i dyin' again?
  • KANKRI: I...I d9n't kn9w, I'm n9t sure if that's p9ssi6le, 6-6ut... 9h, please d9n't say that, Cr9nus...
  • CRONUS: *he twitched and reached out for him.*
  • CRONUS: d-don't leavwe me.
  • KANKRI: I w9n't. *he grasped his hand gently* I pr9mise I w9n't.
  • CRONUS: ... i don't vwant to die 'gain.
  • CRONUS: *his voice is childish.*
  • KANKRI: I... *he falls quiet and l99ks d9wn* 9h, Cr9nus...
  • CRONUS: *he sniffed and close his eyes.*
  • CRONUS: i'm s-scared.
  • KANKRI: *he str9ked his hair gently* It's alright... I am t99...
  • CRONUS: kan?
  • CRONUS: talk to me.
  • KANKRI: *he's a little taken a6ack 6y the request* a69ut what?
  • CRONUS: i don... don't c-care.
  • CRONUS: a-anythin'.
  • KANKRI: I d-d9n't... I d9n't kn9w... Um...
  • KANKRI: *his v9ice 6reaks*
  • CRONUS: ... vwhen vwe vwere little.
  • CRONUS: tell me about that.
  • KANKRI: Alright, well... I remem6er 6ack when we were a69ut tw9 sweeps. hah, we f9ught 9ver pretty much everything...
  • CRONUS: heh.
  • KANKRI: Y9u always w9n them, th9ugh.
  • CRONUS: ya.
  • CRONUS: i 'member. *he coughed.*
  • KANKRI: And ar9und my 4th sweep... S9me69dy put a 6unch 9f gum in y9ur hair and Meenah, Kurl9z, P9rrim, and I had t9 w9rk f9r an h9ur t9 get it 9ut...
  • CRONUS: *he laughed, raspy, and cringed a bit.*
  • CRONUS: ah... yeah, *he panted.*
  • CRONUS: i vwas... so mad.
  • KANKRI: And we never f9und 9ut wh9 it was, either...
  • CRONUS: i did.
  • KANKRI: 9h, wh9?
  • CRONUS: it vwas mituna... cause earlier, i'd. *he paused to get a breath.* i'd painted evwerything he owvened royal fuckin' purple.
  • CRONUS: *he lapsed into a coughing fit that should've ben laughter.*
  • KANKRI: *he ru66ed his 6ack, a l99k 9f sympathy 9n his face* 9h...
  • CRONUS: *cronus looked up at him.*
  • CRONUS: keep... keep talkin'.
  • KANKRI: *he n9dded* Remem6er y9ur 9ne wriggling day party? All the guys ran ar9und, chasing the girls with 6ugs, ha. Then we all 6asically slept the rest 9f the day...
  • CRONUS: yah...
  • KANKRI: The 9nly 9ne n9t scared 9f the 6ugs was Meenah. In fact, i think she j9ined us...
  • CRONUS: she did.
  • KANKRI: She w9uld...
  • KANKRI: What are s9me things y9u remem6er?
  • CRONUS: *he accidentally dropped his hand, and grasped for it again, lying in his little pool of violet blood.*
  • CRONUS: i-i
  • CRONUS: vwe... you vwere sitting alone.. one night.
  • CRONUS: an'... shit, vwe vwere like... fivwe.
  • CRONUS: i sat down vwith you and m... did i...
  • CRONUS: no, no.
  • CRONUS: i vweavwed.. a li'le... crowvn of flovwers, cause y' looked so sad sittin'... all alone. an' ya smiled at me.
  • KANKRI: 9h yeah, i remem6er that...
  • CRONUS: *he closed his eyes and smiled himself, just barely, a distant smile.*
  • KANKRI: *he smiled a little, still grasping his hand*
  • CRONUS: i... fuckin' treasured that little smile.
  • CRONUS: 'cause y... stopped smilin'.
  • CRONUS: *he cracked open an eye.*
  • KANKRI: *he l99ked at him, a c9uple 9f tears welling in his eyes*
  • CRONUS: please... don' f'get t' smile. looks so nice.
  • CRONUS: *he squeezed his hand gently.*
  • KANKRI: 9h, Cr9nus... *he's smiling, 6ut a tear runs d9wn his cheek, he wipes it away, as t9 n9t w9rry Cr9nus*
