I finally saw a psychiatrist. I told her absolutely everything. All my secrets. All of my habits. She prescribed me a mood stabilizer, it’s starts with an L. I forgot what it’s called. I have to wean myself off of lexapro but as many times as I’ve just stopped taking it and dealt with the withdrawal symptoms, my body is pretty used to it. Sadly. She said we can try something new in 3 weeks. Something different, because she agreed with me in the begin when I said that I feel like I have more than just depression and anxiety. We scheduled testing next week for bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. If I end up having neither of them, that’s fine, maybe the mood stabilizer was all I needed. We’ll see.
For MerMay: mudguppy? It would be a freshwater one but so interesting!