tumblr likes to mess with time

Just one wish. I wish I could have that one wish, a wish to change and erase all the mistakes I’ve made. And trust me I’ve made a lot of them, or don’t trust me, cause I can’t even trust myself at this point. I’ve messed up so many times that I don’t even like talking to people because I’m always expected to talk about myself when I have no clue who I am. I haven’t given up though cause my heart is still beating, my passion is still beating and I have to stop beating myself up for all my mistakes. My one wish instead, is to finally forgive myself.

anonymous asked:

Why do manipulative ass motherfuckers always threaten to kill themselves or have a "breakdown" when they get caught acting a damn monkey? I remember when I first joined tumblr like 7 years ago , there was a dude who got caught scamming people and he got ( rightfully) dragged and he did the same old bullshit. When they gon learn that actions have consequences?

Raging narcissists always find a way to regain control and sympathy once their cover is blown. Me personally, I don’t have time for weak people who try to manipulate situations by claiming depression or suicide especially if they ran their mouth or did some messes up shit. There are people out here who are really depressed and suicidal but here you have these trash bitches that can’t own up to their shit claiming that shit because they want people to forget that they’re trash. That’s not gonna work with me.

Me writing fanfic:
  • Too, many, commas,,, 
  • Is this ooc?? 
  • I used that word already 
  • Do people even blush this much?? 
  • *squints* Is that canon?
  • Tropes
  •  *cries while writing death scene* 
  • Wait what happened last chapter? 
  • I wrote like a thousan- 354 words!? 
  • *googles the lifespan of a tropical fish* 
  • have I spelt his name wrong all this time? 
  • Would they say that tho? 
  • Changes plot 539932 times 
  • Loses inspiration, goes back to tumblr

Let’s go on a road trip.“ I wanted to say, "I’ll pack a toothbrush and you bring the camera.

"Let’s drive to new cities where we’ve never been, and fall in love with the noise. Let’s set up camp at the bottom of a mountain; go hiking until we reach the sun. Let’s fall asleep along the beach and wake up with the ocean at our feet.

"Let’s laugh at the way we get caught in the rain. Let’s kiss under a hundred trees. Let’s wake up at 5am and watch the sunrise, or wake up at 11am and let the sunrise watch us.

I wanted to say, "Let’s fall in love like it’s the first time. Let’s pretend to meet again. Maybe this time we’ll be able to work things out. Maybe this time we won’t mess things up.”

—  Sue Zhao // Road Trip

I finally made some cacti stuff and it was fun : D

I think I realized why I love the ocean so much. Although sometimes it’s calm, there are times where waves are crashing into each other and it’s all a mess… yet people still think those moments are just as beautiful as when it’s still. I want someone to love me when I’m a mess and I’m crashing into myself, not just when everything is going the way it should. I want someone to love me like the ocean.

some seamless tinyDragon patterns for your seamless tinyDragoon patterning needs 

please note that the dragons on the last one are transparent

how to stay productive

i rly srsly have a problem with this especially after school ))): like im always on tumblr or something so i never get anything done rip

so im gonna try to practice what i preach from now on!!! lets get into it!

preparing for productivity

  • when you get home from school or work, give yourself a 20-50 minute break. lets be honest we all have those days when we try to jump right into doing whatever the heck you need to do right when you get home but after like 20 minutes you’re distracted and a mess and not getting any work done. the easy way to prevent this is to give yourself time to do all of that before you start your work so you’re not distracted later (give urself an hour if its been an especially long day). eat a snack, wash ur face tbh, whip your hair, idk what you crazy kids do but do it. srsly. just get it out of the way.
  • get everything ya need in one place. this is kinda a no-brainer especially since it’s all over tumblr. but srsly why get up every 5 minutes to get a pencil or something? just have it all in the first place. ez.
  • turn off your phone or put it in airplane mode. personally i like to pretend like im so determined and focused but every time i see the little t at the top of my phone im just gone. don’t let it distract you. if you need the internet, use your laptop/computer for less distractions.
  • set the mood. idk what you do, whether thats playing the moana soundtrack hanging up fairy lights, putting on your diffuser or playing rap music; idk man! do it.

