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Yuuri is fucking amazing

TW: mention of blood/blisters/wounds


Flashback to Episode 4 of YOI. 

If you are like me, this brief shot broke your heart. Here, we see that Yuuri has worked himself so hard that there are blisters/raw spots all over his feet. Have you ever gotten a blister at the back of your feet from perhaps walking too much in tight shoes or socks that were just too short? It’s painful as fuck. It really is. 

I’m a swimmer/lifeguard so I can only assume but can you imagine how painful it must’ve been for Yuuri to continue skating/jumping/spinning WITH GRACE with his feet hurt like that? One blister is enough to make me curse everything. 

Not only that, but upon being more observant, you’ll see that these blisters aren’t just forming, but Yuuri has already broken his skin and his feet is actually BLEEDING.

Yuuri’s socks are damp with blood. A little bit of blood wouldn’t be noticeable on black. It must’ve been a considerable amount for it to discolor the fabric.

Yuuri must’ve been in incredible pain.

Yet look at my boy.

He’s treasuring Victor and their time together. The only thing on his mind is achieving victory, keeping Victor by his side, and improving himself. 

While Yuuri Katsuki definitely experienced an immense amount of physical strain and doubt/uncertainty, he pushes onwards. Victor definitely helped Yuuri but so much of Yuuri’s final success was built upon his own hard work and passion.

Yuuri Katsuki is so amazing, strong, and inspirational.

Let me get one thing straight though… Even if Bucky didn’t have innervation in his arm (aka he couldn’t feel anything other than just pressure, ergo couldn’t feel the arm being blown off) he most definitely felt the searing hot metal that was attached to his fucking shoulder. The metal was glowing red hot where it got blown off. Like if you leave the end of a spoon over an open flame and then grab the other end you still burn the shit out of your hand. So imagine your entire shoulder/biceps is made out of metal and the end of it is so hot that it’s glowing red. You don’t think the skin and bone and muscle it’s attached to wont be burning? Like imagine hot metal touching your bones. Bone pain is literally some of the worst kind of pain you can feel and Bucky had searing hot metal attached to his bones. And beyond that it’s still burning his skin, his ligaments, and his muscles. It’s beyond just burning your hand on a hot object because the metal is integrated into his shoulder. And worst of all he can’t get the thing off. He can’t drop the hot spoon because it’s part of him.

So yeah tell me again that Bucky wasn’t in excruciating pain after that

star-anise  asked:

I challenge you to retell any piece of Jack or Bitty's college years as a series of in-universe RPF callout posts

**whispers** dammit this is clever and I’ve never done a real callout post so let’s see how this goes

*clears throat, we’re now in the land of my UBER SUCESSFUL in-universe rpf blog. My character will be one of an ex-Pimms shipper who’s been jaded by the discourse surrounding Jack’s OD.* 

Here’s a brief coverage of Fall Semester of Year Two: 

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When, exactly, did the Hales die?

Inspired by the discussion on @halekingsourwolf ‘s blog about Teen Wolf timelines, I got kiiiinda into figuring out when exactly the Hale fire might have been set. 

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So yeah, Teen wolf wiki has Deuc being blinded in fall of ‘03, right after Derek turns 15, Jennifer happening in spring of ‘04, and then Kate and the death of the Hales happening in January of ‘05 (referencing the webisode that suggests it went down during the Wolf moon, which was Jan 25 in ‘05, claiming that born wolves have massive reunions/celebrations for that full moon every year, thus explaining why everyone was together), right after Derek turns sixteen… so it would have been just over six years since all that, when S1 starts.

But Peter’s comment is just that Derek was a Sophomore, and 15. While there are always exceptions, most folks I knew in California school systems, if they had a fall birthday, turned fifteen during their Freshman year. So I posit the timeline: Derek is 15 at the beginning of his Sophomore year, ‘03, when He and Paige start up. The shit with Deuc and the alphas and Paige’s death happens that fall, Derek has the shittiest sixteenth birthday, and Kate starts preying on him while he is exceptionally vulnerable that next semester (there’s probably some bullying/blowback/ostracization from his peers to deal with, if only because of his changed behavior, let alone any connections anyone has drawn to Paige’s disappearance and death, not to mention his mother’s distraction with pack politics and hunters, and him having gone from top-of-the-world to fuck-all self-esteem wise… plus, y’know, crushing grief and guilt). Kali attacks Jennifer that spring (2004), Talia is even more preoccupies there, and Kate makes her move sometime before the end of the semester, since Derek and Laura were presumably at a school function/practice/etc instead of home when the fire happened. This also Lets Derek and Laura be two years apart in school if she’s a senior, which I like better. Also lets her graduate (although, what a shit-show that probably was. Holy shit). And then it’s a full seven-years-and-a-summer before they come back and S1 starts (which would make him 23 when we meet him, instead of 22) (or, if you prefer, move all the years up one, duec attacked in 04, jennifer dies in 05, shorter time Derek and Laura were gone… or make Derek younger, make Paige happen his freshman year when he is 14/15, and Kate happen either that spring/summer he’s 15 or during his sophmore year, maybe, at 15/16).

This ignores the webisode/Wolf moon breadcrumb, which attempted to explain why all the Hales were gathered together, but unless it was, like, a lunar eclipse, which it was not, why would they have been inside the house, instead of out running with the moon? I would expect a moon celebration to involve, y’know, being under the moon.

I would argue that there doesn’t need to be a reason that they were gathered, at least, not beyond the fact that there were lots of dangerous things happening in the territory at that time. Maybe it was just a meeting to deal with that. Maybe it was a pretty regular occurrence, during times of strife like that, and so it was predictable. Hell, maybe they were in the house planning something for Laura’s graduation??? This is also suggesting that they didn’t all live there???