  • CRONUS: *he shook his head.* don'... cry, either.
  • CRONUS: 'sokay.
  • CRONUS: 'sokay.
  • KANKRI: *he wiped his eyes*
  • CRONUS: y' sad?
  • KANKRI: A little. 6ut I'm fine... d9n't w9rry a69ut me.
  • CRONUS: but.. i vwanna vworry about you.
  • KANKRI: Cr9nus...d9n't w9rry a69ut me, really. I sh9uld 6e w9rrying a69ut y9u...
  • CRONUS: kankri vwantas, i am dying. *this is stated firmly, as fact.*
  • KANKRI: C-Cr9nus, d-d9n't... *he can't finish his sentence, his v9ice falters*
  • CRONUS: it is ... a... fact, fuck. *he cringed.*
  • CRONUS: i am bleedin' out, righ' here.
  • CRONUS: you can't vworry cause nothing vworse can possibly happen.
  • KANKRI: N9, I can... I'll... I...
  • CRONUS: you'll vwhat?
  • KANKRI: I d9n't kn9w... it's 9ut 9f my reach n9w, and I just can't...
  • KANKRI: y9u can't...
  • CRONUS: i can't... not.
  • KANKRI: 6ut y9u can't! *he starts t9 cry again* y9u can't, 6ut y9u will... And the fact that theres n9thing I can d9... The fact that it will happen right 6ef9re my eyes... It tears me apart.
  • KANKRI: Y9u're my friend, cr9nus. Y9u're like the 6r9ther I never had, and n9w that I'm l9sing y9u...
  • KANKRI: I'm al9ne.
  • CRONUS: kankri, don't cry... pl'se... don't vwatch me die.
  • KANKRI: 6ut i pr9mised...
  • CRONUS: fuck that.
  • CRONUS: i'm s-scared. but i don't vwant you t' havwe t'...
  • CRONUS: y-you can g-go.
  • KANKRI: n9. N9. I'm n9t leaving y9u.
  • CRONUS: *he closed his eyes.*
  • CRONUS: you can.
  • CRONUS: simple.
  • KANKRI: I can. 6ut i w9n't.
  • KANKRI: It's simple, 6ut it's still a hard ch9ice...
  • KANKRI: And I'm staying.
  • CRONUS: *he smiled, weakly.*
  • KANKRI: This is why y9u're admira6le... Smiling at a time like this...
  • CRONUS: i got my f-frien' b'side me.
  • CRONUS: good 'n-nough.
  • KANKRI: *he wipes his eyes again, 6ut it's n9 use, he keeps crying*
  • CRONUS: *he rasped.* don't cry...
  • CRONUS: y' got such a pretty face, don'... cry...
  • CRONUS: *his breathing is getting progressively slower, and more labored.*
  • KANKRI: *Kankri takes n9te 9f this, and he starts t9 cry m9re* I can't st9p, Cr9nus...I just...
  • KANKRI: ...
  • CRONUS: shh-shh-shh...
  • KANKRI: 6ut...
  • CRONUS: shh... s...
  • CRONUS: *he let go of his hand.* kan.
  • KANKRI: y-yes?
  • CRONUS: *his voice is panicked.* kan- kan, savwe me, i don't vwant to d-die-
  • KANKRI: *his v9ice cracks* I-I can't... I... y9u...I'm s9rry...
  • CRONUS: *he clawed weakly at his throat as if trying to clear it, gasping for air.*
  • KANKRI: *he cl9sed his eyes, n9t wanting t9 see this*
  • CRONUS: *the gasps continued a moment until silence.*
  • KANKRI: *he 9pened 9ne eye* Cr9nus?
  • CRONUS: *there is no response.*
  • KANKRI: CR9NUS?!
  • CRONUS: *he is not breathing.*
  • KANKRI: *S9mething 6r9ke inside 9f him, and he finally 6reaks 9ut crying* I'm s9rry... *he s96s* I c9uldn't save y9u... I'm s9rry...
  • KANKRI: I pr9mise...
  • KANKRI: I'll always smile...
  • KANKRI: I pr9mise...
SadStuck :Conkri
  • CRONUS:*he was curled in on himself, lying on the ground and staring at the spreading pool of violet.*
