I don’t think people get what growing up with strict parents can do to you. I am so massively paranoid that my parents will invade my privacy and learn something I do not want them to learn and I will get in huge trouble. When my name is called there is always a moment of fear. I do not get short punishments and they often become permanent. I have my ass handed to me over making a B and told how I am not trying as I am crumbling under stress. I am told to get over my mental illnesses and that honestly it’s ridiculous to be scared of other people and to not be “so self absorbed”. I live in constant fear that I will be cut off from everyone and that I will become so fucking alone and it honestly is not something you should ever do to your child. I don’t get to go out with friends all that much and am to the point I’m scared to ask my parents for anything. It is hell and to be honest when I get freedom again I do not know how I will handle it. I want to live my life now, but I am not able to.