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However, if you dig the Lunar Eclipse theory, do you know when there was a lunar eclipse? A total Lunar eclipse? That might explain the Hales gathered together someplace defensible? Like the Alpha’s house? 2004. 2003-2004 feature a tetralogy of full lunar eclipses, two a year, one in spring and one in the fall. On May 4, 2004, there was a total lunar eclipse, but it was not visible in California. And then there was another on October 28, 2004. The October lunar eclipse was visible from all of North America (if any of y’all were into baseball at the time, this is the lunar eclipse that took place during a a world series game, the first time this had happened, and was the world series where the Boston Red Sox won for the first time in 86 years, ending the curse of the bambino. ;) trivia!) . The penumbra started about 5pm in California (if I’ve done my math right), partial started at 6:15, Total at 7:23, and by the time of the greatest eclipse at 8:04, the Hales would already have been dead, since the canonical time-of-fire seems to be about 7PM.

But, if we assume the moon has some effect on you whether you see it or not, then I like the May 2004 moon. Even though it would be on the wrong side of the planet, the penumbral eclipse would start about 10:50am, with the greatest eclipse being at 1:30 PM… and the whole thing is done by 4:09 pm. But what if the goal is not so much having the wolves powerless as together?  Because… I have a theory/headcanon/plot bunny about eclipses.

We know that the wolves lose all their wolfy powers during the short window of the full eclipse… but what about the rest of the time? What weird/new thing happened right after a full eclipse, probably still during the partial or penumbral part?

Scott breaking through an Ash Barrier. (which, I know, isn’t the only time he’s done it, but what if the eclipse stuff helped?) 

So what if the hunters have figured out, and are desperate to never let the wolves know, that during the eclipse, yeah, they’re weaker but also sometimes they’re immune/resistant to weaknesses they normally have?

Were that the case, hunters would want to be very careful going after wolves on lunar eclipses because, if you screw up the timing like Jennifer did, you might wind up missing the “powerless” window and landing in the “pissed off, wolfed out, and mountain ash only works some of the time” window… which, hey, may be where the canonical “rumors” and speculation about wolves getting more powerful on lunar eclipses comes from.

So the October moon might not have been the best one, esp since they didn’t need to weaken the Hales, just get them together.

And on the evening/night of the May moon, the “danger” from their “weakness” would have passed, as far as they knew, they would be feeling safe (and from the hunter’s POV, they would be safely vulnerable to mountain ash once again), but they would likely still be together in the aftermath of a “dangerous” moon, and strategizing over the hunter issues and the alpha pack issues.

They’d feel secure.

And that’s when Kate would strike.

Alright to add to my previous post about rowaelin vs tamlin’s abusive ass:

Do you know what Rowan does when he realizes the extent to which Aelin has suffered in her life? He flies off, to go demand answers from his queen, fucking Maeve, because he’s furious she hid those important details from him. He’s going to question Maeve, his master. Then he realizes that Maeve likely left those details out for a reason, so he flies back, worried that Aelin will think he left her alone intentionally. He moves her into his own room so he can tend to her and care for her himself. He pampers her. This is the exactly what Aelin needs and the perfect response given her character. She loves being pampered and she had expressed previously in HoF the desire for even one person to care for her. Rowan starts to care for her as soon as he realizes that she needs it- was he a dick before hand? yes. absolutely. but as soon as he realizes her pain and how much she needs someone, he quickly becomes utterly devoted to her.

Now Tamlin?? How many times does Tamlin ignore Feyre’s requests to have more independence? How often does she try to ask him for freedom? How much does it take out of her to ask and be denied each time? How long does it take Tamlin to realize that he’s hurting his partner and the woman he claims to love? What does Tamlin do to help Feyre when she is depressed and suffering from PTSD and an eating disorder? Does he care for her? Does he comfort her? Does he do everything in his power to help her? Does he listen to her needs and her wishes? Nope. Nah. He decides to lock her up in the house, doing the one thing, the one obvious fucking thing that someone who spent time locked in a cell under a mountain wouldn’t be able to handle. He does the opposite of caring for Feyre. He does not listen to her cries for help. He systematically perpetrates abuse and emotionally manipulates her. 

Rowan listens as soon as he knows Aelin needs him to care for him. He is there for her, unwaveringly, from that moment onwards. And what’s more, Aelin doesn’t ask him to care for her or stay- he picks up on her need for him instinctually and does what is best for her. Feyre was fucking screaming at Tamlin for him to help her and he did the opposite. 

Finally, Rhysand is completely different from Tamlin as well. Once he has the opportunity to help Feyre- and UtM he was incapable of truly helping her in a way other than indirectly and under the guise of being loyal to Amarantha- he does everything, everything in his power to help her. He answers her plea for help at her wedding. He takes her to Velaris, which essentially functions as a safe house for her as a victim of domestic abuse. He gives her power, and independence and freedom and most importantly: he listens to what she wants. When Feyre gets angry with him, he adjusts his behavior. When she needs space, he gives it to her. 

So don’t try to argue that Rhysand and Rowan are abusive in the way that Tamlin is. Because while both Rhys and Rowan make mistakes and hurt their mates, as soon as they realize the hurt they have caused, and as soon as they are able to help, they do everything in their significant power to heal, care for, and love Feyre and Aelin. 

And that, my friends, is the difference between an abusive relationship (Feylin) and a normal relationship that has its flaws and ups and downs. Listening and respecting your partner is the key.

I had CA: TWS playing in the background at work today, and something caught my attention that I have idly wondered about before, but this time, it was like a great big flashing sign. So much so that I had to go back and replay the scene.

Pierce: The timetable has moved. Our window is limited. Two targets, level six. He already cost me Zola. I want confirmed death in ten hours.

I saw that then I watched the scene on the bridge. Watch the Winter Soldier. He comes in for the attack, and the first person he takes out of the equation is Jasper Sitwell. AKA the man who let the Lumerian Star get captured by pirates. AKA the reason Fury got the intel and had his suspicions raised. AKA the reason that the timetable was moved. AKA the reason they lost Zola.