  • KANKRI:*Kankri was just walking al9ng 6ef9re he catches sight 9f him, His eyes instantly widen with a gasp and he rushes 9ver t9 him* Cr9nus?!
  • CRONUS:*he took a shaky breath and looked up at him, barely moving his head.*
  • CRONUS:k-kan…?
  • KANKRI:9h my g9d Cr9nus, Wh9 did this t9 y9u? *he kneels d9wn next t9 him*
  • CRONUS:m-me.. alternate me
  • CRONUS:in a r-rage
  • KANKRI:9kay, 9kay, um… *he starts t9 panic a little, n9t kn9wing what t9 d9*
  • CRONUS:… kan…?
  • KANKRI:y-yes?
  • CRONUS:am i dyin’ again?
  • KANKRI:I…I d9n’t kn9w, I’m n9t sure if that’s p9ssi6le, 6-6ut… 9h, please d9n’t say that, Cr9nus…
  • CRONUS:*he twitched and reached out for him.*
  • CRONUS:d-don’t leavwe me.
  • KANKRI:I w9n’t. *he grasped his hand gently* I pr9mise I w9n’t.
  • CRONUS:… i don’t vwant to die ‘gain.
  • CRONUS:*his voice is childish.*
  • KANKRI:I… *he falls quiet and l99ks d9wn* 9h, Cr9nus…
  • CRONUS:*he sniffed and close his eyes.*
  • CRONUS:i’m s-scared.
  • KANKRI:*he str9ked his hair gently* It’s alright… I am t99…
  • CRONUS:kan?
  • CRONUS:talk to me.
  • KANKRI:*he’s a little taken a6ack 6y the request* a69ut what?
  • CRONUS:i don… don’t c-care.
  • CRONUS:a-anythin’.
  • KANKRI:I d-d9n’t… I d9n’t kn9w… Um…
  • KANKRI:*his v9ice 6reaks*
  • CRONUS:… vwhen vwe vwere little.
  • CRONUS:tell me about that.
  • KANKRI:Alright, well… I remem6er 6ack when we were a69ut tw9 sweeps. hah, we f9ught 9ver pretty much everything…
  • CRONUS:heh.
  • KANKRI:Y9u always w9n them, th9ugh.
  • CRONUS:ya.
  • CRONUS:i 'member. *he coughed.*
  • KANKRI:And ar9und my 4th sweep… S9me69dy put a 6unch 9f gum in y9ur hair and Meenah, Kurl9z, P9rrim, and I had t9 w9rk f9r an h9ur t9 get it 9ut…
  • CRONUS:*he laughed, raspy, and cringed a bit.*
  • CRONUS:ah… yeah, *he panted.*
  • CRONUS:i vwas… so mad.
  • KANKRI:And we never f9und 9ut wh9 it was, either…
  • CRONUS:i did.
  • KANKRI:9h, wh9?
  • CRONUS:it vwas mituna… cause earlier, i’d. *he paused to get a breath.* i’d painted evwerything he owvened royal fuckin’ purple.
  • CRONUS:*he lapsed into a coughing fit that should’ve ben laughter.*
  • KANKRI:*he ru66ed his 6ack, a l99k 9f sympathy 9n his face* 9h…
  • CRONUS:*cronus looked up at him.*
  • CRONUS:keep… keep talkin’.
  • KANKRI:*he n9dded* Remem6er y9ur 9ne wriggling day party? All the guys ran ar9und, chasing the girls with 6ugs, ha. Then we all 6asically slept the rest 9f the day…
  • CRONUS:yah…
  • KANKRI:The 9nly 9ne n9t scared 9f the 6ugs was Meenah. In fact, i think she j9ined us…
  • CRONUS:she did.
  • KANKRI:She w9uld…
  • KANKRI:What are s9me things y9u remem6er?
  • CRONUS:*he accidentally dropped his hand, and grasped for it again, lying in his little pool of violet blood.*
  • CRONUS:i-i
  • CRONUS:vwe… you vwere sitting alone.. one night.
  • CRONUS:an’… shit, vwe vwere like… fivwe.
  • CRONUS:i sat down vwith you and m… did i…
  • CRONUS:no, no.
  • CRONUS:i vweavwed.. a li'le… crowvn of flovwers, cause y’ looked so sad sittin’… all alone. an’ ya smiled at me.
  • KANKRI:9h yeah, i remem6er that…
  • CRONUS:*he closed his eyes and smiled himself, just barely, a distant smile.*
  • KANKRI:*he smiled a little, still grasping his hand*
  • CRONUS:i… fuckin’ treasured that little smile.
