tumblr disgusts me

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once not long ago
you were here and i was too
please come back
the way you left was really low
after so long, i don’t recognize you
thinking of you the tears really flow
please come back
“do i still need you?” the answer is no
all along i always knew
that i needed to let go
and honestly, i don’t need you
please don’t come back
—  t.w 2017
I Miss You.

Its been over a week since we last talked. It’s killing me. People I know ask about you, about us. And I know this sounds ridiculous, but saying your name feels like acid on my fucking tongue. Seeing that when my phone goes off and it isn’t you, feels like a punch directly into my ribcage. And knowing you’re perfectly okay without my existence in your life is most definitely an unbearable emptiness.
Lately all I do is sleep and talk to my best friend. Aside showering, because that feels like I’m washing you out of my system for a while. Bummer though, when I’m done, you’re still there. You’re in my veins.
I don’t eat a whole lot anymore. I’ve been determined to lose the weight I loathe so much. I’ve actually been exercising, the pain feels good. Because the pain reminds me that I’m still alive. At least that fills the emptiness for a while. But every time the pain subsides and the emptiness settles again, its worse.
This may seem a bit extreme. I know you’ve left me before. But, let me explain.
Two years, 4 months, and 16 days, and I think this is the end. This is where we say goodbye, and this is where we part ways. And that, my love, is the emptiness in my chest. That is the non-existent motivation. That is the acid on my tongue. That. That two years, 4 months, and 16 fucking days, is my sentence of pure misery. Because I am left with the memories. And I know you have them too, but I also know they don’t mean as much to you.
- ( via tea-and-marlboro )

So my Tumblr is just complete Clexa smut at the moment?
… The whole fandom seems to have fallen into a state of hell right now in preparation of the sex scene 😂😂😂😭😭😭

Tumblr disgusts me sometimes. Fuck you super “accepting” people who are actually huge bitches and get off of people’s “mistakes” and opinons that don’t concur with your own. Fuck you for always trying to find something to bash on, and are straight out rude. Fuck you certain popular social justice blogger who verbally spits on the hippie culture for being “racist”, when it is comon knowledge that racism is not on their agenda at all. 

It’s sad how elitist some of you guys are, considering your main source of education comes from other equally blinded bloggers. You expect to be treated like royalty because of the dozens of self diagnosed mental illness’ and your deviant genders and sexualities. When especially concerning the former, no one gives a fuck if you’re ~demisexual, aromantic, bigender~, and then you complain about being oppressed by society when no one provides you with  the special snowflake treatment you believe you deserve.  

Fuck you if you think you’re super individualistic and special and expect people to refer to you as “zir” or whatever the fuck you made up. That isn’t even part of the english language. You are actually inhibiting people who genuinely experience dysphoria and struggle with gender identity, because they’re afraid of coming across as one of you dumb fucktards. Fuck you if you expect others to believe that you’re not a human, grow the fuck up, you’re not a dragon, or a fairy, or an elf. 

Also, fuck your self diagnosing, okay it doesn’t take an expert to tell if you’re depressed or have anxiety, but you guys diagnosing yourselves with autism and schizophrenia, and certain personality disorders? Are you fucking kidding me. Those are incredibly complex and difficult diagnosis’ to make and even profesionals make a lot of mistakes in these areas, so stop pretending that reading the diagnosis criteria on a website is going to make you an instant psychiatrist. 

Please just stop acting like such a flock of downtrodden victims, and being so damn bitter about those who refuse to buy into it. 

The disrespect that people on tumblr are showing for the victims of the Oregon shooting is disgusting. These people were not idiots. They were brave enough to say that they were Christians knowing they would be killed. I pray I would have that courage if I was in their situation. People who know absolutely nothing about the Christian faith are calling the victims stupid, ignorant, idiots etc. Saying that their deaths were meaningless and unimportant. Christianity means putting God above everything including your own life. For these people to show such disrespect just days after the shooting sickens me. I know I shouldn’t be surprised considering this is tumblr, but it still disgusts me.

“But whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 10:33

I dunno whose causing all this dumb NSFW nonsense to tumblr people that they can’t remove they need to stop. It’s not very nice, rude, and inconsiderate to other users.

See this is why a lot of people look to tumblr and think we’re awful, because of jerks doing lame things like this.

EDIT: Well if it wasn’t a hacker why hasn’t tumblr given us the option to remove the bogus posts? That’s a little odd.