I always assumed it was Steve and Natasha he was coming after, but no. Steve is Level 8.

Just watch the way TWS attacks. He doesn’t go for Steve or Sam directly. He takes out Sitwell, the easy target, first then aims through the roof of the car at Natasha first. And when the car crashes, he doesn’t go after Steve.

Instead, he fires towards Natasha, and only misses because Steve pushes her out of the line of fire. The blast sends Steve hurtling over the ledge. You would think he would be a priority target after that, but TWS ignores him. Instead, he calmly stalks after Natasha like a predator.

The other HYDRA operatives are firing like mad, shooting at everything, but he just watches for Natasha. He doesn’t fire until he has her in his sites. He only fires three times when she’s still on the bridge, and each shot only just misses her. (Speaking of, I love that the only thing that makes him lose his cool and fire as wildly as the other HYDRA agents, is when she manages to land a hit on him. That’s the one time he doesn’t aim)

When he gets given the machinegun, he also doesn’t waste his ammunition once she’s out of range. He hops over the edge of the bridge and goes after her on foot. The only time he actually bothers himself with fighting Steve is when Steve attacks him.

Also, I think this whole scene really demonstrates the difference between the design of the Winter Soldier as a weapon and the way HYDRA have used him. HYDRA tends to be very much smash in and “KILL THEM ALL WITH FIRE!” style, whereas the Winter Soldier is very much carefully aimed and positioned. Just watch the way he moves when he’s hunting. Or even when he’s firing. He is absolute stillness and quiet, compared to the chaos and destruction of the HYDRA boys. He just walks into a scene, lifts his gun, fires, and just like that, is gone.

let's talk about Bucky’s brain


I dunno if anyone’s done this before but whatever. Specifically, I want to talk about Bucky’s brain in relation to the cannibalized MRI thing they strapped on his noggin in CA:TWS. Like what the hell is that thing, how old is it, what are you trying to do HYDRA, is this one of those weird dryer things you stick your whole head in at the hairdresser’s? They have had 70 years to perfect this technology and it looks like a high schooler’s science fair project. There aren’t even any electrodes. Seriously there should be electrodes not only because they’re kind of necessary for this sort of thing but also because who would object to Bucky Barnes looking totally punk rock with a partially-shaved head? No one, that’s who.

But I guess let’s just assume the plate things themselves are in contact with his head and transmitting the charge themselves. Okay. That’s a big area they cover and approximately zero opportunity for finesse, so they can’t localize the damage at all. And there’s still all that hair in the way. But whatever, I’ll shut up about the hair.

So the plate things are basically concentrated on the prefrontal cortex, which is at the very front of the brain, behind the forehead where the plates are located. I mean there looks like there are plates going around around the back of the head but if it only goes as deep as the cerebrum they don’t want to damage anything back there because it’s all motor skills and balance and sensory perception and language centers, all of which were vital in the Winter Soldier’s functioning. 

So yeah, the prefrontal cortex seems to be what they’re targeting, and the prefrontal cortex is for short term memory and decision making. However, it would be indescribably stupid to damage short term memory retention, so I don’t think they’d just fry the entire prefrontal cortex. Especially if it could compromise his ability to make quick, logical decisions in the field because the prefrontal cortex is important for logic and impulse control. So I would assume that they’re targeting the connections between the short term and long term memory storage systems rather than taking away his short term memory altogether. 

Basically, recalling a memory that’s stored in long-term is just the brain returning it to the short-term memory center, or the working memory, concentrated in the prefrontal cortex. From there your brain literally refires all the neurons that fired during that experience, without compromising awareness of current circumstances. So severing those connections between long and short term memory would not only stop him retaining new memories, it would stop him recalling old ones.

They could be messing with his long term memory, except there are no intracranial bits and bobs that could actually penetrate deeper than the cerebrum without frying everything in between, and the hippocampus and amygdala where long term memory is stored are in there deep. 

This picture doesn’t do justice to how deep in the brain the hippocampus and amygdala are, but it works well enough as a visual aid. You don’t want to damage the amygdala in a super soldier at any rate because that’s where the survival instincts are kicking around. Also, damaging the hippocampus on both sides of the brain would turn him into a potato, unable to retain any information at all, not even how to discharge his weapon, so you’d basically have to retrain him anew for every mission. And this contraption has clearly no finesse at all, as stated above, so I really don’t think they’d be able to destroy anything only partially or make any localized alterations.

And sure, maybe they actually opened up his head at some point in the past to get at long term memory storage, and the cryofreeze might stop that from healing, but I think the understanding of the brain was so ridiculously limited at that time that they didn’t really even know how to avoid excessive damage, and I don’t think they would have risked rendering one of their best assets brain dead. Honestly, I think the most likely thing they did was supplement the physical stuff with more traditional brainwashing and conditioning techniques.

So really, all Bucky needs to do is repair the connections between his long term and short term memory. Even with all this damage, the brain is adaptable even in normal humans. When certain parts are damaged, other parts can take over functioning in their stead. Although in this case, if the connections between long and short term memory were cut every time he went into the cryogenic chamber, he never would have stored any of the information gleaned as the Winter Soldier past the short term unless he managed to catch enough sleep to transfer those memories into long term storage before he got zapped or frozen again. So he would potentially remember everything about being Bucky Barnes fairly quickly, assuming his super soldier healing could repair those pathways or create new ones to compensate, and he would never remember most of his time as the Winter Soldier except what they wanted him to remember and let him encode before they took out those connections again. So basically, his combat training, his obedience training, and all that hydra indoctrination crap.