  • CRONUS:'cause y… stopped smilin’.
  • CRONUS:*he cracked open an eye.*
  • KANKRI:*he l99ked at him, a c9uple 9f tears welling in his eyes*
  • CRONUS:please… don’ f'get t’ smile. looks so nice.
  • CRONUS:*he squeezed his hand gently.*
  • KANKRI:9h, Cr9nus… *he’s smiling, 6ut a tear runs d9wn his cheek, he wipes it away, as t9 n9t w9rry Cr9nus*
  • CRONUS:*he shook his head.* don’… cry, either.
  • CRONUS:'sokay.
  • CRONUS:'sokay.
  • KANKRI:*he wiped his eyes*
  • CRONUS:y’ sad?
  • KANKRI:A little. 6ut I’m fine… d9n’t w9rry a69ut me.
  • CRONUS:but.. i vwanna vworry about you.
  • KANKRI:Cr9nus…d9n’t w9rry a69ut me, really. I sh9uld 6e w9rrying a69ut y9u…
  • CRONUS:kankri vwantas, i am dying. *this is stated firmly, as fact.*
  • KANKRI:C-Cr9nus, d-d9n’t… *he can’t finish his sentence, his v9ice falters*
  • CRONUS:it is … a… fact, fuck. *he cringed.*
  • CRONUS:i am bleedin’ out, righ’ here.
  • CRONUS:you can’t vworry cause nothing vworse can possibly happen.
  • KANKRI:N9, I can… I’ll… I…
  • CRONUS:you’ll vwhat?
  • KANKRI:I d9n’t kn9w… it’s 9ut 9f my reach n9w, and I just can’t…
  • KANKRI:y9u can’t…
  • CRONUS:i can’t… not.
  • KANKRI:6ut y9u can’t! *he starts t9 cry again* y9u can’t, 6ut y9u will… And the fact that theres n9thing I can d9… The fact that it will happen right 6ef9re my eyes… It tears me apart.
  • KANKRI:Y9u’re my friend, cr9nus. Y9u’re like the 6r9ther I never had, and n9w that I’m l9sing y9u…
  • KANKRI:I’m al9ne.
  • CRONUS:kankri, don’t cry… pl'se… don’t vwatch me die.
  • KANKRI:6ut i pr9mised…
  • CRONUS:fuck that.
  • CRONUS:i’m s-scared. but i don’t vwant you t’ havwe t’…
  • CRONUS:y-you can g-go.
  • KANKRI:n9. N9. I’m n9t leaving y9u.
  • CRONUS:*he closed his eyes.*
  • CRONUS:you can.
  • CRONUS:simple.
  • KANKRI:I can. 6ut i w9n’t.
  • KANKRI:It’s simple, 6ut it’s still a hard ch9ice…
  • KANKRI:And I’m staying.
  • CRONUS:*he smiled, weakly.*
  • KANKRI:This is why y9u’re admira6le… Smiling at a time like this…
  • CRONUS:i got my f-frien’ b'side me.
  • CRONUS:good 'n-nough.
  • KANKRI:*he wipes his eyes again, 6ut it’s n9 use, he keeps crying*
  • CRONUS:*he rasped.* don’t cry…
  • CRONUS:y’ got such a pretty face, don’… cry…
  • CRONUS:*his breathing is getting progressively slower, and more labored.*
  • KANKRI:*Kankri takes n9te 9f this, and he starts t9 cry m9re* I can’t st9p, Cr9nus…I just…
  • KANKRI:
  • CRONUS:shh-shh-shh…
  • KANKRI:6ut…
  • CRONUS:shh… s…
  • CRONUS:*he let go of his hand.* kan.
  • KANKRI:y-yes?
  • CRONUS:*his voice is panicked.* kan- kan, savwe me, i don’t vwant to d-die-
  • KANKRI:*his v9ice cracks* I-I can’t… I… y9u…I’m s9rry…
  • CRONUS:*he clawed weakly at his throat as if trying to clear it, gasping for air.*
  • KANKRI:*he cl9sed his eyes, n9t wanting t9 see this*
  • CRONUS:*the gasps continued a moment until silence.*
  • KANKRI:*he 9pened 9ne eye* Cr9nus?
  • CRONUS:*there is no response.*
  • KANKRI:CR9NUS?!
  • CRONUS:*he is not breathing.*
  • KANKRI:*S9mething 6r9ke inside 9f him, and he finally 6reaks 9ut crying* I’m s9rry… *he s96s* I c9uldn’t save y9u… I’m s9rry…
  • KANKRI:I pr9mise…
  • KANKRI:I’ll always smile…
  • KANKRI:I pr9mise…

