Help You in the Moment
Summary: Tom comes back to the reader and his apartment after being told by Harrison that he got a call from the reader crying.
Pairing: Tom Holland x reader (gender neutral)
Requested?: Yes! “19, 41, and 42 with tom holland?” By anon and “1 and 4 with tom holland”
Warnings: crying, sad, mentions of not being worth it.
#19: “it’s ok I’m here.” #41: “there’s no fixing me. Stop trying.” #42: “I just want to hold you like this forever.” #1: “Don’t give up. Don’t give up on yourself.” #4 “Look at me. Just keep looking at me”
Everyone has their good days and bad days. Some people have more good than bad;!others have more bad than good.
Y/N was having what most people call a “bad day”. But if you were to ask Y/N how they describe their day, they’d say it was awful, hands down one of the worst days ever. Bad just didn’t cut it.
Tom was or filming all day and all through yesterday night. He hadn’t come home. Normally that would be ok, but Tom forgot to call because he was extremely busy and never really had the time. Y/N is the master at over thinking things. When they’re vulnerable, being alone with only their thoughts can be harmful.
Today was no exception. They spent all night trying to convince themselves that Tom just forgot to call and he was ok. When they finally believed that, it was in their head that Tom forgot to call because he didn’t really care for them and not because he was busy. Then Y/N began listing all the reasons why they weren’t worth being cared about. And that’s when it started to go downhill.
After hours of crying and screaming and trying to calm down Y/N picked up the phone and dialed the all too familiar number. He picked up after the first ring.
“Hey Y/N what’s up?” He asked.
“Haz I’m fr-freaking our and- and Tom hasn’t c- called and-“ they stuttered.
“Hey hey Y/N it’s okay, it’s alright. Tom is just busy filming and his phone died babe. I’ll talk to him alright?”
Y/N nodded before realizing Harrison couldn’t see them. “Okay,” they said.
“Just try and breath for me babe. Don’t give up. Don’t give up on yourself you can do it. Tom will be home in a little bit.
Harrison hung up the phone.
Breath, they thought. Just breath.
After a little while Tom come bursting through the door. “Y/N? Y/N? Y-“
He was cut off by the sight of Y/N crying on the couch. “I am so so sorry I didn’t call. I should’ve called I’m sorry. It’s ok, I’m here,” he cooed.
They cried into his shirt, “I’m sorry.”
“No don’t be I did this. Look at me, just keep looking at me. I’ll try and fix this it’s ok.”
“No Tom. That’s not how this works. There’s no fixing me. Stop trying.”
Tom was shocked. But he understood. “Well maybe I can’t fix you. I know that what you’re going through is deeper and can’t be fixed with just hugs and kisses. But I want you to know that I’m here for you. And will never stop giving you all the hugs and kisses. Because yeah, I can’t fix you. But I can make you happier than you were before. I can try and get you to smile for a little bit. I can help you in the moment. I just want to hold you like this forever.”
Y/N smiled. Tom was right. They leaned in closer to Tom and that’s where they stayed for the rest of the evening.