His old memories as Bucky would remain relatively pristine, because the more we view a memory the more current circumstances during the recollection alter it, and what you remember becomes less and less similar to what you actually experienced at the time. So instead of memories slowly changing and evolving as the person themself changes, which is what normally happens as we revisit memories and subtly alter them over time through new perception, Bucky would have this huge, disorienting, sickening divide between the well-preserved, untouched old memories of how he used to be and any new ones he managed to create as the Winter Soldier. The Winter Soldier memories will be less fleshed out, have more holes, be generally more ghost-like because of how they fucked with his brain and memories, so it would be easy for him to dissociate with them and to ignore them, but in order to ignore them Bucky would also have to ignore their consequences. He would be denying a part of himself. And he wouldn’t be able to deal well with their fallout, with the ways those experiences changed him, because he wouldn’t let himself examine them.

Honestly this is horrifying in its own way. All the fic I’ve read talks about how horrible it must be for the Winter Soldier to forget Bucky Barnes, but very little touches on how horrible it would be for Bucky to be all there and have a stranger in his head that he has few, dissociated memories of, but still retains a lot of that conditioning and finds himself acting like someone he doesn’t even remember being. He would feel betrayed by his own body and his own mind, doing things without knowing why he was doing them. I feel like not being the same Bucky as the one who went off to war would be so frustrating to him. Fics paint it as Steve being frustrated by the fact that Bucky’s no longer the same person, but I think Bucky himself would be far more frustrated by that fact than Steve. I think the fact that he’s not the same would bother him more than Steve’s longing for him to be the same, because he would understand that longing, share it even. I think he would dissociate from the foreign Winter Soldier part of himself, would try to bury it or force it out instead of facing it, would hate whatever memories he did retain from that time, because the Winter Soldier terrifies everyone but I think he would terrify Bucky most of all. And it would make sense, too. After all, the winter soldier was always supposed to be a ghost, the unseen threat, the silent killer, and I think, rather than inhabiting Bucky, the Soldier would haunt him, something he can’t prepare for or fight unless he’s willing to look through the dark to find it and confront it.

(All images blatantly stolen)

anonymous asked:

Hi :) I love your opinions. I would like to ask, what do you think Jackson past was? I mean, he was adopted so we don't know much about it. And there was this one scene in s1 in Hale's house where he say he dream about this house but never was in it. Could he be another Hale? I always thought that, but Colton left before we could learn more. Do you have same teories?

Thank you!! :D

And ok, so I am one hundred percent with you on this theory, anon. This is probably my first ever TW related headcanon actually (which you can read HERE), and I completely believe that Peter’s daughter was created as much as a replacement for Jackson as for Cora.

Jackson dreaming of the Hale fire is a huge hint about him being connected to the family, and while we can try to explain it away as him having been connected to Derek (through the claw marks Derek left in his neck when he was wounded) that doesn’t quite add up because Derek wasn’t in the fire. He wouldn’t have that image of the (inside of the) house up in flames in his mind. But who would have? Who had just spent six years in a coma reliving that moment over and over, tormented to near insanity by the pain of those wounds? Who had just gotten an extreme power boost by becoming an Alpha, and was reaching out psychically to his new beta in ways that could have also easily affected others with a significant connection to him? Like a close blood relation?

There are also significant moments such as Peter’s behavior toward Jackson at various points in the series. In season one a wolfed-out Peter pins Jackson down in the movie rental store, leans in close to sniff at him, and lets him live. In season two Peter –– easily the character to care least about the welfare of others except in occasional sparks of emotion toward Derek and Cora –– goes out of his way to convince Derek not to kill Jackson. It would have been, ostensibly, the easiest move to kill him, but Peter instead talks to Derek about the importance of love, and convinces him to find a humane way to save Jackson. This is huge, honestly, because I can’t for the life of me figure out another reason for Peter to have done that, besides him wanting to protect Jackson. And why would Peter –– selfish in all things except, very occasionally, when his family’s lives are on the line –– want to protect Jackson?

This also suggests that Peter knew about the relation (although I guess it could have been on an unconscious level).

Considering how important the “I’m adopted” arc was in season two –– it was the entire reason Jackson was a kanima in the first place –– I can’t imagine him not striking up a search for his birth family soon after, and I went into season three fully expecting it to be a major arc for him. I was beyond disappointed when all I got was that throwaway line about him moving away. There’s also the fact that  –– prior to “Visionary” (which, I’m sorry, felt like a very sloppy, thrown together episode IMO) –– we had no explanation for why wolves’ eyes were a certain color, aside from an Alpha’s being red. At that point, gold vs blue could have very easily been a genetic thing, and Jackson’s eyes being blue when he was “purified” of the kanima could have been a major hint about his being related to Derek, which they had to rush to explain away differently (see “Visionary”) once Colton left.

In any case, I tend to still headcanon Jackson as being a Hale, even if he never knows it. It would have been very interesting to see how things played out if Colton had decided to stay. 

why this scene is so wonderful

I was looking for metas about this scene, but I couldn’t find anything, so decided to say several words myself.

Firstly, I made one gifset and captioned it as glare of death and people wrote that Bucky looks like he’s about to cry or has already cried. Tbh, I think it’s both. Great thing about this scene, to my mind, is not if he’s feeling anger or pain, but the fact that he’s definetely feeling something here!

As I remember, we only see two moments where Bucky is feeling something. First one is this:

Here, he’s angry af. Before this moment, we see hydra agents shooting wildly, but WS is calm, he casually walks and shoots for like two or three times only. But when Nat breaks his glasses(sorry, don’t know what they’re called), he becomes crazy and starts shooting without aiming properly. He feels anger and frustration.

Second one is a bit of confusion and hesitation:

(not my gif)

Throughout the whole movie, what catches our eyes is how calm ws is. He isn’t running, he never is in a hurry. Of course, he kills people, fights like an assassin, but he is always laid-back and really relaxed.

