Head dipped so low his chin hit his chest, Javik sighed as he lifted a heavy hand lay it on hers. A trill ran up her back and over her crest at the contact. Carefully, Liara manoeuvred her grip to fit around his two fingers, and gave a comforting squeeze.
Already the shape of his melancholy sang alongside her own.
“Pah,” scorned Javik, studiously not meeting her eyes as his fingers curled around hers. “Now I cannot even remember her name!”
By far and large, That Hunts on a Lonely Hill is my favorite piece of Mass Effect fanfiction. There are some close runners up but out of all of them this hits the spot for me like no other. I continue to look forward to watching not only Javik and Liara develop as characters, and as a relationship, but the world that Ninaunn develops around them.
The characters are on point, their issues never undervalued, and the breadth of the galaxy is so very real.
Seriously, read this fic if you haven’t. You won’t regret it.
Someone commented on my Liara/Javik gifset to say they feel Javik is probably the biggest disappointment in Liara’s life. And I had ideas for a meta post about them, because it seems to me like it’s a bit more complicated than that. I’ll argue that Liara is Liara’s biggest disappointment, and those feelings are temporary and won’t last because Liara will come to terms with some things. Same with Javik. It’s just their meeting that makes them both aware of things they don’t like about themselves.
First, I’m thinking about this note from Liara:
“Childish/Romanticize/Dazzled/Dedicate my life to studying”
I can only imagine what it’s like for her because that level of disappointment is so high. She expected someone completely different, instead she gets a soldier who: 1. has only known the Reapers so he has never seen what the protheans are like in a time of peace 2. is a soldier
I mention all this, especially the soldier part, because Javik himself is focused on that:
(The dialogue here is my own transcription) JAVIK: The strong grow stronger by dominating the weak. It is for the greater good of all. Though I do not think your asari approves of my beliefs. SHEPARD: Liara? I think she just had a different idea of what protheans were like. JAVIK: We are all a product of our time. Had I been born in this cycle, perhaps I would be the noble scholar she wishes me to be. SHEPARD: You think you’d like that? It’s a whole different line of work. JAVIK: I wouldn’t know. Living a life of constant war, taking life in every battle… SHEPARD: I see how it could be tough to see outside the box. JAVIK: It is the only box I have known. It shapes me, as stone is shaped by the one who causes it. This stone has no choice in the form it would take. You and I, Commander… War is our sculptor. And we are prisoners to its design.
I find this conversation so enlightening, first because Javik is greatly aware of how he came to think like he does, but he also doesn’t know anything else than war, so he doesn’t know if he could enjoy being a scholar. He has no idea.
The words he chose are also significant: “No choice/Prisoners” And the look on his face:
I honestly see regret, or at least this is the look of someone who knows it’s too late to change, too late to go back. This is what he keeps telling Shepard when he warns them about war. War changes you, and this is the person he has become. And this is the person Liara finds disappointing. It’s a very vicious cycle, that both will eventually break.
Because Liara realizes she did romanticize the Protheans, which is why she’s disappointed with herself. But once she understands Javik is not going to become the “scholar she wishes him to be”, maybe she’ll get the truth out of him, and they could both write a book that shows the good and bad parts of the prothean empire.
If Javik doesn’t touch his shard, he tells Shepard at the end of ME3: “Since my birth, life’s only pursuit has been war. I look forward to seeing what peace looks like.” and “Perhaps I will write a book with the asar- with Dr T'Soni. She suggest "Journeys with the Prothean.” This is so important because: -I will/With/Dr T'Soni: this is no longer Liara just writing about him on her own, and he respects her scientific abilities enough to call her by her title now. -Journeys with the Prothean: how fitting is that title? Because they both went on a journey, Liara had to understand she had misjudged the protheans, she had to understand that as a scientist, she needed to do better. And Javik had to realize he’s “looking forward” to see “what peace looks like”, that there is more to life than just war. Javik, in his goodbye, will thank Shepard "for letting the last voice of the Protheans speak.” Last voice. It cannot be a romanticized version. It has to be a truthful, accurate one.
So yeah. I think that initially, they were both incredibly disappointed, maybe a bit by each other, but mostly by themselves. And it’s only when they accepted the truth, and accepted to move on with a more accurate one, that they stopped being so disappointed (and bitter). Basically, they were forced by their meeting to examine their own feelings, and realize that something in their past was plain wrong. I love the character development there, made possible by their relationship.
