Be like the headland against which the waves break and break: it stands firm, until presently the watery tumult around it subsides once more to rest. ‘How unlucky I am, that this should have happened to me!’ By no means; say rather, ‘How lucky I am, that it has left me with no bitterness; unshaken by the present, and undismayed by the future.’ The thing could have happened to anyone, but not everyone would have emerged unembittered. So why put the one down to misfortune, rather than the other to good fortune? Can a man call anything at all a misfortune, if it is not a contravention of his nature; and can it be a contravention of his nature if it is not against that nature’s will? Well, then: you have learnt to know that will. Does this thing which has happened hinder you from being just, magnanimous, temperate, judicious, discreet, truthful, self-respecting, independent, and all else by which a man’s nature comes to its fulfilment? So here is a rule to remember in future, when anything tempts you to feel bitter: not, ‘This is a misfortune,’ but ‘To bear this worthily is good fortune.’
—  Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

even for as good as her time with Finch was, the tumult of the encounter with Lady Eidyia had dredged up the miasma again.

usually she could cope with the miasma–more mutterings of doubt and demeaning, an uptick in nightmares, but she could dismiss those, distract herself, exorcise in color what she could.  none of its shenanigans were entirely pleasant, but she could cope with them.

but in the days after her close call with the Whispering Forest, the miasma started to get bolder, more insistent, more insidious, more difficult to ignore.

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Where shall I find the true colors with which to paint a picture of the public happiness that existed in the midst of this terrible spectacle, to describe the explosion of burning joy that spread and resounded as far as the scaffold itself? His name, accompanied by curses, is in every mouth; they no longer called him the incorruptible, the virtuous Robespierre, the mask has fallen away. They execrate him, they blame him for every crime of both committees [The Committee of General Security and the Committee of Public Safety], they surge forward from the shops, boutiques, and windows. Rooftops are covered with people, thronged by a huge mob of spectators drawn from every class of society, all with only one desire, to see his death.

Instead of sitting on a dictator’s throne, he is half-sitting, half-lying in the tumbrel that also holds his accomplices, Couthon and Hanriot. The noise and tumult that accompanies him is composed of a thousand cries and mutual congratulation. His head is enveloped in dirty bloodstained bandages; only half of his pale, ferocious face is visible. His mutilated, disfigured companions look less like animals than wild beasts caught in a trap. Even the burning sun cannot deter the women from exposing the lilies and roses of their delicate cheeks to its rays; they want to see the executioner of these citizens…

On the scaffold, the executioner, as if spurred by the public’s hatred, roughly tears away the bandage covering his wounds; he [Robespierre] roars like a tiger; his lower jaw snaps off from the upper jaw and blood spurts out, changing this human head into the head of a monster, the most horrible sight imaginable. His two companions, no less hideous in their torn, bloodstained clothing, were the acolytes of this famous criminal, for whose suffering no one can summon a vestige of pity… The crowd surged forward, so as not to miss witnessing the exact second when his head would go beneath the blade, that blade to which he himself had sent so many others. The applause lasted more than fifteen minutes              

Twenty-two heads fell with his.

Sebastian Mercier, Memoirs

anonymous asked:

What do you speculate Hide's real identity could be?

Hey anon, thanks for your question.

Well, I genuinely believe that Hide is a Sunlit Garden child.

We know that Rize managed to escape the Garden when she was but a child and V was hellbent to catch her. I can imagine that it must have caused a huge uproar among the overseeres when they noticed Rize isn’t there. I can imagine that there was a tumult where Hide would have had an easy time to escape. This parallels how Hide rather brilliantly manages to slip away from dangerous situations.

We also know that Hide met Kaneki around elementary school years. While it is never specified (or I just can’t remember it) when Hide attended Kaneki’s elementary school, he was probably there around  2nd grade or onwards, so I strongly assume he must have been older than 7 when he first met Kaneki.

And that could possibly fit with Rize’s age.

Then we have Hide’s talents. Of course, the first question remains, where did he learn such things? From TV? From books? To be honest, I doubt that. This could also fit nicely to the Garden’s training. It does try to produce empowered soldiers, but not everyone is suited as an investigator and Hide never displayed any enhanced physical apabilities, possibly because he just hasn’t them. And as I assume that the Garden determines a child’s purpose at a young age, Hide was probably choosen to focus on stealth, rather than physical prowress (I believe he doesn’t have a kagune himself if he is a half-human). 