But in the final scenes, he acts like a crazy. WS’ actions are so brutal. Although he is sent to missions to kill people, I don’t think that winter soldier is allowed to make them personal. I mean that he must finish the missions succesfully, but he must know show his personal attitude towards it.

But here

He slaughters hydra/shield agents in a way that is screams to be really personal to me. He freaking shot that pilot and didn’t even care to throw away the body. He’s just to eager to get to Steve. Yes, it is his mission, but so was that causeway scene and his actions in these situations are so different from each other.

Considering all of these, I believe that in that scene he is not unemotional. WS is about to finish his missions, not only because hydra ordered him, but because Steve makes him feel things that causes him pain and confusion and uncertainity.

Is he angry? Yes. Is he ] eager to kill Steve in the most brutal way? Hell, yes. Is he also feeling pain? He IS! I think that he’s torn between too many emotions and that reflects in his eyes. They are deadly, but at the same time a bit red and look like he’s gonna cry.

To be sure I have to look once again at this moment:

He looks so childish and it feels like he’s suffering. But then:

See how he narrows his eyes for a second? Yes, he’s in misery, but that eye narrowing thing also tells me that WS is also furious and wants to visiously kill his oponent.

P.S. Please, add your thoughts ‘cause I’m so interested in the interpretation of this scene.

The problem I have with the argument that “Tamlin didn’t know the note Feyre sent was really written by her, especially since he didn’t know she could write and read now. He had every reason to think it was suspect” is that it so closely mirrors the type of rhetoric that people use to forgive abusers and reshape narratives of abuse in real life?

I mean it’s pretty simple:

Feyre = domestic abuse victim

Velaris = safe house

Inner Circle (and specifically rhys and mor)= people who help her escape abuse and get to the safe house

I mean, how many times, in real life, do we see domestic abusers angry and upset that their victims have escaped them? How often do those abusers go after their victims? I mean, that’s why the locations of safe houses are secret! That’s why there are entire networks of people devoted to keeping those houses safe and secret (the wards on velaris!!!!) Because abusers will try to prevent victims from leaving. And the reasons they give? “No one loves you like I love you” “I’m whats best for you” “I won’t do it again” “You can’t leave me because if you leave me I’ll do x, and x” 

I mean, abusers, don’t exactly listen to what their victims say.  They don’t listen to what the victim wants. They just…abuse and abuse and don’t really care about the victim’s opinion or wishes.

Fairly often, abusive husbands are angry when their wives and children escape and go to safe houses. They literally….will hunt women down. 

So Tamlin’s reaction to Feyre leaving is…fairly in line with how abusers react in real life. He doesn’t listen to what she wants. It’s fairly clear that Feyre was unhappy…I mean her depression and eating disorder are obvious. She vomits from nightmares every night.  It’s clear that she wasn’t being hurt by Rhysand all those times she went to the Night Court for a week and came back unharmed. She told Tamlin she was okay. She told him she was uninjured. So…Tamlin ignoring Feyre’s note is just another instance of him, an abuser, ignoring his partner’s wishes. It’s not a mistake on his part, nor is it an example of him trying to protect her. 

It’s an example of an abusive man thinking that he knows better than the woman he is abusing. 

Tamlin sends Lucien to HUNT FEYRE DOWN. He literally hunts her…to try and forcibly bring her back to the Spring Court. And yes, Feyre pretends to be all evil so that Lucien won’t know about Velaris but…Tamlin still doesn’t give up hunting her. He allies with Hybern in order to get her back. It’s sick and fucked up.

So I really…do not care that Tamlin might have had reason to think the note wasn’t from Feyre. Because at the end of the day, it’s just more of him being an abusive prick. And the logic of “but he didn’t know if she was okay!” mirrors how people in real life try to frame abuse. We constantly see this narrative in literature (fifty shades!) and real life that the abuser was just trying to do what was best for this victim and “didn’t mean” to hurt her. Okay well…ultimately it does not matter that Tamlin “didn’t know the note was actually from her.” 

Would Tamlin have listened to it even if he had known, unequivocally, that it was from Feyre and represented her wishes?

Nope. Because…he doesn’t listen to her wants and needs even when she’s speaking directly to him. He didn’t allow her any freedom in the Spring Court even though it was killing her. Literally, she was wasting away. He didn’t care then, so why can we assume that he would have listened to the note had he known it was from her? We can’t. So you can’t really make the argument that “Tamlin didn’t know it was from her” because either way…his actions would have been the same.

He’s interesting in controlling and “protecting” Feyre, aka abusing her, he isn’t interested in listening to what she wants. 

The argument that Tamlin didn’t know the note was from her implies that had he known, he would have acted differently. And that’s a false argument given what we know of his direct interactions with Feyre in acomaf (abusive! ignores her wants and needs). And…not only is it a false argument…it’s the type of argument that in real life…would be really detrimental to abusive victims.

So this has been ruminating in my head the last few days, basically since the last KS chapter came out. I was honestly surprised that the hatred and criticisms towards Bum’s grandmother was and is so intense. Some people have said they hope Sangwoo kills her too while others have simply bitched her out for standing by and letting Bum be abused.

So, I’d like to ask, what would you like for this woman to do?

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anonymous asked:

So what are your headcanons on emissaries? Do you think they /need/ to be a druid/spark/magical? If so how do emissaries get paired with packs? No matter how we headcanon the alpha spark getting passed on to the next generation it seems obvious that most packs will continue on through multiple generations, right? So then is the emissary spark getting handed down in a similar way? Or how else does the next emissary get picked? And all this really goes to ask- do you think Claudia was a spark?