actually doing the thing

  • alright so now u got ur fairy lights, ur mildliners, ur face washed, and ur apple juice (??? apple juice is lit???). now throw yourself into it. literally just force yourself to do it. don’t know how??? welll!!! not sure how to help you! (no im kidding don’t leave yet pls)
  • use the touch it once rule. this is a favorite of the studyblr community. it means that everything on your to-do list, everything you know you need to accomplish– start it. just tell yourself “i’ll only do 3 math problems” or “i’ll only work on this resume for 5 minutes”. they say the hardest part is always starting. chances are, that unfinished worksheet is going to really bother you and you’ll end up finishing it. if not, then just come back to later and touch it again and again until you finish it. tedious, but it works.
  • use the “two minute rule”. i got this one from @emmastudies! this rule means that if anything on your list takes 2 minutes or less to do (checking your emails, checking your tumblr inbox or something), do it. just get it done.
  • keep it balanced. do like one easy task and then one hard task so you’re getting everything done but not overwhelming yourself either.
  • break down your tasks. don’t just look at a giant task like “write a 3-page paper”. break it down into smaller subtasks like “plan paper. draft paper. edit paper. type and print paper.” its much less scary to look at.
  • visualize procrastination as a monster. i do NOT take credit for this one; i saw it in a masterpost somewhere so this isnt mine!!! but basically i read that you should look at procrastination as a scary opponent ready to eat you alive (and honestly it is). tackle it. don’t let it attack. be so scared of it that you don’t let it get anywhere near you.
  • honestly just do it and keep at it. stop letting procrastination kick your ass so that you can be productive and stay productive. the work is it’s own reward (:
I am lonely again.
Sitting silently,
The breeze hounds at my window
And rattles wooden frames.
There are birds in the rafters
Making a mess of the plums.
Summer fruit spills
Like blood from the ceiling,
In anguish.
Oh, my heart wishes
That this body was a home.
The way it speaks of silence
Says it all.
I watch through my window,
Four years,
The world spins faster
Every time.
I am lonely again
And I can’t seem to shake
The fruitless winter
That has swallowed me whole.
—  poeticallyordinary

Nobody understands Silvy :(

jk, he just likes to do that type of jokes kjsdglfd

Based in a real life conversation/activity I had in a art group. The AfterDeath family was just too perfect for this xD It was something like this:

Geno- A friend, Goth- Me (I drew Mint. My little nightmare), Shino/Sorell- Random people, Raven- Another friend and Silver- Another friend. He just loves Tumblr’s dark humour akjdnlks

I was supposed to finish this yesterday but… I had to study and then I got distracted watching Boku no Hero Academy x’D sorry!

Now credits!

Geno- @loverofpiggies 

Shino- @blue-kohina

Raven- @ask-the-gothfamily

Sorell- @ivywolf777 (This is my first time drawing him. I hope I didn’t messed it up x’d)

Goth/Stick Cat- @nekophy

Silver- Me

HP fandom: Tumblr vs Chumps

How Non-Tumblr Users (aka chumps) See The Houses:

Ravenclaw: That’s the smart house right? The quiet nerds. Smart and pretentious, no one cares about them. Always reading books, and uhhhh Cho and Luna, right?

Slytherin: Evil Death Eaters. Cruel bastards, hope you all choke on Voldemort’s ass. You’re all a bunch of little Draco Malfoy’s, ew worst house. No wonder everyone hates you. Regulus Black who??

Gryffindor: OMG GRYFFINDOR IS FAMMM. Slay that dark evil shit. Best house ever, lol so brave. So glad that irrelevant quiz sorted me into Gryffindor (especially since I made such an effort to pick the corresponding answers lmao) Ya it’s lit

Hufflepuff: The potatoes of the fandom. Pushovers who live in the kitchen. Wear yellow or something…They uhhh they like plants? Oh and poor Cedric Diggory haha yeah.

How Tumblr Users See The Houses:

Ravenclaw: Lives are a disorganized mess, but hey did you know these hundred facts about the marsupials in Australia? Fandom trash, they waste time on Tumblr and Netflix. Haven’t left the house in a month. Less about doing well in school and more about their love for learning. Sarcasm for days and even more wit. ROWENA RAVENCLAW BITCHES, WE HAVE A TOWER TOO, AND WE DEMAND A STORY FOR OURSELVES

Slytherin: Kings and Queens of Tumblr. The evilest they’ve ever been is when they didn’t reblog that picture of a kitten and puppy cuddling. Total Smartasses. Innocent, but don’t let that fool you because they can and will ruin your life. They’re everywhere. Completely annihilated the idea that they’re the “bad” house. If they had a Knut for every aesthetic post, they’d have more dough than Gringotts. Innuendos are their forte. Drarry shippers that will rip your head off. #REGULUSBLACKISAGODDAMNHERO pass it on. Hiss hiss motherf*ckers.