Furuta, for example, while being incredibly strong, appears to be chosen for the job as a spy as well. Of course the question remains if it is Rize’s kagune that gave him such great abilities, then that would imply that he was relatively weak(er). Also, instead of combating Rize, he chose to push steal beams on her. Strategically smart, but injuring her via a direct confrontation would have been a possible method as well, which could further thicken the theory that Furuta had possibly no kagune, or wasn’t just physically capabale as Arima, for example (And I am sorry for being off-topic, but I just wanted to establish yet another parallel).

 Also, we have to consider that Hide, even in most precarious situations, is a great liar. I don’t want to imply that he is a pathological liar, because that is certainly not true, but Hide shows next to no uncomfortableness or uneasiness while doing that, just like Furuta. 

Well, then we have his eating and drinking habits. We already know that almost all Garden children are capable of eating regular food, even if there’s certainly a limit to it. From Hide’s bio we could gather that he likes steak, something that is impossible for a ghoul to eat as it consists of animal flesh, which lack RC cells. So I have little doubt that he can eat actual regular food. But then there are things as expressed in my previous posts that he seems to avoid, especially the way he drinks his Cappucino and overall it appears his habits are indeed odd. (and that would indicate that Hide might die young as well - OK, now I don’t want this theory to be true in all honesty)

Lastly Hide bothered to befriend Kaneki and only him over the course of their lives (and as indicated, he chose to be alone rather than making new friends). That stronlgy reminded me of Hairu, who had a life-long obsession with Arima and Furuta, who can’t, after so many years, give up the memories he spent with Rize. Then we have also Arima, and granted, while he has friends like Hirako, Fura and Ui (also people who influenced him on a greater scale and are important), Haise was the one he had the greatest connection with. So to summerize, Garden children seem to have a strong connections to an incredibly limited amount of people.

My other, and absolutely baseless theory for now is that, while he still may be a Garden child, it is actually Kanou who is his father and not a Washuu. 

At some point Kanou was employed in the CCG, and at some point he had to meet Furuta in order to make sense of this whole mess, which leads me to conclude that Kanou must have been employed by V in the past, which could also explain why he is so adamant to destroy it. Maybe they made Kanou subconscioussly stay because he had to take part in those experiments as well, which resulted in creating Hide? If Hide were truly Kanou’s child then I doubt Kanou would genuinely like him as Hide has been (unwillingly) part in a matter that created this imbalance. 

But, like Hide, and which is rather a twisted parallel if we take Hide’s active part in Kaneki’s transformation at face value, Kanou expresses a great connection to Kaneki, although he had Kurona and Nashiro, both who were techinally not failed experiments and Furuta, although we have little knowledge as to what his relationship is truly defined as. 

Shut up and Hug me [Alek&Glinda]

The sheer amount of tumult in Glinda’s brain was enough to practically send her on her ass. First running into a soggy man that looked exactly like Fiyero before he was turned into a scarecrow and then a normal colored woman claiming to be Elphaba within a day… That can’t be a coincidence. Glinda fumbled with the door and finally, once she was able to unlock the loft, practically slammed the door behind her, looking around wildly for any sign that Alek was there. “Alek?”


My summer trip to New York came after two months of a dull and gentle tumult. My uncle, who had been battling with cancer for four years, decided to stop treatment in the beginning of April and died a week and a half later. I was never close to him. We said more words to each other in his last days than we had ever said during all of our family gatherings, trips, and special occasions put together.

Ten days after my uncle’s passing, my neighbour died. For six-and-a-half years I saw Nyonya (a Malay term of endearment for a married Chinese woman) often. Her flat is only a few steps away from mine, at the end of our floor corridor. Her door is always open, and I would see her through her gate, sitting in her wheelchair, smoking by the window. I loved her. We spoke every week about nothing at all. Her wake was seven days long and I could not make myself go.

Incidentally, in the same ten-day period, I made a connection that came to mean a lot to me. It burned bright (felt like fire, but it could’ve been neon—I will never know) and then it burned out, and I couldn’t understand why it had to happen this way.