Personally, I do think emissaries are supposed to be magical, since I think a huge amount of their connection to their packs and the protection they offer comes from that magic. Of course, I’m sure there can be non-traditional packs out there that use basic human advisors and call them emissaries, and these people could compensate to an extent for their lack of power by just being incredibly well researched and making use of mountain ash/wolfsbane and other magical herbs and items. But they would be at an inherent disadvantage when dealing with proper, magical emissaries and they might not bring the same kind of stability to the pack. We’ve never really seen a real, functioning emissary interacting with their pack so it’s hard to tell how much their magic would be involved in the day to day goings-on, so it’s hard to tell how much the pack would be affected, but I always tend to see the emissary’s spark as a balancing, anchoring presence, beyond them just being an advisor.

(Because honestly, anyone with enough knowledge could be an advisor, and it would probably be safer and easier to entrust a fellow wolf in a lot of cases. Why would emissaries even be a thing if there wasn’t some specific reason for them to be Druids or at least human, you know?)

As for Claudia… she’s always been kind of an enigma to me as a character because we just know so little about her. Basically all we’ve got is that the Sheriff loved her to an almost crippling degree and that she had a hereditary illness that ended up killing her. Really everything else is guesswork, and that makes it hard for me to form an opinion on whether emissary/spark/magic would be hereditary, or whether it would have passed from her.

On the other hand, we do know that Deaton and Morrell were siblings, and were both emissaries (and therefore probably both have sparks). Could be a coincidence, sure, but that would be a pretty big one. So if that’s the case, and if Stiles’ spark was inherited, we’re left with the possibility of it having come from John or Claudia. Sure, the magic could have skipped a generation (or several), or maybe John’s just never had any opportunity or know-how to activate his gift… but I’m going to propose this theory:

Claudia had magic. Claudia never knew she had magic, and never had an opportunity to use it or learn to control it. Claudia’s “disease” was hereditary, just as a magical spark would be. So what if Claudia’s frontotemporal dementia (and whatever family members had it before her) wasn’t what the doctors thought it was? What if it was some effect of the magic building up inside of her for too many years with no outlet, the spark burning brighter and brighter inside of her until she just burned out?

We don’t know anything about Claudia’s side of the family. Maybe her parents died young, before they could teach her (or her parent, like her, didn’t know about their spark and it killed them young). Or maybe they tried to but she turned away from their old world superstitions (after all, she married the Sheriff and he’s a generally down to earth, skeptical person so she might have been as well). And so she didn’t train, she didn’t find any outlet for her magic, and it eventually just burned away who she was from the inside out?

Which is… an incredibly tragic thought, and I hate the idea of Stiles ever realizing that –– training in his magic, studying how to control his spark, and then realizing that same power is what actually took his mother from him. But it’s also a very interesting possibility.

(*Edit: and we also know that magical influences/buildup of excess magical energies in a person – see: demonic possession – can mimic the symptoms of dementia on hospital scans. Not the same situation but still worth noting.)

Nanaba and Gender Tropes

Season 2, episode 29 saw an addition to Nanaba’s death that was not present in the manga. In her dying moments she shouts:

“Father stop! Father I’m sorry I won’t do it again!”

While I did have a passing thought at her first cry of “Father” that perhaps this could be her ACTUAL father transformed into a Titan as we saw with Connie’s mother, as the dialogue continued it became far more apparent to me that this addition may be intended to be a imminent death/excruciating pain induced hallucination. And I stared blankly at the screen in horror.

The horrific use of this exclamation, in my opinion, reinforces negative tropes about gender roles and presentation.

Nanaba is, clearly, not a stereotypical woman even amongst the other women of the Survey Corps. She has a small role in the series, but she is most notable for her strength, determination, and hairstyle. The short cut hairstyle is not common among female characters in this setting. Even Hange, though gender neutral in the manga, still has long hair to assist in masking the character’s biological assignment. Nanaba carries herself with traits that many traditionalists would call “masculine”. She is even Squad Leader of her own unit.

So, I ask, why the FUCK does the “masculine” female character now have to be shoe horned into having an abusive father? Does this bother anyone else? “I won’t do it again” does not fit in this setting contextually. Won’t do what again? Her job? Her position as a soldier protecting her squad from death that she has shown multiple times she’s is whole heartedly dedicated to? She had her leg ripped off and that intense amount of shock and pain triggered a memory to her father. It seems very clear to me that this small addition is implying a flashback to some sort of severe abuse from her father.

A passive statement is being made here: That strong “masculine” women are created that way by abuse. And in the end they will always default to that abused fear state if you beat them enough. This is a reinforcement of a gender trope about women who do not fit into the typical “lady” role. Sorry, but fuck you script writer.

While I enjoyed the rest of this episode (I ACTUALLY kind of liked Ymir, I know, bizarre), the studio has my massive middle finger for the addition of this bullshit line.

(Please note, guys, I’m using “masculine” in quotations in an ironic sense to make the point that reducing her character this way is inherently sexist in my opinion. Just because a woman has strength and leadership qualities does not mean that she is trying to emulate a man or that she is any less “feminine” than she wishes to be.)

iamthefeelsanon  asked:

I have a theory that most people struggle with feeling wanted or with feeling loved. Some struggle with both. I suppose there are those out there who struggle with neither but I haven't met one of those yet. One of the things I find interesting about Derek is I think loved is easier for him than wanted. Yes, he is confident in his sexual appeal but by wanted I mean a place to belong. I feel like he spends the whole series trying to create that and never quite getting it. (1/2)

If you buy the Paige flashbacks then I wonder how much of his desperation and Peter’s ability to use that came from that place of trying to create that feeling. I believe the Hales were a loving family but you can love people and not necessarily belong. How much more painful for a pack member? How much does that open the door for someone like Kate? I dunno. I’m not explaining well. I just have the impression that Derek knew his family loved him but it never felt like he fit with them entirely. I’m not even 100% sure why I think that. Sorry, I should have saved this rambling for when I better understood what I was trying to say.