So here’s my OTP + Adorable kids. One of them missed the pajama memo and takes after her mom a bit. Can you guess which? khajinah and I named the teal baby a couple months ago, but I can’t remember what on earth it was. It’s written on one of my sketches somewhere.
who cooks normally?: Liara, until they have children. Then Javik learns quickly how picky the kids can be (and once he served them fried Salarian Livers. Kids enjoyed them way too much, although Javik argues that it never happened. There was a report the same day about the Blasto Movies director “disappearing”)
how often do they fight?: Constantly, sometime its about Javik’s influence on the children, Liara refusing Javik to let the kids go Thresher Maw riding, (One of the kids begs to ride Kalros.) The fights aren’t really fights, more just Javik stirring Liara up because she bites.
what do they do when they’re away from each other?: At first, Javik is more then happy, Liara doesnt like it. But the roles swap after they have kids, and then they barely leave each other once the kids are all grown up and trying to conquer the galaxy
nicknames for eachother?: Javik calls Liara “Asari” when he gets angry at her for something.But nicknames are really non existent. Except for “King of the Protheans”, when Liara is being sarcastic
who is more likely to pay for dinner?: Liara, Javik uses the excuse: “After 50,000 years and the fall of my Empire, do you think I have anything on me?
who steals the covers at night?: Javik, King of the Protheans
what would they get each other for gifts?: Liara gets him ancient treasure, replicated things from his past and donuts (Javik loves them.) Javik doesnt know what to get her. He asked her Father once, she was no help. He got her drawing/writing equipment, as a joke. That didnt go down well.
who kissed who first?: Liara
who made the first move?: Shepard. They both agree that it was all Shepard’s fault
who remembers things?: Liara, Javik denies everything. Never says sorry, never does anything wrong
who started the relationship?: Shepard
who cusses more?: Liara
what would they do if the other one was hurt?: Javik usually tell her to get over it, but sometimes, when its genuine he tells her:
“Are you so blind in your infatuation with the commander,” his face merely a few inches away from hers, close enough to pick up her scent on her breath. “That you cannot see I only have eyes for you?!”
okay well you guys know i make second gens of everything
so i guess it’s mass effect’s turn? and ya i was havin fun with those bouncy sprites so i made them a lot oopz
i should put a cut but i wont
firstly: a t'sovik babby
I’ve had her general look rolling around in my head for awhile I guess
I imagine that she’d be just idk. I think that she’s be very smart and knowledgeable, and always know more than she’s letting on and all that. At school, she’s that one girl that everyone’s like, should we be scared of her or what, and then Javik comes to pick her up and he has this deep scary accented voice and hes huge and has so many eyes and all the other little kids are like yes yes if that is her dad then we need to be scared of her
but i also imagine that she could be a little egotistical at times you know because she is basically untouchable in every sense of the word, her ‘auntie’ and 'uncle’ are garrus vakarain and commander jane shepard, and then her mom is the shadow broker, and her dad is the last prothean, and her cousin is urdnot grunt so she probably has the tendency to be cocky and loud-mouthed??? i imagine
but still very well behaved because in the empire an Avatars daughter was expected to be well behaved blah blah
shakarian babby I:
she has a blog
I imagine that she’s kind of more quiet, reserved, and good at following rules (unline her parents haha) Though, once you know her, she is actually very very loud and proud and cocky (she gets it from her dad). shes not very sociable, and id imagine that shes one of those people that seems like theyd be very friendly or whatever, so everyone is always wanting to be their friend, but it turns out that they’re very shy or awkward and its hard for her to make friends? but once she makes a friend its like, a friend for lyfe
she’s smart, but a slow learner, and also a bit gullible.
shakarian babby II:
he found his dad’s rifle collection and thought it was the bomb
he doesn’t know what whispering means, and is generally very loud and silly all the time
he’s not notably smart– he’s a fast learner, but it’s mostly situational and as soon as he doesn’t need the information he drops it (he’s gotta keep space in his head to learn about guns and stuff). though he is good at making up creative insults and comebacks.
he’s very sociable and loves chatting it up with people, and he’s really great at picking out traits and analyzing personalities (he gets it from his mom) and diffusing negative situations between himself and his friends and his family really quickly.
(i messed up on her everything its a really easy fix but im lazy)
her name might be irikah i think that could be cute hahah
she’s this scrawny sassy kid that likes fish a lot and i havent really thought about her a lot haha oops