I Need to Find My Joy.
Writing Supernatural fanfiction used to give me joy. I looked forward to it; I would sit at work and literally itch to write, ideas crowding into my head, begging to get out, sometimes so many I couldn’t keep them straight.
There’s a lot of factors:
- I didn’t like season 12. I’m frustrated with the direction the show is going. Anyone who knows me, knows that when I write SPN, I tend to stick to canon (the exception being Dean and Donna). But even with them, I’m always trying to figure out where my fic might fit in canon. I don’t like where the story has gone and what they’ve done with some of the characters. It’s not motivating me to write.
- Lack of feedback on my work. I know I’m not the only one feeling this. It’s discouraging to write and not get much feedback on it. It’s makes you question why you’re doing it at all.
- My novel didn’t do well. This is a purely selfish reason, but when you finally do something you’ve always dreamed of doing and it flops, well, it’s very frustrating. And discouraging. It has sucked the urge and need to write out of me.
- I feel like I’m running out of ideas. Every time I sit down to write, I find myself saying “I’ve already done this.” I can’t seem to come up with an original idea.
There are other, more personal reasons for my lack of motivation. But what I want you guys to know is that I’m trying, I really am. Be patient. Hopefully, that urge, that need, to get my ideas out of my head will come back.