This is a really interesting idea. It’s not one I would have landed on myself, and if asked straight up which way I thought Derek leaned toward, I probably would have said the opposite (that he knows he’s wanted –– as in, physically wanted –– but not loved). But thinking about this, I can definitely see it.

One of the things that always seemed strange to me, considering fandom’s general acceptance of the Hale family as being a completely wonderful, safe space for Derek, was that in “Visionary” he seemed to be keeping Paige a secret from them. Sneaking around to make out in secret places, only going to Peter with his concerns about their relationship (rather than his parents or siblings). The events of “Visionary” are questionable in general IMO, because they were told from Peter’s point of view and there are already a few pretty huge discrepancies that don’t line up with canon facts (like how young Peter was in the flashbacks), but if we decide to trust what we saw, that does make it seem like Derek might not have felt as accepted and open with his family as fandom generally likes to believe.

Whether he had legitimate concerns (maybe Talia was just closer to Laura, seeing as their personalities were more similar, or the parents focused more on her since she was meant to be the next Alpha) or just personal insecurities, it would be intensely damaging for anyone to feel this way about their family, much less a member of a wolf pack. Cora mentioned in 3A that losing pack was more than losing family; it was like losing a limb. And imagine an already insecure person having the enhanced senses to pick up every disappointed sigh, every flash of frustration when you do something wrong, every muttered conversation between parents you’re not supposed to overhear. Just the regular, everyday things everyone feels that are balanced out by smiles and hugs and moments of pride, but for a lot of people it’s, unfortunately, easier to hold onto negative feedback than the positive ones, so a Derek who was prone toward insecurity could easily bundle up whatever negative reactions he got from his family and hold onto them, thinking that, yeah, he knows they love him –– of course they love him, they’re family –– but do they really like him?

And this is the kind of thing that would undoubtedly just get worse with every loss, every mistake, compounding into a series of awful doubts. After Paige he would wonder what his mom really thought of him (and the rest of the family, if they found out). Which would push him away from his family and toward Kate. After his family’s deaths he would have wondered if Laura liked him (they were family, they were all each other had, obviously she loved him, but how could she LIKE him? He didn’t even like himself.)

And then after Laura, with the way Peter treated him – like he was only wanted, only worth something, if he did what Peter told him to, otherwise he was expendable – and the way Scott treated him (basically wanting nothing to do with him)… and by the time Derek gets to his betas he’s done even trying to make people like him. They need him, he’s their Alpha, and that’s an inevitable kind of bond just like love, isn’t it? It doesn’t matter whether they like him or want him (honestly does anyone ever want him?) because they need him. He’s their Alpha.

And then I wonder if Erica and Boyd deciding to leave shook him to the core, made him rethink this mindset, because 3A Derek was undoubtedly different from s2 Derek: he was making an effort to make people like him again, because he realized that he didn’t have anyone left in his life whose love was unconditional. He was back to having to work for affection (at least, until Cora returned, and that might be the next big shift in his emotional journey).

…Anyway, I’m not sure if I ended up making much sense either and I have to run back to work now, but I can absolutely see the merit in the idea of Derek feeling out of place, feeling unwanted even by an overall loving family, and that driving his actions throughout his life. <3

Whenever I think about the Rey/o discourse, and the whole thing about people being attracted to villains above all, I wonder why, if this is the case, people don’t ship Buttercup with Prince Humperdinck? Because if we go by this logic everyone in The Princess Bride fandom should’ve ditched “boring” Wesley long time ago, and hopped onto the Humperdinck/Buttercup train. Their relationship dynamics are practically the same as with Rey/o.

  • A privileged white guy who has everything, but wants even more.
  • Genocide and random murders of innocents won’t stop him from getting what he wants.
  • Has a torture chamber where he tortures innocent people.
  • Not above abusing and torturing women.

All these bullet points can be applied both to Prince Humperdinck and Ky/o Ren. Yet, I’ve never seen a single H/B shipper. And that movie / book is a fairly popular one, even to this day, even on tumblr. However, for some reason, everyone loves and gushes over the blond blue-eyed “boring” Wesley, who was framed as a heroic protagonist by the narrative - vs. Humperdinck, the main villain of the story… So, where are all the H/B shippers?

Also, speaking of which, Finn gets so much crap from white feminists for “grabbing” Rey’s hand. But I have rarely seen people (including these same white feminists) being disgusted with Wesley’s sexism and very much transparent abusive behavior - for exapmple, a scene from the book:

“I’m very capable of love,” Buttercup said.
“Hold your tongue, I think.”
“I have loved more deeply than a killer like you can possibly imagine.“
He [Wesley] slapped her.
“That is the penalty for lying, Highness. Where I come from, when a woman lies, she is reprimanded.”
“But I spoke the truth, I did, I - “ Buttercup saw his hand rise a second time, so she stopped quickly, fell dead silent.

Sure, they’ve improved that gross scene for the movie adaptation, but Wesley totally does raise his hand to hit Buttercup even there:

How is ^this^ okay by white feminists’ books, but an innocent hand grabbing is seen as some volatile act of sexism and abuse? (A purely rhetorical question, because we all know the answer)

nikexiphos  asked:

What do you think Derek was doing in NYC before the events of S1? Why NYC? Thoughts on the merits of Stiles being a spark/magic versus 100% human? How are all these hunters covering up all their hunting, especially outside the Beacon Hills hellmouth?

Ooh ok, multi-ask. Let’s see…

New York City

I think NYC was probably the ideal place for Derek and Laura to start over after the fire. Imagine them, scared and grieving, fleeing town, wanting to get as far as humanly possible from the memories and the possible threat of hunters. And NYC is just about as far as you can get from Beacon Hills without leaving the country. Sure, you could go north to Maine or something, but you wouldn’t find that kind of big city life there, and small towns and forested regions would be the first place hunters would look. 