Gryffindor: They’re chill and out there somewhere, but they aren’t the stars of the show. Not many of them on Tumblr, but still part of the HP fam. Scared of spiders and the dark lmao.

Hufflepuff: LISTEN UP BITCH, THIS POTATO WILL /FRY YOU/. Don’t mess with them, because they’ve had enough of your shit. They’re fierce, they’re loyal, and they’re hardworking. They will f*ck you up if you even SUGGEST that they’re lame. Helga accepted everyone left over, because the rest of the founders are assholes. RIP Cedric Diggory and here’s a list of reasons why he deserved more

my smoke,
your trip,
we’re both faded and gone.

while we sit in silence,
it’s like we’re talking to each other.
is your heart beating as fast as mine?

i’m sad,
you’re scared,
this is just a mess.

you see shadows,
i lost mine.
do you see my shadows dancing in the pale moonlight?

i’m alive,
on a high,
living on the soul delusion of time.

you’re here,
next to me,
with a mouth that’s cotton dry.

we’re both dead inside,
living on the reality of love and hurt.
will you still love me even if i’m sober?

Some Cinder in her coronation dress cause I’ve never tried drawing her, and it was so fun honestly!

I’m also addicted to saturated colors so let’s all have in count that the dress is actually silver and it looks purple cause I like messing around lol.

You deserve so much better than her. I hope you realize that. You’re worth more than constant fighting and hating your relationship. I don’t care if you miss her when she’s not around. I miss the old you, the happy you. The one that laughed every time I messed up my words and stayed up late dreaming about his future. You may not be perfect, but you deserve someone who doesn’t only say they love you but acts like it too. I just hope you realize that before it’s too late.

the, aphobes and their ‘ace culture is just jokes about food’ thing is odd because I remember those jokes coming from a time when I couldn’t scroll my dash without also seeing the Pan Puns. stuff like 'no we are not having sex with kitchen equipment’ and someone responds with 'wait we’re not? what are we meant to be doing’. and that beautiful story where someone misheard pansexual as pandasexual and then it dawned on the narrator that they’re a fucking panda furry. anyone still have links to these posts?

and it was also the time when popular trans positivity posts were like 'there should be a service that lets trans men and women swap their boobs’ and there were jokes about ace and aro and bi and nonbinary people all having invisibility as a super power. it was a beautiful time when people could make goofy, positive posts about their genders and sexualities without it being called Cringe, and fucking #mogai culture and other stuff designed to invalidate young queers figuring themselves out

and only aces are being made fun of for this. I don’t get it at all. we were all that embarrassing. early tumblr culture was a mess but I don’t see why we can’t just let people make positivity posts like they used to

This is super random but i just really wanted to share this picture I just found.

This a picture of me when I was about 6 with a giant egg. Now that in itself, is important.
But I got this egg because I drew a picture of a rabbit and coloured it in and I was so proud of it I submitted to this competition, and when I got this GIANT Egg in the post I was so excited that I had WON this egg with my shitty 6 year old artistic talent. I didn’t know it then but looking back thats what made me want to become an artist.

I’m about to go off to University to study Illustration and Animation in Cambridge- and part of me feels like if I hadn’t hadn’t won that egg … I could be doing something completely different. That egg gave me fulfillment … and I will never forget it.
Thank you Egg.

I wrote things about you because you gave me the slightest bit of hope in this world, that despite the hurricane, there’s some good in this life. I wrote things about you because you gave me a little bit of love, or at least what I thought was love, and I wanted so much more. I wrote things about you because I wanted you to be different, I wanted you to give me the love that I gave you, I wanted you to stay…

But like all things in this life, the truth starts unraveling and all of sudden it hits you like a freight train - what was once there might’ve been just your imagination this whole entire time. And you feel foolish, because you gave your all and he gave you nothing.

And so I still write things about you, not because I still love you, but because I remember what it felt like to have someone drown you, scratching at the air just to catch a breath without even laying a finger on you. I remember what it felt like having all this faith in the world, but slowly one by one, physically seeing it start to get smaller and smaller until it’s just a piece of dust sitting in the middle of your palm. I remember what it felt like to see the light in your eyes, what it felt like to hear all those never ending promises, what it felt like to be loved.

And I remember how you left; not a word, not a sound, just footsteps out the door leaving me with a burning throat and cracks in my heart to carry on with.

Yeah I remember all of that. Doesn’t mean I love you, doesn’t mean I still want you. It just means you let me live, and it just means that I know how to survive when people like you come around next time.

—  c.f. // “i don’t love you anymore, but you’ll always carry a piece of me with you”