why do i miss the me who was dying ? why do i miss the body that was shutting down ? all that reminds me of is cold and hospitals but still the only validation that ever meant anything . i can’t compete with that, not now i am fleshy and excessive . i’m afraid the only thing that will bring me relief is a body that is dying
I've been skinny my entire life. I have low self esteem, and an eating disorder. You don't know what it's like to be skinny shamed by people that are bigger than you. To be threatened by girls that are 6ft tall and 200-300 lbs. to be told daily, "guys aren't dogs, they like meat not bones". If it weren't for my boyfriend I'd be dead. I'm only 5'3 and 92lbs and deal with this everyday. Please.All I'm asking if for you to be understanding. Btw, I admire your confidence and hope to have it one day.