They’d want to go somewhere they couldn’t be found easily, somewhere they would blend in, disappear into a crowd. I think Derek would probably crave the isolation of a forest, but I also don’t think he would have been in an emotional state to ask for anything of his own at that point. He knows who set the fire. He thinks he’s responsible. He’s not going to ask anything of Laura after screwing up so badly, and being the reason she has no family anymore. So when she decides on the city, he would more or less bite his tongue and follow her lead. And Laura, meanwhile, would be worrying about her little brother, seeing him closing in on himself, and try to bring him to a place where he’s as far from being isolated as possible. To pull him out of his head a little, find a way to help him heal.

NYC would be a place to start over. I can see Laura going to college there, making friends, dragging a grudging Derek to parties and events. I see Laura as being Derek’s lifeline, the thing that kept him from falling into the brooding, isolated shell we saw in season one (and Derek might not realize it, but focusing on making Derek ok would be what held Laura together too). Derek probably had friends –– in a vague sort of “you’re my sister’s friends and you’re over all the time so I guess we’re friends” way, but not anyone close enough for him to hold onto once he moved back to Beacon Hills. He probably had jobs too, and I can see him in any number of things –– from mechanic to catalogue model. The job doesn’t really matter, but I tend to believe he would have wanted to make his own money, make himself useful, and use as little of his inheritance as possible.

(Ok that got long. I’ll try to make these other ones shorter)

Magic Stiles?

Yes. Yes, I am always pro magic Stiles. That doesn’t mean that I don’t love human!Stiles too. I love him getting out of situations with his wits and his handy baseball bat. But I honestly just feel like… it’s canon that he has magic? Just because the show decided to drop that plot thread, doesn’t mean that we didn’t see Stiles use his “spark” in season two. And I guess we could say that it was just the mountain ash itself working in its magical ways, but it definitely seemed like more than that. It seemed like something more on par with what Jennifer Blake was able to pull off in 3A, edging Stiles toward Druid/emissary territory.

And there’s also the fact that I 100% believe in Hale Pack Emissary Stiles, and that and magic seem to go together.

Hunters

Ok, so I don’t have any particularly solid headcanons about this, except for this throwaway idea I was just discussing last week: what if hunters have some kind of deal with the US government, to handle supernatural issues their own way without getting in trouble for it, in exchange for the government not having to form its own group to deal with supernatural problems. The government looks the other way on suspicious bodies and other hunter-related matters, and the hunters “take care of” the werewolves, wendigos, darachs, and supernatural hot spots for them.

(The only other explanation is that the hunters are just so epically amazing at covering up evidence of the supernatural that the government just doesn’t know about it, which… seems unlikely, if you think about it.)

Thanks for all the awesome questions! <3

anyway on a more capri note have you ever considered how fucked up it is that laurent has been so affected by what the regent did to him that he considers his whole family besides auguste (when we have no evidence that anyone else in his family was like the regent) to be tainted by it? to the point where he’s determined not to have children because he views not just himself but also his blood and family as poisoned and corrupted? how fuckin… fucked up is that.

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but then, why Peter is not a true alpha? He’s always been true to himself. It’s because no matter what he will never hurt one of the Hales (Peter loves his family, in his own way, I will fight anyone who said otherwise) but, maybe, Scott would, if he thinks is right? (sorry for my English, I’m not feeling well right now)

(Your English is fine <3 and hope you feel better!)

While I do believe that Peter cares for his family in his own way –– I believe there’s somewhat of a hierarchy of things Peter cares about, and his family ranks probably… third on that list –– I have to point out that Peter did kill one of the Hales (Laura) in order to gain her power, and also beat up Derek in season one in the hospital, and stabbed a hand (claws) straight through his chest earlier in the season. Peter cares about his family, but not to the extent that he won’t ever hurt them if he sees it as being necessary for some greater purpose (to get revenge/restore the Hale name, and/or to gain power).

As for Peter not being a True Alpha, I think it probably comes down to Peter having more self awareness –– and world awareness, and… well, Peter is honestly one of the cleverest people on the show; despite what anyone might think of him, that’s hard to deny. And, this in mind, Peter is probably perfectly capable of realizing that it’s possible for him to make mistakes. Yes, he acts with conviction, and thinks that what he does is right (as most people do) but I’m sure there are also things in his life he regrets and wishes he could do again and do better. I’m sure, for example, he kicks himself for not having noticed Derek falling for Kate (for someone who prides himself on being clever and observant, that must have been a damaging blow). 

More than that, Peter is a learner, a researcher (he has a lot of core traits in common with Stiles), and I completely see him as the type of person to enjoy sitting down and having debates or philosophical discussions with someone else on his level. If he believes something, you can bet he has a hundred perfectly logical reasons to back it up, but he would also be willing to listen to new information and counterpoints, and adjust his opinions accordingly if given compelling enough evidence. This is where he differs from Scott, who tends to live very much in feeling over fact, making it much harder to convince him of anything or sway him from his beliefs. Even if you give him one hundred perfectly valid counterpoints to his argument, when it comes down to it, Scott is the kind of person who would likely say “ok but… it still feels wrong.” (For example, the Donovan situation in s5: Stiles tries to defend his actions to Scott, but Scott’s rock solid belief that killing is wrong stops him from hearing Stiles. It doesn’t matter the circumstances, doesn’t matter, even, that Stiles was the one who’d done it and shouldn’t that lend some credibility to the actions? It was something that felt wrong to Scott, and Scott has decided is true, and Scott’s “purity of spirit” –– his die-hard conviction in himself and his beliefs above all –– stopped him from absorbing (or even trying to listen to) new information that would have changed most people’s perspectives.

So yes, Peter will do what Peter wants, but Peter is also, interestingly, more open-minded and more willing to change his attitudes and behaviors in light of new information. Scott, believing his convictions are the right convictions and that’s that, could be a True Alpha because he believes purely in himself and what he feels to be right.

Does that make any sense?