trying to feel beautiful


Decided to stay home and practice make up on my own for the first time. It didn’t turn out as horrible as I thought it would. Yay!

I so desperately need long hair… uuuughh!

Ps: I still hate the fact that I have to shave whenever I wanna feel pretty.

  • My brain thinking about any new BATB retelling: Oh man what if this is the one where they're going to do a twist to the ending or something new and the beast will stay a beast-or a semi beast of sorts?
  • Me: Brain... Look, it's not going to happen let it go-they always do the same thing every single time, you don't need to get your hopes up.
  • Brain: ...
  • Me: Brain. Don't you-
  • Brain: But what if this is the one...
I had a dream last night that I was Megamind

and it was E X C E L L E N T.

It was pre-movie; I was in the middle of an evil plot that was outside the Evil Lair and Roxanne was there (!!!) and tied up, only it was really windy out and she said she hadn’t gotten her hair cut in a while, so it was a little long. 

And it kept blowing in her face, so she finally got annoyed enough with it that she told me to get a pair of bobby pins out of her purse and pin it back for her.


aaaaaaahhhhhhh and I brushed her hair back from her face and I ALMOST DIED OF HAPPINESS, LET ME TELL YOU.

Also, it is INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT to pin someone’s hair for them when you have never had hair of your own, so I was S T R U G G L I N G, but Roxanne thought it was funny and she laughed (!!!)

And I finally got her hair pinned out of her face, and she jokingly asked if she looked funny and I was already pretty flustered so I was like “no no; you look really pretty!”

and she raised her eyebrows at me and said I must rate my skills as a hairdresser pretty high and I started babbling about how she always looked pretty and it was EXCRUCIATINGLY EMBARRASSING OH MY EVIL GODS.

But Roxanne seemed to think that was funny, too, which (!!!! ??? !!!!)

And then Metro Man showed up, only I’d been so busy with Roxanne that I hadn’t actually even set up the evil plot, so I decided to pretend that there…wasn’t an evil plot. And we were still technically on the Evil Lair grounds, and Metro Man isn’t supposed to attack there unless there’s an evil plot happening.

But Metro Man was all suspicious, so I was like “no, really, nothing happening here” only he insisted that Roxanne was there, and barged past me to look for her and I was like ‘shit’, but when we got to where she had been tied up, she wasn’t there.

(she must have escaped while I was gone)

So Metro Man left and I was like “well, this day is a bust, might as well take a nap,” so I went to my bedroom and took off my shirt and lay down on the bed and okay, maybe I wasn’t exactly intending on napping, per se, but luckily I didn’t do much more than think about…that…because 



And I screamed and launched myself off the bed.

When Roxanne finally stopped laughing at that, she told me she’d gotten lost looking for the exit after she escaped, and had hidden in the closet. 

She also added “now you know how it feels when people break into your house and jump out at you, Megamind.”


And she was leaning up against the doorframe of the closet and I was on the floor in front of her, trying to find my shirt so I could put it on, only it was all inside out and I was flustered because Roxanne (!!!) was in my bedroom (!!!) and she was looking at me with this–expression of amused fondness and it was really difficult to try to function with that happening–

She was teasing me about screaming, which she never does, when I woke up.

…and I just realized, typing this out, that she could have easily waited for me to fall asleep before sneaking out to find the exit, but she deliberately came out of the closet while I was still awake, so she must have wanted to–see me–talk to me–interact with me more–


I feel like maybe one of the reasons Noct x Luna doesn’t get more love is because maybe people are at some base level rejecting the idea that the arranged marriage could have played a part in their developing emotions.

From the time they first meet, they love each other, but obviously not in a romantic way. They’re children. He’s 8, she’s 12, they’re *both* children. And it’s the only confirmed face-to-face time we know about them having before the game.

But they love each other so much from that time on. They both admire each other deeply and the other becomes a driving force for them. Noctis wants to fulfill his childhood promises to her. Luna as Oracle wants to support her King on his road.

They both know the other is capable of amazing things. And those abilities awe and inspire them to be an even better version of themselves.

These children are never given the luxury of thinking of things in short-term, either. Everything they do, they have to think of in long term. They have to think of effects down the years. They both mature so quickly in a lot of ways. They’re pragmatic by necessity, and their adoration of each other is the only selfish thing they hold onto. Because it’s safe. Because it can only help them in their duties. Because they are the only ones who can relate on an equal field to each other.

That love and adoration grows through the years. As they further mature, as they take on more and more tasks… They have no time to think of things like romance, they have no time to FIND love.

And then they’re promised to each other.

What a relief that must have been, circumstances aside.

As rulers and as those carrying a specific kind of magic, they need to continue their bloodlines. It’s part of their duty, and they both are bound by and PROUD of their duties.

To know that you’ll be with your best friend… Someone who you admire so completely, someone who makes you feel calm when you think their name, someone you know you can rely on, who knows your weaknesses and who supports you, who completes you, who makes you better….

Oh, what a relief.

And then to know it’s coming, their thoughts can shift. They’re allowed. They have that freedom, it’s been given to them, promised to them as they were promised to each other. And so when they think of each other, they can think of a future together. One where they can actually see each other freely, which they had been unable to do with no freedom in sight.

And feelings change and develop into something more.