I was on a plane headed to New York three weeks later, and for the first time, it felt like I was coming home. I was looking forward to seeing people who had become a significant part of my life, to a full week of doing work that I love, and to the show, but my heart was still heavy and I had no idea what to expect. 

Seeing people made me truly happy (SNM peeps, you are <3), and work was fun and fulfilling, but being at the show was difficult. I made a sincere attempt, but could not be fully present. Still, I am grateful for every opportunity I get to be at the hotel. No matter where I find myself outside the show, whether it’s on the shore of a calm sea, or in the eye of a giant tornado, or in a sandbox getting my hair pulled, the McKittrick never changes. It always allows me to just be.

The painting above was inspired by my trip and the events that preceded it. I decided to do it because I was not yet ready to confront these words. It turned out to be a useful start. I’m glad I finally got to get them out, which leads us to: 

#37-#42 Highlights :)

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It Means Tumult official tracklist

(in order of appearance; to be updated as it continues)

Mumford and Sons - “After the Storm”
Mastodon - “Crack the Skye”
Adele - “Rolling in the Deep”
Jack Off Jill - “Strawberry Gashes”
The Sisters of Mercy - “Temple of Love”
Joy Division - “She’s Lost Control”
Imogen Heap - “Hide and Seek”
Imogen Heap - “The Moment I Said It”
Rihanna - “We Found Love”
Mastodon - “Oblivion”
Abney Park - “Too Far to Turn Back”
Radiohead - “Exit Music (for a Film)”
Carmina Burana - “O Fortuna”
Bright Eyes - “Arienette”
Death Cab for Cutie - “I Will Follow You into the Dark”
Nine Inch Nails - “The Perfect Drug”
Depeche Mode - “Shake the Disease”
My Brightest Diamond - “Inside a Boy”
Siouxsie and the Banshees - “Melt!”
Sigur Ros - “(Untitled 1)”
PJ Harvey - “Legs”
The Cure - “Plainsong”
Stone Temple Pilots - “Big Empty”
Fiona Apple - “Limp”
Placebo - “Days Before You Came”
Bauhaus - “She’s in Parties”
Nine Inch Nails - “The Becoming”
PJ Harvey - “One Line”
Kansas - “Dust in the Wind”
Placebo - “Without You I’m Nothing”
Incubus - “Drive”
Tori Amos - “Cloud on My Tongue”
The Misfits - “Dig Up Her Bones”
PJ Harvey - “This Is Love”
David Bowie - “Oh! You Pretty Things”
The Sisters of Mercy - “Marian”
Metallica - “The Memory Remains”
Lorde - “Yellow Flicker Beat”
Beyoncé - “Flawless”
The Sisters of Mercy - “Some Kind of Stranger”
Orgy - “Platinum”
The Sisters of Mercy - “More”
David Bowie - “The Man Who Sold the World”
David Bowie - “Suffragette City”
The Sisters of Mercy - “Under the Gun”
The Cure - “The Same Deep Water as You”
Ani DiFranco - “Willing to Fight”
Hozier - “Work Song”
Arcade Fire - “My Body Is a Cage”
Jack Off Jill - “When I am Queen”
Bauhaus - “Passion of Lovers”
Siouxsie and the Banshees - “Spellbound”
The Dresden Dolls - “Thirty Whacks”
Radiohead - “Everything in Its Right Place”
David Bowie - “Rebel Rebel”
David Bowie - “Let’s Dance”
David Bowie - “Moonage Daydream”
David Bowie - “Changes”
David Bowie - “Golden Years”
Motorhead - “Ace of Spades”
David Bowie - “Seven Years in Tibet”
The Living End - “Prisoner of Society”
Panic! at the Disco - “Victorious”
Talking Heads - “Psycho Killer”
Collective Soul - “Shine”
Bishop Briggs - “River”
PJ Harvey - “Cat on the Wall”
Placebo - “Twenty Years”
Linkin Park - “Papercut”
Tori Amos - ”Little Earthquakes”
Florence + the Machine - “Never Let Me Go”
The Pixies - “Where Is My Mind?”

J'ai pleins de sentiments qui se confrontent, se bousculent. De grands tumultes qui n'arrivent pas à s'exprimer hors de mon être. Des sentiments qui resteront dans mon coeur sans jamais y sortir. Ils restent prisonniers à l'intérieur de mon âme.

C'est sûrement mieux ainsi..