@blcsscd and @mujcna

I feel as if I sh9uld 6e surprised that y9u tw9 are the 9nly 9nes liking the fact that I am free 9f my t9rment. H9wever, y9u can tell that I am n9t 6ecause I did n9t expect any69dy t9 really care that I am 6eing freed fr9m this tyrant’s grip in a few days.

TW9 - Kew Gardens

I know, Kew isn’t  a SW postcode, I have been cheating a little bit here.

It is still part of London though and it is geographically South West - It has to be included into the South London wonders list.

Those victorian greenhouses are something indescribable. The light was just magical.. 

Actual things said by Kankri Vantas in [S] ACT 6 INTERMISSION 3 Part 2
  • To Porrim: D9 I l99k like a wiggler t9 y9u, P9rrim? N9, I d9n't. It's 6een three sweeps, plus eternity, f9r, excuse me, "fuck's" sake. [...] #micr9aggressi9ns #n9 wait #MACR9agressi9ns m9re like
  • To Porrim: P9rrim, please d9n't hit 9n my re699ted kid ancest9r-desendant. It's really weird. N9t t9 menti9n, he l99ks exactly like me? I mean, kind 9f 96vi9usly? S9 when y9u're hitting 9n him, it's like y9u're hitting 9n me at the exact same time, which like I said. It's weird. #It's weird
  • To Porrim: I always preferred t9 lead a relatively chaste existence [...] Alth9ugh staying "relatively" chaste t9 y9u I supp9se is n9t saying much.
  • To Porrim: #TW #Derailment #Train wrecks #Ch99 ch99 catastr9phes
  • To Karkat, regarding Porrim: #Village tw9 wheel device
  • To Porrim: I fail t9 see h9w gender fact9rs int9 the discussi9n in a way that can 6e effectively and rati9nally pr96lematized. Where is the r99m f9r unexamined privilege in the dich9t9my? I d9n't see it.
  • To Porrim: #Fr9wned up9n #Fr9wns all ar9und #Welc9me t9 fr9wn t9wn
  • To Porrim: Sh9uld I g9 fetch y9ur m9irail t9 help settle y9u d9wn? And if s9, wh9 exactly w9uld 6e filling that quadrant t9day? #It's the may9r, right? #G9tta 6e the may9r
  • To Porrim: In the future, I'll thank y9u n9t t9 em6arrass me in fr9nt 9f my new disciples. Friends. I mean friends. #Wait, what did I say? #Definitely meant friends
  • To Porrim: #I mean... #en9rm9us in pr9gressive virtue
  • To Porrim: N9! n9, st9p. D9n't t9uch me, I g9t it! #SEE??? #It's fine [Kankri proceeds to wipe his face with his sleeve]
  • To Porrim: I keep telling y9u, I have n9 interest in 6ef9ran p9ssessi9ns. #9r Alternian #9r Earthly [...] I was perfectly happy with9ut the sweater! T9 6e h9nest, I'm less than thrilled with h9w it 96scures my pant line. #Y9u can't even see my nice 6elt
  • To Meenah: Karkat and I were 9nly a few h9urs fr9m wrapping up 9ur first 9f what I'm presuming will 6e many, many sessi9ns t9geter. #s9 many
  • To Meenah: #Herding all these g9ddamn w99l6easts #Fuckin pain in the ass

Kankri: Ah, Karkat, there y9u are

Kankri: I’ve been meaning t9 have a w9rd with y9u a69ut y9ur little… de6acle with Ms. Cr9cker.

Kankri: N9w, I h9pe that y9u are n9t c9njuring up the idea that I am “ch99sing” a side 6etween the tw9 9f y9u. Despite my 96ligation as y9ur dancestor t9 watch 9ver and chaper9ne y9u and educate y9u, I am n9t 6ringing any s9rt 9f pers9nal 6ias t9 the metaph9rical table. Speaking 9f education, let’s get back 9nt9 the t9pic 9f 9ur current c9nflict.

Kankri: Fr9m what I have witnessed, I can empathize with and c9mprehend y9ur anger, as well as y9ur decisi9n t9 use harsh pr9fanity and triggering language. When Ms. Cr9cker, menti9ned y9ur multiple failures as a leader that caused many 9f y9ur friends t9 die in several different time-lines, as well as the suffering y9u 6r9ught 9nt9 y9ur human friends, I am sure that y9u were, in s9me way, triggered y9urself. Surely, that w9uld spark str9ng and drastic em9ti9ns in m9st tr9lls y9ur age.

Kankri: 6ut we, as the caring, understanding, and s9cially kn9wledgea6le tr9lls that we are, must n9t st99p t9 her level.

Kankri: I always say, if an issue arises that is deemed extremely 9ffensive… Write a very descriptive, meaningful letter. N9thing screams justice like a 6it 9f integrity!