Whenever you’re feeling lonely or sad, try going to the loft on a beautiful day and looking outside. Not at the houses and the rooftops, but at the sky. As long as you can look fearlessly at the sky, you’ll know that your pure within and will find happiness once more
—  Anne Frank

3rd floor in Nonhyeon-dong, Thank you~ [BTS- 이사 (Move)]

anonymous asked:

Okay is it just me or is anyone else bothered with the way Ape portrayed Travis' mental illness? From the article you reblogged, it mentioned that Travis is schizophrenic, and in the film it's portrayed as him being overcome by his violent tendencies, but as far as I'm aware, that's actually a huge negative stereotype and most schizophrenics aren't violent at all? Idk, it kinda just rubs me the wrong way, but I'd like to know your thoughts.

It wasn’t just you. I personally had a really negative reaction to the short and thought it was a fairly typical, ableist representation of mental illness, specifically schizophrenia. Travis wasn’t really anything outside of his illness, unlike Max in The Rusted, who was mentally ill but not defined by it (which shows that it’s possible to tackle these subjects in the scope of a short film). I’ll also say that as someone who has a mental illness (depression), there have been many times in my life I’ve been afraid to talk to people about it because I don’t want them to be afraid of me. Society, by default, links mental illness to violence, and I worry that depictions like this are more likely to stifle discourse than to encourage it, especially if it discourages anyone with mental illness from contributing their voice to the discussion.

Now, medical evidence suggests there is an association between violence and schizophrenia, especially in the presence of comorbid substance abuse, but not all people who have schizophrenia are violent (nor are all addicts). In fact, the majority of people with schizophrenia, even those who also have a substance addiction, do not exhibit violent tendencies. And the vast majority of violent acts (including violence against women), have nothing whatsoever to do with schizophrenia. It’s hard to tell, in the span of the short, whether the feature length film would intelligently handle the disease or sensationalize it further. I’d definitely have to watch a feature-length film to make a fully informed opinion about it. I can only speak to how I felt about the representation in the short.   

It looks like most people really enjoyed Ape, and I don’t want to rain on their parades. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, this is just mine, and I don’t judge others for thinking differently than I do. And I’ll continue supporting Josh in his career, too. That hasn’t changed. 

anonymous asked:

I'd be quite interested to hear your thoughts on joss whedon, because I've seen so many conflicting opinions on him, and I've seen people get quite upset about the way he portrays female characters in his work (marvel and black widow esp.) and things he's said. Obviously no one is perfect, as made evidently clear in the 1d fandom. I'd still like your take on Joss Whedon tho, if you're willing to give it. Marvel fandom discourse is pretty intense (but not as viscous as 1d fandom I swear)

Is this ask for real? It’s pretty much my dream question. 

As I suggested in my tags - I am total in the tank Joss Whedon fan. Buffy is a really big part of who I am.  I taped that show off the television starting from Season 2 - and there have been so many times in my life where her big moments: “Why have you got left?” Me!” and “Every girl who can stand up, will stand up.” have been what I needed to hear to do what I need to do. I like Angel, love Firefly, some parts of Dollhouse speak to me on a fundamental level. Cabin in the Woods and Much Ado About Nothing are both fantastic. I think Dr Horrible looks even more true now than it did when it made. The Avengers movie aren’t my thing - but there’s enough him there for him as well. One of the Buffy comics (Issue 5) The Chain - I want read out at my funeral.

The reason that I’m such a fan - fundamentally is his view of both individuals and collectives.  Everything he does is about the fact that we’re stronger together than we are alone, often in really beautiful and complex ways. And he also explores what it means to fight for a better world, really directly.  What it takes out of you and the importance of claiming your identity and your strength.

Plus there’s an episode where Buffy overthrows a demon that rules a hell dimension where people’s lives are sucked out of them by endless work with a hammer and sickle (I always say I like my poetry like I like my Buffy episodes - politically unsubtle).

I have my criticisms - the biggest of which is that he isn’t interested in race so he just ignores it.  Which I think is a more fundamental problem, than even the whiteness of Buffy.  I also have quite micro-criticisms as well - for example about the portrayal of teenage girls sexuality in Buffy (which is quite well developed and therefore too long to go into here - but before Tara came on I was critical of the way Willow wasn’t shown as being attracted to Oz - she only initiated sex when she wanted something else.  It’s one of the reasons that I hate the argument that there was something wrong with Willow self-describing as gay).  There are other things I think were fucked up - but very much about the limitations he was working under (he had to threaten to quit to get a kiss between Willow and Tara on screen, for example).  

But most criticisms of him I disagree with - and quite a lot of them I think are deeply, deeply stupid. 

To go to the most common Marvel criticism - I actually get really upset that people complain about Black Widow describing herself as a monster.  She is a woman describing horrible things that have been done to her, including being sterilised against her will. It’s a really common experience for survivors of abuse - of various sorts to internalise what people have done to them as signs that they are themselves terrible. I have known so many people who have given me versions of that Black Widow speech (and there are bits of me that feel the same way).  I just think it’s so damaging to both good art and good politics - to suggest that it’s a problem that women talk about the way being oppressed affects them - and that’s what that criticism comes down to.

I think a lot of tumblr criticisms of Joss’s works show the uselessness of political and artistic criticism that is simplistic and literal.

But as I started with - his work speaks to me on a really fundamental level - I love his view of humanity - it’s a really important combination of bleak and hopeful (and incidentally I think a lot of it would really resonate with people at the moment - if you haven’t watched Buffy give it a go).


Gazette Gif-a-Day 2016

[3-5/?] To Dazzling Darkness
→Credits to trauma_radio for the translation ☆